/cgl/ - Cosplay & EGL

> Three years ago
> End up hooking up with a cosplayer for a bit
>Tells me her dreams of getting engaged, married, all that stuff.
> We sleep together, she tells me her problems, etc.
>Start getting into her interests.
>Decide to surprise her by going to a con in her local area.
>Find her making out with her ex.
>MFW this drives me into a spiral of cynicism, self doubt and depression.

>two months after that incident, at another con.
>extremely jaded view of people.
>make friends with an Love Live cosplayer
>Her and I debate constantly over stupid shit
>Borderline hate each other but also like each other.

>Fast forward through 3 years of suffering, recovering alcoholism, and soul searching.

>Last November, ex girlfriend looks me up on tumblr, wants to rekindle
>She explains how it was both of our faults, but mainly mine that the events happened how they did.
>Meh, ok. I've been through enough shit, this can't be so bad.
>She's engaged to a nu-male cuck, and confides in me on how she misses the old days.
>get extremely uncomfortable, rant about this scenario to Love Live cosplayer.
>Love Live cosplayer offers to fake being my girlfriend to get her off my back. So it happens.
>Ex girlfriend gets off my case, I end up actually falling for Love Live cosplayer.

>January, confess to love live cosplayer about how I really feel about her through all of this.
> She tells me that she once liked me in that way, but she's seeing another girl.
>I go through a minor moment of self doubt , depression, etc. snap out of it
>Accept that I love my closest friend but know that I probably will never have her.
>February and now
>She keeps sending me lewd photos of her in VK sweaters and meme panties.

By this point, I've just stopped caring. Cosplay waifus in general either hate men, or are gay as fuck.