/cgl/ - Cosplay & EGL

>boring 3 year story of getting dumped and becoming "improved" self
>part of improving self was getting /fit/, improving skin, improving wardrobe, etc
>don't go to cons for 3 years while working ass off for money and gains in cocoon mode
>perhaps finally "made it"
>feel weak as fuck despite lifts being competitive at the regional level
>feel ugly and gross because normies shit talk when at the grocery store or mall
>basically dress in rags covered in dog fur because feel harassed by normies when dressed nicely
>don't even want to cosplay now
>can't even enjoy cons without ex
>family says i have body dysmorphia
>even /fit/ says it's body dysmorphia
>fill up taobao and aliexpress carts with cute clothes but never buy them
>plan to go to cons and even buy or make cosplays but never go