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I actually had a burnout in December and it never really cured.
The pressure on top of me is unbelievable, I have the big bosses calling me on a daily basis and asking for studf that takes a week to be done in a hour. Every single day. And when things go well they make snarky remarks and never trust that it's well until someone else from a different department confirms it.
I have to take anxiety medication to be able to cope, I literally cannot stop thinking about my job, even during the weekends. Being 100% because of covid only made things worse because I can't even take a coffee break and laugh around with the idiots in my office.
I am going to quit at the end of March, after I get my bonus. I have been holding since December exclusively because of the bonus. And I have to stay 2 more months after I hand in my resignation letter.

I simply cannot stop being completely terrified of my job, I can't even sleep. Even now that I already decided to quit, I cannot just simply not give a fuck, I don't know what's wrong with me. I "dry vomit" in thr morning waking up because of how afraid I am of logging in and seeing emails and all those idiots on skype trying to slave me and being passive aggressive. I want to murder them.

Even my moyher told me not to give a fuck anymore and just tell them I am having trouble doing the tasks (since I am going to quit anyway) but actually not even trying.

Sometimes I log in and send a few emails.but then I let my pc on sleep and go away to shitpost here because it's a mental blocking. I am doing that right now, I have been "away" for 2 hours.

I am counting every single day until I get my bonus on my account, this is hell for me.

I'm really feeling like uninstalling my broker's app and just holding everything for a few months.
I did this last year to avoid selling on the crash and it worked out great.
And I have been too anxious lookong at my stocks pulling back.
Why shouldn't I do it?

I have been in lockdown since mid-January, and my idiot government is preparing to announce they will extend it until Easter.
It's goong to be a total of 73 days, which is even longer than the one last year (63).
I am already at my limit psychologically. My hair is enormous, I was going to cut it in January and it was already big. I was at peak physical strength, on the brink of breaking all my records and now I have lost it all. I haven't seen any friends or interacted with anyone except my parents and my brother during the weekends. I haven't had sex for 5 years and I am going to be 28 tomorrow and I am desperate not to be alone anymore. The only good thing is that I am making a bit of money on stocks, but my portfolio only started with 10000€ so even if I am now up to 17000€ it's not enough money for me to stop counting my pennies and being afraid of buying a dishwasher.
I thought I had become psychologically healthier (I've been through depression in the past) but I am now fantasizing about killing myself again. I cannot cope with this anymore.

Reposting:
I don't get it, what the fuck is wrong with AMD market orders?
This company is going to destroy its competitors. Even a blind man could see this.
At least my GOOGL is pumping properly.

I don't get it, what the fuck is wrong with AMD market orders?
This company is going to destroy its competitors. Even a blind man could see this.
At least my GOOGL is pumping properly.