/cgl/ - Cosplay & EGL

>be me
>have pretty obscure dream dress, only pops up every once and a while and in both the wrong cut and color every time
>see listing on LM
>right colorway but different cut
>super duper cheap
>buy it anyway because it's the closest thing i've seen to it being sold

it's an abstract feeling, but dang it was super cheap and i'm happy to have it in the right colorway! i hope i find the combo of right cut and color one day, but i feel a lot of satisfaction for right now. especially because i've tried getting this dream dress twice and been snubbed both times (like the listing was already sold but it was still up for some reason)

i want to start up my own lolita lifestyle blog, vlog, anything, but the idea of being noticed and watched by people scares the hell out of me. not to mention a lot of lolita vloggers seem kind of vapid (unboxing flavor of the month prints, hauls, etc.) and i'm afraid that my content wouldn't be up to snuff

i want all the fun that comes with blogging and starting a community and sharing a fun lifestyle without all of the attention it comes with. it doesn't make sense but sometimes feelers don't make sense. social anxiety is a bitch

somebody start making quality lolita content out of passion instead of a desire for minor e-fame so i can live my dreams vicariously through you