/cgl/ - Cosplay & EGL

>>7842376
I like this person, but I'm not sure that we would make a good couple. I'm very serious with relationships and I can't really see us together for the long haul. They’re nice, with similar interests and not bad looking, but the initial attraction has kind of gone down a little. Attraction is important, but for me it’s much more important to have a stable lifelong commitment and as I said before I’m not really sure I feel ready to commit myself again to that kind of love. Also, this person has been depressed and also suffers from anxiety and so on. I feel like such a dickbag but it’s a major cause of concern for me. I almost died trying to handle my previous relationship and I’m not sure I’m able or willing to be that partner again. Which feels horrible because I know how devastating depression is and how incapable you are of controlling it.
It also doesn’t help that I am on the verge of going abroad again, for a much much longer time this time around. (Since I’m single I had no reason to decline the nomination.) My line of studies and work will make me travel a lot, and I need someone who is willing to see the world with me and work in a similar capacity. To be crass we are miles apart when it comes to education and life goals and I hate that it matters so much to me. When you are young you don’t think that stuff like education level and work matters that much but it really does. Thank you for listening anon, I just really needed to get it off my chest. My friends are out on vacation right now and I can’t reach them.