/cgl/ - Cosplay & EGL

>>9367283
To continue the phone thought, I cannot cancel my plan myself since my parents also took away my access to my account. Called and went in person to a store to see if I could just pay the fee to get taken off and I just got told that there's nothing they can do for me. There's a lot more but... It's hard for me to stop taking the blame off myself. I was diagnosed with anxiety and depression when I was 6 (same time my mother started hating me) and I just feel like if I was a normal kid my mother would love me. My mother and stepfather just bought my sister two houses meanwhile I'm struggling to even pay rent. They found my gofundme that I started in order to help make my rent (they stole my money from my bank account before I could get it disconnected from theirs) and got the entire family to make minimum donations while writing huge paragraphs about how I did this to myself, I should just get three jobs while I'm in school, I'm lazy, and how it's my fault for not "choosing" to be anxiety and depression free. I got them all deleted and refunded but my mother kept finding ways to contact me to tell me how much I broke her heart and how she made the right decision. I've been pretending like it doesn't bother me anymore to my friends and boyfriend, but I'm just getting more and more depressed and anxious, which in turn makes me feel guilty for feeling that way, and then it just gets worse. Sometimes I forget how many times I've been diagnosed along with how bad it's gotten in the past and feel like they're right and I'm just making everything up, that I'm not really depressed, I've just been imagining it...
>tl;dr my parents hate me, might have thrown out all my shit. My depression/anxiety that they disowned me for is getting worse. They stole from me. Don't have money for rent.