/cgl/ - Cosplay & EGL

>Lost weight
>able to wear smaller clothes
>able to buy brand that fits
>feeling more confident in cosplay
>then a family member decides to go through an old photo album.
>has pictures of me at cons and my wedding when I was 200+ lbs
>remember how much I hated my wedding photos and hated looking at them
>looks like a different person in all the photos
>look like a fat cross-dresser in old con pics
>depressed realizing I was a fat bride and can never have that day back or get nice photos to remember those days

I would give literally anything to turn back time and relive those days at a healthy weight. Especially my wedding. It makes me sick to my stomach just thinking about it. All I can do is remember I'm not that fat girl anymore, and remember this feeling to keep me from ever being her again.

>Be me, lone lolita since I started
>No comm in my city, it died a few years ago
>Been to a few lolita conventions, but that's the closest I had been to other lolitas
>Decide to drive an hour to the comm in a big city in my state since it wasn't dead like the one in my city is
>Wear old Baby, nothing over the top, a simple but cute coord. Didn't want to look too extreme
>Get there, it was at a cafe
>See a group of girls near the entrance wearing frilly dresses
>Walk up to them, introduce myself, get to analyzing them
>Realize the entire group was wearing milanoo-tier shit, horrible color coordination, shitty wigs, etc
>Awkwardly sit through knowing that these people have no idea what they're doing
>Cry all the way driving home realizing that they're all itas and I'll never find anyone who knows basic stuff about lolita

I-I just want a group of lolitas to hang out with..

>She was very disappointed in herself and wanted to make dresses to make people happy but felt like she couldn't do enough by herself
That's super sad, she feels so guilty for not doing a lot, but she's done so much all by herself. I understand it's a big burden alone, but beating herself up is just sad.