/cgl/ - Cosplay & EGL

>>9063116
I don't have one, and I'm not wanting to get in debt. Also due to this emergency, I leave the country in two days, and I'm too busy so I can't even get one even if I wanted to acquire some sweet sweet dream dress debt.
RIP me . I've been non stop looking since I got into the fashion, it was literally the dress that made me need lolita, but I was too much of a poor student to justify spending crazy money on a dress back then. It's at the lowest price I've ever seen it and it's the version that's suitable for my giraffe body.
Basically just kill me.

I had a dream about Kate
Last time everyone was like 'hi kate'. I don't like the girl and didn't before I dreamed about her.

>roaming around a mall/train station in lolita.
>I'm locked in, most of the shops are shut but trains are still running, they run super fast and always take me back to the mall
>the ceiling is really high then suddenly really low, the floor goes up and down as well
>it's huge and a labrynth, pretty trippy

>see Kate behind a closed shop shutter (shop looked like WHSmith, if you're a britfag)
>she's wearing a white and mint coord, whatever, she's just standing there
>open the shutter and go in, I have a conversation with her
>she was nice and seemed genuine.
>turns out she was looking for her husband, seems worried
>tell her to stay there, I'll look for him (because apparently I have nothing better to do)
>off I go

>just wandering around, exploring the train platforms, looking in shops for this guy
>while going up an escalator I see her husband behind a closed shop shutter, like Kate was
>why the fuck I can subconsciously remember what her husband looks like in detail is beyond me, but whatever
>o shit
>he's kissing a short brunette girl
>mfw
>go back to find Kate
>shit's like a maze, takes me ages but I'm stalling because I don't want to tell her
>get back finally, she's standing where I left her
>break the news to her
>she's chill about it?
>she seems a bit disappointed but her reaction is like 'oh well', she's still super nice

>she's like 'I think I'll be on my way soon' so I leave as well, I have important dream shit to do apparently
>wake up
>fuckin weird

You know when you dream about someone doing something horrible and you wake up hating them? I had the opposite. I woke up like 'maybe she just needs another chance'

>get on cgl
>oshit last night she was outed for self posting while I was dreaming
>do I still think she's cool?
>hell no, I'm salty again

Moral of the story: people aren't like you dream they are so always stay salty

>con coming up
>had tons of shit planned, have everything bought
>excited to work but no motivation to do anything
>sleeping all day, cant stay awake more than 5 hours
>missing school
>doing nothing, hating self
>invite friend over to help work
>end up napping the whole time/just watching tv
>finally want to work
>work for 3 hours and then pass out
>wake up and cant bring myself to keep working

im miserable & i dont know how to get out of it

>>8947569
>especially when the whole fucking point of cosplaying is to have fun. its in the fucking name: costume PLAY