/cgl/ - Cosplay & EGL

Not really sure if it belongs here but it's a sad story nonetheless.

>first time wearing lolita, I was 14/15 years old and a huge ita/weeaboo
> go to first meetup with weeb friend and we were both really excited, loud and just emberrassing.
> Really horrorstory-tier obnoxious, I still feel sorry for those lolita's back then.
> Few weeks after the meetup an older friend who had been in the comm longer told me people were making toxic secrets about me, drawing over photos etc.
> Get the hint I'm not wanted and stop wearing lolita.

>four years later, I grew out of my weeb phase and behave like a decent person now
> Still too emberrassed to wear lolita again because of the bad first impression I left
> Still friends with the one lolita that introduced me to the comm years ago.
>She says there's a meetup in my hometown soon and I should try going
> I still have one decent non-ita dress I impulse-bought some time ago.
>Decide to go, try make some loli friends and don't weeb out.

>Arrive at meet, only find one recognizable face from old comm.
> I'm a bit shy but having fun with these new people, everything is going smoothly
> Until that one old member recognizes me, she starts yelling how she still remembers me
> She starts telling all the emberrassing shit I did four fucking years ago, in little details, loud enough for everyone to hear.
> I couldn't tell from her shit eating grin if she did this on purpose to be bitchy or if she really doesn't know how to behave herself.
> Try to brush it of like ''haha yes I was such a stupid kid'' but feel like dying on the inside.
> Leave meet half hour later because I felt so judged, never wore lolita fashion again.

I still love lolita fashion but I'm not sure if I'll ever have the guts to wear it again. I feel like my ita past will haunt me forever if I try. Maybe as a lone lolita..

Really stupid question but does anyone know if the Koningshof has showers you can use when you don't have a hotelroom? (like a sport/swimming facility??)
My cosplay involves bodypaint and I don't want to be purple at deshima.

> be a noob working on a prop a day before con.
>Need to spraypaint but it's winter and it's pouring outside
> whatever I'll just spraypaint in the garage
> Being a stupid noob I forget to cover eyes,mouth etc.
>close door because it's cold
>start spraypainting like a madman because I had a lot of stuff to do and so little time
> When done, I began to feel dizzy and got trouble breathing
>Sneezed, and bright blue spraypaint coming out of my nose.
>Jezus what have I done
> doubting if I should just wait for it to go over or get help because I didn't know if the paint was toxic.
> Lungs are getting heavy, throat burns and I began to panic.
> Call doctor but they don't know what to do with my stupidity
> They gave me some anti- allergic reaction meds but ofcourse it didn't help much.
> Sit outside rest of the day like pic related.
>Next day at the con my throat was so sore I could barely talk.
I bought this upon myself.