/cgl/ - Cosplay & EGL

Hey gamers, I feel like I've been venting to my friends way too much recently and I feel like they're getting annoyed with it even though they always say it's fine, so I'm going to come here to vent a bit instead.
I'm asking my cosplay crush out next week and I'm so fucking terrified. Despite this being my first time really asking a girl out, I'm not actually nervous about asking, that's the easy part. I'm just terrified that I cant really fill the role in her life that I want to or that she wants me to. I just want to be able to make her smile and laugh, I want the two of us to have fun together and enjoy each other's presence but I'm so scared that I won't be able to provide that for her. I'm so bad at talking to people it's physically painful. I don't think I've made her genuinely smile or laugh once, on the other hand talking to her makes me so happy it's like nothing even matters. It's so one sided I don't think a relationship can be sustained like that.
I'm not going to give up on asking her, and I think she'll say yes to a first date, I just can't bring myself to believe that I can really support a relationship with her in the long term. I was super optimistic just the other day though, so I guess this is just the natural ups and downs.