/cgl/ - Cosplay & EGL

>>8180181
Thanks for the luck! And are you me?

That's exactly what I've always wanted, especially if it's in a cubicle. My fiance thinks I'm weird but is now fully supporting me in this decision because he realizes that I'll truly be happy sitting at a desk filing paperwork for a modest pay. You bring me hope that I'll get there someday.

>I'm attracted to people that I feel connected to on an emotional level
>for this reason I have huge crushes on all my friends

>Conventions are awkward for me because my friends all change in the same room/cuddle up with me in bed sometimes
>can't let them know how gay I am for them

So Hungover Me got woken up by an email saying that the auction for some ouji pants Drunk Me bid on last night ended successfully. Drunk Me is too much of an idiot to check measurements properly and also has no idea what things cost. These pants better goddamn fit.

>usual SS suddenly stops being good
>Tenso doesn't mark down fees
>other SS I've used before either closed or crap
I just wanted some cute animu goods...

>>8180352
I feel you. I always tend to develop crushes on my con friends.


also
>tfw just ran out of hot glue while making something

>>8180346
I do not feel like wearing anything anymore
All my hobbies and all the things i liked seems dull now
I just cry all the time,feels disgusting,fat,ugly,undesirable,...
I just feel like dying /cgl/
I have no one in my life to talk too so i just wanted to vent here...

>>8181017
sounds like depression

seek therapy?

>Has a social disorder
>Also shy as fuck because of trauma
>Also a shut-in who gets depressed easily
>On medication but still is apathetic as fuck
>Doesn't talk to people unless they message me first
>Feels like friends dislike me despite being a huge group of friends
>Having trouble getting rides to cons now because I'm too shy to ask people
>Uses the excuse that I'm busy with school and work to avoid talking to people though

I feel like I'm a lost cause, because I like people but I also don't like talking to people.

>>8181017
I know that feel, its depression. When you're happy again you'll want to do all the things.

I want to do a sisters cosplay with my little sister, but she doesn't cosplay and we live far away.

I am such an idiot. My depression hit me full force recently so I finally refilled my prescription, but it's too late. I've been overeating like crazy and I didn't even notice how much weight I had gained until lately because I think I was avoiding the scale. I'm almost back to my heaviest.

Normally I wouldn't be so upset because I can always lose it again, but I applied for a fashion show happening in less than a month and I weigh 10 lbs more now than when they accepted my application. My measurements are bound to be a little different. Now I probably won't fit into what they give me to wear and I'll embarrass myself and possibly blacklist myself from modeling for them again. I fucked up so bad.

There's no way to get back to my original weight in time, but I'll stick to veggies and 5 days a week at the gym so hopefully I can get close. I want to get rid of at least most of the chub I've gained back so my measurements stay similar to what they were. This is the worst.

>>8181274
... email the fashion show people?

>>8181028
You sound like me except that huge group of friends part.

I mean, I have a couple acquaintances but I don't really message them because I'm scared of coming on too friend thirsty.

Social disorders and being shy because of trauma sucks.
Jesus, I know thow that feel so I want to help you but I know the feel so hard I can't

>>8181028
I'm not on meds yet but I know those feels anon, even if my issues aren't mostly focused on social issues. Though I was full agoraphobic NEET for a bit.
Just do your best and try to push yourself a bit out of your comfort zone. Just try asking someone you know how they've been, I promise it'll feel better to get it done even if it's a bit of a struggle for you. That's what I've been doing with one of my closer friends, and it's helped get some of the anxiety over that sort of thing away.

Since about a year ago my grades have been getting worse and worse. It's just this horrible cycle where I notice my grades are slipping, so I get anxious and turn to my hobbies to escape, which causes my grades to get even worse, etc.
It's at the point where this quarter I barely turned in any homework. It's now finals week and my entire grades depend on acing the finals because of how shit I've done but my school anxiety is so bad that I become, like, food-poisoning level nauseous whenever I even think about studying. I spent the past week or two focusing on cosplay and for a while I thought my anxiety was subsiding, but of course just as soon as I stop burrying myself in my hobbies, I wake up at 6am the next morning feeling sick to my stomach.

I started seeing a therapist but I need to find a new one and it feels so pointless that it's hard to push myself to look for a new one. Honestly the only reason I'm even doing therapy is so that when I explain to my parents that my grades have been bad because of anxiety they'll think I'm trying, but so far it hasn't seemed to help at all.

This happened before in high school and I immediately started acing my classes when I switched schools. The change of setting allowed me to put my past failures in the past or something. I can't switch schools as a senior in college, but maybe I should try taking a part time quarter? If I take an easy quarter and ace it maybe that will be the confidence boost that I need. Last year when I noticed my grades start to slip I took a quarter off hoping it would have a similar "reset" effect but my grades were just worse when I came back.

>>8181274
You still have time anon, maybe not for 10lbs, but you can definitely get your measurements down temporarily by then. Please take vitamins if you don't in the mean time if you're going to be extreme with your diet temporarily.

Try not to kick yourself so hard for something like this, depression does that.

>>8181288
I have this problem on a smaller scale, where sometimes things just seem to be slipping out of control, and I go to sleep miserable and put things off. Making a list of everything I need to do, making hyper-organized schedule, and sticking to it is the only thing that gets me back on track.

>>8181297
I have anyways had bad weeks and that sort of thing normally helps but lately I'm either nauseous (thus impeding on my ability to focus on anything other than not vomiting) or so mentally and emotionally disorganized that I actually cannot keep a lucid thought in my head for long enough to get it on paper. The few times I gave gotten a list together, I forget I even made it a few minutes later so I don't check it.

>>8181026
>>8181226
Aw anons...
Idk i even saw an anon telling a girl my height and weight she was fat and i bursted into tears over that what is my life.
I recently stopped cutting tho but i still hate myself so bad like real hate.
I'm getting therapy atm it's been worse since last years,

>>8181226
>i know that feel
I hope you're feeling better now anon

>>8181371
(for info i'm 120lbs for 5'3)
I also tried to wear a cute bra (i got identity issues,it'll pass but it sucks dragonballs) and bursted into tears in the changing room and cried curled up in a ball for 30minute because of seeing my body and the shitty light was showing the worst of me

>>8181380
What is my life even i should get slapped in the face for being so weak and bawwing about that
sorry for the triple post.

i feel like my birth control pills are making me stupid i started taking them a week ago for my period and ive been doing really stupid shit (like acting embarrassing and sending stupid messages and stuff idk) and i just spotted all over my white panties is it just me or are the pills changing the way i act and can i stop taking them out of nowhere or do i have to wean myself off

>>8181302
>>8181371
You should both consider anti-anxiety/anti-depressant meds.

>>8181028
Are you me anon?
Ive had a friend before argue with me because I don't care, but I seriously just never wanted to bother.

>>8181394
Yeah my therapist suggested that too. I'm not totally against it but I want to get a second opinion first, esp since I didn't really like/trust that one.

>>8181394
Taking them already anon i'm recovering but i'm feeling awful

>>8181388
It happens, mood swings and such, for a while. It sucks, try to stick to it enough for your body to get used to them, it's worth it in the end.
Good luck until then!

>live in TX, 24, graduated from college
>working in retail for a few months after graduating
>finally gets to go to big job fair I've been planning to go to for months
>got a job offer the day after the fair ends
>$9.75 an hour as a stitcher in a costume shop at a theme park, full-time on the East Coast
>THINKS OF ALL THE NEW CONVENTIONS I GET TO GO TO

Man, I don't know--- after being in Texas so long I've gotten tired of the local conventions. Friends are nice to hang with, but there isn't a big scene for the series I'm looking to cosplay here, so getting a new well-paying job AND the thought of being around others that cosplay from the same stuff???? GLORIOUS

>>8182055
Not to be a buzz kill but is $9.75 an hour a lot there? That's like almost min wage where I live.

>>8182073
not her but:

7.25 USD per hour (Jan 1, 2014)
Texas, Minimum wage

>>8182088
Yeah, but anon said they're moving to the east coast, min wage there is higher for most states

>>8182095
shit, missed that part. well, it probably seems big in her head.

>>8182073
>>8182088

This anon is right about minimum wage in Texas; it's suuuuper shitty so I am glad to be getting away from that. $9.75/hr is a pretty good rate for an entry level full-time job for theatrical work. Plus, I've already done more than my fair share of internships where I've worked full 40 hour weeks for only $200/biweekly, so getting paid a fair rate for every hour I actually work is really exciting for me.

Plus I can easily work way over 40 hours a week at this new job, depending on what kind of live shows we're working on and how close they are to performing!

>>8182159
Hey it's definitely a step in the right direction.

My husband recently took a second job to help clean up our debt and save up towards getting a house. If we lay our cards right we might get most of the debt paid off in a year.

>>8182159
Overtime? Nice. Well, thats cool you got a job in something you like. I would guess it's not easy to get a decent/steady job in that field. Hope you enjoy it anon!

>>8180346
>secretly fwb with someone i met through jfashion
>want to tell them i love them
>terribly afraid of fucking things up
>I just want to take care of them and make them happy
>mfw

>>8182337
don't do it anon, just wait. you'll fuck it all up. if you wait it will probably happen naturally on it's own.

>be in the process of losing weight
>see super pochaco measurements
>107-79-94
>mine were 109-76-95 before I started to lose weight
>missed my opportunity to be an attention whoring slut.

>>8182337
Just wait.
Conversely if you've got the ovaries, you could scream it during sex.
Guys have a fetish for that.

im >>8181388 i stopped taking the pills 2 days ago because i was getting like roid raged and ive had light cramps since then occasional very sharp headaches and ive been spotting anyone know whats going on?

>>8182337
Don't spaghetti anon

however maybe try talking about changing the fwb status.
Just be careful though and keep in mind they may not want the same thing

>>8182337
Do it now or forever hold your silence and watch him/her find love with someone who isn't you.

>con partner eats loudly
>not messily, not with his mouth open, just loud
>manages to fucking chew soft serve ice cream
>loudly

like what the fuck is going on, how is it possible for so much to be going on in one man's mouth without him being a slob? where are these smacking sucking slurping heavy breathing noises coming from and HOW can you CHEW ice cream? so confused rn

at cons at least it's so noisy his mutant mouth is drowned out by the squees and meme-calling of weeaboos

but then at the hotel he wants a snack and i want to sleep and all i can hear is

>shlurp smack chomp suckle snort chomp chomp slurp

>>8180786
if they don't fit just make Drunk You wear them instead

>>8183697
I feel ya, those people are the worst.
I've got a friend who always walks around houses barefoot and puts his feet up.
Near us.
In front of our faces half the time.
And then gets offended when I tell him to fucking put some socks on and plant his feet back on the ground.
Fuck I hate that, he's a good guy in every other aspect, but his god damned feta feet make me so fucking angry.

>>8181388
I started two weeks ago.I get mood swings occasionally but I see no difference,for better or worse.

>>8183759
>feta feet

i'm sorry anon for your suffering

>>8183793
He's my best friend man, but fuck the way he handles it just makes me want to savagely beat the shit out of him.
It's like, no dude, this IS a big deal. You aren't some dainty little girl with a fresh pedi, you're a god damned man with man feet in my fucking face.
So don't fucking tell me this isn't a big deal when you're propping your feet up right next to me when we're playing video games or so help me god I will lacerate your soles so horribly you won't be able to walk.

>>8183697
Perhaps he has some sort of respiratory issue, anon? My fiance eats and breathes very loudly because he has issues breathing steadily through his nose. Idk the science of it, but its possible.
Maybe he just has a very cavernous mouth, too?

>>8182337
Do it anon, but only if you're prepared to lose them if things don't work out. I held onto my feelings about my fwb for a long time, and by the time I just confessed both to him and to myself just how in love with him I was, things were so weird and convoluted and we had missed so many opportunities that nothing ever ended up happening for a variety of reasons.

>>8183759
bnakjklfandvie feet. ugh I hate feet so much, this would make me flip. I am so grossed out by feet, I truly think they are one of the grossest, ugliest parts of the human body (genitals aside) and I know it's ridiculous but I hate having feet to close to me. I'm so sorry for you anon.

>>8182337
>Be me, working at a Cafe
>Guy comes in all the time, he seems pretty cool, I remember his name because I have a cat with the same name.
>He's nice, kinda nerdy, my friend Rebecca thinks he's cute.
>Mention one day that I cosplay'd at the last Phoenix Comic Con, he says he wants to see it.
>At this point, he'd been coming in for about a year
>I happen to get a break as he's still here, sit down and chat with him about computer stuff and games and things
>Show him pics of Cosplay, he adds me on facebook
>Next day, he confesses his love for my feet in what is probably the most awkward conversation I've ever had with someone in my life
>I'm a straight guy who in no possible way has ever sent off anything close to a gay vibe to him or anyone in my life, and he's never even seen my feet because they're constantly behind a counter.

The moral of the story is, don't do things quickly. All I wanted was to be friends with the guy and he confesses his love for my feet.

>>8183870
Jesus

>staying at home for Mother's Day
>up late working
>decide to get a snack
>enter kitchen
>slugs EVERYWHERE
>some are as big as snakes
>NOPE.jpg

Now I'm tired, hungry, and horrified. They were all over the surfaces we use for cooking, and I don't think my parents have any idea they're there - they sleep at like, 10PM.

wtf do I do? I can't let my family live this way.

>>8183915
How do you think it happened?
>tfw crane flys won't stop getting into my laundry room

>>8183697
My grandma has this exact issue :( I hate being seated across from her at family gatherings because although she's lovely and kind all I can hear is SLURP CHOMP SLURP SLURP.

She's quite deaf, so I think maybe she can't hear herself doing it. Maybe that's your dude's issue? Or maybe in a noisy con environment, he can't hear?

Maybe he just never learned to chew properly. For the sake of his grandchildren, you should teach him.

>>8183915
We live in quite a rural area, and recently my dad removed the baseboards (I don't think it's actually called that but I mean the bottoms of the cupboards) and hasn't gotten around to replacing them yet. I assume that's how they're getting in, and I guess it's gotten this bad because neither of my parents are awake to see them.

Eugh, crane flies are the worst, I'm so sorry :( I always get rid of bugs by hoovering the whole area (even the walls and high-up places) and then making sure not to leave windows open when I'm not there to make sure nothing gets in.

...I'm a bit insectophobic.

>recently engaged
>right now "unofficial" because of ring in the mail
>only tell close friend and fiance's immediate family
>close friend hangs out today
>he's one of our only friends
>recently had heartfelt hangout with him about life and stuff
>he lets me handle one of his kitchen knives
>it feels like one of my Chinese cleavers
>I remember us telling him that we have no good knives
>I always complain about it
>he tells me that he'll get me one as an engagement present
>he's getting fiance something too
>mfw touched

If he's not Best Man, I'll be surprised as hell.

>>8183951
Aww, I'm happy for you anon! It's great that you're getting married, and great that you have such a nice friend to go through the whole thing alongside you. Congratulations!

>>8183920
>>8183947
Whoops, I meant to reply to your post. I'm so tired. Can't sleep, slugs will eat me.

>>8183960
Thank you so much! It feels really good.

>>8183920
Do you have a vent or extraction fan in your laundry room? That's where they're coming from. The flaps on the outside are probably stuck, or there might just be lots of dust in there.

>>8183951
That's great

AP get your shit together, I just want my Dream Marine made to order not yet another new print.
Why announcing it and then not doing it immediatly?

>>8183951
Sounds like you have a great life with some great people to enjoy it with. I'm happy for you.

What the hell has happened to my housemate?
>He's never been able to hold down a man for over 2 months, they've all been drama llamas
>seems ok with it but has been thirsty for cock lately
>meets a guy, dates him for 2 months then finds out the guy is asexual
>"oh well I've been chatting to another guy online for weeks now"
>Starts with new guy 3 weeks ago as a "fuck buddy"
>new guy is always at our house because his religious parents don't know that he's gay. We never see him as he's always hiding in housemates room
>suddenly yesterday housemate is severely passive aggressive towards bf and I
>complaining that I'm not chatty or overly friendly with his new "friend"
>complaining about money; that I need to pay him back faster than what we originally agreed upon
>my hobbies take up a lot of space but he should be used to that after 3 years, suddenly it's a huge problem
>that my bf doesn't pay enough around the house in spite of the fact he's offered to pay a share of the bills, cleans the most and cooks dinner nearly every night
>Housemate has cooked once in the last 2 years and is generally lazy and takes no pride in his home
>he leaves his computer open one day
>find out that he's "in love" with the new guy
>he's been looking for houses with his lover of 3 whole weeks
>I hope he moves out and gets screwed over by this guy so he learns a lesson

I wish I knew that this was going to happen. If I wasn't having to pay him so much every week I'd have the money to move out by now. Our house is tiny and my cosplay stuff takes up a lot of space so I'd rather that my bf and I get the fuck out of there to something bigger really soon. This was also a bad time to get my dream dress just in time for the next meet... now it just sits in my wardrobe gathering dust because I can't afford to get accessories to coord with it. I'm devastated and furious that someone so close to me has suddenly changed from being super sweet to a complete anus

I pretty much ordered two of these skirts and I'm so hyped over them. I only happened to find out about them from the AA group post showing up in my newsfeed, thank you facebook for not being shit for once.

The kickstarter isn't over yet and next stretch goal is a new skirt design, not sure if I want the option of a 4th design but at the same time I need it. The fact that it's not revealed makes me more indecisive.

>I'm having all of these clothes vs. money feels

>>8184163
Perhaps these problems have been there all along and you've been in the wrong, but until he had someone else pointing out the issues he didn't feel strong enough to confront you about them? Or his new lover is just way more picky and doesn't like you guys and nitpicks at you to him, and your housemate is picking up on his bad attitude?
Also, what do you owe him so much money for?

>>8184173
I owe him for an ambulance bill and rent that he paid for me when wasn't able to work because of my injury (car accident). My bf and I are not bad housemates; we've been happy until this point.

Just had to walk away from a relationship.

He's too immature, too many communication issues, taking me for granted, he seems to have trouble with empathy.

It hurts alot because I know he's going to regret this, I just want to stick by him or wait it out till he realizes he should treat me better, but I can't do it.

Also awkward because we're doing a few couples cosplays together in a few weeks.

>>8184171
all of me needs all of these

I started dieting to finally fit into my dresses again and it all went well until this weekend.

I majorly fucked up again, I forgot to sign up for my exam and since you can only take it once a year my I have to study at least half a year longer than I need to and I have to apply for my next degree a whole year later. Just because I forgot it. And I already forgot to sign up for another exam last year and swore to never forget it again.
I had a little break-down over it and a fight with my boyfriend, since I fucked up our future a little with my stupidity.
And of course I had to binge down 5 donuts to make up for my pain, had a massive stomachache over it and fucked up my diet. And if this wasn't bad enough for my diet, my bf's mom invited us to eat out all-you-can-eat for her birthday yesterday. My depressed brain was happy over the massive food intake, my stomach is still very unhappy.
So much about being a cute lolita soon.
I feel like a pig, I considered quitting it and selling my wardrobe but I will miss Honey Cake so much.

>>8184225
Relax anon, 5 donuts will not make you into a landwhale. Same goes for the all you can eat. If you're really worried just make sure to watch what you eat even more next week and go back to your usual diet the following one.

>>8183988
Omg,thanks!

My comm is so embarrassingly ita. I want to make a comm for all the good and salvageable lolis but the comm is so small that it would ruffle a lot of petticoats. I've given up trying to reply to one of the girls because she gets angry when you try to help her nicely. I feel like she should just go back to goth because she bitches so much about things that are important parts of lolita. That and she may be a compulsive liar because she told my friend she was short and chubby, then later told me she was really, really, tall. I haven't even seen the girl but I know she's unsaveable and ita because of what she says. I just want our comm to be nice and active.

>>8184255
I would suggest may trying to "nudge" people into improvement by providing links to cheap and cute things or something and being like "hey I was thinking of a group order"

Apologies for major rant incoming.

For the first time in a year I've been seriously working on a cosplay.

Problem is, it's only because I'm trying to get away from all the stress that's been going on since my father in law got diagnosed with pancreatic cancer.

I recently graduated and was going to spend a few months doing creative projects because I just spent a solid year working on my MA thesis with no breaks, and also need to get my career goals sorted out. And just as that happened, my boyfriend's family starts falling apart. It wouldn't be so bad (I'm not that phased by death and I firmly believe that these things can be overcome), but I moved to a foreign country to live with my bf, and I don't yet speak the language that well so I can't communicate with his family that great. So I just sit there and I can see all their problems and... Eurgh. It's really tough. Cancer is bad enough as it is, but all my family and friends are in other countries, and my few friends here live in cities I need to travel to, but don't have money for. I just feel so helpless and frustrated at everything, and I'm sick of spending time with my in-laws talking about death and how unfair life is all the time. I have a totally different attitude to them, but I can't communicate it, and even if I did it'd probably be taken as an attack. Meanwhile my bf is stuck with all their stress and doing all the hospital runs on top of an already stressful job because they have no friends and are cut off from their family. I'm trying my best to keep things happy, cook for everyone, I get all the housework done etc... But I can't even begin to think about my own job search/plans for the future right now. I don't resent it (no one asks for cancer) but it's frustrating because the worst things about this situation could be solved, if my in-laws weren't so stubborn and refused to ask for help. I don't even know.

You ever feel like your life is one big existential crisis that you try and moderate by filling it with various stimuli? New series to watch, new cosplays, conventions spaced throughout the year.

>>8181288
I feel like I have you problem too. I dropped a class due to it this year. Mainly I feel like my situation hinges not on what failure will bring, rather what the people around me will think of my failure. This most likely comes from a lack of attention form my parents as a child, and now that I'm older and they are paying more attention to me, the stress of failure causes me to fuck up.

What part of failure do you fear the most?

>>8184260
Yes. My studies are suffering under it majorly though since half of the time I want to start putting in effort and 2 hours later I feel like it's all useless anyway and should drop out.

And then I go browse random shit online to get my mind off it.

>>8184257
I've tried that and a few girls are down for it, but then there is ita-chan shitposting everything. I'm getting real tired of her negativity, like BtB tired. If I wasn't afraid of upsetting the other comm members I would have called her out. I'm not the only one who's at wit's end with her but it's so hard to just ignore her shitposting when it's half of what's on the comm page.

>>8183697
I know that feel. I have a PTSD trigger from the sound of eating (a real one, I was beaten pretty badly my entire childhood for making any noise while eating) and one of my closest friends has a throat and mouth disorder and can't help but eat really loudly. I love her to death, but I can't go near her while she's eating because of panic attacks. Thankfully she understands it isn't her fault and that it's just my brain being stupid so she doesn't get upset when I retreat. On a related note, she owes me money for some fabric I bought for our group cosplay, but she's a neet and has no money.

>>8184171
Oh my god. Those are cute as hell.

>have worked on making smallscale props before

Want to make this

http://yourheadcanon.tumblr.com/post/93934476422/the-parts-of-my-nano-shinonome-key

>Extremely overwhelemed about making it/confused

>almost a complete noob when it comes to props

>scared of fucking it up

>don't wan't to shell out too much money to commission it

this is going to cost me well over $100 to get commissioned

oh god what do I do

>>8184468
As far as electronics are concerned, all you need is a battery, the right resistor, and a small motor.

>>8184487
that sounds simple but I guess I'm way too overwhelemed by it. do you think it would cost over $100 to get commissioned?

>>8184468
Idk what you'd make the key out of, but after you rig the electronics, all you really need to do is fix it to the motor, and maybe add a few bits to keep it from grabbing your shirt.

>>8184490
Fuck no. You could probably build it yourself for somewhere around $35. Less than that, if you just use stuff you've got lying around. You certainly don't need to buy a whole fan just for the motor and driver.

>>8184490
>>8184468

A few tips though:
As a general rule of thumb, the bigger the battery, the longer it lasts. This all depends on the amount of power your circuit draws, of course, but a circuit with the same draw, using a larger battery will typically last longer

You can find the electronics you need at a place like Radio Shack. What I like to do is bust open old and broken electronics and salvage the parts, but you kinda have to have some knowledge of what things are and what they do. If you plan on building this completely from scratch, you are going to need to learn how to solder. I get the impression that the girl who made this didn't know how to solder, which is probably why they did go ahead and rip the parts they needed right out of a fan. But again, you are going to need some idea of what you're doing in order to get it right.

>tfw too much vinegar on your salad
lord almighty i cannot feel my tongue but it was good

>>8184514
>>8184500
>>8184492
>>8184487
>tfw you're giving me very helpful information but I'm still overwhelmed and confused
I should probably commission it, but I don't want to spend more than $75 on it.

>>8184189
>Also awkward because we're doing a few couples cosplays together in a few weeks.

So, you dumped him and are still going to cosplay together?

Don't do that, it won't be good for anyone.

>>8184546
If you know anyone who works with electronics, I would definitely ask them for help. That's probably the best advice I can give you

>>8184519
>eating vinegar

....what

>>8184567
>have salad
>put balsamic vinegar and olive oil on it
>?????????
>success

>>8181380
I'm pretty sure 120 at 5'3 isn't fat.

>>8184649
It certainly isn't skinny if you're a woman.

>>8184262
Pretty much same, although my parents have always paid attention to me (and expected a lot from me)
They've actually kind of understood even though I've been indirect and have basically told me "c's get degrees" which is definitely a shift from before lol. So that's good.

I think for me it's also like, with my learning disabilities, when I'm not doing something extra well and people are praising me and looking up to me, they're laughing at how bad I am at something else. So being smart and talented is kind of like, my armor I guess.

>>8181028
I feel u bad anon, so bad.
I'm the same in a way, I want to hug you tbh though.

Also just me, lost contact with 90% of my friends, too awkward to make new ones. Hoow;;

>>8184652
Do you think 110 lbs and 5'4 is bad?
Like I legit just gained 20 pounds and feel like a lardass and I need to know if everyone else feels the same of if they're just being nice.

>>8184669
No, that's actually okay.

>>8181380
>mfw not even 5'2 and comfortable winter weight is 120lbs
>decide to check scale for the first time in forever
>121 I can live with this
>squints at scale
>not 121
>127
>tfw never been this heavy in my life.
Time to get cracking on self improvement now that spring is here.

i'm mad because my boyfriend (25 years old) started to do ecstasy a couple of months ago and I don't like it. Every time he goes out with his friends he does LCD or smoke weed. In one hand, I give a fuck because he is not a loser, he works and study and he isn't doing hard shit like crack or meth, in which case I would dump his ass. The thing that really annoys me is that how lame can he and his friends be that they can't have fun without drugs? I cross the line saying that he is such a loser for now doing ecstasy, another drug between the other two and I hope he doesn't add a new one to the list.
I feel stupid for getting angry over this, but I can't help it and we are fighting for months over that because I randomly vomit my opinion. He told me that it's not my business because it's his body , which is true, but I can't be ok with that and I don't what to do.

>>8184872
>It's not my business because it's his body.

It's your business if you are in a relationship with him. I personally deal with drug addicts and alcoholics and that's their favorite line next to "Well my parents did it/I'm a special snowflake so it gives me an excuse."

Anon seriously I say you should dump him because he's going to escalate to worse drugs when ecstasy doesn't work anymore and if he's dead or popped the wrong molly then what?

Also what does this have to do with cosplay or egl?

>>8184872
re-evaluate your priorities in the relationship anon. is he really worth it if he has shitty friends and is addicted to E?

>>8184708
ARE YOU ME. I finally got down to 125, but there's still some way to go before summer.

>>8184872
LSD and weed are one thing, they can actually be beneficial drugs. But he obviously isn't using them for any reason other than to have fun, and once you move on to ecstasy (which I consider moving towards the harder stuff) you have a problem. If he isn't willing to rethink his party lifestyle, slow things down a bit, and ensure that he can still be a responsible adult while enjoying all that fun, you should rethink your relationship. You don't want things to get worse and you become more invested and stuck in that relationship.

>>8184548
We're in a group...we sort of have to.

I've been unemployed for a while, for some reason I haven't been able to land any job in my field. Cue to friday afternoon

>Mother discovers a friend of a friend is a Japanese artist
>Without asking me, schedules a "conversation" with her
>I had things to do, but I thought two hours of "conversation" about something I don't know yet will be enough
>Japanese girl arrives 40 minutes late
>Suddenly I realize that my mother wants this artist to give me a job doing anything
>I don't know anything about art, all I did was some amateur theatre
>Japanese girl is confused, I'm confused but I keep talking
>One hour after, I got to leave to do other stuff I had scheduled
>Breakdown as soon as I get out of there due to all the stress of this weird situation

Now today

>Talk to mother
>She's pissed because I left without saying anything meaningful
>Turns out she wanted this girl to give me a job related to cosplay
>wtf mother, this is a hobbie
>"BUT YOU LOVE JAPAN"
>wtf mother, I don't care about Japan
>"She did not give you a job because you are useless and lower yourself saying you can't do art, if you don't know you got to PRETEND you know"

I'm so tired of all this bullshit, my mother is crazy, she's trying to help but she does not understand how hard this is for me as well... I just want a fucking job so she just leaves me alone.

>Trying to go to an anime con during my birthday
>I'm really sickly right now
>Started when I was 24
>Went to five specialists
>Passed out in apartment and mom had to call 911. Went to the doctor and they said I had weird lumps in my lower body near my anal area (wasn't specific.)
>Get an ultrasound and there's no cysts
>Get a MRI and a CT scan and nothing outside of constant UTIs
>I drink a lot of water dammit but nothing is working.
>Ask about the lumps to almost all of my specialists that showed up in my records and nobody knows what I'm talking about.
>I get sick really easy but only happens during the damn winter time.
>Taking bad antibiotics for two infections right now. UTI and another damn yeast infection
>I don't even have sex. I haven't had sex in five years but I keep getting infections for no reason. Don't even wear hot pants.
>Sick all of the damn time and I'm sick of it.
>Weight is randomly changing
>I'm 5' 11'' and used to weight like 120 pounds
>Now I weight 142
>Keeps changing over and over again
>Worried that my health problems will prevent me to go to the anime con
>Worried that I might be dying.

I've been to the doctor 10 times and to the emergency room and they don't know wtf is wrong with me. One doctor said I had Hirsutism because he noticed the hair on my face but my hormone levels are normal. He gave me birth control and it's not really working. He gave me a low dosage and that's not working much either and I'm just tired of taking pills and being sick. Maybe I'm just getting too old to do things. Or maybe this is karma but I needed to vent.

>girl in my comm owns a prominent indie brand
>admire her work for years, she's super sweet, totally my lolita idol
>we've met enough times that I considered her closer to a friend than an acquaintance
>have been working towards building up my own indie brand because it's been a dream of mine for a really long time.
>always dream of doing a collaboration with her
>send her a message to ask a couple questions both related and unrelated to sewing and indie brand ownership because I felt like I could really trust her advice
>she sees message but never answered
>now I'm worried that I've made her mad
>I don't want to step on toes or steal business, just really admire her and want to set standards as high as hers.
Shit anons, did I make a big mistake or am I just over reacting? She's probably just busy and forgot to answer or something but idk.

>>8184921
You're over reacting.

>>8184888
>Also what does this have to do with cosplay or egl
Nothing, but as some people here, I have no one to talk to about this and I was expecting some opinions.

>>8184888
>>8184890
>>8184905
Thank you for reading and answering.
I'm really sad because In my mind I can't stop thinking how he could do something that makes me so sad and not caring because 'it's her business'.
The hard thing is that he is an amazing person. I suffer from severe depression (wanted to kill myself and self harm) and he has always been there, and talked to me. If I'm a little better, it's because of him.
He supports me in everything, he pays attention to everything I say, like my cosplays, he it's not interested in my hobby, but he always wants to help me with stuff, like buying me foam (to name something) and hears me talk about that, even suggested me to go with me to cons to help me. And the list goes on, he is a really nice person and boyfriend. We have been together for almost 4 years now.
My only problem is this drug problem. I just want to get over it but it's making me cry and depressed again.

>>8184888
>Also what does this have to do with cosplay or egl
Nothing, but as some people here, I have no one to talk to about this and I was expecting some opinions.

>>8184888
>>8184890
>>8184905
Thank you for reading and answering.
I'm really sad because In my mind I can't stop thinking how he could do something that makes me so sad and not caring because 'it's her business'. He is not ADDICTED, he does it like, once every month, I don't think it's addiction? But I still don't like it.
The hard thing is that he is an amazing person. I suffer from severe depression (wanted to kill myself and self harm) and he has always been there, and talked to me. If I'm a little better, it's because of him.
He supports me in everything, he pays attention to everything I say, like my cosplays, he it's not interested in my hobby, but he always wants to help me with stuff, like buying me foam (to name something) and hears me talk about that, even suggested me to go with me to cons to help me. And the list goes on, he is a really nice person and boyfriend. We have been together for almost 4 years now.
My only problem is this drug problem. I just want to get over it but it's making me cry and depressed again. He even told me that if I can't get over this, we might have no future together and it destroyed me.

>>8185014
>I don't think it's an addiction?
>"If you can't get over me using drugs then we have no future!"

Well there is your answer right there. If he doesn't care enough to stop doing something that isn't required for him to do for the person he loves then he's not worth it anon.

>>8184872
Boo fucking hoo.
If you can't deal with it, then fucking dump him.

>>8184905
How is lsd beneficial?

>>8185043
I'm not that anon, but I think I've heard good things about microdosing. I guess you can think of it like the benefits of a glass of red wine vs being fall-over drunk

>>8184892
congrats, comrade! I wish you the very best on your endeavors.

>>8185021
>>8185014

Yea, usually everyone yells "Dump your boyfriend" at the smallest slight.

This is one situation where I think you would be better off without him.

>buy dress
>it's kind of tacky
>this could end up ita or really cute

I-i kind of want to try a punk inspired coord, but I don't want the new school cunts to tell me punk lolita doesn't exist and that anything outside of new school sweet, classic and goth don't exist.

>>8185404
I wonder what thread you just came from~
Go for it though. There's a ton of good punk stuff. You can probably take inspiration from J-Rock and all that.

>Take one weekend(convention) off and one week(to see family, this year I have a wedding) off a year.
>In a position where both of them will likely be denied just because the person who approves it is being a jerk (woo the convention falls on Easter woo it is a holiday, you cant have it off.)
>I have already sunk in serious money for hotel, travel, ect
>Tbf I hate my job anyway
>I could keep this job where I am noting but abused by my direct manager and made to feel like shit....but then have money in the bank for the foreseeable future if I keep kissing ass.
>TBH I think they have been trying to get me to quit all year.
>or I could just quit, not lose $$, enjoy the convention and my cousin's wedding but then maybe have a period of un-employment or temp jobs
>I could even move back near my family, try to find a job out there.
This hell hole is seriously making me sick and I want out, but a consistent paycheck is nice even though I make way less then the average person in my position.
Tbh I think I am going to start applying around and see if I can't set something up and leave anyway regardless of the final decision on my vacations.

>>8185537
Look for another job, quit when you have one.

Boyfriend has been treating my cats like shit again. Kicking them, chucking stuff at them. I'm sick of it.

>>8185606
I don't like cats either and I dont end up abusing my boyfriend's pets. Either talk him through it, which seems to not work or break up with him. If he can't keep a small promise like that I'm worried about big serious ones.

>Found lycra balaclava on Amazon
>Because of rewards points, paid nothing, not even shipping
>it just arrived
>proceed to pay almost forty dollars for foam

All for a Great Mouse Detective cosplay.
Whatever. Let's do this bitch.

I hate how it seems like people need to have like three new costumes for every convention they go to. I just wanna make a couple of new ones and reuse my old stuff without people treating me like a poorfag

>tfw

>>8185660
still not nearly as gross as seeing guys' callused, crusty, almost shedding heels when they wear sandals. PUMICE THAT SHIT.

>>8185668
Thanks for the reply. That's all I wanted. I'm off to bed now, /cgl/ gals. Good night :3

>>8185674
the word is "seagulls"

>feel like I'm losing interest in lolita
>health hasn't been great either
>haven't bothered going to a meet in six months for various reasons, most of them pathetic excuses
>haven't made any big purchases in over a year
>don't wear lolita on my own as much anymore
>want to sell some things to get new items and see if that rekindles my interest, but can't be bothered taking photos
>not that excited about new releases anyway

I'm wondering if there's some bigger, underlying cause at this point in time. The idea of getting out of the community and selling everything has almost as little interest as continuing with it.

>>8185660
Here's some common r9k feels to balance the mood:
>tfw knocked over the piss jug
>tfw got tendies crumbs in the keyboard
>tfw don't have tissues for cum so boxers have a layer of crusty jizz
>tfw haven't showered in over a week
Etc, etc, etc.

>>8185606
Kill him.

>>8185606
slit his throat anon, i'm only slightly exaggerating.
seriously gtfo asap

>>8185606
why dont you choke him?

Since I work so much and I'm a loser who won't go out by her self I signed up for online dating. I feel like the whole things is stupid and I'm wasting my time. But I'd really like a boyfriend- hopefully one who doesn't mind I like dressing up like a cupcake. I still feel like a dork for doing it tho.

On the bright side my usagiyouhinten order came it and every things is awesome. I can't get over how much I love AP.

>>8185043
LSD and other psychedelics such as DMT and psilocybin (aka mushrooms) can be wonderfully helpful, provided you take them under the supervision of someone you trust. People suffering from PTSD, severe depression, anxiety, etc benefit from the revelations and sense of peace that these drugs can instill. Unlike marijuana, that sense of peace can last far past when the drug wears off. These substances often strip away all the "junk" that life piles onto a person, and can allow them to see life, problems, and emotions with a certain amount of clarity that you couldn't normally, which brings a lot of personal revelation. Tripping with someone who can gently guide you away from a bad trip, such as a loved one or an experience therapist can bring huge change in your life. I speak from personal experience, I've learned a great deal more about myself. You can choose to take the spiritual approach to the things you experience or a more psychological, scientific approach, but either way it can be very helpful in those areas. These substances also have little to no negative health side effects, are not physically addictive and are virtually impossible to overdose on.
Psychedelics have gained a poor reputation as party drugs or hippie drugs, and when used irresponsibly, you can have a bad trip or do something stupid, but the drug itself isn't to blame in these situations, so much as the irresponsibility of the person taking them.
There are a number of studies I would suggest you look into, particularly regarding LSD. DMT: The Spirit Molecule by Strassman and Acid Test: LSD, Ecstasy and the Power to Heal by Tom Shroder are good reads as well, if you're particularly interested in the subject.
Here's a decent article that sums things up fairly well, I think, and links to various other studies that you can check out: www.medicaldaily.com/psychedelics-may-improve-mental-health-disorders-well-have-support-research-find-out-325780

>>8185630
Read this as "lycra baklava" for a moment, very confused about stretchy dessert fabric. Thank you for tonight's giggle, anon.

>>8185798
You're welcome!
That should be a print name. "Lycra Baklava"

>>8185606
What the fuck is up with women and cats? I'm not condoning this guy's behavior at all, but why are women so fond of cats? I've always been a dog guy, raised with dogs, and cats make no sense to me. They just like climb on your sofa and sleep in random places and seem like little cunts overall. I might have to find someone to convince me otherwise because if I fall in love with somebody who is a strict cat person that could be a deal breaker.

>>8185757
Tell us how it works out anon.

>>8185827
>if I fall in love with somebody who is a strict cat person that could be a deal breaker.
Is what I told myself too and guess what happened. I hate cats and even had to "babysit" one for three weeks to help my father's friend out but it only made my hatred for them even worse. Point is, my boyfriend knows how I find them repulsive so we decided to get a pet that we mutually love when we move in together. At this point cat lovers, including my boyfriend, cannot convince me otherwise and I can confirm that they're huge cunts.

>>8185827
Anon I'm going to tell you that not only women have cats. Guys get cats too. It honest depends on the person. I'm a ferret girl.

>Dogs are hard to maintain because even the smallest dog you have to walk if you live in an apartment for it to poop/pee while cats have self cleaning litter boxes if you have the bing bling.

>Even if you have a big yard you still have to clean up poop. Before you think "Oh you do with cats too," see above. And dogs poop a lot.

>There is no such thing as a hairless dog compared to a hairless cat which does help some people's allergies.

>You have to train a dog no matter what in terms of discipline. Shiba Inu dogs come to mind as being one of the more hardest dogs to train. Most cats you do not have to train outside of pooping/peeing.

>A dog is harder to maintain because if a dog bites someone then you are screwed and the dog will either be put down or taken away (worse case is you get sued.) If a cat does then you don't really have to worry about it as much as a dog (unless it's serious.) You don't hear about cat fighting like you do with Pitbulls or a cat killing you.

>>8185871
>Cat lovers are huge cunts

Let me tell you something. I was walking one day to the store and this guy came out of ass no where and his dogs (he had three; a pit, two rotts, and something mixed,) almost attacked me. I had to literally jump back from them and mind you I wasn't even near the guy. He just glared at me and said it was my fault for being an idiot and not paying attention but mind you he came around the corner, I was walking straight looking ahead, his dogs were in front of him while he was behind them with them leading (no control) and he had metal chains on all of them.

No pet lover is a bigger cunt than the other. People are just cunts in general.

>>8185827
I'm a girl who prefers dogs, but w/e. People will like whatever animal they like. Guys can be crazy cat people too.

>>8185882
Except I think anon was referring to the previous comment of the actual animal being cunts, not the person who loves them.

>>8185882
>>Cat lovers are huge cunts
Cats are huge cunts, not cat lovers. I also don't approve of the guy's behaviour regarding his dog and how he handled the situation.
>>8185891 thank you

Regardless
>>8185876
Atleast dogs get disciplined and will feel guilt when scolded and won't do the thing they were doing again, cats just keeps on going as long as you have your back turned and that shit kept me insane. Maybe the cat lacked attention from it's master but holy shit why do the claw just about everything I literally need a new matress, carpets and door. It would keep coming back to places I don't want them in my room because it was dangerous (scissors, needles A LOT OF NEEDLES/etc), no matter how many times you got them out of the room or in a time-out zone, cats still fucking don't give a shit about you. Dogs won't understand it's dangerous to be on my sewing desk but atleast it'll understand that it's bad if they go there.

>>8185891
>At this point cat lovers, including my boyfriend, cannot convince me otherwise and I can confirm that they're huge cunts.

I have no idea anon but I will continue to believe this and nobody can not convince me otherwise: There is no such thing as bad animals. Just asshole/cunt/stupid and irresponsible owners.

I had cats and dogs and both were nice and the sweetest things they could be. If it wasn't for my dog getting rabies and my father giving away my cat I would still have them.

>>8185902
I really meant cats are cunts, sorry if it seemed otherwise but if I thought cat lovers were cunts,I'd be a hypocrite cunt to date somebody who I think that are cunts.

>put dress up for trade
>got offered dress in cut I wanted
>yessss
>thought was close to closing trade
>got sent a really confusing message
>think offerer is having reservations
>dontbackoutdontbackoutdontbackout

I really think they are going to back out.
Kind of really bummed.

>>8185827
There are men who own and love cats, too. We just hear more about women-owners since it's a meme--the cat lady: crazy, lonely, and alone--unloved and unlovable.

The thing about cats is that each cat is very different personality-wise. Growing up we had several cats--one was a feral rescue who would rather scratch you than be scratched by you; another would go up to anyone who sat still for more than five minutes and curl up on their laps to be loved on. Judging by your comment I don't think you've ever come across an outgoing, friendly cat.

Things that I personally like about my cat: He's quiet--no barking, no meowing, only a soothing purr every now and then. He is very clean and keeps himself clean--this is helped by the fact that he's an indoor-only pet, which isn't possible with a dog. He's a little cuddlebug occasionally, but he doesn't need me to entertain him or shower him with affection constantly like a dog does. I think he's funny to watch--he's just very silly. To exercise him I don't have to take him for a walk outside when it's cold or rainy. About the only downside is having to clean out his litterbox, but I'd have to clean up a dog, too, so that's not a big deal.

Reasons I dislike owning a dog, though I do like dogs in general: they bark; they demand near-constant attention; have to walk/exercise them outside even if it's cold or rainy; have to clean them if they get dirty while outside; have to carry bags of their shit while walking them. They're loud and high maintenance pets--I prefer a quieter, more low-key lifestyle. I can make spur of the moment plans with my cat--he'll still have water and be able to use the litterbox if I decide to go out with friends after work; I would have to rush home to take the dog out if I had one.

>>8185903
idk, not all cats are cunts.
One of my cats is a cunt. knocks shit off surfaces and will hiss at and bite everyone but my boyfriend for no reason. She also has the most shrill meow and has to talk to everyone and will just yell till she gets what she wants.
My other cat is just a teddy bear that wants to cuddle, purr and get belly rubs. He will sometimes headbutt you for love and he is the best cat.

>>8185900
I think you just had to deal with a poorly raised/disciplined cat. Cats can be trained, but it takes work--just like training dogs. Did this particular cat have acceptable places to scratch like scratching posts? Regardless, that's analogous to the poorly behaved dogs which chew up everything.

>>8185900
>At least dogs get disciplined.
Uhhh no? It depends on the owner.

>Cats just keep on going
It depends on the cat. The generalization that cats are cunts is bias and a myth or anon >>8185902 would of pointed it out.

>Why do they claw everything
It's because of their owners. If the owner has a good post they won't claw everything. I've seen cats piss on everything and dogs chew on the ends of the tables.

>Dogs won't understand it's dangerous but will understand that it's bad.
Again it depends on the owner and the dog. Shiba Inu dogs are really hard to train and will do shit regardless of what you say. You never heard of that Pitbull killing his owner? Or the dog killing the four year old owner's son for no reason at all after he went into the backyard?

The point is you're making a dumb generalization about cats and this is coming from a dog lover.

But yeah this is off topic so I'm done.

>>8185924
>>8185922
>>8185919
>>8185915
>>8185827

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9OkwcqOBqMM

>>8185790
Just a friendly reminder though, they make bipolar worse. Do your research! Not directed at you, just any potential anons who may be self medicating.

>>8185919
Honestly maybe I would've changed my mind about cats if I wouldn't have so many bad experiences, but no matter how many I come across (including my family) I can't seem to find the teddybear kind where they're not assholes at any rates. They're only cute to me if they're not near me at this point.

>>8185922
No the cat was a straight up mad, probably really poorly raised but the ratio good vs bad experience is too high to change my mind. The owner kept on stretching the date we'd return it and I think it's for a reason, the cat is just insane. But really come to think of it I never met a decent cat.

>>8185924
It depends on everything yeah I get it. Owners make the pet I get it.

>>8185941
This is true, thank you anon! These drugs are not magical cure-alls!

>>8185827
Depends on a lot of factors you're just ignoring.
Dogs are scavengers, Cats are hunters.
And even then it depends on the breed. I have a ragamuffin that's incredibly affectionate, trusting, and has general dog like traits.
Conversely my dog is a Red Heeler, is antisocial, bursting with energy, and spends almost all day in the back yard.
He's affectionate, but he only lets you pet him for as long as he feels like. When he decides he's done he just gets up and leaves, typically for the back yard again.
Meanwhile my cat will let you pet him for literally however long you feel like.

Personally I'm thinking of getting an Iguana when I move out.

>>8185919
Mine is a little of both. When my step mom had her three cats while I was in a dorm and couldnt take mine, my cat turned into a mad bitch who would fight with the others and wander around my old room at night shrilly meowing. Now that I have her, she's the sweetest thing. She still shrills a lot, but that's mostly because I talk to her when she does and that's how she is. She's gotten a lot more playful too now that she doesn't have to compete.

>>8185900
Cats need a lot of discipline too and a healthy home. If they have plenty of food, water, scratching posts, clean litter, and lots of love then they'll be the happiest creatures and return your affections. If they're scratching everything, pissing everywhere, etc. then you're doing something wrong and need to re-evaluate everything and/or take it to the vets. Until recently, I had 6 cats (tl;dr three cats then a stray, then a dumb "friend" dumping cats on me) with an array of personalities. The youngest basically had down syndrome (very, very dumb and fearless but loved everyone and everything), as well as a temperamental female whom I've worked long and hard with to understand so I could keep her happy and come away scratchless.

Just like dogs, it really depends on the cats and the owners, if you're a shitty owner, then you're going to have shitty, stressed out cats (seriously, clip the cat's claws and get a cardboard scratching post and rub catnip all over it. The cat will be more than happy to use the scratching post over the mattress. You can also get things to cover the nails).

>>8185902
>There is no such thing as bad animals. Just asshole/cunt/stupid and irresponsible owners.
This is exactly what I"m trying to say. Going back to my temperamental female, my mom constantly just goes for her and starts petting her when it's obvious she doesn't like it. When I tell her not to, she just brushes me off and then wonders why she got scratched. Seriously, the only time I get scratched now is when I'm treating her for fleas, but even that's becoming less of an ordeal.

>>8185990
The cat is not mine the owner literally had nothing to give us except the litter box and food, no bowl or toys or scratching pole. I'm pretty sure she was just this irresponsible it affected her cat directly and is the reason why it behaved this way in my house. I was only supposed to take care of the cat for one weekend, turned out to be 3 weeks. We even bought the flea collar thing but going as far as getting the real "needy" things for a permanent stay, no.

>in pain 24/7
>nobody believes me
>arthritis at age 20
>ehlers-danlos joint pain
>muscle spasms/cramps for hours on end
>migraines 3-5 times per week
>everything hurts always
>getting more and more depressed
>just start crying sometimes
>everyone thinks I'm just a baby
>nobody understands that constant pain is exhausting
>work keeps giving me 11 hour shifts with no breaks
>not allowed to sit down
>not allowed to eat
>hypoglycemia makes me pass out
>still nobody believes me

I'm at like a 7/10 most days. It's damn near unbearable. I take so many painkillers to be able to even function. I took 3 aleve and 3 tylenol yesterday within the span of 4 hours and I still was unable to move my arm. I went home, took a hot bath and a muscle relaxer, and just soaked for an hour, and then I could move it but it hurt so bad that I just didn't. I don't know what to do anymore. My doctors seem unwilling to help me. MRIs have shown that my joints look completely normal, there's nothing physically wrong with them, they just move too much.

>>8185998
I'm sorry, that sounds really shitty. Tell the owner to get a cardboard scratching post and catnip (shouldn't end up being more than $10 total) and maybe the cat will start behaving better.

>>8186001
You thought about smoking weed/doing Yoga and changing your job? My mother has arthritis and trust me she only got worse from standing up for 10 hours straight and now she can't even walk straight. Also change your doctors too. It could be a combination of stress and that.

>3 aleve and 3 tylenol

No anon.

>>8186001
Are you in physical therapy? I just started it for my EDS and everything hurts but it prevents me from being de-conditioned. My geneticist does not allow me to take muscle relaxers because the more your muscles become relaxed, the less support you have on the joints and they slip out of place. Also getting of Klonopin because the geneticist said it relaxes me too much. I think you should see a better doctor. I recommend Dr. Tinkle if you are willing to travel to the Chicago suburbs.

>>8186001
>11 hour shifts with no breaks

isn't this illegal? what country do you live in?

is it feasible for you to try migraine specific meds? you can get generics of many of them but it can take up to a month to know if they work or not. it's a frustrating road but finding the right abortive at least will give temporary relief from one type of pain.

>>8186001
>>8186041
>>8186049
Seconding weed. It helps a lot with pain and you shouldn't get high if you're taking the right stuff. Also thirding changing doctors. It's despicable that your doc isn't willing to help, especially if you're passing out and in pain 24/7.

>>8186001
I just want to carry you everywhere you need to go Anon.

>>8186058
>mfw Ehlers-Danlos isn't an approved medical condition for medical cannabis in the state of Illinois

I got fucking rejected last month. REJECTED
I got finger printed, I had multiple doctors sign off on it. Only 600 people in the whole god damn state were able to get accepted.

>>8186056
>>8186049
>>8186041
I'm in PA, we can't even get medical weed yet, and I need to take a drug test for a promotion soon or I'd be 420 blazin it every day.

No, it's NOT actually illegal to work long shifts wth no break actually, though it fucking should be.

I was in PT for a year, and I just deteriorated anyway. I was given the relaxers because of the cramps, I can't even think about sleeping with my shoulder muscles cramping all night. I tried to keep up with doing the exercises but it just straight up hurts too bad. Yoga is something I've been looking into but I don't want to push myself too hard and wind up hurting myself somehow.

My BFs mom smokes for her chronic pain, maybe I can talk to her once I take my test. I know she's super obsessed with only getting organic shit and I think she gets it from her friend who grows it so it'll be cheap too.

aaaaand as for my migraines, I tried four separate medications and not a single one even touched them. I'm going for another MRI in April to make sure I haven't grown a tumor lately.


>please pass laws PA I'm dying
>i'm only 20 why is this happening
>I was a good kid, I don't deserve this

>con in 16 days
>spent the whole day working on cosplay
>feel like I've made no progress
How am I gonna get this all done, cgl?

>>8186112
it is illegal in my state--so sorry PA doesn't have that protection. your situation sounds like the kind of bullshit that caused laborers to organize into unions.

hope you can get better soon anon

>>8184171
Back with more clothes feels

My dream sweater right now is a dangan ronpa one with despair and junko on it.
>find it sold out in mint colorway after I first see it in the mail thread
>give up on them restocking it
>check site randomly a good few days later and mint is in stock
>sells out in a few hours so I feel dumb for not checking back earlier
>hope it restocks

>tfw despairing over the despair shirt, dammit romper

I was checking the nikki lipstick shop for the melty chokers to use in a DR outfit
>browsed their whole shop out of curiosity and regretted immensely
>especially when I hit the pages of what I assume are nipple stickers/covers

I need to cleanse my brain now there were only gross hipsters in those product pictures and I did not need to see that much of them.

I'm scared of other girls.
and I'm scared of saying I'm scared of other girls because I don't want someone going "wow that internalized sexism"

No matter where I've lived it goes the same, ever since gradeschool
>make friends
>everyone thinks I'm really cool
>a couple bitches get jelly as fuck and spread lies/rumours about me to make themselves look better
>get bullied/alienated/punished according to said/lies rumors
>become loner

Every, fucking time. I'm not mean to anyone either. I'm in my 20s and this shit still happens I'm to old for this bullshit.

because of this, I tend to make guy friends, but I really want jfashion buddies.
I'm scared around other girls. so much so I get shakey when trying to friend other girls.

what do I do?
why is it a fucking girl thing to
>see girl getting more attention as a threat
>take her down using horrible means

what the fuck is wrong with people

>have huge crush on friend
>she cosplays one half of my OTP
>i cosplay the other half
>she doesn't know it's my OTP
>casually talking about the show and shipping one day
>bring up OTP
>"please ship it please ship it i want to cosplay this ship with you"
>she immediately gets offended and goes on about how much she hates the ship and admits she actually hates the character I cosplay with a burning passion
>o-oh okay
>try to continue conversation normally as heart slowly shatters

ugh this shouldn't suck as much as it does. people can have their own opinions on characters and shit and i'm not going to get on her case about it but it just...really sucks. at least now i know why she tries to avoid me when i cosplay that character. it hurts man. it hurts.

>tfw you can't cosplay your OTP with crush

>>8186446
Are you me?
The same thing happened to me, expect I was really quiet so I never really had the guts to defend myself. Make friends, everything is going cool, out of no where shit starts and than I'm blamed, bullied and punished with no warning. Same shit every time. It got worse as I got older because groups tended to have both girls and guys. The boys would really enjoy hanging out with me because of my hobbies (, j-fashion, cosplay, anime, video games ect) and the girls wouldn't like that and BOOM I'm the bad guy or someone bullshit. I don't know if it was because I was easy to bully because I never spoke up/fought back or if girls are just meaner/more outspoken about how they feel.

I feel you, anon. I now only have close guy friends and than a few girls that I'm friendly with but far to scared to get to know. Now I only feel comfortable speaking/being friends with them online but I don't even have the guts to take the step to make online friends. 21 scared and lonely as shit. I just want someone I can talk to about the more feminine side to my hobbies but I'm gutless.

>>8186475
People just can't seem to get their maximum Jelly under control, if a girl gets more attention than me I don't go out of my way to be a cunt, I'm just happy for her.

Where are you from?

>>8186446
male friends have the same tendencys as females.gender is irrelevant.

God damn it. I broke down and fed the stray cat that always stares at my house and now I'm afraid she'll keep coming back. She already annoys my dad by coming around here, but she came up on me at 5:30 this morning and rubbed on me so I couldn't help it. I'm hoping she has a home, but she's been coming and staring at our house all night for like five years now so I worry that the last people who lived here left her.

>>8186001
Are you me? I have the same shit at my job and have EDS too and I'm on the verge of breaking down. Hate my job but can't afford not to work. All my sympathy.

>>8186446
Guys judge the shit out of you too. The only difference is they might want to pump and dump you first so they're a bit more quiet about their jokes and opinions.

It could just be you come across as stuck up for being less extroverted and having trust issues (I have the same problem) so people take that as a rejection and develop a case of sour grapes.

>>8186518
our healthcare is so shit,you either have be a burden to the system or work like a dog until the pain doesn't even matter anymore because you have tolerated it for so long or it is too late.

>>8186521
I only judge girls when I'm trying to assert if they're batshit crazy or not.

>>8186509
I have never had this problem making guy friends.
only issue I've ever had with guy friends is if you have one that finds you attractive they're going to make it fucking awkward once you turn them down and maybe be horrible about it, but no "gossip/lying" bullshit to try to smear your name.

I've talked about this issue with my guy friends and they've never had this problem. so I'm assuming its just a girl thing.

>>8186521
maybe I do come across as stuck up since I'm really introverted, but I try my best.

>>8186534
Yeah but if a group of girls think someone is being a conceited bitch on purpose (which may come across this way if she's more open to hang out with guys instead of talking to the girls) I can see how the outcome would turn them gossipy, hence making them look jealous when in reality they just feel snubbed.

It's too much of a coincidence for every girl one encounters to be jealous unless they're in the 1% of richness or are 10/10 tier.

>>8186539
>no "gossip/lying" bullshit to try to smear your name.
I meant to say to the extent girls do.
guys rarely care about drama bs.

>>8186541
>guys rarely care about drama
Their drama is more internal, they don't talk about it too publicly but they will gossip amongst themselves which girls are slutty, desperate, or ugly. The good thing is if they did this to any girl, it's unlikely she'd ever find out.

>>8186539
My male friends fight constantly,my female friends either
>are indifferent;would rather hang out with males (probably for the same reasons you choose too)
>aren't truly happy to see you succeed;constantly trying to bring down if they feel the least bit intimidated
>talk shit behind your back,never try to talk issues out until it all blows up
with males its just chaos but you feel more accepted even though in reality you will always be the girl.ive just learned that pretty much everyone is the same and you are lucky to have any friends that give a shit about you.

>>8186557
I think the bullying out of groups is just too much for me
I'm in my 20s and to old for this shit, yet when I hang out with girls this happens, and it always has stemmed from jealousy.
I know it sounds like bullshit and you might be thinking "anon must be an obnoxious human being who was rightfully treated like shit"

but I can tell you, its always been fucking jealousy, and it wasn't subtle.

>>8186569
Jealous of what exactly? I'm curious.

>>8186569
Humans regardless of gender will always be envious of eachother over the most trivial things,if you know how to stop it please tell me.

>>8186571
first time this shit happened the girl was jealous of my height because "she was always the tallest- this was in elementary

last time it happened I was in a group of weebs and everyone was amazed of the fact I did cosplay/lolita- I was the only one in the group that did this. the girl who previously got the most attention just slowly became more and more of a cunt towards me.

I was nice to her and set up a coord for her but as soon as she said "wow, don't I look 10x cuter than anon!" and she tried getting attention with It I fucking knew that she was jealous as hell. she started shit with me soon afterwards.

I was gonna reply to one of you guys adding my friending-girls horror story, but you know what?
I'll cut to the chase - girl groups suck.

>>8186586
only girl group I liked was my group I knew since freshman year.
trying to make a group of girl friends when you're older? you're fucked.

> tfw this talk about dogs and cats

Both can be trained. We have 2 cats and a dog we're training to became a service dog. The cats can be cunts (both to us and the dog) but will generally spend most of the day sleeping soundly in someone's room.
The dog bites everything in sight (it's very young) but training is going well as long as you are consistent. Hell one of the cats got taught to sit down before he gets a treat.

tl;dr cats and dogs can both be shits if you don't train them properly, if you meet one that's shit, it's the owner's fault.

>not very close friends with girls but I still have girl friends
>mfw never had these kinds of problems with girls like what's talked about itt

In fact, if any girl group got catty with me it was my group from high school. Mostly because they decided to do things like be single moms and work at Taco Bell, and hell, who wouldn't be jealous of someone's financial and educational freedoms in that situation? Those are real things to be envious over, looks become more irrelevant over time and it surprises me that adult women get jealous of them so much when they all tend to look like wrinkly same-bags by 50 anyway.

tfw most of the girl groups I've formed throughout life tend to be pretty nice and supportive. Met my current girl group in my twenties, it's been 5 years and we're still meeting every month just to hang out and shoot the breeze.

Met my share of douchebags, too, guys and girls. Some friendships just never take off, I'm lucky the ones that want to be friends with me are nice, I guess?

>>8185827
I'm a cat lover and I understand you. I hate dogs with a burning passion (I would never hurt one though!!) and if my boyfriend had a dog he wanted to keep we'd run into a serious problem, I probably would've demanded he should decide.
I do not even want to be convinced otherwise, I'm a happy cat-person.
My boyfriend didn't like cats very much, but once he met mine he changed his mind, they are lovable cuddle-buddies.

i want to talk to some of you on skype as a form of support.

if anyone wants my skype, let me know. im always around to listen.

Ladies who forgo'd college degrees and got a job instead, what do you do?
>tfw job hunting

>>8186778
kill myself because i'm an idiot who made a bad decision
or become a welder

>>8186710
Met my girl group at 18 yrs. Also cosplay group.

These are the people who pulled me out of my shell, made me feel truly loved. Been closest friends possible for six years now.

>>Refer to them as my parents because they support me so well
>>Even stupid drama with dating and break ups doesn't sway them from me even when I'm being a pathetic piece of shit

I love them.
Just gotta find the right ones, Anons.

>>8186778
Do some kind of higher education if you can, Anon. Even vocational training is better than nothing.

Doesn't have to be a degree but get yourself something.

>>8186778
Got a boob job, stream games and ask for donations

>tfw i get told by friends to cover up my tattoo and take out all 14 piercings for cosplay
>i sunk all this money and time into them, i don't feel like it
>get lectured some more

it's not like they're all really visible...all except two are covered when I have a wig on.

>>8186862
You don't have to cover or take out anything if it's not visible.
I guess your friends think they should be removed regardless?

I know you hear the odd story here and there about people dropping out of high school at 17 and going on to becoming entrepreneurs, but I'm one of those stupid individuals who left at the ripe age of 14. Four. Teen. I'm currently 19. As much as I'd like to play the blame game and pin it all on my parents for enabling my pathetic lifestyle of the last 5 years, I know it all comes down to my selfish decisions and fucking over future me. The only positive light to come out of this situation would be all the time I had to reflect on myself and requiring self awareness.. though I know having your head screwed on right isn't enough to make it in this world. I just want to shatter the stereotype of being a sheltered leech but I have no idea how to make my debut.. I should probably start by not posting this OT vent on the 'chan, ne?

tl;dr stay in school, kids.

>tfw you are excited to have your own home with bf
>even have a room we can convert to a walk in closet
>tfw it takes far longer to paint the walls and ceiling of the appartment, we are not even half way

just want to decorate already

Does anybody else have a problem with being really warm and inviting to, or just generally really good with people?
I always get people just opening up to and confiding in me a lot.
Not like, gross personal details, just stuff like telling me about their problems and asking me for advice or just venting.
I was bored and decided to go on Omegle with no reason, and wound up playing therapist with a nudist.
And in general when I talk to people I'm really good at holding a conversation, to the point where I wind up passing hours at a time chatting about nothing.
>inb4 quit complaining
I just wanted to share my thoughts.

>>8187107
>Does anybody else have a problem with being really warm and inviting to, or just generally really good with people?
I used to, until I got bored and now when someone wants to talk to me about their problems I cringe because I can't ignore them but I dont care at all.

i've realized that in periods of high emotion, i am unable to empathize or emote genuinely. i'll react properly but it's mostly me forcing words out.

>>8187107
I have a friend who is a weirdo-magnet.
She's not a really special person, like not very extraverted or something, but the weirdest strangers start talking to her. I witnessed a crazy old lady talking to her about getting an abortion while we rode a bus. The craziest shit happens to her all the time, we don't know what's up with that.

>>8187118
Well I mean I like helping people out and I find it flattering that people turn to me.
What about just being personable in general and winding up leading the conversation most of the time? Something like that.

>>8187128
Is she cute?
I mean in like an innocent sort of way.

>>8186805
I did, but getting a job now would be great . :c

Two interviews lined up so far.

>>8186939
I didnt either and now i'm fucked,I wasn't going to be able to get into college with my diploma anyway.Its like xenu wants us to live life on hardmode.

>>8182095
PA is still in the $7.25 dark ages too. A fair amount of the states in the entire country are still at $7.25 actually.

>>8187132
Not really, she's rather ugly actually, looks like she's pregnant all the time and otherwise really average. Sometimes she looks a little trashy though.

>Finally stop being depressed
>Life is getting gud, back in school, motivated to eat better and get back in shape, don't want to die everyday anymore, getting my shit together
>Lose interest in things I once loved though, like make-up, fashion, caring for myself etc
>Trying to keep myself looking nice anyways
Feels weird man.

In /cgl/ related feels
>Want to cosplay Honey Lemon but feel like I'm too thick and short
>Walking out of class today, classmate says "Hey, you look like that girl from Big Hero 6"
>"..Honey Lemon?"
>"Yeah, that one."
>mfw

>>8186939
Get your GED or equivalent thingy if you're not in the US, and then ask everyone you know for a job.

>>8187212
It's not unusual to lose interest in these things. They are in itself pretty vain and can drag someone down easily.

>>8186939
Stop feeling bad about yourself and start studying for GEDs. Its not to late to unfuck yourself.

>>8187133
Walk into every single restaurant (when it isn't busy) and ask if they need a server. Servers make good money off of tips, and I know that many restaurants are extremely short staffed and you can easily get a job.

>>8187214
>tfw i'd have so many more opportunities if I had it
>tfw im going to have to work at shit jobs and take classes like the rest of my friends just to eventually get one
life sucks bros,doesnt help that I have to pay off debt/medical bills either.I know all of this is my fault too,everyone warned me but I didn't listen.

>>8187239
Jesus Christ, get off your ass and study to take a seven hour test. Don't give me those "only ifs" and your boohoos.
http://www.wikihow.com/Get-a-GED

>>8187198
Huh.
Well that's really puzzling, I can't say this without sounding like some arrogant narcissist, but I'm fairly good looking and cute.
So I know that's part of why I receive a lot of attention, I've sort of grown up with unwanted attention and people getting touchy feely and I was surprised
when my friends told me they hadn't even experienced anything like that.
But that's pretty strange, do they do it because they enjoy her company?
She honestly sounds a little repulsive, in the traditional sense, like she's got a few heavy deterrents on her.

>>8187239
Everyone's warning you now, and you're still not listening.

>>8187261
>>8187265
I am listening I just do not have the money now,if I could take the test for free immediatly I would.

>>8187282
You can start studying now and take the test later too.

>>8187263
Weeell, she's a really nice friend I know from school, but every other friend of mine who met her, including my boyfriend, says she's kinda ugly.
She's a friendly girl and isn't stupid, but she has a butterface and unfortunate body proportions and she speaks really fucking fast.
It's really weird this stuff happens to her, my bet is that she's friendly enough to not brush people off in the very first second. When I wouldn't even respond she'd give short answer with a smile.

But now that I think of it, another friend of mine who is quirky cute and very open told me everyone vents to her, even people she doesn't like. I think it really depends on how open you are to listen in the first place.

>>8187292
That sounds like a big factor too, I don't easily push people away and I'm an eager listener.
Main reason is because I wind up doing most of the talking to keep the conversation going.
And I know I'm not just blabbering because I'll frequently ask them if I'm not giving them a chance to speak or I'm boring them.
And they're always taken aback at the me even having that idea and tell me they're enjoying listening to me.

>>8187284
I'am,i have actually taken it before and passed everything but math and that was only by a couple points.It just sucks having to start all over again with shitty circumstances.

>I have been procrastinating on my cosplay
>have until next month but still feel bad because I'm supposed to cosplay with my friend.

>tfw my BL stuff is finally in the states!!!

On an OT note, I managed to find a cute and really cool guy on tinder. I'm really fucking happy about it. We spent all last night talking over skype and watching/playing stuff, hopefully we'll meet soon.
>tfw he thinks Lolita is cute.

>>8187300
Why are you making excuses? That's all I hear. You need to change your attitude. Challenges and setbacks are things you need to overcome.

>took pictures with photog at pax south
>see friends' pictures uploaded by same photog, but not mine
>same photog uploads pictures for a later event
>g-guess i'll never see those pictures of me

Haven't complained to anybody I know over this without feeling like a brat, so getting this off my chest is just what I needed.

>>8186778
I didn't study and I'm a cafe manager making 60+ a year while my friends are still poor uni students who can't afford anything or have graduated and can't find a job in their field so they're stuck working dead end jobs. I just worked hard

> tfw want to drop out of uni, even if I don't get kicked off for getting to little credit (?) I'll probably never study like a normal human being
> tfw you're essentially incapable of getting yourself to study and do homework
> tfw everything ends with studying the night or even the day of the exam

The problem is I already feel like the biggest disappointment in the world and stopping would take away the tiny bit of self-worth I have. It doesn't help that my siblings are doing perfectly well which makes me feel even worse.

Honestly I don't know what to do right now, I feel like dropping out isn't an option but staying makes me feel like I'm going insane.

sorry for the non-cgl related venting, I just really don't know what to do or who to talk to.

>>8187312
Send me 130 dollars then anon and I will take the test.

>>8187343
I'm the other anon dropping out in this thread (not the whiny GED anon). I felt the same.

Go find a job right now. If you can move up in it or gain skills you can transfer to another job, even better. Once you know you're secure and you consulted financial aid about loan repayment, drop out. School isn't for everyone. Good luck.

>>8187433
I would love to but I can't even find a part time job.. thanks for the advice though!

>>8186485
Australia.

>>8187439
I couldn't either, but there's something about impending doom that makes you find some. Get your college/friends/family/professors/craigslist to help.

>Con is in a few months
>"Haha, I totally have time to do everything"
>Am a constant fuck up and always has to re-do things
>I'll totally have time.. right guys?
>Bf hasn't even bought fabric for the most complicated cosplay I have to make him
>Commence panic

>>8187387

Are you going to pass? You have to pay back if you don't.

>>8187433
This doesnt work when only places like pizza hutt hire you and no respectable job gives a shit about your "expierence" there.

>>8187922
Pizza Hut, no, but any sort of waitstaff job is highly respected because of the customer service skills you gain. You have to talk to people and put up with terrible behavior because you're at the frontlines. Cashier jobs are treated nearly the same, but those kind of vary.

I've heard Chili's hires waitstaff with little to no experience, so there's a starting point. Most restaurants will start you as a busser before putting you on actual waitstaff duties.

It's shit pay but the skills are worth it.

>>8187107
I'm nice to people always so I end up with guys thinking I'm flirting with them at cons.
Can they just not?

>Butthurt that a place I've been eying to move in with friends bc one of said friends is allergic to cats
>Con in three months
>Jobless, current fund will last me another two months
>In three months I'll have to move out of my apartment and find a new one
>Bc of this has been feeling pretty fucking shitty
>Same friends agree to see me bc worried
>Spilled shit on said friends after waiting for them for two hours
>They think it's my fault wanting them to hurry up and not stick to their natural pace
>Massive text spams coming from them saying it's shitty of me chasing them away when they try to help me by seeing me
>mfw same friends offered me a table spot for the upcoming con out of kindness
>mfw everytime I see their faces I can physically feel my social battery draining like crazy
>mfw it's not even their fault, it's just me being a shitty friend bc of current shitty situation
Sob

>>8187996
*butthurt that I can't room with my friends bc one of said friends is allergic to cats
shit I can't type today

>>8187989
> at cons
You mean everywhere.

>>8188002
I guess convention guys are more obvious about it because we exchange basic facebook info and later they ask me out through PM.

>>8187996
you are the friend mentioned in all the "let it out" threads. all of them.

>>8188013
Shit anon I'm out of loop on this one. What does it mean??

>>8187922
Okay. Would you rather Pizza Hut or no job?
Hint: The right answer is Pizza Hut.

>>8188132
Having worked there I would say no job,call me a lazy piece of shit all you want I would rather be a vagabond.

>>8187214
>>8187228
OP here, this option has been on my mind so thanks for bringing it to the spotlight. I'm still working on my self-esteem issues when it comes to this stuff and it was 4 am when I wrote up that storm so I now realize the woe-is-me tone is pretty evident. Sorry about that. I actually didn't start putting in the effort to improve myself until mid 2014. Before I was just sitting around, never leaving the house, not bathing for days or even brushing my hair, but I'm now the biggest hygiene freak there is and even thinking about reverting back to that state repulses me. So I've got the whole new outlook on life thing down pat, I just need a way to showcase it now. My mum offered me a chance to get some experience in an office at her work (odd jobs like typing up documents, sorting files etc), so I think I'll take her up on that. I'm not sure how these things work though.. wouldn't there be a lot of bias in it even though I'd be working for her boss? I can't imagine it helping on a resume.

>>8188155
>wouldn't there be a lot of bias in it even though I'd be working for her boss?

It's super common to get a job through family. My fiance's family is all about that and he's trying to get me a job too. A year ago, he was hired by his uncle to do something that took him two months and that on his resume landed him a pretty good job. Just don't mention your mom.

It's great that you have a prospect. You can do it!

>>8187989
Guys are thirsty, people are shitty.
I get the flipped version happening to me because I'm so indifferent to any advances and blunt about not caring about that kind of stuff.

>>8188006
>ask me out through PM.

>planning a Japan trip with my boyfriend
>his friend who I'm "meh" about wants to come because he doesn't want to go alone
>ok it
>realize I will be the third wheel
>I don't want to drag around two guys shopping in japan
I want to take a chick friend but then I realized
>all of my chick friends are broke or went fairly recently
I'm open to making a new friend, someone who wants to go to japan but doesn't want to go alone is welcome to tag along- after I get to know them of course.
I'd be making the travel plans. and everyone gets a say in what'd they'd like.

I'm an idiot for okaying this but this could be a really awesome chance to make a cool friend.

>>8188367
Ask in lolita communities if anyone is in Japan at the time? Someone always is.

>>8188367
Maybe look into talking to your friends that went and see if they made any friends or have friends in Japan?

Speaking of Japan.

>Three of my friends are flying out to Japan in the next day or so for a three week vacation.

Color me jelly, at least they're planning to bring back souvenirs for me.

>Husband recently took a second job to help clear up our debt and put towards saving for a down payment on a house.

>Didn't tell me until after he started the job that he was planning to have us drive to the grand canyon(we live in Cali) during our anniversary. But now can't because no room in his schedule for the trip.

I'm a bit said we don't get to make the trip. But at the same time I'm proud of him for taking the responsibility. I think reality finally hit him when we lost out on getting a really nice apartment by his work because of not taking care of our finances properly. He got way to comfortable and it finally bit him in the ass.

>>8188367
I don't know your situation, but if I were to go to a trip to Japan with my boyfriend I wouldn't let anyone tag along who would interrupt my vacation in the slightest.
You don't go to nihon everyday, make it special and let noone stop you. Shop till you drop and tell the friend he has to put up with it.

>>8181388
I had a bad reaction to a pill - The 'go-to' standard pill that most women in my country use - And stuck it out for 8 months like I was told to.
I couldn't think on them. I couldn't concentrate; I had to double-take everything that I read, and everything that people said to me. It'd take ten minutes for me to put together a coherent sentence because I'd just forget how to words.

There's a shit tonne of different pills with varying chemical components and strengths available, anon. If you feel uncomfortable on that one, don't think that you NEED to tough it out and 'see if your body gets used to it.' Just ask your doctor to switch to something else and keep trying until you find something that works for you.

I felt like absolute shit for those 8 months and never, ever want to experience that again. It's just not worth it.

>>8188628
I used to take birth control and it made me overly emotional, clingy and a bit psycho. Stopped and everything was ok again.
Not ingesting that shite ever again. If my boyfriend doesn't want me to get pregnant so badly that he makes me take hormones, I'll be looking for another boyfriend and getting a paragard for myself.

>>8184247
This. Unless you're eating all-you-can-eat donuts all day every day, it won't make any difference.

>>8188636
I just changed to, like, the lowest available dosage and now I'm fine.

It's these sort of reasons that make me hate it when parents insist that their 12-to-15 year old virgin daughters start on the pill because "Stupid kids are all having sex with eachother she can't be trusted just take them so that I don't need to actually talk to you about anything." with absolutely no regard to the chemistry behind it.

>>8188660
Mine was low dosage too, and what's worse is that the minipill the doctor gave me prior to that made me act even worse.
I was in a very stressful situation though, it probably wouldn't happen again but I've learnt my lesson.
>captcha: tesco
heh

>girlfriend is just getting in to cosplays and cons
>hear rumors about the hook up culture at cons

Do I need to get into cosplaying so I can go with her so some schmuck doesn't try to get fresh

>>8188724
Unlesa your gf is a raging cunt, I'm absolutely sure that she won't let that happen.

>>8188724
hook up culture isn't really that big of a thing at cons as much as people make it seem.
If you go to a regular party vs a convention you're 20x more likely to get laid at the party.

>>8181388
You have to let your body readjust to the levels of hormones, you'll feel totally normal in like a month. They're not magical pills, your doctor should have gone over the side effects with you.

Thinking about what was said and talking to my boyfriend about the Japan trip makes me more irritated about it

"Hey, I'd like a female friend to tag along"
"what you mean someone from the internet, none of your friends have the money to go, I'm not going with some random person"
"well then I don't want your friend to go he'll just make things awkward"
"you're just over thinking things, he doesn't care."

There's no way of getting out of having his friend tag along without everyone hating me. I don't like it.

>>8188855
Why does he think that unless his friend goes, he'll be alone? What are you, his suitcase?

>>8188855
You didn't explain this very well, anon..

You and your boyfriend are taking a trip to Japan. Your male friend is coming along? Is it just you, your boyfriend and your male friend?

Now your boyfriend wants to bring along a female friend?

Does he know your male friend in real life?
Do you know his female friend (on the internet, presumably) ?

>>8188869
Read her first post earlier in the thread. The male friend is her boyfriend's.

>>8188855
>>8188869
Oh. OH. Sorry, I just saw your earlier post.

Tell him to fuck right off! If he'll be 'alone' when he's with you and is making you feel like the third wheel, you might want to reconsider your relationship with him.. That's an awful way to be treated.

>In saying that; I'd come to Japan, but I don't trust my own boyfriend to be left alone for so long. Ha ha! Relationships!

>>8188847
It's not?

>>8186539
i think it depends on the people you surround yourself with. I rarely meet dudes who aren't just in it for potential mating.

>>8186577
This, it's not just girls either
Guys actively do the "w-well what's he got that I ain't got?!" thing too, and try to bring down their friend in front of a girl because they feel intimidated by them. Some of my male friends have done this and I'm always quick to point it out when they start shitting on how GURLS behave and how guys are totally awesome. Whenever a girl says someone (that isn't him/doesn't look like him/isn't into the things he's into) is hot or cool or whatever, they get defensive as fuck and start nitpicking them apart
>yeah but look at his hair haha dude's balding prematurely
>yeah but he has like no muscle definition
And when a girl snubs them they get super buttmad and insult all womankind because their ego is completely crushed. Literal child's temper tantrum-tier.

However, it's true what you say about girls having vendettas. We always have this hierarchy where if you don't like the queen bee nobody else likes you, or if she isn't the queen bee she tries to tear you apart in revenge. And god forbid you make a joke that isn't to her liking or 100% PC tumblr-approved, else she'll think you're somehow making fun of HER and giving her backhanded compliments or some shit I don't know, and start being fake-nice until you leave and then turbo-shitsling like a chimpanzee.

>>8188942
Even if they aren't I'm always paranoid they will be. I'm by all means not much to look at, not that I consider myself irresistible or anything (because some salty cunts have assumed that when I said I don't want guy friends) but it has happened that I make a male 'friend' and they start being possessive and lovey-dovey even though we are only slightly more than acquaintances and I have a bf. I don't even flirt since I've been told I act like a bulldyke most of the time, they're just that desperate.
>>8188877
I left my boyfriend alone for a week while I was in another country visiting my parents and when I came back it looked like a garbage disposal center

>>8188942
As I man who cosplays Miroku, I can assure you a lot of men are out there to mate.

>Tell them you are not interested in a relationship if they seem flirty
>This will weed out the horndogs and save you and them some time and disapointment

>meet deaf girl at work a few days ago
>she's super sweet and we share a lot of interests
>discuss cosplay and fashion for a bit
>pick her up yesterday on the way to another friend's house
>keep my music playing without thinking
>realize she's staring out the window the whole drive, think I'm being rude and go to turn off my ipod
>she notices but doesn't say anything
>have no idea if I made her feel bad or if she's always like that in cars
I wish I wasn't so paranoid about how I make people feel, I've been stressed out about this all day. Like I'm stepping on eggshells that I've placed myself

>>8188992
You're driving, how the hell else can you entertain her if you have your hands in the wheel?

>>8188992
If your feeling self conscious about this, then carry some crayons and coloring books in your glove compartment or a Gameboy/3ds. You can thank me later.

>depressed due to lack of job, friends, etc etc
>sewing costumes would cheer me up
>and actually motivate me to workout
>too poor to be buying fabric anyway
>ok.jpg

>>8189234
Crayons and coloring books? I'd feel like a fucking idiot if someone offered me crayons and coloring books to entertain myself with.

>>8189241
Fuck you I love crayons

>>8188992
Could you use your phones voice-to-text function to "talk" to her even while your hands are busy or something?

Or would that offend her, I don't really know the proper etiquette for dealing with deaf people.

>>8189241
I don't know, it could be funny or a conversation starter into seeing if she "OK with being ignored while her friend is driving".

I honestly think your over thinking the situation.

>>8188992
doesn't she have a phone or something to kill time with? I'm deaf myself and just sit on my phone in downtime like 99% of people with smartphones. unless she seems like a hypersensitive person in general I doubt she was offended.

>>8188958
Yup yup,i wonder what we would be like if we did not feel the need to compete with eachother?

>be "that photographer" around my community
>community sets up events, I just come to take pics, don't know why, it's just fun and a way to make friends and conversations
>no charge, i try to take pictures of as much people as I can
>out of 30 people, and one photographer, there's usually a couple of people I just don't get pictures of
>some guy got mad because last photo shoot I didn't take any individual pictures of him
>he keeps posting subtweet type Facebook posts about me
>dude why are u mad it's not like you didn't pay for the pictures

>sometimes have such ambitious thoughts like
>"I'm gonna learn how to do this!"
>"I'll work on this cosplay!"
>remember that I'm a piece of trash
>never get around to anything
>feel worse about self

It's a vicious cycle.

I don't know where else to post this so people will see, but I want seagulls to be safe and for their computers to be safe.
Be careful what links you follow or pictures you click on, guys. Pic related.

>>8189745
I like to think the Internet-literate population should know not to click or download random links by now.

>>8189748
Yeah, but I'm pretty sure people who browse image dump threads on this website as a whole are pretty ignorant on what could happen.
Like all it could take is some fuck from /pol/ with an infected image of our queen to bamboozle a lot of seagulls.

>>8189756
>several .webms of PT have been posted in another thread

Fuck. You don't think it could be...

>>8189767
The new ones? I'm pretty sure those are from lolcow farm, so I think they're safe, unless someone was autistic and malicious enough to save them, attach viruses to them and then post them here.

>>8189745
>>8189756
wait wait...okay, I am somewhat technologically retarded and a bit of a newfag to 4chan. Does this mean you can get infected just from watching a .webm or do you have to actually download something?
>>8189756
Can you get fucked just from saving a single image or does it have to be a zip file, or what?
>mfw

>>8189781
There's always someone autistic enough, anytime I think there's not I'm proven wrong.

>>8189785
From how I understand it, you have to actually save shit for anything to take effect, but I'd still think twice about clicking on thumbnails or watching webms because then you're still technically downloading the file.
Also, avoid pomf.se links.
>Can you get fucked just from saving a single image or does it have to be a zip file, or what?
Yup, it can be single images. That's basically why it's so ingenious. No one will download some shady-ass zip file (unless they're convinced it's some obscure porn or music album they've been searching for), but most people won't think twice about opening and saving some random reaction image or something from a "You love, you lose" thread.

>>8189808
Also, this was linked to in the virus thread as a how-to for newbies, might be relevant
>http://php.webtutor.pl/en/2011/05/13/php-code-injection-a-simple-virus-written-in-php-and-carried-in-a-jpeg-image/

>>8189664
Brittany is that you?

>>8189821
**Forgot to mention this includes webm files

>>8189822
Nope.

>>8189745
What a sorry bunch of people.

My lolita senpai lives a long way away from me but close to a girl we met on the same day. I could never help comparing myself to senpai and our friend in terms of looks and coordinating skills (she is also a fluent Japanese speaker and has modelled for brands). I've been lucky enough to have her over for sleepovers and be my ouji for the day, but since they live closer to eachother they do everything together. I consciously worked hard to not let this bother me or get silly ideas because I knew senpai and I would never work out ( and not everyone is polyamorous). Then my boyfriend (who also has a crush on her) made comments on how physically affectionate we can be and how highly she speaks of me so I must be 'in there'. I continued to ignore the comments putting it down to his wishful thinking, because he's too shy to flirt/ come on to a girl himself. I thought I'd already resigned myself to the idea that we were never going to happen for the longest time and didn't think I cared until her Relationship status became official on FB. This was after 3 weeks of my bf being too drunk to sleep with me by bedtime so I just got hit in the feels whilst already feeling neglected/unattractive. It's also annoying that random old men and drug dealers in the street seem to be the only ones making advances on me. I know it's whiny and petty, I am in a relationship and don't own her. I know this is purely about my poor self esteem and blowing everything out of proportion. I'll get the fuck over it, but need to vent for the time being...

>made a nightingale armor, pretty happy with it even if its almost trash and I hate my looks
>get motivated
"im going to cosplay for this con in april! lets start a new project to work on!"
>depression kicks in again
>lack of motivation for cosplay
>same for school, painting, singing
I've been home on my bed doing nothing for 2 days now, I feel like shit, I cant visit my bf because he's sick with flu and doesnt want me to get it, every so called "friend" I have always has something better to do. I am hating my life right now. I just want to be alright again..

>>8180346
Someone did a video that I did on the same day but SHES the one who got the attention for it............................

>>8189238
Goodwill for cheap clothes

>Bonus points for Goodwill outlet
>Clothes by the pound

>Finally down 10 pounds since I started to try and lose weight. (10 weeks ago)
>30 pounds to go still.
>At this rate I might actually fit back into my old blouses.
>thank god

>Boyfriend lives an hours drive away, or three hours train.
>He has a car, I don't.
>He came up last night to see his friend's band.
>Stayed at my place so that he'd be closer to work this morning.
>Is coming back up to see his other friend on Sunday.
>"Hey boyfriend, you forgot to have any of this cake I baked you! You didn't end up coming over when I made the last one, either!"
>"Will it last until Sunday?"
>"No. I baked it on Wednesday because you said you'd stay longer last night."
>"Lololol I'm spending Saturday playing the same videogames that I play every fucking week night! Just bake me another one next time I promise to visit!"

He did so kindly let me know that I could pay $18 to get a 3-hour-train down there, early on Saturday morning, though. Asshole.

But really
>Tfw I don't have any female friends in real life who will hang out and be frilly with me.

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