/cgl/ - Cosplay & EGL

>be me
>start acting as myself and socializing a bit more
>even befriend a thug-looking normie who ends up loving memes
>become friends with a qt girl who loves the same series I do, lives relatively close to my city, has connections within the cosplay community, always has time for me, worries constantly about me and how i'm doing (but also respects my private space and has never been creepy or stalker-ish), literally everything i could ever want from a gf
>suddenly my depression gets worse
>ghost literally everyone, stop talking or saying anything unless it's crucial, barely use facebook and also block her because she's too good for me
>want to start anew and become a badass chad but i don't even have the motivation to workout and i've realized that if i become a chad i'll never be able to cosplay as edgy animu pretty boys, but at the same time i'm too depressed and self-conscious to do that anyways
>mfw i've become a literal NEET