/cgl/ - Cosplay & EGL

>lurk in LJ and tumblr lolita communities for 10~12 years throughout school
>finally graduate and get a decent job that i can start investing into the hobby with but now i have crippling body dysmorphia

i usually feel a little better about myself when wearing lolita because i don't have to worry as much about parts of my body that send me into an episode, but it flares up a lot when i'm thinking about new pieces because i get anxious people will somehow notice my insecurities and point them out

are there any other gulls with BDD who have had this problem? i know there's a large overlap between BDD and eating disorders so if there's any applicable advice i'll take anything- it just sucks constantly being paranoid that everyone thinks im some kind of deformed freak for no reason