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How's your mental health?
not good anon. I've not been myself since the start of this year. I did a x3 since starting in January but I feel nothing. I want more, and everytime I earn more money, I want even more, and not even happy. WTF is wrong with me anons. I fell like I'll hit a million and not be happy knowing there are fuckers who have billions of dollars.
Cloudy with a chance of meatballs
>>28602477i just want enough in staking rewards to pay for a small room but i cant even figure that out. im done worrying about more more more
>>28602317not so good actually, thinking about death on a daily basis, I think my life is fucked mainly because I trusted God to take care of me and he didn't
I need to get these meme stock bags away from me before I shrivel like a prune. I can’t enjoy winning in crypto without GME putting its knee on my neck.It’s all so tiresome
Sold grt at .34, wanna kms
>>28602317not good fren i pee cummed and poopood my pants
>>28602477you need to takea step back and realize nothing is gonna matter 5000000000000000years from now when the solar system is gone and everything is gone and you are gone, so just chill
>>28602477I reached 7 figures this year, i dont think ill be happy until i hit a billion.
>>28602477>>28602593You might find it rewarding to help others. Please share some tips on how you made it. Anything in particular you look for in new coins?
>>28602317Not good fren. I only managed to barely 2x but I still see people doing 10x.
>>28602317Getting a lot better. Started working on it in November and sorted out what in life is truly important to me.Decided that money wasn’t that important so I went balls deep into GRT not caring if I lost it or not. Now I have more money than ever and it doesn’t faze me. Funny how that works.
>>28602593i also dont feel like spending it on anything, my qol is fine and id be missing out on gains.
>>28602590maybe just in 100 years humanity is wiped out by nuclear war, disease X or some astroid
>>28602638no i dont feel happy helping anyone, i only feel happy increasing my hoard.
aAaaAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAH grr GRKKSOOO, a<AAAAAAAAAAAAWERDOAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA
Bad because my art is bad and I see no improvement and I still struggle with all aspects of it. I want no lambos or sluts or anything, only reason I want money is to be able to practice all day everyday without financial concerns and get good, wageslaving is draining me.
>>28602803Don’t they call it being a “starving artist” for a reason? Others are more dedicated than you. You’re chasing riches for other reasons.
>>28602317>>28602477I just started a week ago right before the bump and just 3x, I don't know how to feel either. I worked a hard blue collar job and I pushed through so many hours to make 1 of what I just 3x that in a week. Like I'm beginning to question all the time I spent working what I did as hard as I did. I want to feel happy but I can't
>>28602317I'm delighted right now but when the market corrects itself I'll probably commit suicide
>>28602562>I think my life is fucked mainly because I trusted God to take care of me and he didn'tI don't believe that to be so. I have trusted him and he has delivered every time, I just do not feel adequate in my ability to pay that back. Issue being is that we live in a high frequency, fleeting time, where genuine growth is ignored. Truthfully, he helps me in all circumstances, but most of all in the underlining baseline of my experience with the world.>>28602477"Dragon sickness", if you want to be nerdy about it.>>28602803I feel you. I think in time you may.
>>28602317Not too well, but not too badly either. Got a crippling social anxiety that's had me sheltered inside for years and it's taken its toll on me. Since I've made a lot of money investing over the years, the plan was to force myself out of my comfort zone by traveling a lot in an attempt to fix it. Unfortunately corona cucked me and here I am, still living like a hikki NEET. That said, because I have all this money I'm not really unhappy, just not where I want to be. Hopefully in a couple of years I'll get there.
>>28602317Not good, anon. I've been making good money and am well on my way of 'making it'. I'm not too stupid, not too ugly and quite fit. Yet I feel so depressed because now I want the one thing that can put me in ruins. A woman.
>>28602317Pretty good overall but seeing all these coins that x10 without me is making me bitter. Hindsight is 20/20 I guess. Now I'm just hodling long-term so I don't have to think about this shit all day.
>>28603056>Dragon SicknessLol nice.
>>28602317really bad desu
>>28603095>Now I'm just hodling long-term so I don't have to think about this shit all day.It's really the only way.
>>28602562God takes care of us by testing our faith in him but he also gave us free will and to uphold it is our responsibility to maintain our sustenance.
>>28602803life is hard anon but you xant be a little bitch. i got 2 months to get our of my place becuase faggot landlord is cucked by wine karen wife. she hates me btw . dont kys. if anything keep acoomulating and just hang in there you will achieve that. believe and achieve it will happen. dont give up on your art continue to practice everyday. lay off the weed and alchohol it demotivates you. drink more water and pray if you believe in a higher power. if you dont find something that you can meditate on. stay off reddit too
>>28602317i turned 30 last month and have been in a very dark place ever since.wasted so much of my life doing fuck all, the weight is unbearable
>>28603254Rather, he allows us to test the truth. I think. Takes a lot of love to allow creation itself within us and others. People always meme on about how 'if free will existed why couldn't I just...' Well, they can. They just take it for granted.
>>28602562Why would yahweh help you? You're not one of his chosen (((people)))
Not good, another month of this covid shit and I'm gonna start killing villagers in minecraft
>>28603394That's a seriously small brained post. Genuinely go back to /pol/.
>>28602317been stressed recently but am avoidant with my feelings so i dont really feel it except my heart and being breathless all the time >inb4 covid - i have to get tested twice every week and dont have it (apparently?)increasingly becoming complacent and lazy, as well as irrationally angry... finding it increasingly difficult to listen to people or care about what they are talking about, last year i was planning on killing myself on my birthday this year, but thats next week and now im not so sure, probably stick it out another year sort of dealdont really know what im doing or where im going, cant motivate myself to study anymore even though i find it really interesting, used to happily go for long walks everyday and now i go outside for 20 mins and i cant be fucked with it, get pissed off at my dog and gf all the timefuck sake bros im so incompetent at expressing how i feel and dealing with my emotions irl so i just feel slowly crushed other than that pretty good, made some free money so far this year, going to make myself a birthday cake which im looking forward to>coffee chocolate caramel peanut butter cake for those interested, will post the recipe and pics after ive made it if anyone gives a fuck
>>28603366>he allows us to test the truthYou're right, that is a better way to put it. I agree though, many do take it for granted.
>>28603353I felt that way when I turned 30. I spent a lot of my 20s as basically homeless, insane, poor, and drunk. And on 4chan. Now I’m on my shit.
motherfuckers pissing me off...
>>28603517ITS ALL ABOUT THE HE SAID SHE SAID BULLSHIT
>>28602584>not good fren i pee cummed and poopood my pants
>>28602590yeah thats all well and good but it hardly helps with the bullshit of everyday lifei mean the anon youre replying to sounds like theyre on their way to making it, i am currently a poorfag so i guess thats why i feel like thatbut ye, existentialism pisses me off >be chill bro nothing mattersuh-huh gathered that time and time ago, doesnt mean i dont feel like shit, doesnt mean i am happy with my life and the opportunities i have
>>28603428Imagine how I feel living in the worst country possible in Europoor.We don't know how to handle COVID, we're copying the rich countries and adding a few weeks just for caution.I want life to go back to normal FUCK FUUUUCKKKK
>>28602317who is this and how did you find out where I live??
I think I'm losing it. I have to stop spending so much time looking at charts. Yesterday I woke up in the middle of the night and in my sleep asked my gf if she ever used Uniswap and if she did that she should claim her uniswap and 1inch airdrops. She doesn't know what uniswap or anything like that is and had no idea what I was talking about. Also keep having dreams where I'm checking blockfolio and am having trouble falling asleep.
>>28602562>Believes in godKYS
>>28603509glad to hear things are going well for you brother. what forced your change?
>>28602579same bro, I would have had 50k dollars if I didn't. sucks
>>28603582just imagine that pepe, thats all you got to do
My Investments are down & I miss her
>>28602761based
>>28603696I would have been a millionaire lol
You know what, it's nice to see things going up but you gotta be realistic, shits gonna dip every now and then. I wish I hadn't sold my doge yesterday, I feel like a bit of a tit for that but otherwise I'm weathering the storm.
>>28603073Most nicest people you'll find are at death metal concerts - for whenever Covid ends.
>>28602903Not really, no one starves in the civilized world, Its easy to be dedicated when you don't have to account for your own sustenance. Thing is I'm my own safety net, I have no family or no one else to count on, I got savings but they wouldn't last for 5 years, so I'm the textbook definition of don't quit your day job.>>28603056Thank you.>>28603296I understand the situation, had to move plenty of times on similar circumstances. I don't want to kill myself, I have never smoked weed and I don't go to reddit. I do practice everyday but I have started to consume more alcohol recently however so I really should stop that, thank you as well.
>>28603776that sucks even more than my fuckup lolthanks
It's okay. I feel sensory death from a year indoors. Even lost the desire to coooom.
Not good frens, lost half my portfolio because of scam coins. I even could have sold the top of them for great profits, but got too greedy. Was doing almost 10x on HOGE and still thinking it could go higher.
>>28603754Good news is, she doesn't.Keep going, harder better faster stronger, ride the honks
>>28603467Start with something small, very small, and make sure you do it every single day. Then build. >coffee chocolate caramel peanut butter cake for those interestedHappy birthday, Anon. Sounds lovely!
>>28603588What country u in?
pretty shit. i cant organise my thoughts - can't think clearly about anything. cant bring myself to do anything.
I pumped and dumped NOK and actually made moneyI have strong divvy stonks for a cheapie I have a long term planCan't complain.
>>28602317I'm really emotionally torqued over the last year. So many ups and downs and right now I'm totally frenzied over my money.
>>28603754she's ugly as fuck bro, have some respect
>>28603582on that note tho here is a story my girlfriend once told me>once upon a time, there was a little puppy who loved sausages>one day, the puppy, going about its morning routine of sausage feasting>but upon arriving in the kitchen, there's a sausage, unusually sat upright, with a small microphone in its hand, looking directly at the dog as it entered the doorway>the sausage asked the puppywhy do you eat us so?>the puppy looked at the sausage, salivatingwhy sausage! you must understand, you were born to die! you were born to be my food>the sausage smirked, and then sniggered, before chuckling, and finally, chortling>the sausage saideat me then, you fool!>and the dog pounced upon the sausage>only to later die of gastric inflation i fucked up the ending, but anyway, i thought it was a good story at the time>>28603698also yeah that does actually help, i do that with the smug pepe when i get really angry and it genuinely helps, so ill start doing it with the chill pepe too thanks :)
>>28602317Not good. Crypto fucked up my view of the world. >why should i go outside when i need to be trading the 1m chart>why do i need to get a job when i can hold spot btc
>>28602317>lifts getting better>do well with my hobbies>my YT and BitChute channels doing well>investments increasing>have dreams about finding a loving wife and having children frequently enough for it to serve as a constant drag on my mornings>wake up with the feeling of a stone drill slowly boring its way through my heart>just keep pushing forward
>>28603467You will be alright anon, bad times will pass and the good will come back.Happy birthday and please post that recipe, sounds like a pretty good cake fren
Pretty bad. What's getting me down is mostly effects of lockdown and having my life absolutely cucked by it. I spend like 22h a day in my flat, it's not doing me any favours. >Hobbies stopped, gym closed, everything except grocery stores closed, can't meet people indoors>No exercise for a year; I'm out of shape though normal bodyweight>No social life for a year (I never had much of that anyway)>Working remotely most of the time, which is very inefficient for me and has really fucked me over>Since the bullrun crypto has gotten a lot less comfy and a lot more stressful againThe work bit would be okay except my "work" is actually doing a PhD, so I'm on a timer that's been counting down all along even though my productivity has taken a massive hit. Really brings in another level of shittiness. On the other hand, I've got a net worth of 200k outside of crypto, 90k in crypto and I'll hopefully soon have a PhD so there's hope for the future, especially if I motivate myself to exercise again.
>>28604190What's your channel about?
>>28604126If you're smart you do this shit until you get decent money, and then you chill when your shit is mostly tied up in good investments.
>>28603974ye its good advice, ill follow it shortly and chip away at some work i need to do sitting infront of the chans and following crypto all day hasnt really helped of late eitherand thanks :) ye cooking chills me out, that be my advice to anons here- cooking is a great rewarding thing to get into, especially once spring hits and you can grow veg and herbs and stuff
>>28602317I'm tired, but I've cashed out $500K and waiting for my $1.5M to turn into $3M.j..j...just a 2x.AAVE, baby.
>>28604094Nigger your girlfriend is fucking retarded and I fear you might be as well.
>>28603850Interesting. Last concert I went to was kinda depressing. Went alone to a Porcupine Tree concert, opened by Katatonia. Music and show was great, but never exchanged a single word with anyone.Music is still a huge passion of mine though, so I'll keep that in mind and maybe try a death metal concert at some point. Used to like the genre when I was a teenager and can still enjoy it to this day, so it could be fun even if I don't manage to get to know anyone in the process.
>>28603438Imagine having such an unearned sense of superiority because you believe, without cause, in ancient jewish fairy tales. It would be funny if there weren't so many brain dead golems like you.
>>28604235I narrate neo-reactionary works that have not yet been converted into audiobook format, along with some spicy stuff on my BitChute channel like a first-hand account of what happened on the front line January 6th. I'll throw you the link if you're interested.
>>28602317All I ask is for a gf
>>28604257>sitting infront of the chans and following crypto all day hasnt really helped of late eitherYes I have been feeling this. I often meditate every day, or used to before this year. But honestly, this market is corrosive. However you want to take that. I think we all need to take a time out now and then. Nobody works well burnt out, right?>ye cooking chills me out, that be my advice to anons here- cooking is a great rewarding thing to get into, especially once spring hits and you can grow veg and herbs and stuffI want to start with that soon. What do you suggest I go with first to build confidence (and is also tasty)?
>>28604210cheers anon, and to all other anons in this thread, actually helps :) I will post the recipe i promise, but i havent totally worked it out yet, but i will!
>>28604390I am genuinely interested, yes. I would like that. >neo-reactionary worksThat takes me back a few years, anon!
>constantly doubt myself, feel like a fucking moron, at the same time I've had edgy power fantasies for over a decade>no sense of accomplishment from anything>always speed through everything to get it over with as quickly as possible, although this has seriously fucked me over several times>can't stick to anything for more than a week or two>no real curiosity or interest in anything, only read books and buy coins because I'm told by others that they will be good>additionally trapped in the past, keep fantasising about proving myself to people from high school/uni who I will never see again, still worry about what they think of meWhat the fuck do I do?
>>28604450https://www.bitchute.com/channel/SZBNIf35fEzO/I am uploading chapter 8 as we speak.
>>28604467You need to disconnect from your virtual world and addiction to instant gratification. I would try monk mode for a day, then work your way up to a week. Set goals with regards to not touching electronics or anything that gives you a hit of dopamine.
>>28604382You make nice assumptions all day to cope, I see. It must be difficult to see the world when you want to look at a corner. Much more to God than "ancient jewish fairy tales", my man. Try thinking along lines that aren't what you're seething over personally. >>28604491Thank you. I will check it out!
>>28602317pretty alright. movin up in life even though most people are getting wrecked by fake flu.
>>28604219Yagmi anon
>>28604467I think you need to grow your humility, and place yourself in an environment which is slower, and deliberate. Unironically go for a walk in nature without your phone.
>>28604393When you get one you will realise its not all its cut out to beFocus on yourself anon
>>28604584>you make lots of assumptions>follows that up with an assumption>[reddit spacing]>more assumptions>[reddit spacing]What a truly worthless post
>>28602477I havnt even made it to 7 figures and already feeling like 2-3 million isnt enough. Human nature is fucked anon. Once i hit 2-5 million i will force myself to put into stable investments and step away and find a hobby or something
>>28604413good herbs to start with are lavender and rosemary, theyre very hardy, frost resistant and can tolerate a bit of abuse (over watering) or neglect (drought) - plus putting the dried herb in your pillow is nice to fall asleep tofor veg, its got to be the root veggies like parsnips, carrots, potatoes, they all grow well in similar conditions and times, and now is a good time to plantfor cooking, japanese is a great intro, simplicity is inherently built into a lot of japanese culture around food, maki is great for knife skills and its very calming, once things are off the heat you can really go at whatever pace you wantfermentation is also great, and really good for you! kimchi and sauerkraut are both super easy to make, and sterility is not as scary as it seems, if youre wary just buy some cheap wine sterilizer powder and wash your jars out before handthe best thing for me about cooking and gardening is that you can really just experiment and see what works, its very chill and naturally you build up a very tangible knowledge and skill over time
I feel like shit. My mood swings are getting worse and I every two days I wake up feeling stressed and sad,then the next day I feel more outgoing. I get suicidal ideation sometimes, but thankfully not to the point like last year when I seriously tried killing myself.Life is actually not so bad, I have a stable job, I'm chatting up a girl who seems to be into me for some reason (don't know what she sees in me, I like her but I try not to get too attached because I've been rejected too many times), and my investments into shitcoins are paying off and I have 3x my initial investment. Regardless, my mental health is shit.
>>28603904always take profit at 2x
I tried magic mushrooms last year, and I went through the most painful 5 hours of my life, which felt like 20 hours, where all the pent up emotions and frustrations for the past 15 years came pouring out all at once.And now I feel human again. I can feel happiness, sadness, empathy, you name it. Things that I hadn't felt since I was a child. I have never been happier than I am right now. https://www.theguardian.com/uk-news/2020/jul/04/magic-mushrooms-could-help-ex-soldiers-to-overcome-trauma
>>28602317>>28602317i have roughly 800 dollars tied up in crypto: is it possible with luck and diligence to make it to 30k at the end of the year to invest all into Chainlink and ada?I just wanna make it out of this poorfag wagie hell
>>28603754Consider it a blessing anon. You can surely do better.
>>28602317I legit don't feel so probably not great>never happy>never sad>never angryevery day is the same blur
shit :(
spiraling
>>28604912I used to be like you. See >>28604786If you look into it, there is a ton of research being done to treat PTSD with psychedelics in the US/EU. Try to find if there is any research being done close to you, and you could sign up for it. Magic mushrooms is basically a 100x magnifying glass into your own mind, and you're forced to deal with whatever trauma you have whether you'd like it or not.
>>28604717Live as you like then. Soon it won't matter. Whilst everyone else in the thread attempts to bring positivity, you only seek negativity. You'll find it.>>28604750>plus putting the dried herb in your pillow is nice to fall asleep toThat sounds like a great idea, actually. Super comfy advice. Funnily enough I might actually be able to start growing food properly, so root veg recipes will be on the menu. I'll give the Japanese food a whirl. Fortunately there's a lot of fresh ingredients around me, so I'll use those. Thanks, man. I've capped your post for later use.
>>28602317I literally x10 my initial investment in GRT. I'm now at 5 figs thanks to it. Finally being in the green after 3 years of holding bags and being a poorfag. Will still hold until $10. I've never felt happier before.
Mostly goodJust gotten a little too passive an just want to check cmc, biz, Twitter all the time.Just reached half a mill €Im off work until summer and i make about 2k / monthDating a hot 18y old and cruise around in a benz coupe
Pretty shit recently. Feel like I've completely underperformed the market. Invested £10k between April-June last year and I'm only at £20k. I'm a fucking failure and would be at £35k if only I had held my coins
Good, I just do the opposite of everything posted in /biz/ OPs, and posts supporting OP
>>28602477If you’re in six fig hell, join the six fig hell bizcord where we discuss this shit.For inv link search archives.
>>28604756be proud of yourself anon, you sound like youve got the basics covered and thats more than a lot of people can sayshe sees that youre interesting and have something going for you most likely - the attachment thing is hard though i cant advise you there, except that honesty and openness arent the same, and from my experience women love honesty, but openness about feelings (i can be over in this regard, i have a habit for really really falling hard when i do, and i have hang ups about openness because of it, so take it with a cup of salt) can scare them off and make them think youre more unstable than you actually are - because emotions are volatile i guessabout the swings, maybe youre trying to suppress something, idk, but i get like that sometimes when i try and not face an uncomfortable reality in my lifegood luck to you anon
>>28604786ive had that with amanita muscaria (wouldnt really recommend for first timers), really helped me get over the loss of my first dog - and yeah id say similar for psilocybe, i ate them consistently once a month (not major doses) and it helped with persistent low moodalthough kinda swapped depression for anger, so idk, sorta progresspharmacology and drugs etc are only temporary tho and theres only so much that they are useful for, after a while its the same old treadmill and you need to find a different way to new perspectives on your own mental state
>>28602317I don't even know anymore. I invested $28500 and sitting around $165000. My peak was $255000. I just to live surrounded by nature, grow my own food and hibernate until this world isn't insane anymore.
>>28602638I basically yolo'd on flavour of the week coins in biz to increase my measly capital and always exited after a x3. I had a 50% success rate but it was good enough to get a net positive. I don't do biz pump and dump anymore. All my money is now on listed coins with strong fundamentals in CEX's like binance. Slower growth but less stress and the risk is assymetric.
>>28602317Bad.I suffer from really bad imposter syndrome and constantly think that I'm a failure at work. I excelled in high school and university without really trying so that might be a part of it. Started investing in crypto 1 month ago with 5k . Was fortunate enough to buy into AAVE when it was only 300, and GRT around 80c and ALGO around 80c as well. So I'm almost 2x at the moment. This is nice.I wish I could make my constant feelings of failure at work go away. I'm constantly in fear of being fired. Will I make it? Hopefully.
>>28605555>pharmacology and drugs etc are only temporary thoYeah, I would never use it as a crutch in my life. I used it 3 times until I had that "bad trip" and never again, because I'm terrified it could somehow reverse the effects and send me back into being an emotional zombie, although I know it's unlikely. I just don't want to risk it because I unironically got a second chance at life. I'm willing to guess psychedelics will become a pretty mainstream treatment for PTSD within the next 2-3 years. They're making significant progress in the field.
>>28602317Somebody on /biz/ hurt my feelings and now I’m poor.
>>28602927I'm the same as you bro. What took me 2 fucking years to save up I did it in a space of 2 months. What the actual fuck. I am so depressed that I wasted my life but at the same time I have to continue wage cucking in case this whole crypto goes to shit. FML
>>28605124>had 90 eth, worth 162k now>traded it into shitcoins>have only 30Bruh...
Don't give up lads! Start lifting when the gyms reopen
I'm doing very well, thanks for asking. Reading Nietzsche helped me realize that suffering is a good thing, and that I should embrace pain rather than cower away from it.
>>28605248I'm 10k away from 6 figure hell
>>28605045oh and foraging is also great outdoors fun and opens up all sorts of new cooking stuff too- like elderflower champagne! its a great way to spend time with people thats not too intense too because youre just sifting through shrubs and the like identifying plantsalso mexican food has lots of nice stuff, i particularly like mexican styles of making breads and cheeses, as they tend to be quick, simple and delicious - larger bread is divine, even more so when you swap out hte larger for an ale
>>28602562Look to Job for answers, anon.
>>28602317Addicted to weed and making gambling with shit coins. Making money like crazy rn so it’s all good. Weed habit is pretty easy to kick I’ve done it multiple times for years.
>>28602317It comes and goes, my work is very boring and I work alone, so alot of them time I fantasize about having conversations OR i sing the same line of a song over and over. I'm usually pretty happy if i can chill out and pay attention to the world around me.
>>28603588Portugal hereWe are in the exact same situation here
>>28602317I’m always tired, how are you OP?
>>28605772ye i'd agree about psychedelics becoming more mainstream (although more in the USA than Europe, which is a shame as I live in the UK)its good to be wary, they are powerful tools - would you want to use a sledge hammer for every single job around the house? happy for you anon :)
>>28604786I wish I could achieve success with this.I've done mushrooms multiple times, have cried on them, felt things etc.But once it's over I stop feeling anything. I can tell it bothers my friends and relationships, because I can't ever fully understand them through feeling the same things they do. I can THINK about how they feel, and understand it in my head, but I can't get beyond that.I wish I understood what this meant about myself. It feels like my life is just a constant stream of "you SHOULD do this in this situation" instead of "you WANT to do this because you feel".
>>28602317Father wants to invest in buying hardware for XMR mining with me and my ADHD meds just kicked in so I'm doing pretty alright, how about you OP?
tomorrow will be 1 year since we broke up. Some days I think I'm finally getting over this shit bit by bit, other days i'm still fucked up. Idk bros
>>28602317I'm not schizo but I have intrusive thoughts and believe in precognitive visions so that mixed with OCD/Anxiety is a bad mix.
>>28605910Jesus Christ... We aren't alone I guess.
>>28605687>I just to live surrounded by nature, grow my own food and hibernate until this world isn't insane anymore.Living the life, Anon. It will get worse, but you are in a good situation. Enjoy that.>>28605973Very lovely, you have a great range of skills, you've done really well to gain that knowledge-base. Unfortunately I don't live somewhere where I could forage, but you've opened my eyes more to trying to cook other types of food. And elderflower... Why doesn't it have as much love? It's great.>>28606169I am feeling quite spread thin. There's a hovering anxiety over everything at the moment, and I'm finding I wasn't as adjusted as I thought.>>28606294I don't think you're crazy, I also have pre-cog visions.
Years of suppressed emotions, and now I'm confused all the time
>>28603467>going to make myself a birthday cake which im looking forward to>>coffee chocolate caramel peanut butter cake for those interested, will post the recipe and pics after ive made it if anyone gives a fuckPost that shit on /ck/ lad, c'mon do it, why wont you do it? Just do it lad I want to shitpost about your cake
I also think I'm addicted to this shithole
>>28606468Take some time to process that, a few hours a day just sit and think about what spurs those emotions and reflect on how they effect you, after that, just try to understand that your emotions are a normal response to your situation and a psychological signal to you about what's going on around you
>>28603754She's a fatty, nothing to be missed, king.
>>28606565mhmm, yo bitcoy stock doin' sumn
>>28605445I have learned that being too open about yourself is a mistake, I avoid doing it even with my friends because I think it makes people uncomfortable. About the girl, it's still strange to me, I'm not attractive, don't have a higher status than she does not anything like that. She's very open to me about the way she feels and she's not that stable either, and that's partly why I like her, unironically, because she's not some boring ass girl and has opened up to me, something which hasn't happened to me in years. This girl even told me she loves me before I even said the same thing to her (not to the degree that the English word implies, we speak another language). I think she liked me because of my accent, of all things.I just have pent up frustration due to unresolved issues when I was a teenager and from family things I went through last year. Thanks you anon.
It's fine
>>28606424Thank you for caring for us, OP
>Finally hit 7 figures >Still as greedy as ever >Just put $120k in an absolute shitcoin >If it rugs I'll kill myself, but people probably think someone who has that much and is willing to invest 100k in it is super bullish and smart Mentally I'm a retard, but I am now smug retard.
>>28602317>How's your mental health?I should be worse off:My Guy lost the election.Covid-84: lost 30k in some oil stockBut I'm actually chipper:-Been reading the biible-Bought Bitcoin before musk-started stacking in 2019-lockdowns made me have more sex: wf prego.-looking to buy some farmland.So if you're down, like:>>28602562Just seek guidance with the Bible. You might be going through a tribulation. I myself almost died 3 times: stabbing in ny, army APC almost drowned me, car accident rollover. Grew up poor, so if I lose it all, it's not that bad.
>bad case of impostor syndrome at work, constantly stressing out about getting fired even though I just got a raise and made over $1 mill in sales for my company over the last 2 years (but other colleagues make more sales!)>good body weight but totally out of shape and trying to get back on the owrkout train>moved into a great a partment but turns out walls are paper thin. now I cant find anything suitable in the same location>havent gotten laid in years >finally cracked six figures in income this year after years of grinding>stopped vaping but still on the weed train>WFH home and want to leave the house more but everything closed>corona hoax is starting to bother me get angry at randos who wear masks and tut you for not beings caredkinda mixed bag but life is pretty good overall
>>28602317I've given up. I don't care about "making it" anymore. Being homeless is so much better than going to school or work. Why should I bother with anything when a normal life is so awful?
>>28602317I feel pretty good, but that's only because I have pocket money in - I started with 200 bucks and now I have 300. Lol
>>28607185Pretty based advice, I believe we are within the tribulations. If anything the turmoil is a sign of change for the good.>>28606948No worries, man. I do actually care. Not to brag. I just wish others would be honest more. It is hard enough getting dragged down by the world, and it is tempting to indulge in it.
>>28603754Did she make you happy? What happened? Who was the asshole?
Lately when i drink i become a violent asshole
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>>28607592I feel you, Anon. What do you drink? I get violent when I drink brown liquor, so I quit it altogether. I also have a drinking problem altogether, once I start I won't stop. So now my rule is no drinking at home.
>>28607185Congratulations, bro
ive started talking to myself more and more and sometimes cant hold it in even with other people around. been getting lots of violent thoughts too which leads me to start punching anything nearby
>>28608158fuck me too
>>28602477>WTF is wrong with me anonsits called greed. you are being consumed by it. accept jesus christ as your lord and savior and you might be saved
>>28602317It's shit, I'm in kissing distance of entering 6 digit hell and my ghetto neighbors are driving me insane with their ghetto noises I just want to be able to read and sleep in peace
>>28606868are you confident with her? you may not think you have status, maybe you arent aware of how you present yourself on an unconscious level, some people have confidence even when they feel like they dont sort of dealand yeah totally get that, mental health for me is a metric of a type of intelligence, look at Terry for example. and lol ye the accent too, i fell in love over an accent before ngl, great timesit sounds great to me anon, dont question it too muchin Shakespeare's midsummer nights dream (actually a great play to read) theres a bit towards the end where one of the characters is talking about understanding love, anyway this dude is like>What can i comprehend love? To understand love is to apprehend itor something like thatya know what i mean? to truly comprehend why someone loves you is to take the life out of it, we're irrational, and our feelings are too, some people are crazy, craaazy about each other even
Not great. But supposedly everyone is depressed nowadays, It's a fucking meme now. I'm at the point where (other than this post) I don't talk about it at all.I'm not to trying to gatekeep or anything but when you're truly depressed/suicidal you don't reach out or communicate, I have a feeling most people who claim to be depressed are doing so for attention instead of genuine despair.
Bad. Been drinking since 8pm last night. Still here. Still up. Still tired
>>28602317Awful, I have fucking nothing and every attempt I have to gain something ends with a kick in my fucking teeth. I’m so fucking tired bros.
entirely dependent on green candles
>>28608888Get some sleep. Nothing is happening until Sunday
absolutely terribleI am miserable and unhappy
>>28609089What's happening Sunday? People need to check my digits too or else im gonna end it
>>28602317The last time I was happy was 2017.
>>28608888checked
>>28602317Honestly...not good at all. I've stopped eating most meals. Stopped exercising...tired most of the time...can't focus on work...seem to hate life...
>>28607274sounds pretty good overallwhatcha do in sales? >workout trainintermittent fasting and high intensity resistance training, super easy and low commitment with relatively quick results>havent gotten laidthat wont last forever- perhaps degenerate, but why not use tinder and the like? not like you need to shag everyone you match with, and the ones you do not like you need to get emotionally invested- if i was single id be doing that, socializing with women is the best because of the sexual energy stuffalso what about people you work with? i know lots of people are really against that too, but fuck it, one of the best relationships in my life was someone i worked with (i got fired admittedly which helped, but still, we hooked up before i got fired)
>>28608158like this anon says >>28603698>>28602590its worked out for me with a different pepe and different situation, going ot try with this one tooalso try singingi sing about all sorts of shit, often just retard dribble (/b/ tier songs often about dead kids, for whatever reason) but honestly belting that shit out feels so good, i like to sing in a sort of 30s - 50s swoon, think Sinatra crossed with Percy Sledge but worse
Great why what made you ask
>>28605910>had 200 bitcoin>traded into shitcoins>have like 5 now
Unironically not bad at all. I am up 500% on my BTC (got only 1 though), 2020 has been pretty good for me financially, I am starting to consider selling and buying a small one bedroom apartment and also getting a dog.I have no gf since June, I am 31 and i have never been more content by just focusing on myself and being alone. I don't feel the need to 'have' someone currently but I know this will change eventually.
>>28610040
>>28602317MENTAL HEALTH IS A SCAM it's not real EVERYONE THINKS IT'S real it's not REAL NOBODY HAS HEALTH MENTALLY IT'S ALL THE SAME not real it's JUST SO DOCTORS AND PHARMACISTS CAN MAKE FUN OF YOU BEHIND YOUR BACK WHILE THEY RAKE IN THE BIG BUCKS ---->>>USD
As of late, not too well. I always thought of myself emotionally stable, but these past weeks, tfwnogf and being locked down is finally getting to me. I always worked from home so I was used to it, but lately it's been fucked. Stopped working out. My dopamine comes from fapping & green candles. Not healthy at all.
>>28607783I only drink beer but if im drinking its always enough to get me drunk then i start texting and get really argumentative. Been trying to quit, weed helps and i often go back to drinking when i run out
>>28607783>So now my rule is no drinking at home.Yeah when i drink with others i pace myself, its the solo drinking that gets ya
>>28602724I hope you go broke so that only then you can expel the demons that consume you and find God. the emptiness you feel inside is a direct result of living for yourself, never for the good anyone or anything else. money is your god, and I pray that you never reproduce to spread your sickness to the innocent
>>28602317I'm banned from posting on 4chan. You can imagine how bad things really are
just got my first job out of grad school, it pays 130k (which is ok for a first job) but i'm not excited. i feel like a failure because i'm 30. All i can do is watch the market, i'm having a hard time sleeping in the bull run. i still live with my parents and will continue to do so until i feel financially okay. I've been in 6-figure crypto hell, maybe in 5 years it can be 7. i just want to hang out with friends again. fuck this stupid lockdown in the liberal state.
I'm addicted to instant gratification garbage and it's wasting my life. Cooming, 4chan, youtube, vidya and booze is what I do all day everyday and even though I know this lifestyle is making me depressed I just can't shift out of it. I just wish I could sleep for 10+ hours without interruptions for once and feel completely refreshed, I need it so badly. haven't slept properly in years nowwhat makes it worse is that I've been interested in crypto for almost a year and I'm still just only breaking even from a lucky 3x I managed to pick up on one fucking coin. I just want to own property somewhere where I can walk to my local church and live a comfy neet life flipping shitcoins to cover bills. that's my dream
>>28602562He Is still with you, bro.
>>28609991Looking good!
>>28608888checkeddd
I constantly think of killing people and i honestly don't know how long i'll go before i give into iti punch holes in everything, break a lot of my own property and generally at a tipping point at any given point in timei fear my anger will be the death of me and someone else or multiple people
>>28612940Why, Anon?
>>28605962Cope
I skipped my shit job today because I couldn't handle it today... I muted my phone and laptop - I don't care. I want to be fired to get a severance package... I'm very tired. I don't want to leave my bed anymore.
>>28602317Beyond fucked. I got super fat in quarantine and it’s ruined my life.
>>28612940Probably should see someone about that.
>>28613010i wasn't really raised or taught proper coping methods as a kid and was left to my own issues; i think i internalize everything and never learned how to actually move on
>>28613309i've triedthey said it was probably just depression from covid, tried to say it's been an issue for years, but they blow me offcan only afford clinic doctors that really dont give a shit about you
>>28613337I see. If I may ask, why is your anger important to you? It might sound cheeky to ask, but I think it's the first thing to ask. Coping mechanisms are just that, to keep you going, but dealing with it properly takes knowing what it is exactly that is making you want to vent in that way. I could say 'develop manners', but too many people are like that just because they feel they should be, for no other reason. I'd say you should try to find some small routine in your day that you do that takes you out from trouble, and commit yourself to it. Unironically meditation, or even quiet breathing exercises, are helpful.
>>28602317Awful, I think about blowing my brains out daily. Wonder what it’s gonna take to finally do it.
>>28613447Sorry to hear that. I can sympathize, I've had similar experiences talking to doctors about mental health issues in the past, though mine weren't putting me or anyone else in imminent danger. They'll just listen to your shit for 5 minutes with glazed eyes, diagnose depression, prescribe SSRIs and tell you to promptly fuck off. Don't really know how to make it better.
>>28613447Get into Satanism
>>28602317I lost my marbles in 2018 but even despite the COVID business, I've been well lately.
>>28614217That's not going to help dispel his anger.
>>28603754Nasty but condolences
>>28609359thank you frenI actually just got back from a workout in the park.Im a copywriter and sell stuff onlinedesu I hate online dating but I live in a rural area and its hard to meet chicks here. might be worth a try but Im feeling very reluctant to get on these apps. i always preferred to meet girls IRL its just a bad time with the whole corona thin right now
>>28602317Pretty bad. Sometimes I can focus, other times I'm in a field or somewhere or buying tampons for my gf because she cant walk properly because of her leg, it's healing fine though. Certain things keep me grounded, but others I'm floating, like waiting in a loading screen. I switch between emotions constantly but I can only make sure my family especially younger siblings are ok, that's the goal and why I make it. Tfw no gf just doesn't make sense because the feelings of it are twisted, doubt I can keep a relationship stable but it could he wortg the try but we don't know.Other than that I'm alright, no broken bones or sore neck
>>28602317It was progressively better through self-improvement and taking meds, but crypto is giving me too much stress and decreasing my mental health. In efforts to combat this I've decreased caffeine intake, increased smoking, increased greens in my diet, and started daily showers.
My mental health is good and then bad and then good. Last couple of days got some sun and it helped massively. I've been on Prozac for depression and ptsd for maybe over half a year now and I feel so much better, full of vigor. More social again, everything is less foggy. I feel like the black dog is gone for now, but who knows?I hope all anons keep persevering through these difficult times, remember not to take it so hard on yourself. We all struggle, it's just hard to admit it. Keep going onwards and upwards, WAGMI, normies get off my 4chen
>>28602317Crippling anxiety. It affects what I eat, what I drink, how much exercise I can do, and what I can do in social situations
>>28614859Based. I wish you the best anon. Its nice to see the lives of others get better and know there is hope.
>>28614217unironically?>>28614166It's almost culturally embedded in my family. Grandfather and my dad had monster rages and my dad would just say oh its just runs in the family, but it doesnt. i just feel broken with no way reprogram my mind
I am a wreck. After years of NEETing I have a new job and it sucks. Got another job offer but it is 2 hours commute every day. Is that worth it? It does pay twice as much and it is a awesome company. WWYD?
>>28605248>discord where everyone has at least 100k crypto>the ultimate honeypot and scammers paradise
Good. Hit such a low point that i just don't give a fuck anymore, life can't get any worse.
>>28602590>nothing is gonna matterso why do we live if nothing matters?
>>28615032have you tried meditation? Theres a reason its gone after so hard with corruption and bullshit. Simple meditation without all the faggot crap is extremely beneficial.
>>28602317Been sitting on /biz/ for 10+ hours a day anon. Its rough. Literally emailed my old doctor for a mental health checkup but they havnt gotten back to me yet
>>28615038Do it anon; I've travelled 3 hours through bike, train and bus just to have any job. You can always relocate later. That is an opportunity, jump on it. Here in LA 2 hours is a normal commute.
>>28613244go to fit and go to /fast/ threads. changed my life.
I need a girlfriend but I do not want to put the effort in finding one.
>>28614761>started daily showers>started wtf
>>28615218Anon I made a tinder and instantly found someone to fuck and it somehow made me feel more empty. Work on yourself first :(
>>28602317really badmy life went to shit lince last March, I can't take working from home anymore, days blur together, nothing feels real anymoreI hardly sleep, spend all my time in from of the computer and it's getting worseI can't work from home any longer, I'm going crazy
>>28615179i will try it, i need something, im just so so tired of being angry all the time
>>28615352Showering everyday is unnecessary if you don't work out or work physically.
>>28615380I had some time off work and felt EXACTLY the same. Find a good doctor to talk to anon. It really helps, and try to get some sun during the day or at least take some vitamin D. Good luck anon
>>28615038If you really want the new job then get an apartment that's closer. Any commute that's more than an hour isn't worth it unless you're getting paid millions.
>>28602317I was exercising 3 times a week, now I don't want to anymore. I'm not feeling depressed nor sad, I'm just feeling lazy and enjoying this season... My dick doesn't work no more tho, I only use it to piss, I don't think I'll ever have sex without paying it.
>>28615375This. I can get someone to fuck pretty easily, and did that with a lot of women in my early 20s. It’s empty and meaningless as fuck and I’m a firm believer it damages you pretty seriously, have self respect and aim for something. At least I think that’s the right way to go.
>>28602803Are you using good resources?I made great gains when I read:>Devin Korwin’s creative fundamentals>Richard Schmidt’s alla prima 2>morpho’ s anatomy>bridgeman’s anatomy>dynamic sketching by Peter hanAnd fucking around with PBR in blender really really helped my understanding of light and form
>>28615380Honestly, what helped me was taking the time to reconnect with nature, as gay as that sounds. Actually spending time hiking in the woods to break up the monotony and escape from the virtual reality we are condemned to is very helpful. No matter how crazy shit gets, spending time innawoods reminds you of what can't be taken from you and how free you truly are.
>>28615032Well if that other guy is saying Satanism I'm going to say you ought to unironically try meditation and prayer to God. He has provided for me and brought me back from the brink of suicide and the most degenerate, disgusting behaviour possible. Pretty amazing personal shift. However, just blaming it on the family is not good, you will associate them with anger and being incapable and emotionally disabled. It's a feedback loop of trouble. I find that angry people are often quite serious, and whilst life is serious, it is also somewhat absurd. Seeing yourself as some sort of massively central entity to the world causes tension because you are struggling against an unrelenting tide. Focus on the near and now, what you lose, is a fast ticket to feeling like you're desperate and deformed in some way. Instead, spread out your positives, and think about how they impact you and others in the long term. Where actually do you provide aid to others, and therefore yourself? But first that family tie has to be somewhat separated from your negative emotions. You don't want to start hating them, being dependant on them to feed your emotional state. I know it might sound a bit tepid, but going with the flow actually does help, so long as you know the flow is going somewhere good. Not sure if any of this helps, or not. Also, think of the world in terms of distinction, but don't get bogged down in obsession. The world can't be chaotic or order, especially in this time.
>>28602317I am at the point where I know I need help. I've decided to stay at my parent's house for longer so I can invest more, but god damn I hate it here. I feel miserable anons and not too long ago I drifted away from one of my exs who became probably my closest friend. Along with all this, I got a new job and it pays well.. I'm not complaining about that, but it's just so physically demanding. I come home and I want to sleep, but I have to spend that time reading up on crypto news and doing my college homework. I know I still have a very comfy life anon, but I'm just tired... When I come to my friends about this shit all I get are retarded normie advice like "get a pet bro".. or "get your own place bro, you'll be happy once you move out".. but I don't want temporary happiness to overturn my dreams. I need to stay here and invest longer with more money. I just feel like I'm at my limit sometimes anons.
>>28615451disgusting
>>28602317I would say, worsening
>>28615619What are you a fucking woman? Do you put some face cream on after and blowdry your hair?Fucking pussy.
Fucked up over an ex - once again, I started the relationship as a Chad, let my depression get the better of me and ended it as a beta. Women really enjoy bitching you up so they can leave. You have to be on guard for it 24/7
>>28615352>mfw it would be unthinkable to me just a few short months ago but now my life deteriorated so much I don't even shower daily anymore myself
>>28615599checked and good post
>>28602317>have wagie job working from home (only temporary cause covid)>67k/yr>have 800k crypto>can't quit cause ptsd from 2018 crash where i lost almost everything>defer most of my paycheck to 401k to lower my burger taxable income>take home pay is $200 every 2 weeks>over 100k in checking account>mentally draining cause im working 45 hrs/week for what seems like only $200 >34yo so not even close to having enough to retire>feelsbadman
>>28615735He's right though anon. You might not be able to notice but you probably dont smell great. Showers are important for mental health. And I do put on face cream and spray rose water on my face so I glow. Im the prettiest boy in town.
>>28615352I shower weeklyIf you’re not seeing people what possible need would you have for constantly smelling like shampoo? I doubt 90% our ancestors washed daily
>>28615735clean yourself filth
>>28615758That's what you get for sex before marriage."Do not give your strength to women, your ways to those who destroy kings."Proverbs 31:3
>>28615758Man isn’t that the fucking truth. Same thing over here right now. Started strong and now I’m devastated. I need to get some help.
>>28615874I only shower when I'm going to see my girl. I may have autism though.
I tried to hang myself last night
>>28602317sold some btc for 9k
>>28615874>Im the prettiest boy in town.I bet you are, sweetie.
>>28602317I feel okay, maybe I get a little overloaded with stress because I am a project supervisor/foreman for an oil and gas construction company, but mostly it’s because of having new employees that don’t learn as fast as I expect - despite how hard to try to train them. Life at home is good, I’m not poor. I ride my bike about daily and eat decent, not overweight. Nicotine use in form of dip, alcohol use minimally. My mom just sold our family home I grew up in and moved closer to my wife and I (20 min away vs 5 hours) Quality of life going up
>>28610522This, but less schizo>>28602317My anxiety is literally killing me. Chest hurts, headaches, drinking and eating fast food multiple times a week, everyone around me thinks I'm weird, and crazy. Dad is disappointed and annoyed with me. I didn't really have a social life before the lockdowns, but now I don't even try anymore with how bad my social skills have gotten. Last semester of college starts this week and I feel like a failure for not having anything figured out yet. Too stressed to do any hobbies beside fuck around here and on youtube. Suicidal ideation is back nearly everyday. I know it's a part of life, but I can't take this shit anymore.
>>28602317I haven't had a reason to get out of bed for years. Now the civilized world wants me to stay in bed.I sleep random, inconsistent hours in 1-4 hour patches. Because there's no reason to be awake
>>28615886>If you’re not seeing people what possible need would you have for constantly smelling like shampoo?>"why would you do something if it's not for other people"this is what separates people who clean themselves, and filth like you
>>28615943Damn bro:( just know there are others out there that feel like you. We’re in this together.
>>28603754Damn she is fine as hell if it’s any consolation she is happy and getting pounded every night.
>>28615930As long as you do it before going out thats good enough IMO anon. I just know I personally start getting more depressed if I start skipping showers. Glad to hear you are getting some social interaction though. Good luck anon, we will all make it someday
>>28615943you aren't alone anon.
>>28615943Anon, you should share with your frens, this is a good time to vent. Please stay safe.
I have no IRL friends and no one ever messages me first, I always have to be the one to initiate conversations. I don't think anyone cares about me.
>>28615943And you even failed at that. Pathetic.
>>28616056Not an argument. I don’t mind my body scent because I eat well and have a good lifestyle.
>>28602317better than it was a year ago, noticed some bad habits and worked on myself. Crypto going up is a bonus but I'm not getting ahead of myself and assuming I'll get loads of money. I'm not gonna let my mental health be tied to something so volatile
>>28615943Hang in there anon. Ive been there and it gets better I promise. Im sure you are tired of hearing that though. Ill be personally sad if you're gone though so dont do anything stupid. Love you anon
>>28615205Thanks bro. I just hope i don't stand out and everyone thinks it's weird i'm traveling this much just to wage. But it really is a unique opportunity for me.>>28615488I am getting paid twice what im getting at my old job and it is comfy and interesting position with room for growth (or so they say). I feel this position might give me a new lease on life. I guess i'm willing to take the risk.
Shit.>grow up extremely cash poor>go to college on loans>start struggling in classes for first time in my life>also resorting to counting calories just to avoid starvation>barely scrape a 3.0 at grad>move back home>can't find job>get verbally abused and parents refuse to help>they threaten to kick me out>I ape into the military to avoid being homeless>continue to get verbally abused and catch a disease that permanently fucked up my lungs in bootcamp>get to first ship>verbal abuse continues>barely holding onto reality at this point wandering the streets in the dark at night>start drinking a lot>over time develops into a serious problem>have to go to rehab in the military>stress and anxiety through the roof>try to quit, get denied>great now I'm a slave>started throwing money into bitcoin in 2018, just DCA>barely holding it together>transfer commands just as all my bridges are burning and everyone hates me>wfh because of covid>life has been stalled>almost have a $1M networth nowI'm in the middle of the 13th wasted year of my life. My real life can't start for another 18 months. I've basically given up on reproducing at this point and I'll settle for just being a hermit if the fucking world would just leave me alone.
>>28602317Not too good. Ever since falling down the crypto/stocks rabbit hole, I've actually managed to lose more money than I've earned. I'm almost back at the point where I'm breaking even. Shit is so tiresome. No motivation to get a job or go to college or progress forward in life. I'm only 21 and I wanna start living and I want to leave my toxic household, but I don't see it happening unless my 4000 graphies moon. I've wagecucked before and I just can't stand the bullshit I'd have to put up with. Been thinking about a delivery job or something. I wanted to do the military once upon a time, but I backed out because I'm a pussy. I'd go to college if it wasn't so expensive, but it's still cost me $30k to go for 2 years even after financial aid. I might just lie on my resume at this point and try to land a shitty tech job.
>>28615599You're right, it has become an unhealthy obsession of mine the last month and I haven't entertained a positive thought about myself in days. I keep thinking that it's just a puzzle and if i find the missing piece everything will be okay, but it probably doesn't work like that. I need to clear my mind and not see everything as a negative or being against me.
>>28603588Lithuania here. Can't go outside the city for 2 1/2 months already and the government has been caught faking the number of positive tests. Somebody shoot me.
It's actually a lot better now that I'm retired (24y old) because I can finally buy some decent clothes, eat decent healthy food and get therapy. (I have two therapists at the moment: one for my sexual issues and another one as a life coach/motivator/future planner)
>>28615943Hi anon, the world seems dark, but understand that 90% of it is in your head. You can alter what’s in your head with a little force - go for a hike right now, grab a bottle of water and some snacks, a raincoat and comfy jumper. You will immediately feel better walking into nature, and show yourself that your state of mind is largely down to the chemicals firing off due to the environment you’re in.
>>28616332God anon that sounds fucking terrible. You've hit 7 figures, but at what fucking cost. I'm sorry the military didn't work out for you. I almost joined but I knew I wouldn't be able to deal with the mental aspect that they throw on you. That's what I was hoping to escape at home, but it's 10x worse there. You would know this of course. You should just move to Thailand and get a cheap condo and fuck prostitutes.
>>28616091>>28616168Imagine coming into a thread about mental health, looking for vulnerable people and then trying to make them feel bad. You are a complete piece of shit and deserve to die. Thankfully hellfire awaits you on your deathbed. And oh look>>28606021I see you're a stoner as well, making you literally fucking worthless. Karma will get you like it is now, you unhappy piece of shit.
>>28602317Bad.I am no longer affected by gain or loss. I am just rotting in my house. I make a lot of money but I cannot spend any for some reason. I have no friends. I do not interact with anyone. All I do is trade, chores, food and learn more to improve my trading.
>>28616468How much did you retire with if you dont mind me asking? Started off as a homeless kid and im 23 now really hoping to retire in maybe 5 years
POOR
>>28616566The thing is, >>28616168 this guys needs more mental health then all of us combined. Hes the real broken soul in this thread
>>28602317terrible, depression effects my daily activities. In uni and angry and depressed that my country is going to fucking shit
>>28615943anon it would do you no good. your last thoughts will be of regret. you sure can fix your problems or work around them.
>>28616272>I tried to hang myself>Hang in there anonDevilish
>>28616453I agree. I'm really happy to hear you say that, because it's the thought I had when I started to turn my life around more. It's actually imperative that you are able to say to yourself, without bragging, "I am bringing benefit here". Like I've said to other Anons, expressing it is key and should start small. Let the tension unravel naturally. I really do wish you the best. Maybe take an hour out of your day every day to go for a walk and listen to an album? It sounds dumb, but it's good for you time. Although without the phone (and therefore portfolio) would be better.
I wish you all the best in life brothers. Keep struggling.
>>28616700Disconnect from politics and never visit /pol/ again. It doesn't actually effect you enough for you to be involved in it. Thats what helped me so much this year. Just say fuck it and make some money
>>28616830/pol/ is for piquing your curiosity into the shit of the world, not seeking refuge and solutions
>>28616738Fuck, tried to make someone feel a bit better and couldnt even do that right kek. I swear i didnt do it on poupous
>>28616805Based.
>>28616604I have $5m at the moment. Still a lot of it in crypto, no problem. Next ten years are going to be golden.Just invest what you can in crypto, brother. You'll make it. It's not so hard, just relax with it. We are experiencing a financial revolution. Also try to look for something that you enjoy or want to do in the world where the goal is not "money". Could be "helping homeless people" or "art" or "music" or "sports"... and pursue that. Don't make the mistake I did by spending all your time on investing.
>>28616830Yeah I needed to drop that shot after inauguration, ruined my relationship and made me almost kms. The world is completely fucked but no one cares so why should I, a literal poorfag wageslave, ruin my life to try to find a solution. Fuck it.
>>28602524Are you me?
>>28602317bretty gud, ALL IN XRP
>>28616830How shameful. There is a difference between being aware of the issues that plague the world and how they affect your life, and burying your head in the sand for simple hedonism and money collecting.Without being aware most of you would just be retarded Qtards or Bernie bros. Be thankful you can actually access 1% of the truth rather than being in the dark for the rest of your life and polluting your children's lives.
I've probably never been more miserable in my entire life. I'm starting to lose my mind and I talk to myself quite alot. I lack so much intimacy in my life that I'm starting to cherish interaction with female cashiers at the supermarket. All of my family members are deteriorating with age and soon enough I will be the only one left, forced to live my remaining days in 100% solitude. But at least I made a few thousand between stocks and crypto so that's cool I guess
>>28615431Read Marcus Aurelius and also do yoga. You are better than this anon and will succeed. Believe in yourself Screw your dad and grandad bs about it runs in the family. Be the change you want to see
>>28602317not too good man
>>28603467Classic Aquarian. Sort yourself, the knowledge is out there. If you hanged around XSG the past few months you'd have learned something.
>>28617007Thanks anon, and cheers to your retirement, I will hopefully be joining you soon. Been finding a lot of things I enjoy lately and have so many plans on things I want to do and places I want to see. Just cant wait to take a step back and actually start to enjoy my life
>>28602317Pic related has completely destroyed me. I can't stop. Please help
>>28606424I feel that. It’ll be better soon.
>>28617047Drop that shit dude. When people in public start to discuss politics I get sick. Like why would you even bother your own mind with the worlds problems. Waste of time and energy.>>28617084This is a bait comment. No one reply
My bipolar is getting worse
>>28617084I agree with what I think your point is, but you have to understand the world we live in and just how hostile it is. Information warfare is an actual concept. There are definitely coordinated campaigns just to demoralize people. Not only that, but the media itself survives on trying to get a reaction out of you, usually a bad one. Between covid, whatever political shitstorm is taking place in your country at the moment (Brexit, US debacles for example), the looming global economic consequences of the pandemic and the constant fearmongering about immigrants, political polarization, climate change, national debt and all that shit it gets really overwhelming quite easily. I think partially by design. Sometime last year I stopped reading the news for a bit because I just felt like shit and it didn't actually make a difference.
>>28613224If you're fired, you typically don't get severance. Being let go is another story.
>>28617403You need to realise that intuitive reaction when tempered by wisdom is a source of inspiration. But I also feel this.
>>28616883>>28616830>>28616883>>28617047>>28617448>>28617047Bros can you give me some faith, is the US fucked due to immigration or is there some hope
>>28616783>>28617122I'm going to go walk to the park and listen to some music and then start reading Meditations by Marcus Aurelius and turn off my phone todaywent in here to mindlessly yell into the void and instead was pointed in a wiser direction, thank you guys, truly
>>28617448Whatever faggot. Enjoy thinking in black and white for the rest of your life and being completely helpless to whatever propaganda they shove down your throat.Oh let me guess, because you don't know about it, it doesn't affect you right?
>>28615943What’s up?
>>28616357Can I get a reply?
>>28617654I truly believe that we need to stop thinking about countries, and start thinking about nations and peoples. Shit is going to go down, and we must be flexible.>>28617704You're welcome. I'll pray for you later. I hope you make it, my man.
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>>28617654Just say fuck it and move on anon. Sure i hate it too but there's nothing I can do and stressing about it doesn't help me. I literally haven't checked any sort of news in over a month and its been beautiful.
>>28617747>>28616357I found that the good jobs pop up unexpectedly. Do not think of money, think of what it will give to you in time and personal growth. Opportunities will come to you when you gain personal growth, as well as skills.
>>28617736Back to /pol/ qtard. Im sure theres some tranny hate thread you can go participate in.
>>28617561What??
>>28617654Best you can do is move someplace immigrants hate. Mainly cold rural places.
>>28617770what do you mean about countries vs. nations? as well as what shit will go down?>>28617852ill try this
>>28617747Dont come here looking for sympathy you fucking retarded faggot. Stop being a degenerate, fucking, skidmark on society. Put some effort in and just do something. Stop fucking thinking. Just go start fucking doing something. Fuck your retarded.
>>28618015Countries are governments and systems, borders. Nations are the people and cultures within them.
I've been doing well the past year, but covid lunacy and isolation is really grating on me lately. During weekly work staff meeting (virtual of course) they said we probably wouldn't be working from the office until 2022. Almost made me scream. Reality doesn't feel like reality. I can only take so much of the digital.
>>28618015Im serious anon its such a good feeling. If you continue to consume mass amounts of news meda you turn into >>28617736 and he doesnt seem very happy in life right now
>>28617747Do you write down your financial goals into chunks? Ie) you want to recuperate X amount of money by Y month, so how what are your financial purchases and gains each day/week/month? It helps me a lot to break down things into smaller bits of data, and if I can, transform that data into something more visual. For example if I'm working on limiting my junk food or working out, I'll log whether I did it or not daily, but at the end of the month I'll color code it green/red to get a general sense of trends throughout the month. If I've a big red streak, and some notes I took on those days, I can make a better analysis of what was happening to prevent such behavior in the future.Data chunking like this is useful for long term analysis, when your own memory becomes unreliable.Sorry if this isn't what you're really asking for.
Thread has hit bump limit, I'm really glad how the thread turned out and I wish you all the best, Anons.
>>28617654I don’t think there’s much hope for the country bro, just do you and live the best life you can with what you’ve been given. My greatest aspiration is to have a family one day. Seems fucking impossible with what women have become, but it’s all I want. Fucking sad bro but I’ll try.
>>28603754This chick could bench 200
Also great thread guys. We should have these more often
>>28604045You in the trades? I never get to hear none industrial normies use torqued
>>28618195You linage has come this far, can't stop now.
>>28616465>faking the number of positive testshuh? Why would they do this in Lithuania? What possible motive could there be... Also how about some source
>>28618158Neat idea
>>28617704Enjoy your walk, anon. I'm not sure if you will still read this, but I would like to chip in. I came from an abusive home situation, so I can kind of relate to what you're going through, dealing with angry outbursts by your father and all of that.I see that you have a kind soul and you don't want to be like them. That is good, do not forget that. Make that promise to yourself. You will have to do emotional work to heal emotionally and to become a more self-confident and stable individual. For me personally, moving out was a big step I had to take and helped a lot, just to be out of the toxic environment. After that I went to therapy for it and that helped me a lot, too. Don't underestimate how much therapy can do for you.Don't use stoicism or meditation to ignore the bad feelings or to push them away. Because then you will shut off your emotions and make a big shield and then you will never get to real loving. You want to reach real loving and you want to live through your emotions. Please be careful of the pitfalls of stoicism and meditation, I speak from experience.I also highly recommend the book: Toxic Parents by Susan Forward.
>>28617116>Tfw you milk every interaction for some human intimacy
>>28617852I also did this, especially because the news nowadays is a lot about racism, violence, virus propaganda,... etc. It really clears your mind to block off that flow of information overload.
>>28618066Fuck you. I hope you die. Also, you used the incorrect "your." You should have used, "you're."
Saw a very readable graph and tried swingingtook out my whole 4k GRT stack at 1.09anon I don't feel so good
>>28618078do you think whites will become a minority in the us?>>28618106i know it is bc i was doing that at one point and felt great, got back into it bc of the election
>>28618867>do you think whites will become a minority in the us?I don't think the world will last that long, honestly. But if it does, yes.
>>28616538Yeah, and I didn't even mention my hairline is all fucked up and it would cost 6 figures just to get a good looking transplant so fuck that.It's not like good things didn't happen during this time either, but the bad definitely outweighs it in my opinion. Not getting a job after college completely derailed my life and now I have no self-confidence even though I'm working on it (thank god for rehab actually, it really helped me recognize a lot of the mental shit I was dealing with and give me tools to deal with it without drinking).I like guns too much to leave the states even if we're degenerating faster than the collapse of Rome. I'm probably just going to move to Appalachia, pay for a fiber trunk direct to my house, and then live there and shoot at anything that steps on my property until the ATF dronestrikes me.
>>28618851Swingies get the rope isn’t just a meme anon
>>28618929do you think that it can be reversed?
>>28618405Thanks anon, I will pick up that book as well. I really appreciate you reaching out and letting me know it's possible to change from that kind of upbringing.
Dumped all my student loans and bursery into GRT and ill kill myself if it doesnt get me out of my debts by the time i graduate next summer. Probably kill myself anyway eventually since nothing in life appeals to me but at least if i make money from my GRT i can experience what its like to not be in negative net worth