/cgl/ - Cosplay & EGL

>Be super confident teenager, don't care who thinks what about what I wear/look like
>Ita af, wore lots of bright colors and dumb things, grow into a fashion sense eventually and look pretty cute
>Still a broke teen tho so no actual lolita, just normie store jfash inspired shit
>Always got compliments on my outfits, people would call me Barbie, etc
>Get older and start working more/ going out less, get depressed from lack of fun in my life
>Loose all confidence
>Able to afford lolita and nice clothes now but too ashamed and embarrassed to do so/no where to even wear it
>Where did all my dumb teenage confidence go?

>Bf and I talking about our tax returns
>Last year my whole tax return went to paying for our first con of the season, hotel, tickets, cosplays, ect
>I ended up paying for all con hotels, tickets, and most cosplays last year bc he's irresponsible
>Say I'm afraid I might not get much this year due to one job failing to take out taxes half the time
>He mentions he's expecting his tax return to be over $1000
>Excitedly reply that he could pay for the first con this year
>He gets angry and asks why I can't just be happy for him
>Mfw