/cgl/ - Cosplay & EGL

just venting

>be me
>actual fag. only like girls.
>somehow fell in love with two boys at once
>sexuality is weird and this is fucking proof it is not a choice
>”been poly w girls, why not boys?”
>well can’t date both bc boys are too scared to get cucked
>further proof not a choice
>sigh

>ffw a year
>just celebrated one year anni with one of them.
>live together for 8 months now and talking about engagement
>absolutely fucking adore the boy i’m with and couldn’t be happier
>i think????
>desperately miss talking to the other one
>both super supportive of cosplay and lolita

i really fucking miss boy 2. i know i broke his heart by turning him down bc he really opened up to me, but i miss the friendship we had. i just couldn’t see a future for the two of us, he’s a successful guy vs me, who works multiple part times to just stay afloat.

idk what i even want to hear from this vent, it’s just been on my mind and i have no friends outside of work that i can vent to about this