/cgl/ - Cosplay & EGL

Well, I had this Lolita meetup for my local comm in a big city, would have been my first meetup...

I’m transgender and suffer heavily from Dysphoria and kinda went down a depressive spiral because of it, day of the meetup. There’s the added factor that people already have treated me weirdly because of wear my first coord (catcalling, drunken people making stupid comments) , as well as being hyper aware of some stupid hypocritical fear I have as being perceived as a weird fetishist. I just don’t know how to deal with these stupid feels