/cgl/ - Cosplay & EGL

>tfw no lolita gf to help me become her brolita gf
I just want to be cute and have someone to be cute with.

>>8426119
Oh god I'm gonna cry, no matter what anyone says, I really feel for Misako. To put your trust in these people and have them fuck around under the name of your organization. Maybe she after money and everything, but that still has to be really tough.

>>8392065
Cgl i need your help.
For the background
>turning in my twenties,recovering from ED/depression/anxiety blablablabla poor self confidence but doing my best to deal with it
>had an abusive ex gf so i'm scared shitless to be in a relationship or love anyone but then i cry at night because "so roneri" and all friends are a country away from me
>Very boyish in a "kawaii uke desoo" way but trying to be more feminine and mature
>lately i don't even like anime or that stuff i feel a mighty need for nostalgia and feel like 2015 is shit,wish it was 2008 or 2011 again for some reason? I havent profited of my early teenage years i got bullied very badly at school for being "different" (illness) and that fucked me up

Lately i've become obsessed with Kotakoti, let me clarify, not the actual one doing modelling stuff in japan,wearing all pastel stuff,... the old one. When /cgl/ was still having threads debating about it. I made her room back in america (plan of it),a list of all her clothes and accessories and shoes,... with most that i liked, lots of pics of her and i often do her in the dressup dolls games along with PT, Venus,...I do not wish to be her nor do i wish to be famous but i have this weird obsession with her that calms me. On the other hand i also have something similar with old venus angelic, and a bit of Xiaorishu. But i didn't really got obsessed with them, it just makes me feel...relaxed? Comfy? Having items that they had, listening to their old videos,finding videos they deleted,music they use...It's like an escape somehow. Little weeb me used to find them so cool, wish to have venus angelic "pretty doll hair and clothes", dakota's "face and clothes", xiaorishu's "cuteness",...I don't know what is happening to me. I used to be obsessed about a sweet lolita back in 2011 until she stopped to.
What is happening to me /cgl/? What do?

>>8324900
none allowed.
We here at seagull corporation only allow positive discussion. DISCUSS NICE, AND DO NOT HURT FEELINGS ^___^

>>8321249
This. Just stay the fuck out of San Jose.

Okay guys.. 8 days. Who else is freaking the fuck out about it?

>>8150329
I want this mostly because of the horror stories I've read about people getting their dresses stolen (Iron Gate, anyone?), same reason why I get freaked out to room with anyone I don't know at cons. I wish I could afford to stay by myself.

It's feels time /gulls/.
I don't see in the catalog so i'm sorry if it's still there and that i'm just being too retarded.

If that's ok with you i'll contribute to get that out of my chest because i just can't hold it anymore:
>be me,18 yo girl
>very boyish clothing/look and kind of androgynous looking in the face apparently (yet small and average weight just so you know?)
>i fall in love with cute j fash stuff,lolita,fairy kei,... a few years ago in 2009
>identity crisis comes in on top of low self esteem and i feel lost, feels even uglier and wrong in cute feminine clothing so i decides to go boyish kawaii uke desu mode.
>But i buy cute plushies,cute clothing i never wear,cute posters from sakura card captor and all ( i'm a bit of a weeb tbh) and feels so happy looking at it.
>Yet drools over cute lolitas here or other websites and people wearing cute j fashion
>Feels bad compared to cute friends and always compare myself anyway. Cute friends are wearing cute j fash/lolita/... and i feel like the unkawaii duckling near the kawaii swans
>I never wear makeup because it strangely makes me feel uglier like cute clothes
>I tried to take baby steps like wearing a long wig or something but i feel ugly all the time like if i wasn't worthy or good enough to be like those cute dainty elegant girls i see
>told by lot of people i am really cute and charming but i just can't see the kawaii side in me

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>>8031269
No...no that can't be real

>Tfw all lolita/gyaru/cosplayers I know have lovely, long nails
>I've bitten my nails as a reaction to stress since I was little
>Can never seem to stop
>Tried putting bad tasting nail polish on my fingernails, sitting on my hands, etc
>Tfw I will never have cute natural nails, only painful, bloody, stubby ones

>>7745180
>tfw 173cm
F-FUCK YOU AP.

I basically took a break from my Skype Group.
I'm not sure how I feel, it's only been two days, I fear that they're talking about me as we speak, I am just a paranoid gal
But my confidence at negative 33.
I used to smile in the mirror and think of myself as okay without being vain, but now I every time I look in the mirror, I pretty much start tearing up.

I'm feeling dead right now.
Kinda wish I did join in the first place.

>have insane exhibitionist/voyeurism fetish
>try to have bf do things with me all the time
>he gets sick of it
>tells me not to invite him to do these things
>say it's okay to talk to him about it, though
>just not try to get him to do it
>okay sure
>week or so later
>find opportunity to voyeur
>tell him excitedly
>be extra careful to not invite him or insinuate anything
>"I don't want to talk about this anymore"
>okay.jpg
>forever sexually trapped

And to make this /cgl/ related, it's been a month since I purchased anything j-fashion. It's a record for me as a shopaholic!

Actual cosplay feel because this thread is so shit right now:

>Be younger
>Lots of my cosplay friends (18~early 20s) go to cons and party
>I wanna go to!
>Parents be like nah, you're too young to be at a con that late/stay in a hotel/etc
>Be now
>Finally old enough to afford staying in a hotel and don't need any permission
>Yeah let's party!
>All my friends grew up, too, though
>"Sorry, we have like... adult stuff to do, y'know?"
>Only a handful even go to cons anymore
>Busy with work/grad school
>Some of them are even married already
>Fell super left behind

I know it was inevitable, but it feels like everyone grew up so damn fast

Hi seagulls.
I can't get the thought of ending my life out of my head.
I'm tired with living with ADD and Depression.
I'm constantly reminded that I'm just a leech.
I try so hard to go back to school, but it's hard.
Cosplay was one of the few things that were keeping my alive but I feel like I also that.
That's all.