/cgl/ - Cosplay & EGL

>Supposed to meet friend for a picnic today
>Haven't had a chance to wear lolita in a while so put on a nice co-ord, excited to show it off
>They text me to check if I'm coming
>text back to make sure of time, meeting place
>don't get any reply
>really out of character from them
>Send a couple more texts, worry if they're okay
>End up changing out of lolita and into normal clothes, start laundry because I really need to do it, also get massive headache because why not
>Finally get a text back from them
>"Hey are we on for today"
>No, you don't get to worry me and then when I finally get on with the stuff that needs doing hours after we were supposed to meet finally reply
>Three minutes later
>Realise from their phrasing they probably haven't received any of my texts all day
>Now hungry and sad and not dressed up and way behind on things I need to do before graduating and moving out
>Probably not going to get another chance to hang with this person before graduation next week, or afterwards
>I'm the dumbest dumbass

>mental illness stuff flaring up since the start of the year
>missed half of the classes for my current modules
>Have to go back to class on monday or fail the modules due to not attending enough to learn the material
>Terrified of talking to presentation group for mandatory mini presentations for one of the modules
>can't really take year out and restart next year, financial reasons as well as I'd just stop being able to do it
>I'm three fucking essays away from finishing my degree
>have pretty much given up on anything higher than 2:2
>Just don't want to go on

It'd be the stupidest thing to quit now but I'm so fucking scared of everything. It should be possible to function normally but I've just spent a week trying to send three fucking emails and reducing myself to tears every time I try.

>Stressed out spending spree haul comes in
>most of it doesn't properly fit my bust
>Wouldn't be able to look nice in it anyway with my hair as ratty as it is right now
>Want to look cute but don't want to do anything involving hairdressers
>Hair hasn't been cut since November
>Spots breakouts
>Can't stop tearing those up
>fuck off universe

I'm not really fit to be a human right now.

>Nearby comic convention posts tweets about this year's con
>Tables open next month
>Been ill and catching up on schoolwork for the past couple months
>Won't have time to polish up portfolio in time for table applications
>Probably wouldn't have time to get enough done for the con anyway, despite finishing uni this summer
>Wouldn't be good enough to sell anything yet anyway
>Maybe next year
>mfw I said basically the same thing the past two years as well

>tfw huge britbong arse

I already own both shorts and skirts, I didn't need that cute pleated axes femme shorts-skirt with the pockets anyway...