/cgl/ - Cosplay & EGL

>>9864444
>>9864445
I can't accept that, anons. I am not going to spend a hundred dollars for six hours with someone whose job is having sex. God knows i'm a emotional little fucker so i'm going to get attached to the girl, too. Not to mention i'll probably tell her about my fucked up childhood and teenage years like I do with nearly every girl I meet.

I know my huge curiosity on sex holds me back, but the way I see it, the desperate options don't work - in one end, it's doing fucking nothing. On the other end, it's escorts.

I know that magically I won't get my virginity lost. What I lost is my hope, in a way. I admit the possibility of paying a hooker sometime, but now, I cannot fathom it, anons, do you get me? It's the only tiny bit of honor, and hope, that I still have somewhere.

And thus I am in this sort of existential limbo: while I have the desire to have sex, and to have relationships, I can't have sex or have relationships, and that makes me not want to have sex or relationships - but I have the desire. And it goes on.