/cgl/ - Cosplay & EGL

I really want a Roland for a particular coord, but they just don't come in the colour I need. I could sew one using the two I already have to make a pattern, but I don't want to be labelled a replica-chan. I was thinking I could use a different material and decorate it heavily, but everyone will still be able to tell that the base is copied off a Roland.

I could also change the coord to use one of the Rolands I already have, but I do want to decorate the coat and I don't want to ruin my actual brand ones.

What should I do?

My self-confidence in almost everything to do with lolita and lolita community has gone down the toilet in the last 2 weeks or so. Nothing really happened, I just feel like absolute shit and an ita waste of space. I love my comm and try to help out people when they're struggling, but I worry that my lolita friends will ditch me when someone more fun or more helpful comes along. I try to show support for my favourite lolitas on their social media, but I don't know how to ask for support for myself and I'm scared people think I'm weird or hitting on them when I comment positively on their things. I want to feel loved and like I'm part of the community, but every attempt to be friendly just makes me feel more anxious even if it was normal or went perfectly nicely. I used to get out of funks like this by putting on good music and looking through to my clothes to remember what I loved about them, but recently my style has been in flux. I feel bored with the substyle I used to focus on and like an imposter in the one I'm more drawn to. I don't know what I'm doing and I feel very alone.

I've grown out my hair to almost waist length and cut it appropriately for lolita but I feel like no matter what I do, I'll never look as good as the girls who wear wigs. Part of it is that my hair is thick, poofy and hard to wrangle into a pretty shape, but also even if I do manage to style it well every coord is limited by its colour and texture. I could just wear wigs like the rest of my comm but I think I'm doing something wrong when I wear them. They always look ugly and unreal on me, and they're so uncomfortable and impractical.

>want to be a writer and do an MA in Creative Writing
>working on a romance novel about two lolitas from very different backgrounds
>tfw no self esteem or self belief
>tfw very good at editing but can't take criticism
>tfw going to study Publishing instead so I can unleash my salt on other wannabe writers

ooo i have a few! some old some homemade