/cgl/ - Cosplay & EGL

>>10285887
Do you wanna be my gf all of that sounds wonderful

I cant get over my cosplayer ex gf. I don't know how. We did long distance for 10 years and are both massive spergs and we really got along well when we would meet up at conventions once or twice a year to cosplay together. Outside of those times though it felt like she'd forget I exist for days on end, not replying at all until she found some meme she needed to repost. It got really frustrating trying to connect with someone long distance that wouldn't reciprocate anything emotional. She would just send me stuff in the mail instead of actually spending time talking to me or playing video games with me. I don't know how I fucked everything up so bad asking for some genuine attention from my partner but she dumped me for it saying I'm emotionally abusive. It's been almost 2 months now and I don't know how to stop thinking about trying to fix this. I wish I could but I'm pretty sure it's not possible. She doesn't want anything to do with me anymore, and if I contact her it's just going to make everything worse. I have this cosplay mostly finished but I'm so depressed and I don't know if I can deal with cosplaying by myself. And I don't know if i can deal with seeing her there. Realistically it's my best opportunity to make some new friends though. I just can't decide anything right now.