/cgl/ - Cosplay & EGL

>have condition called dysesthesia, basically messed up sense of touch all over my body
>certain fabrics feel like they're wet or slippery on my skin, others feel like they burn me or prick me. One of the biggest issues is clothing, pretty much naked in my room whenever I'm by myself
>always wanted to put together a lolita coord despite having this condition and despite being a man, probably because I watch too much anime and I want to feel kawaii
>buy pieces here and there over the last few months
>finally try everything on today
>headdress irritates my scalp
>knee-highs feel like spiders crawling on me and I have to take them off immediately
>bloomers feel like slippery goo where they meet my skin (thighs and bit of stomach), and when I walk around in them it gives me an uncomfortable boner which won't calm down until I stand still
>dress feels like a warm blanket on my chest and is really comfy (positive)
>tried putting on makeup but foundation was tickling my face too much
>basically flailed around like an inflatable tube guy because of all the weird sensations I was feeling and probably would look retarded in public
I know I set myself up for disappointment, but I still feel sad. I don't know if I should spend more money trying different items and fabrics trying to make it work or just sell what I've already got.