/cgl/ - Cosplay & EGL

I hate that my confidence has been the lowest it has ever been. I hate that I have what I perceive to be anxiety and I become a stuttering, blithering mess when trying to talk to people. I want to befriend people but I am so fucking terrible at it and I hate that I have such a defeatist view about this.

I'm going to another con soon and I'm terrified I'm gonna mess up when I want to talk to people and maybe befriend people because in the back of my mind I'm always going to think "they hate me, I'm a creep, why am I even trying, why am I not just content with loneliness?" I go to these things to try and meet people who also share my interests but I don't want to hurt anyone.