/cgl/ - Cosplay & EGL

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>use to live in LA
>AX 2017
>last day
>get invited to a hotel party
>a few lolitas are there
>one of them is the most beautiful girl I've ever seen. the moment I saw her I knew I could fall in love with her. She had a smile that could make a grown man cry. My eyes focused on her lips as she talks, the softest and most delicate thing in the world, its not even fit to exist on this cruel planet. The way her pale skin and rosey cheeks contrast her colorful outfit. The way her slim legs wrapped in white stockings travelled up her poofy dress (AP romantic rose) . I want her to have my children.
>usually (especially back then) I'd never dream of approaching such being. But i was just the perfect level of drunk and courageous that night
>wait until shes alone and strike as shes getting herself a drink
>my autism doesn't kick in and end up having a great convo with her
>chat with her the rest of the night and end up walking her back to her room.
>we end up making out for an hour until her friends drag her back to her room
>we exchange numbers


>I'm in a relationship
>yes I'm a pos
>realize it and ghost lolita gorl despite me not being happy with my current relationship and wanting to get to know LG more
>I know if we keep talking she will ask for my social media and she will find out I had a gf and she will know I'm a pos


>a few months later I move to austin and incidentally break up with gf
>lonely af in Austin and start creeping on LGs instagram.
>make fake insta account
>pretend I'm lolita and dm her about her ax17 coord
>gives me a list of everything shes wearing
>not really interested but I enjoy talking to her, even like this.
>find out she has a bf now
>devastated
>become obsessed with recreating her
>buy her entire coord for some reason (not from her, sourced individually)


>years later I still have it and have tried to get partners to dress up in it, to limited success.