/cgl/ - Cosplay & EGL

Anyone want to get drunk and have me explain my thoughts on what happens after death Thursday night?

2020 is the year I get a lolita gf

Hi. I heard from another board there's girls here. Real, biological girls. Is this true?

>Have online harem
>Have several wives that I actually adore dearly
>Especially one that I planned to meet up with relatively soon because she was only a few hours away
>She leaves because she was apparently confessed to by someone else that she adored
>Heart is sad but brain is numb because because I've always mentally prepared for this since everything was just online, and too busy getting into med school to feel sad

Nothing may have been important or real with anything online, but reading her message while I was purifying mutant protein in my research lab
That
That was an absolutely shitty feeling

>>8593677
I can relate.
>Be closet weeb
>At grandparent's house
>Avatar marathon
>Partially hiding behind couch sister is on
>Feigning disinterest on my phone
>Uncle walks past
>Oh, I didn't know you were into anime!
>10 minutes later cousin walks past
>Oh, you're into anime?
>Weeb career compromised by western cartoon and apparently invisible phone

>have tiny group of friends I see at a local con each year
>have next to zero cosplay talent but enjoy being around them
>still feel horribly awkward no matter what since I'm the only male

I want to ask for help with learning to sew and want to be a regular part of their discussions but I always feel guilty when I do so, like I'm intruding on a girls-only club, so I don't. If I'm not drunk, I just end up feeling terrified that if I try to be too friendly they'll get the wrong idea and things will be weird, but on the other hand I know they're not really the kind of people who would react that way.

Rock and a hard place. At least they invite me to do things on occasion, so I know it's at least partially all in my head.

who kirigiri here

>does it have anything to do with Lolita/Jfashion, if yes, how so?
sometimes yes, sometimes I feel very shy going at meetups and afraid ending up everyone hating me because I don't know how to make friends or appear simpatic or even start a conversation with strangers in a way that makes me get along with them in the future, getting a conection with them

>if its unrelated to Jfashion, what's keeping you down?
usually when I feel bored that keeps me kinda depressed and it's hard to find something that amuses me. Anyone ever felt this way? Feeling drepressed when bored?

>does your depression affect your style in any way?
yes, when I'm drepressed I don't feel like dressing up in lolita

>do you wear Jfashion less because of it? how often do you wear it now?
yes, I'm wearing full lolita fashion only at meetups (the last meetup I've been was about 4 months ago). But other Jfashion than lolita (like gyaru clothing and seifuku) I can wear everytime I go out with friends

>what do you want, or what could make you happy?
oh srsly...I don't know. It makes me happy when I buy cute things from internet...but I know that has nothing to with my sadness

>list your dreams, no matter how unrealistic they may be
A totally cute wardrobe, get thin, get in a course that I really like, find a way in my life, travel to japan someday or to another country with my boyfriend or my bestfriend, make my own print and dress, have lots of friends, having fun going out with them, accept myself the way I'm but at the same time looking beautiful, learn 3 languages well, feel needed by my future lots of friends, maybe being adimired by others a bit, having fun everyday in some way

>how are you feeling today?
a bit sad, a bit bored