/cgl/ - Cosplay & EGL

>dressing in lolita is the only thing that made me happy
>was able to calm suicidal tenancies with it
>after two years, dressing in lolita does nothing for me
>27 years old and never had a fulfilling relationship, just one years ago where i was pressured into by someone who threatened to kill himself if i rejected him
>only ever fall for guys painfully out of my league so i can never get in a relationship
>not willing to lower my standards because i'm a retard
>feel unbearably lonely
>only real friend killed himself last year
>try dressing up extra pretty today to see if it works, taking like 3 hours to do my hair, makeup, and nails
>look in mirror
>literally just fall back into my bed and sob unbearably
>buy helium tank, oven bags, plastic tubing, and plumber's putty from amazon
>package will be here next week

i just wanted my last thoughts said somewhere, i'm not looking for help

it's been nice being a part of this community, girls

>>8457824
Seagull Canti here. Sorry you couldn't find me.

One thing that got me was that while at the entertainment hall someone asked if I was from League of Legends. Didn't know how to reply to that.