/cgl/ - Cosplay & EGL

>Buy things in January
>Feel regret for spending money
>Be frugal all of February
>Get immense need to splurge in March

How do I stop flip flopping like this? I've usually been good with money by saving for cons, larps and ren-faires, but since everything is cancelled I've started leaning more into purchasing lolita things online. I never regret the purchases themselves, since it has always been things I genuinely want. But it felt like a rush of cold water in February when I saw that I had spent more than I earned in January... So how can my heart be hell bent on blowing money like hell now that a month has passed?? This wavering financial heart of mine keeps reassuring me that I am good with my finances, have more savings than most people my age, and since February passed frugally I am obviously able to live through rougher times if I decide to rein the spending in.

My main tripe is probably how I'm troubled if it's actually a wise decision to even TRY to buy an Enchantlic Enchantilly lucky pack. I like the brand, but what if I get colours I don't like? I haven't bought a lucky pack before.

>>9892788
>>9892794
I don't think you understand me. Just because he thinks I'm cute doesn't mean I feel cute 100% of the time. Having a loving partner isn't the same thing as achieving happiness.

When I'm around people I don't think about it too much, but maybe when I visit the bathroom and see my face in the mirror I just feel a pang of ugliness. Consider the image I posted in my previous post. It's nothing I can fix with makeup, it's just the shape of my jaw and how the muscles morph. I am able to hate it at times, but I try not to, obviously.

This is a board dedicated to very superficial hobbies and beauty related things. I myself got into this fashion because I enjoyed the happiness that fluff and frills instilled in me. No matter how well I dress my face will always be my face, so I'm looking for advice on how to deal with that physical part of me.

>>9568136
I feel this as fuck Anon, I never look good anymore imo. I'm starting to really consider plastic surgery.

this is silly

>bf loves short hair
>i have short hair
>debating on growing it out
>but the bf loves short hair

what do?

>>9456731
>one guy I knew had a shitload to sell because him and all his friends bought them
Disgusting scalpers, there's so few seats in the pit that you could potentially end up with people who paid months ago for early access not getting any because of that kind of stuff.

>everyone wants day 0
That's the power of Idols, I suppose. The Day 0 VIP honestly isn't even as good as Day 1 since it doesn't include a hi-touch invite, only some vague goodbye event that the AX staff can't explain.

I just found out that 4 years ago my grandma bought me a $50 gift certificate from AP USA for Christmas and it never showed up, but they took the money out of her account. So thanks AP USA for stealing $50 for my grandma who was trying to support my weird hobby.

>playing 3DS
>eyes start feeling weird, think it's the screen hurting my eyes
>put on glasses
>realize I'm having trouble seeing out of my right eye, it feels foggy
>start feeling a bit faint
>decide to take a shower to feel better
>feel physically stable but weak and still having trouble seeing out of my right eye
>finish shower, still feeling bad
>lay down
>realize I'm forgetting certain words while thinking
>see my cat laying on the windowsill; can't remember the word "windowsill"
>feels like my physical body and my consciousness are separating
>tell my bf I feel weird, saying normal sentences but not sure how I'm talking
>right arm and some of my mouth/tongue start going numb
>wake up numb parts of body somehow
>go to sleep in the hopes that I'll feel better
>wake up 2 hours later with a splitting headache
>next day do some research
>mfw I had a fucking stroke

I'm seeing a doctor tomorrow. It sounds like a minor stroke, one that lasts less than 24 hours and has no brain damage. I'm probably going to need to get an MRI and blood work done. I'll also probably have to go on medication for it. I feel like this could ruin my life, especially if I actually have a real stroke, which mini strokes are a sign of. My family has no history of strokes. I don't understand why this is happening to me.