/cgl/ - Cosplay & EGL

Went to a friend's wedding recently. Lately I've been depressed and some difficult things have happened, so I haven't really put effort into looking nice for a while. For the wedding I went all out, make up, hair, new dress. I felt really cute for the first time in a while. But once people started posting pictures online all of my confidence evaporated. I've gained so much weight. I knew it before but I didn't think it showed so much. It's probably because I'm extremely short and have a naturally stocky build. I don't get plump and curvy, I just look like I should be harvesting beets in the old country. I want to be pretty and feel good about myself and maybe have the confidence to cosplay again one day. It's so frustrating. When I was younger I'm not sure if I necessarily had an eating disorder but I'd skip meals a lot, and I was pretty skinny. It's messed up but that's the best I've ever felt about myself.