/cgl/ - Cosplay & EGL

I'm getting lonelier and lonelier as my friends are being productive in their lives and getting more opportunities while I officially became a NEET as of a few days ago. I have below-average social skills and I'm very quiet as a result. My depression and apathy has stunted my growth and opportunities. I've become boring. I've always been a little boring, but it's worsened since I gave up my only hobby: drawing. I passively want to get back into it again, but motivation is fickle and my willpower weak. I don't see a reason to do anything. I'm really tempted to post in the Friend Finder thread, but even though I love anime I find it difficult to talk about, and this is a weeb board so you're expected to hold conversations on it. I want to play tennis and go hiking with people. I want to spontaneously invite people to take a day trip with me to big cities. I want to go to cons and help friends prep their cosplays. It's not as if I have low self-esteem or confidence when it comes to making friends. I'm friendly and outgoing for an introvert and I know I can make friends easily. The issue is with keeping the friendship alive. I'm boring and bad with words so it's hard to hold a conversation.

t. a very pathetic person