/cgl/ - Cosplay & EGL

>>9808195
>>9808199
Your weakness fills me with disgust.
Try being born into wrong body. Every day having to live a lie, pretending to be someone else. And if you try to be yourself, you are constantly conscious about something being off about yourself. I had courage to do that twice, both times I got to experience weird looks. I don't know if I was doing something wrong, if I was too brave clothing into lolita, or if I just looked so off and disgusting. Every day I'm thinking why I'm alive, every day I'm considering suicide. I don't know if I can be myself, if I can ever be happy. I'm fighting every day against odds. I dropped out from school due to depression, but I got up, got a job, tried to live. Now I'm risking losing it all, trying to become myself, trying to grasp happiness. I'm still fighting, I'm still trying to live.
Not getting high enough scores? It's just school. Get a hold of your life. Find someone to talk about your problems with, a professional. Talk to your parents about their expectations, because you might have false image of the situation; I don't think they care about grades more than about your happiness.
You definitely are an idiot thinking that killing yourself is a good idea.