/cgl/ - Cosplay & EGL

I'm ugly.
Like, not "average", ugly.
I mean, it's not like I don't have other qualities, sure they mayn't be all that special and I'm not a really interesting person but I've been doing fine in life without looks so far.

But shit, it's getting harder as I age:

As a kid, I was ugly plus I had a monobrow and shit hair, and my mum forbid me to pluck it and style it despite me getting teased in school. When I was five, all the little girls were getting compliments for their looks and people were cooing over my sister "awwww look how cute she is", but with me it was always "oh... Is... Is this your child? I... I heard she's very smart..." or they'd call me polite and compliment my manners and leave it at that.
Now it's not as bad but it's still pretty shit. I have yellowish pasty skin that makes people think I look sick, big eye bags, shit brown hair that makes my skin look even cottage cheesier and sicker, a fucked up nose that people call "aristocratic" which is just polite-talk for "ugly", and people say it's good to have big eyes but fuck, mine look ridiculous because they are literally popping out of my sockets. On top of that I have droopy cheeks and laugh lines. Also I'm the only person I know that actually looks worse when she takes off her glasses.

People tell me I look "fine" but I broke off one of the only two relationships I was ever in because the guy kept trying to persuade me to wear makeup in my own house, while lazing around. The other ended because I was cheated on.

I also get shit on by girls who want to feel better about themselves and get laughed at for saying I'm single at 25. Even my mum doesn't push me into marriage like she does my sister. Hell, my sister's friends don't even know she has a sibling.
I don't know the point of this, I just need to tell someone. I don't lack confidence, I'm always friendly, but I'm not a guy who can get ahead by just having confidence and "game".
TL;DR: lock me in a bell tower