/cgl/ - Cosplay & EGL

I broke up with my boyfriend a week ago and just found out he's already fucked 2 other girls. It hurts because I loved him so much. My mental health issues (mainly BPD) impacted our relationship so much and made it so toxic that I had to leave for both of our sakes. I put him through the worst shit and emotional abuse and he only stayed with me because I'm the stereotypical pretty asian girl, but at the end he just got tired of my shit too and started abusing me as well. I know I have no right to be upset, and I'm not mad at all, just sad. I feel like I'll never be worthy of love since I'm just going to always be toxic and "crazy" until I get my mental health in check, which I don't know will ever happen. I'm in therapy already now, and trying to improve, but it's just so hard because the main flaws have to do with my terrible personality.