/cgl/ - Cosplay & EGL

>mfw none of my precious lolita packages made it home before weekend

So I'm a daily lolita and sometimes I get these seasons when I get super anxious about people paying attention to me and I lost all inspiration in coording. Normally I couldn't care less what people think and don't even notice the stares. I'm in the middle of this kind of season right now but this time I'm also going back to school after over two years. Socializing is super hard for me and I have zero friends because I'm too awkward to hang with people in smaller groups than meets. I'm just wishing I can do my best and friend someone but I'm afraid my anxiety will ruin me. I'm just so afraid no one wants to deal with me because of my clothes even though I have only had positive experiences from wearing lolita to school. I just have to keep in mind that even if I'm completely alone my mine goal is to study there and not make friends.
>mfw afraid even an anime club is gonna reject me