/ck/ - Food & Cooking

>>10563017

we have one

>>10564351
>too drunk to notice there's already another thread edition
>>10563017

>>10564351
Thanks OP, moved to this one.

Can we atleast use The Frog?

t. Audrius Gailiunas the old thread maker

Why do you drink lads?


For me, It's about 90% of tfw no gf.

Got plenty of pussy up until about 24-25 then I started to go bald and no I'm ugly as fuck. In good shape, But zero confidence, bald, shit job, and broke every fucking week.

If I had just a 7/10 gf my life would be complete.

Instead I'm a 32 yo alcoholic who will likely die by 40.


Oh well fuck it, The feels are getting to me today so I'm getting fucking wrecked today. Fuck maintenance drinking

>>10564431
Don't have a reason why I drink, I just do it subconsciously, grab a glass when I get home or after a hard day of w/e I'll drink.

Thoughts on this? I bought it at Costco. 1.5L

>>10564466
>Going to Costco
>not buying the superior Kirkland vodka that is literally better than grey goose for only $16 dollars a handle


Serious disappointment

>>10564431
0.5l of sir edwards earlier, some beer. Passed out woke up now bought vodka.

>>10564476
WHY, Not what.


You drunk fuck

Day 4

Tapering Valium also, it's a nightmare.

>>10564431
Tons of bald guys are 7+/10... maybe you could just make yourself more attractive or interesting and you would get the gf.

>>10564482
For me it's because i have this dumb whore from runescape stalking me for almost 5 years now and i'm sick of her and want to destroy her. If she left me alone I'd quit alcohol right now

it all probably sounds weird but its a long story

>>10564431
I drink because I have no friends and am bored and depressed and anxious most of my free time.

>>10564493
Buddy, I've been trying for years.

Women don't find prematurely balding men attractive, Even if you shave your head and workout.

Here is a little cheat-sheet for ya. Women like money, status, and looks.

I have none of those things.

>>10564498
I’d fuck htat

>>10564498
WAHHHHH, A woman stalks me online. Wahhhh!

>>10564431
boredom/stress/anxiety/depression

I got involved in some business deals that kinda fucked me over a bit. Lost a lot of friends in the aftermath. I burned out and was basically full PTSD for the better part of two years with legal and financial issues out the ass. I turned the drinking up to 11 to self medicate.

I've been clean two weeks now, hopefully for good. Need to get back in shape and back to work

>>10564509
Everyone says that. Actually most people dont say anything at all but act like what you said

>>10564542
Lately I've been sober like 4days/week which is really alot for me, I managed to not be bored i read skyscrapercity.com and watched simpsons and the last thing why i'm still drinking is the alice whore.

I will only get truly rid of her when I become a truck driver and delete all my social media accounts and other shit and stop posting on al/ck/ and krautchan, but for that i need to be sober and save money for B category that i drank away and endure alices stalkings

>>10564498
tell the story, nerd

>>10564556
why dont you ask her yourself? They all believe her, not me anyway

>>10564498
Give her tome plz

>>10564619
Tome?

>drink a lot less over several months
>only been black out drunk once so far this year
>will try to never let it get that far again
>fails, goes to a party and gets totally fucking hammered and remembers barely anything
>went home with a beautiful girl during said black out

So yeah, I'm bragging, but I still thought it was kind of interesting how not _everything_ about my alcoholism is misery. The vicious cycle is hard to break when it isn't vicious all the way but actually awesome sometimes.

Will still try to stay on this path though. I'm planning on going 100% summer all of summer as I'll be busy working 7-day weeks anyway.

>>10565109
*sober all of summer

Just need to fail this last final i havent studied for then i can start drinking

>>10564498
As i told you last time. Ignore/block her

>>10564466
>Thoughts on this
Your average budget gin. Could be worse/10

>>10565191
Don't even give the guy advice man, he just wants attention. Guarantee his main board is /soc/ or /r9k/

>>10564466
gin always made me hung over. bombay sapphire isn't bad stuff tho, that used to be considered premium up until about 10 years ago.

vodka is vastly superior for self destructive drunken degeneracy.

I've got to taper...

Been drinking a solid 30 hours without sleep

the night terrors were real lads. had the worst sleep of my life
>day 2 of tapering begins

>>10564431
I don't want to think about my past so I drink. Also, I don't want to think about my future, so I drink lol.
Isn't that why we all drink in the end?

>>10565436
Care to greentext? For me recently, it was like taking shrooms but waaaay too many. As vivid and terrifying as it was, I find the anxious feelings I have while awake in bed late at night to befar worse.

i wish i could be clean. not even a coffee or a painkiller. i so long to be addicted to something healthy, and i'm so utterly fucking sick of getting the fear from drugs. overdo any of them and it's the fucking same. i am SICK of feeling terrified and poisoned. feeling nearly fucking suicidal again because when sober, after years demolished, the horrific reality of my life is inescapable. i need to clean absolutely all of this poisonous shit away from every cell in my body forever.

>>10565486
clean your apartment and take a shower. Fuck.

>>10565486
I drink a LOT of tea when going through withdrawals so I am at least doing something with my hand.
is that too bad a drug for you. It helps a little and only 10% the caffeine of coffee.
I hope you make it anon. Sounds like you are in a worse place than me. If possible.

>>10565492
>clean
there's vomit on everything and there's a hole in the ceiling pissing water in here every time it rains. i haven't cleaned for, uhh, around 4 years iirc. I do shower every couple of months though. doesn't seem to help.
i think the problem is that i have no 'norm' to return to when i sober up. i've been fucked up for so long that sobriety means abandoning everything and embracing the shitshow to build something new from scratch, in a body which is in constant agony and in a world which hates me. gonna need more than a roomba and a wash to make this shit tolerable.

Years of drink finally caught up to me, going in for a full hip replacement tomorrow (only in my mid 20s) for avascular necrosis, which means the bone in the hip died off. Caused by either chronic steroid use, deep see diving, or alcoholism. And I ain't jacked and I don't dive. But I have been downing a pint of taaka or more every night or every other night for many years. Point of the matter is if youre a drunk and start having bad hip problems get MRI early and you might be able to just get arthroscopic surgery instead of full on replaced when you wait too long.

>>10565467
I would but I'm heading to work now.

>been sober for 9 months
>got fit and lost bunch of weight
>gained tons of new hobbies
>became happy about life once again in years
>made goals about my future
>fell to the bottle just the other day
>feels amazing and all I want to do now is just drink
I was doing so fucking well too and I just went and fucked it all up.

>off work at 7am
>plan to hit the gym and get nice and fucked up afterwards
>anon i need a favor can i get a ride to the airport at 3pm
FFFUUUCCKKKKK

>>10565503
>I do shower every couple of months though. doesn't seem to help.

jesus fucking christ dude.

>>10565503
got to start somewhere. I recommend washing your crotch and ass

>>10565585
Imagine the amount of smegma he's built up. Yummy

>>10565506
Well, good luck at work anon. You gonna make it.

>>10565503
post pics of your apartment please

>>10565620
This.

>>10565620
Please this. Make us all feel much better?

Going to the library to submit some job apps, wish me luck friends. Fuck I wish I had a compiter

>>10565705
You are working hard. I have 3 computers and haven't applied for a job in over a month. You are winning at life anon. Truly. You are getting out of the house for a purpose that may well improve your lot in life.
I hope you find great success.

>>10565503
Jesus dude, I can't imagine. I mean I had 20 piss bottles covered very carefully by a blanket at my low, but I straight up cannot live in absolute squalor. I'd lose my sanity.

I should do some spring cleaning this weekend.

Here's what's bad for me and I honestly hate myself for this. I've moved into an affluent neighborhood. I like it here. I'm a functional alcoholic and I'm very good at it. I work, I pay my bills on time, I take care of my responsibilities. I know my limits during the week.

I swear, meeting the neighbors on a weekend late evening ---by accident--- drunk--- is.. just really sad. I'm ashamed of myself. Everyone probably hates me. I was just trying to mow my lawn like a regular person when people came up. I hate that I'm an alcoholic and I feel embarrassed.

>>10565755
We all do anon. I think I'm sober then I slur three words in the same sentence to my neighbors. I have started taking 95% of the bottles to the bin near the bottle shop just to try and seem less of an alcky
I've started taking all the bottles

>>10565503
>>10565620
This.

>drinking on an empty stomach
I feel warm

>>10565755
Fuck them. At least you don't live in an apartment with neighbors 15 ft away from you, and can likely hear your drunken shenanigans

>>10565867
No. Fuck me. I'm the problem. I'm just really ashamed and embarrassed is all

>>10565876
You don't have anything to be embarrassed about though. It's not like you were drunk at like noon on a weekday. You said it was the weekend, nothing wrong with that dude.

>>10565867
Also I do live close--- probably 20ish feet away with a fence. Granted they don't hear me but I'm not a destructive, loud, or mad drunk. I have rules and I follow them. I have to be at work by 6 so I'm in bed by 9.

Its the fucking suburbs so there's no hiding it. I'll just start mowing my lawn and working in the yard at 8am instead of the the evening.

>>10565883
I just wish that the first impression I made wasn't a drunken one.

>>10565894
>>10565900
So what happened? You're neighbors went over to your house and introduced yourself, you were a little drunk slurring, and then they left? Worse things could've happened. I wouldn't dwell on it too much because I doubt they gave it a second thought.

>>10565909
Yes, that's what happened. I'm just embarrassed dude... I'll survive and move on. Can't change it now. Hopefully they didn't notice but I feel like ( probably know) they did. It is what it is. I'm just embarrassed by my behavior. I should have know better, I did know better. It's my fault and I'm just embarrassed and feel ashamed. I'm trying to stop the mental re-enactment.

Thanks to all for reassuring words. Later guys

>>10565936
Peace out brother

>>10565936
I don't let other people see me drunk. That's what's hard and that's why I'm embarrassed. Just FYI

reading about kindling

getting scared lads

probably got a lot o' glutamate

Get a load of these amateurs. >>10565602

Normies.

>getting wasted tonight
>getting my haircut tomorrow by cutie stylist
>driving home tomorrow and living with parents for the summer
Comfy

>>10565340
Taper after drinking 30 hours w/o sleep...good luck with that as it never worked for me...

36 days sober. Got drunk every day for 2.5 years in college and often started in the mornings. Still graduated - but with mediocre grades. Have felt quite a bit of liver pain and had IBS for a while and probably got a combined total of 3 hours of REM sleep during that time. Also got hospitalized and have fucked up two cars. Previous sober streak was two weeks.

I highly recommend a proper break. Being a regular drunk deranges and enfeebles you. A man's life should be one inclined to activity and the exercise and employ of mind and will to one's ends. Alcohol will keep you forever passive, inactive, and stifled - suffocated and smothered by your own chronic drunken repose. A man is not born to sit and lie around pissed and to rue and ruminate and stew to no end other than his own atrophy of mind and will.

>>10565340
You need some heroin to help with the taper

>>10566150
how much did you drink when you were drinking anon

>>10564503
No. It’s all 100% persuasion. You’ve persuaded yourself that you’re a loser and given yourself a victim complex. You are a nigger of the sexual world. What you’re saying is no different then what oppressed minorities say. And deep down you have this perverse sense of comfort because you persuaded yourself that it’s out of your hands. You’re a lazy cunt and a moron to boot... and you’re probably a homosexual. Your fucking looks have nothing to do with it.

>>10565705
good for you bro

>>10564431
Phew lad,
Glad I'm only 31.

maybe you should stop drinking

>>10564431
>But zero confidence, bald, shit job, and broke every fucking week.

>If I had just a 7/10 gf

Seriously, if your an alcoholic bald drunk man with no money maybe you should lower your standards. Nothing wrong with a 4/10-5/10 woman that truly takes care you and your needs. Sounds like you need a good woman. Some of the best women aren't beauty queens on the outside. Just a bro tip

>>10566366
Dubs of truth

>>10566150
This is a good post actually, thanks. I'm going to keep drinking though.

>>10566150
>Alcohol will keep you forever passive, inactive, and stifled - suffocated and smothered by your own chronic drunken repose.

That's kind of why we do this mate

Why is it that when i watch these videos, i get very aggressive, and even act like i would hit someone

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FnD5A_Un1Jc

anyone else do this?

>>10566244
The gameplan by midway through my senior year:

Every morning: At least one beer before heading out around 9 a.m, oftentimes finishing stray/leftover beers too.

Weekdays/school days when no papers to write or important classes or other obligations: Sip piss E&J VSOP bourbon out of 4 oz. flask from around lunchtime to evening.

Nightly until early morning: Just about finish a six pack, very often ending with additional trips to the corner bodega for pissy tallboys (usually a couple Old Englishes, though sometimes just Coors Banquet).

Fridays and Saturdays when no philosophy papers to shit out: Two six packs starting pretty early because drunk sleep is shit and worthless and then the same midnight bodega routine and lots of shitposting and CS:GO.

It was quasi-functional alcoholism - not debilitating, but still pretty bad. Lots of caffeine and smokes offset some of the drunkenness but I had some (half-)drunken spaghetti-spilling moments with professors and people - including one pretty awkward moment in front of my morning class that I was too drunk to understand at the time. I also dropped quite a bit of Vyvanse which made the buzz even more awesome but still made things worse overall. And I ended up going to the hospital one night after killing a fifth of vodka way too quickly and mooching pulls of Jameson off a guest.

During breaks and summers, before I was 21, I'd drink everything I could get my hands on - and on more than one occasion stole almond or lemon extract. Early this year I fucked up two cars after slamming lots of scotch (what a waste) and finally realized - and truly came to feel, as I had already known but not quite felt the conviction of - that the bibulous lifestyle is not a viable lifestyle. It's half-assed, shitty living. It's barely living. My gastrointestinal tract, liver, brain, and soul and character bear the marks of its depredations.

>>10566434
>before I was 21
damn and im 22. Are you from Australia?

>>10566434
My bank account bears the marks too. Thousands pissed away.

>>10566450
My parents are nightly drunks and so there's always been quite a bit of booze around the home that I would try to get as much as I could of before it would all get depleted by the end of the night by all of us because I couldn't buy my own.

I make 3 handles every week. 65% 55% and 40%

>>10566458
My sister keeps saying that my dad is an alcoholic but i dont want to believe her. he just drinks red wine but it really really really breaks my heart when i hear her say that.... idk what to do man,. i love both myparents and i just feel really sad i drink

Im actually really bored, drinking alone (getting blacked out) in my apartment. What am i supposed to do? This drunk sucks honeslty. fuck alco

By the time my shits turn solid, I'll be back on the sauce, been a wild journey.

>>10566595
Just drink water man, water is Gods blessing to Man

talking to my MOM drunk, and she knows i have no freinds, the worst thing, i slurred words and she paused then said someting funny...


yeah she knows. Anyone else know this feel
'

why i this thera innavtive WKE UPPPP!

>>10566465
Does he drink it directly from the bottle?
Does he finish the first bottle in two swills on the way Hom from the store?
Does he drink 4-6 bottles per day?
Just be glad your father isn't me anon.

>>10566465
How much does he drink? When does he drink? How does it affect his life and his well-being? Is drinking the best part of his day?

>>10566784
No he doesnt do any of that, but my ssiter says he does and it REALLYT FUCKING PISSES ME OFFFF

How do I focus on videogames when drunk? I always lose focus.

>>10565504
PT here, good luck bro, hip replacements aren't too bad rehab-wise. Knees are much worse

>>10565963
Shit sucks man, I decent withdrawal symptoms the day after only drinking maybe a pint of vodka. Intense anxiety, tremors, etc. I used to be able to get absolutely wrecked and wake up the next morning fully functional. Now I have to make sure I have nothing the next day if I want to even have a few beers with friends

>>10566802
Dont wanna talk about it, because everyone time my FUCKING SISTER BRINGTS IT UP at a bar i justr start cryting , like I am now, yes I am abnout to start crying BECAUSE I DONT WANT TO HETR FROM HER MY DAD IS FUCKINF KILLING HIMSELF

im not afraid to admit it, yes ive cried at the bar mror ethan once.

Yes, I am fucking wasted. And im emotional

>>10566869
Not sure if just troll or faggot

>>10566874
Not a troll man. Not sure why you would think I am. I've done nothing wron tbbqh

>>10566859
oh.. i've had 3-4 beers/day for like 6-10 years

i'm just a very scared person by nature, so i dont know what to do

tonight i believe i figured out a brilliant calculation to optimize quitting any psychoactive substance however...

all i fucking need to know is how long it takes some proportion of neurotransmitter receptors to upregulate

>>10566434
>11-14 drinks/day weekdays
>~20-30 drinks/day weekends

for how many years anon?

i've been mixing regular use of vyvannse with low-tier drinking (2-4 beers/day, avg increasing over last ~10 years)]

i just put all my psychoactive substances in a poison bin.

>>10564431
WellI have never had confidence in myself. I think that is why I am so masochistic.

should i tell other people i'm trying to quit drinking?

>>10566917
No, just ghost em

>>10566845
Try playing with DTs lol.

hi im drunk

>>10566646
I know this feel and it really sucks. All you can do is try and block it out, but it still stings.

>>10567003
Hi drunk I'm potato

It's obvious that brain damage from alcohol is due to glutamate excitotoxicity. Why don't people who drink simply take memantine? God, those of us on Good Forums knew this shit almost a decade ago!

FUN FACT : If you drink on memantine, every drink feels like 3! It's win-win!


based NMDA receptor antagonists

>>10567037
>>10567040
Which company do you work for anon?

>>10567094
I work for a company that has nothing to do with drugs

However i read a shit ton of things ont he internet and guess what, this shit was known long ago

bigget mistake i ever made was going off memantine ~2 years ago

i mean it's not a huge mistake but in retrospect that's where it went downhill

it was ABSOLUTE FUCKING PERFECT MATCH TO ALCOHOL AND AMPHETAMINE

just read some articles on pubmed anon, you're not retarded are you?

nevermind you guys will kill yourselves on it, dont read those posts

>>10566998
You're fucking crazy or have never had true DT.
>has seizure at the title screen

Even if that doesn't happen

>blood pressure and anxiety spike at all the rapid movement
>motor skills and reaction times are fucked
>get killed constantly because you keep checking your periph due to corner-of-eye hallucinations
>so out of touch with reality you probably don't even realize you're playing a game

>>10566905
The scheduling of drinks I outline here >>10566434 lasted for about four months - forming in that iteration by late-Fall semester and lasting until early last May. But for the 2.5-3 years during which I got drunk pretty much every day, I can't give an average. I got from like 3-4 beers a night in probably mid-2015 to averaging 10-15 on weekdays by January of 2017. On weekends I rarely ever got far past 20 drinks. I graduated last May and with my car and being legal and out of school, it was the first time I didn't have to depend on my parents for booze. With nothing to do all day, I continued drinking pretty heavily until I started working. Then I had to keep my drinking to the evening and night/early morning - meaning I was late for work every fucking day until 30 days ago. And the last thing I needed was to get fired for drunkenness so I was downing two drinks in the morning (usually just any cheap liquor straight, though on other days if I ate breakfast I'd drink beer) with my 2-3 shots of espresso and then just getting fucked up when I got home - probably averaging no more than 10 on weekdays. Weekends were still a very different story.

I don't know about you but I rarely got work done on Vyvanse. I would be at the library supposed to be studying and I'd just watch porn on my laptop pr go outside to smoke and check out girls. At home, I'd spend hours wanking - and drinking, of course.

Best things now are REM sleep and solid shits.

>>10564351
Guys, I just don't know anymore. Haven't had a gf in years, and I've slowly become a misanthrope who is disgusted with most people and their petty politics. Used to be a chad, but lost all my strength and face gains to the bottle. Courtly love would be ideal, romance would suffice, but the world is too base and sexuality and identity too commodified for any of that. Tapering off with beer. Guess I'll just sit here a while...

I've never gone far enough to experience bad withdrawals, but I'm curious, what's it like having DTs? Sounds scary

>>10567424
Blasting puke and shit everywhere, shaking like a leaf, possible heart attack/seizures, talking softball sized spiders, The Fear. Never had real proper WDs. Only ever had the fear and that was bad enough.

I'm out of beer but I haven't been drink that hard. But I can't stop smoking to fill the void. Fuck I'm gonna get cancer.

>whole bottle of wine
>almost whole bottle of vodka
>not black out yet
>not even dizzy
Its about time to take a break maybe.

>>10564351
Best anime for sad drunk hours?

>>10567553
Cowboy Bebop.

>>10567547
never

>>10567424
For me, basically >>10567497
But specifically, and this is just my own personal experience:
>cannot hold down any food, eventually any liquids
Therefore no way to drink myself out of it. Couldn't even hold down water. I went three days of no water before finally going to the hospital.
>hallucinations get very, very elaborate
I was hearing various voices. I could audibly hear my own thoughts in my head, could think of something and I would see it. If I closed my eyes, it was like a rapid compilation of movie shots. Sometimes things I specifically thought of, sometimes stuff from nowhere. The voices I was hearing started with music and progressed into what appeared to be entities with thoughts of their own. Demon-assassin guys whose purpose was to take out shitty people, and make their last moments miserable and filled with terror. I saw them as spectral humanoid figures sometimes, and sometimes as opaque figures. Thinking back, their intentions/demeanor seemed to change a lot, but at the time it all made perfect sense to me.
>delusions to the point of complete loss of touch with reality
At my mother's house, I could see through the walls and the landscape of the yard itself was different than usual. This demon army was waiting outside ready to storm the house, demanding that I do and say weird shit. At the hospital, I went from thinking I was at a hotel, to a waiting room outside of Hell, to the demon-assassins' headquarters, back to the hotel, back to the demon HQ, etc. I thought I had an earpiece in my ear to communicate with them at one point, then went back to thinking it was just telepathy. Just a rapid-fire of inconsistent delusions which made perfect sense to me at the time. I thought they had poisoned me at one point and that I was bleeding out into my lungs and actually held my breath until I passed out.
>knowing, just KNOWING I am going to die
I was so just ready for it to be over with. If I had had a scalpel, I'd have cut my own throat

G-guys we're on TV!
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=C6NR_GbLnEc

god fucking dammit. decided to send a drunk text last night to a girl confessing my love.

how do i recover from this?

>>10567742
Probably too late now imo lmao

>>10567755
why does alcohol do this to me? i don't even like the girl.

Sometimes I wake up and don't remember coming from downstairs to my bed, is this a blackout? I remember everything else.

>>10567852
who has their bed downstairs lmao

>>10566366
Not that anon, but I'm a 24 year old balding virgin al/ck/ie. I dated a literal 2/10 and she cheated on me with some fat trailer trash hillbilly. Reminder that all women are whores and will cheat on you just for the fuck of it

>>10567566
Good anime but not really good for when you're sad. If I want to be depressed I'll watch Elfen Lied. /a/ hates it and I'll agree, it holds nothing when compared to the manga but I watched it for the first time at 14 fresh from a psych ward and it fucked me up for weeks. There is no /comfy/ like crying in the dark drunk watching a depressing animu

>>10567759
Send her a text to let her know. Problem solved.

odds I get something to drink tonight
evens I can't be bothered

Productive day. During my lunch break I got a prescription for naltrexone and set up an appointment with an alcohol and tobacco counselor, and put myself on a waiting list for a psychiatrist to help me out with my ocd. Papa-bless the Australian healthcare system.

>>10567883
good

>>10564575
Don't know who she is
Tell story for interested anon
You've stoked my curiosity

>>10565503

Post pics.

Why are so many people in this thread sober? Why join an alcoholics thread to talk about sobriety?

im fuckng bored today. who wants to hang out?

>>10567904
Why post an alcoholic thread on the food and cooking board in the first place?
>>>/r9k/

>>10567940
/ck/ honestly just needs to be purged. 90% of the threads on here are company shilling and /sip/ shit. The only good thread is the /deenz/ one

>>10567863
If your still a virgin how was she cheating on you?

>>10567940
To talk about the drinks, rather than drinking itself. Right now I'm having a glass of Cabernet.

>>10567949
Are you really this retarded? We were dating and she fucked the guy. Me being a virgin is irrelevant

>cursing people out edition

just remembered i got drunk and cursed out some kids on COD BLOPS2 who were modding a couple months ago. i told them they ruin the game, are everything wrong with the world and i hope they get syphilis on their heart and in their soul

I called a policeman a "fucking dork" once. No reason. Ended up running away when he called me over.

>>10567690
not the anon you're answering but thanks for this description. it's fascinating, dream-like, and nothing i would want to experience.

EVERY FUCKING TIME I drink I end up calling people and telling them my deepest secrets, insecurities, and other shit that leaves me embarrassed for months.

>>10565507
Pour it down the drain and forget it, pete.

>>10568000
it's how it always starts. i got my life together and one day i thought 'i'm good now, i can handle the drink'. fast forward 2 weeks later and i'm into full blown alcohol psychosis from slamming down liqeour all day

>>10567999
>>10568000

>>10567690
And I thought I had it bad. That's some serious shit right there.
Thanks for sharing anon.

>>10568000
Kratom has been helping me stay clean. Stuff works wonders. Going to bed. Good luck, brother.

>>10565507
Please read this and do what it says.
Never drink again.
Thank me in ten years.

when you run out of money and go into withdrawal do you steal alcohol or call an ambulance?

>>10568021
Call the ambo anon.
Or do what I do and just cope at home with a bucket and a toilet close at hand. Unless pancreatitis, then hospital is a no brainer for the morphine drip.

Was a stupid idea to take a break during this warm weather. Usually have the nightmares and wake up drenched the first night, but holy shit last night was the worst.

>>10568021
Turpentine is always affordable.

>>10568040
Haha my step-father used to work at a corner store and had to tell the blacks to fuck off all the time because he didn't want to keep on ordering terps for them.

>>10568037
ay buddy are you trying to quit?

>>10568037
Yeah it's 8:30pm here and only 7 shots left so I am expecting the night from he'll come ~1am.
Worst thing is that I slept most of the day so no chance in passing out.

>>10568057
Yeah, finished a 6 day binge yesterday, need to get off this crazy ride. Can't keep binging like this.
>>10568061
Can't you get another bottle in before everything closes? I couldn't imagine running out before it knocked me out. I'd be rattling up and down the walls.

>>10568075
The worst is still to come then. 48 hours later is when the hallucinations, tremors and sweating kick in.

>>10568080
Yeah, when i did a 10 day binge I ended up in hospital. The sweating and tremors I already have, not looking forward to the hallucinations like. Appetite has come back though. I stopped for 2 years and still had shaky as fuck hands though, but doctor won't give me beta blockers.

>>10568085
you probably already know this, but vitamins and water help massively. this isn't some old wives' tale - it actually helps with the symptoms. valium can stop the pain too. seriously, a pork loin steak (high in vitamin b12), a jug of water, and a benzo make it tolerable.

>>10568094
Yeah, just sticking to water and greasy food atm, it works for me. Wish I could get some benzos, my gp hates giving me meds for some reason.

>>10568085

You gave yourself what's known as the bottle flu.

Let me guess. Uncontrollable vomiting, stomach pain, diarrhea, chills, sweating, etc?

>>10568097
I’m on a drug seeker list so get fuck all prescribed. Chances are you won’t be told if you’re on one. Can’t wait for old age without painkillers

>>10568121
Had to make myself vomit yesterday, but all the other things are true. Never heard of bottle flu before, fancy enlightening me?
>>10568127
Doubt many of us will truly see old age anyway lad.

>>10567337
>I don't know about you but I rarely got work done on Vyvanse. I would be at the library supposed to be studying and I'd just watch porn on my laptop pr go outside to smoke and check out girls. At home, I'd spend hours wanking - and drinking, of course.

i also fall for the "jack off for 3 hours to 16 different porn videos at once" meme but most everyone does. it works well during the 9-5 tho

>>10568075
Just made it back. 5 mins b4 closing. 6 bottles = 33% discount so I'm gtg.

>>10568139
Nice one lad. What bottles did you get?

>>10568127
damn thats a good plot for a movie
>mother gets put on a drug seeker list so cant get medication to help her tolerate the pain from doing household chores just to provide for her family

>>10568080
The horrible sweating, shaking and anxiety all starts about 6 hours out for me. Never had hallucinations, just crazy bad night terrors about 18 hours into wds. I know they are alcohol related because I've never had that shit except when trying to stop drinking.

>>10568140
Just cheap Shiraz. Yeah I'm a wino. So kill me.

>>10568150
Night terrors are the worst for me too. When I shut my eyes I feel like I've stopped breathing, when I eventually fall to sleep i have nightmares of people trying to kill me, or my dead mum having a go at me, wake up drenched in sweat at like 5am.
>>10568151
At least it's red wine lad, easily the best of all wines.

al/ck/ is my antidrug

Whoa... It's fucking 6 am. I looked at my phone and though it was wrong, but no. I just passed out and yeah it's right. Weird how that happens.

Time to clean up my mess

>>10568154
Jesus, that sounds terrible. I am often aware I am dreaming, and the sweats will be there no matter what, so I think you get it way worse. Sometimes I can even be stuck in a loop so long that I can take control of it and start to troll my night terrors.
You sir win the prize for worst night terrors.

Yeah, I just drink wine bc cheap and my stomach could never do hard liquor on a binge. I've drank plenty of hard liquor in my day don't get me wrong but it's always 12 hours on 12 hours off with that stuff whereas I can just drink sleep drink with wine.
My wife is hardly talking to me right now bc my last 'last time' lasted 36 hours. I hope I don't die this time for her sake but also in the long run if I can't quit long term, I know she'd be better off without me.

On another topic: I read so much negative stuff about AA here and to top it off it's only open evenings here. Anyone found success with it? I'm already guilty as hell not being a Jesus guy, so I have never brought myself to going. Can I go and not feel even more guilty about the Jesus thing? Any stories appreciated.

>Image posting is back. Expecting a more permanent fix soon!
Asian moot was a mistak'e.

>>10568163
How long were you gone? No matter how wrekt I get its 3 hours blissful dreamless sleep for me then another however long I can stand it of the sweats.

>>10568180
It was only gone for about 12 hours I believe.

>>10568181
I don't even know. Picking up the shit I threw around my house edition though.

Reading that last cringy text I sent.. fuck man

>>10568178
I usually start my binge with whisky, then continue the rest of the days with Guinness. Or cheap cider if funds are low.

Funnily enough I went to aa for 2 years, and didn't drink the entire time, went to my first one hammered off a bottle of jd, they didn't mind and welcomed me back.

As for the jesus thing, they never actually ever said to me it had to be jesus. I'm not religious at all, they just told me I had to believe in a power higher than myself, didn't have to be God or jesus or anything. Most of the time it was reading from the big book, or the 12 steps, but most importantly it was sitting in a room full of other alkies who were also recovering, and at a time when for me boredom was at its highest, meaning more chance of drinking.

I'd go along to a few sessions and give it a go, it's useless if you don't really want to stop, but you can use it well if you do want to.

Day 5

It's getting better.

Valium taper is still a nightmare.

>drink heavily for four days, all day every day
>tomorrow is work
>get my shit ready at night so I spend less time ironing shirts and packing food in the morning
>next day, have an ice cold shower and lather myself in the shower so I don't reek
>it's raining out, storm's a brewin'
>arrive at work fully dry via uber, feeling a bit hot
>get to my desk and unpack my shit: umbrella, laptop, water bottle, snacks for the day
>time passes
>co-workers making small talk
>"oh anon, you must've been caught in that rain, you're drenched"
>I look at the umbrella on my desk
>"y-yeah"

>>10568204

Why is my desk all sticky..

Good morning lol

>>10568215
i woke multiple times a few years back with a spade next to my bed. no clue.

>>10568188
Thanks for the input anon.
I know I should go and if they don't push the Jesus thing it would help I'm sure. I mean I believe in Jesus and God but I also know I'm waaaay to bad of a person to ever make it in their book.

Also I love Guinness just never could afford for it for long stretches. You ever tried Kilkenny?

>>10568221
LOLOLOLOL

a nigger? was it at least a girl?

>>10568204
Yeah, my work kinda just knows by now. They have stopped commenting.

Whoa. I dont actually remember buying beer. I bought the 6-pack of IPA and the 6-pack of the Miller Pint in preparation, so I wouldn't have to walk and get more, ended up going anyway lol.

Will people smell it on me. I dont want my mom to know

anyone else throw ship around their house when wasted, surelty i cannot be the onely one. Make me feel better

>>10568232
I haven't no, but I know I can get some so I might have to give it a try. I sometimes home brew things like pic related, even though it's expensive and there's a cheaper one called coopers I also like.

Like I say though, towards the end of my binge it's usually 3L of cheap cider, costs about 4.60 bongs just tastes like shite.

>>10568254
it's either coopers stout or you're getting knocked the fuck out, cunt

>>10568264
Fucking South Australia. Even more socialist than Victoria.

>>10568254
I've never thought Guinness was as good out of a bottle. I've never even known Kilkenny to be available other than out of a tap.
Kilkenny is god tier out of a tap imho.

I was in denial that I was an alco for so many years, I never brewed anything bc it was 'just for alcos'.
Now I'm such a massive alco everyone I know (as few as that may be) will just look down on me even more. I missed my shot or so it seems.

>>10568264
The coopers one is coopers stout, yes.
>>10568270
Stouts are godly on tap, but for Guinness I won't pay the prices in pub daily, can't afford to, so i just drink Guinness draught, always poured. Good enough for me. Kilkenny is bottle and cans, but expensive as fuck and available online only I believe.

Can't you do it in a room no one goes in? I get the ingredients delivered, and desu it looks better for me because I'm walking to the shop less so people think I've slowed the drinking, and it saves hell of a lot of money. Which country you from?

>tfw many of your favorite musical artists are passing away but you're still just a degenerate drunk
What would your an hero song be, al/ck/?

For me, It's like a Prayer, because I want to take you there.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=79fzeNUqQbQ

>>10568277
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=HvD_3FXqTeE
>the version where you just finished some dim sims from the canteen and some girl tugged you off behind the shed at parent-teacher interviews

>>10568274
Australia fag here.
I have two rooms available but my wife wants me to quit and I keep convincing myself and her that I can and will.
I have 4 bottles of wine hidden at the moment.
My ex-wife gave up on me after finding my hidden cache in the roof after I drunkardly left the manhole open.
She knew there was a cache, because I smelt like booze 24-7 just I guess that was the last last last straw.
My wife now hates that I'm an alcoholic but more because it means less she can spend on herself. At least I'm a happy drunk and we talk and laugh a lot more when I'm drunk.
Where are you from anon?

>>10568284
>>10568277

>>10568286
Regarding your ex-wife, what was the atmosphere at your most recent wedding?

Tfw my wife is in the kitchen at 11pm and I hid an empty bottle there.

SHE THINKS IM SOBER.

>>10568286
Britbong here lad.
Is there no chance of talking her round? Explain it'll save the money. And if you're a happy drunk, what's her problem? My ex always said if I was a happy drunk she wouldn't mind how much I drank, but I was always a cunt on it back then.
You can make 40 pints for like, 13 bongs, not sure what that equates to in aussy, but it's sure cheaper than buying cans.

>>10568277
what the fuck is this shit
please listen to something decent
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=HADlImQrG4w

Got drunk and decided to go out and roller skate around the neighborhood for about an hour last night. I don't remember what I was saying but I do remember waving at people like some crazed lunatic. I'm regretting that decision this morning.

>>10567904
Who else but an alcoholic would make a big deal about not having had a drink for a week?

>>10568293
Funny you ask.
I've never told anyone this but having said that, I have no friends.
My wedding to my current wife consisted of myself my wife the lady who married us and her husband bc we needed another signature.
With my ex-wife it was more of the same but in Japan they cost about $30k so no way I was able to pay that much. She is semi the reason why I'm such a massive alco.she was and is a good woman, just I couldn't do the Japan thing. I tried and I tried but I just became the biggest alco you could ever imagine.

>>10568297
for me, it's le salsa song
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=AMT698ArSfQ

>>10568309
that image is literally my roommate
she's alright but a bit annoying. I like tarot and astrology and that stuff is fun to think about but once you start taking it seriously it gets a bit weird

>>10568296
You sound young and cool as fuck anon. I'm 40 years old, and a loser. You probably shouldn't even waste your time replying to me.
When I said I am a happy drunk, I guess I lied because sometimes I flip out at stupid shit and it's all on me.
If I say I want to brew alcohol she will just leave because I need to and want to quit.

The reason why I drink is because time passes faster and my life hurts much less when I'm wasted. You sound like you drink to just enjoy life more. I drink because it's the only way I can find life enjoyable these days. I am a totally lost cause alcoholic.

>>10568309
>>10568315
Just fuck her until she stops being like that.
Do you ever hear of or see a 40 year old married chick doing that? No. Because after they get a decent dick in them they stop being retarded.

Perfection. Thank you God for you have given us Pabst.

>>10568325
Yeah not really into that
she's skinny and cute but I'm not getting involved in that shit

>>10568325
I'd want her to send as many negative vulva vibrations as possible.

>>10568332
Every time you spam this it's another reason why I'm never buying your product.
First time and last time I am ever replying to your spam.

>>10568322
25 this month mate. That's pretty much the reason I drink, no friends, no prospects, drink takes it all away, but I know I can't keep it up. I first got blackout drunk aged 12, had an alcoholic dad and 2 alcoholic brothers so they didn't care, I just carried it on since then.
I can go without, but that's after I've spent all my money on a binge, when I get paid I binge again.

What are you like with cannabis? I'm hoping to get some next payday, and try to use that to get off the booze. Much healthier and I've never found it addictive. Maybe you should try it anon if you haven't already.

But don't put yourself down lad, we're all on an alcoholic thread on 4chan for a reason.

>>10568333
Trips say otherwise, anon.
You just said skinny and cute so you know you totally would.
Sure she has friend zoned you for now, but you can always become the 'bad boy' she craves and once she has felt your dick pulsate inside of her whilst you release your seed, she is forever yours if you want her.

I think I will stick to stronk beers from now. A week long binge on vokda ruined me emotionally, physically, and mentally. And yes.

>>10568342
You sound wise beyond your years anon. I was a lot like you at 25 but not even close to admitting I am an alcoholic. If you can admit it at your age, that's a massive bonus. I think you can make it.
Also pot totally should be my go-to drug, but the two people in my life ironically hate it more than alcohol. Even in my fucked up state, killing myself day by day the government and media has indoctrinated them so heavily that they think it's better I live this way.
Sorry to hear about your family. I'm identical. You are young enough to make it out. I really hope you do. You seem cool as fuck.

>>10568387
Cheers anon, you sound cool as fuck too, plus you've already said you want to stop. Does your missis not like weed then? Should drop a few red pills on her, you can grow it yourself, it doesn't kill you, it helps with pain, depression, isn't addictive etc.

But I know them feels, it's either the government saying reeeee it causes mental health or people just don't like the smell. They'd rather your liver packed up and you died a slow painful death than smell a bit of weed.

Good morning, and cheers

>drunk snapchats
>dont remember what i sent

How can I ever recover

wew laddies.

I've been clean for two weeks now. Finally starting to sleep normally, but I get really tired at like 7 PM and sleep till about 4:30. I've lost about 1" of waistline with like 5 more to go before I'll be merely fat and not a total blimp like I am now. Ability to breathe fully is mostly returned and I'm not sweating bullets any more.

My big problem now is that I'm still feeling super tired all the time. I am drinking literally 10 cups of coffee a day to compensate and it just barely keeps me focused.

After the first few days it wasn't so hard but I've tried and failed to get this far like 8 times already. I think I have really bad seasonal affective disorder, I live where it's winter basically 9 months out of the year and always gain weight due to drinking during that period.

96 days no booze. Haven't been high in a week either... but only because my tolerance is now so high after 13 weeks waking and baking, that i feel basically nothing smoking weed. I've bought a concentrate vape and am about to start paying £70/gram for extracts. It's that or I'd be getting my coat to walk to the off license now. Second longest I've ever gone without a drink.

>>10568411
I think you might want to see a doctor

>>10568416
wtf is a doctor going to do for me? tell me I'm fat?

>>10568393
I honestly haven't tried to redpill her on it. I should consider it. I can't grow it because neighbours.
If I try to redpill her on it and find a seller I could make a go of it I guess.
But it would take a whole lot of redpilling I'm sure. She grew up with a very functioning alcoholic dad. He makes me wonder how it's possible because he drinks almost as much as me some days.
Your last comment made me lol; the first Srs gf I ever had got so mad bc one time we were having pizza and she got mad as fuck because I took a toke and blew the smoke in the direction of the pizza. It was pretty rude but daaaamn 22+ years ago and I still remember that.
I still remember her wanting to do anal and she got shit on my condom and couch so I hate my memories.

>>10568411
Damn, quitting for me has become impossible because my brain is retarded. It sounds like quitting for you is impossible because your surroundings are retarded.
You need help.
Can you get help where you are? They are paid to help so don't be shy anon.

>>10568426
Diagnose whatever issue you have

>>10568415
Fucking amazing anon!
I have drink in front of me and more in the car. I can't wait to be 9.6 days sober.
You are winning at life. I hope you are proud as fuck because you are literally winning at life.

>>10568432
really I just need to move to a place where there is actual sunshine. I grew up in AZ and wound up living in Michigan. I can't fucking stand it here, need to pack up and get out.

hopefully my energy levels normalize in another few weeks

>>10568341
South Park,4chan,fake dive bars this product can't stand that it's ironic cool window slammed shut and it's back to being an off brand can of piss.

I think i should just delete Snapchat, at least with text you can see the cringy shit you send

>>10568450
snapchat is for dumb narcissistic girls that just want to waste your time

delete that shit

>>10568459
Yeah maybe. I like keeping up with certain people though. Just wish i could control myself when blacked out, but i dont think it was that bad, maybe slurred text at the worst. wishful thinking probably

>>10568427
Hahaha hahahaha fucking hell I'm creasing.
Shit on the condom AND couch? That's fucking gold lad. I went in without a condom on one ex and had to wash shit from under me bellend, but didn't get any on the bed.
I don't know why they hate weed so much, I'm lucky in the sense that housemates all smoke it, so they won't be reporting me or anything. Just hint that smoking weed will help you fight off the booze. And fuck the neighbours! I'm going to give an autoflowering strain a try on the windowsill and see what happens.

>>10568411
I drank a lot of coffee too when I stopped my drinking. Something about sparkling water and coffee that has a pleasing effect that stops yearns. You'll level out depending on how much you used to drink. I took 6-8 weeks. I dont drink nearly as much coffee

I am gonna do it guys I am quit!
Just gonna drink up the last remaining beer cans today then I am gonna quit!

>>10568444
Start taking D3 vitamins

Lads I know you're not doctors but can I ask some advice? I figure some of you will have some experience here. I fell off the wagon at the end of last year and I've been binging pretty hard 4-5 times a week since. Last week I had the worst one of my life and have been feeling pretty shitty and withdrawn since Saturday, although not wanting to drink at all. I started feeling better the last couple of days but just today it's gotten way worse, and now I'm reading that the DTs can come out of nowhere anywhere up to a week after you stop. Am I really in danger of just dropping dead? I don't especially want to either go to hospital or drink anything but I'm feeling pretty spooked, what would you do? Feel free to call me a pussy if I'm just being a pussy about it.

>>10568692
When you say today it's got way worse, how as it got worse exactly? I wouldn't worry though, you'll be fine.

11 days sober. went to my third meeting yesterday.

If you want to stop you can.

>>10568707
I've started shaking worse again and just generally feel really fucked up and shaky and scared, and I keep losing concentration and pacing around. I don't know whether to just ride it out or if that's dangerous or what.

>have literally no money
i'm ready to start just doing snatch n run shit niggas

>>10568718
Do you want to stop drinking.

I decided to quit drinking for about a month because of what it's doing to me. Today would be the second to last day of my taper (two drinks today, one drink tomorrow) but depression and anger are setting in again and my concern for myself is very rapidly declining. Is there any other reason to stop or should I go ahead and buy another gallon after work today?

>>10568747
It comes and goes. If you have some people to talk to and are serious about stopping make the effort.

The impulse just to say fuck it is really strong and quick, but it can go away just as fast if you distract yourself or don't dwell on it.

I've finally decided to stop drinking once I realized it only really caused harm and pain, and I would say that well that didn't happen all the time, but a 35% rate of fucked up shit and awful fights, and dangerous situations while drunk leaves its marks, especially when you're next instinct is to keep drinking.

>>10568745
Yes. But I don't know if cold-turkeying it after the last few months is such a good idea. I feel like my nervous system's rattling itself to bits. And this isn't just an elaborate excuse, if I felt like drinking for pleasure I'd just say so.

>>10568795
Don't go cold turkey man, it makes you feel like you're dying and depending on how hard and how long you've been hitting it you actually could from seizures. Look up the HAMS tapering method and set up a schedule so you can quit safely. From there it all depends on your self-control, but if you really want to quit then you'll be able to do it

>>10568817
I just went and got a 35cl of vodka, poured half away and drowned the rest in lemonade. Gonna sip this over the evening and see how I feel. Really don't want to get drunk though, I was looking forward to just going to work and being a normal human this week.

>>10565507
drinking is my hobby too

>>10568901
ahhh, you convinced me.

>>10568847
>poured half away
why not pour it into some kind of container or get a smaller bottle of vodka instead of literally throwing your money away

>>10569048
it was all they had in the nearest shop and I know if I keep it I'll just slug it down once my mood's lifted and end up buying more and either missing work or showing up hanging, which I really don't want to do.

>>10564351
Picked up the buy one get one from circle k. The orange tastes like an orange hug barrel. It's light too so at least no hangover. 4/10 at best.

The bottom of my tongue and the top of my stomach feel numb. Am I having a panic attack?

>>10569068
why not put it in a different container and simply either not drink it, or remember to drink some water if you do drink it?

>>10569168
>why not put it in a different container and simply either not drink it
I don't mean to be shitty with you but if you're not winding me up, have you noticed what thread you're in? I literally shook my head reading this.

>>10569108
going sober is better than drinking bud light.

I bought a 30 rack once thinking "this shit is cheap, why not." Got more sick than drunk and was pissing like a racehorse. It's basically just rancid salt water with a little bit of alcohol in it for laughs.

>>10569168
>simply either not drink it

lol we wouldn't be in this thread if that were a reality.

>>10569200
>>10569211
thats why i went on to describe having some water if you do drink it, which is fine

who cares how much you actually drink as long as your hangover isnt too bad

>>10569227
It's not tapering if you just say 'fuck it' and get hammered as usual. Please be joking.

>>10569243
don't taper
fuck it

>>10569248
Stop that.

>>10569265
if a man wants to drink, let him

What should I drink today senpai? Been sober for over a week and I am to bored/lonely for sobriety.

>>10569168
>simply either not drink it
fuck you and go away

>>10569307
If a man wants to stop, let him

who here TECATE tall boys?

I don't want to drink anymore but I'm terrified of kindling

sober life is exhilarating. i just watched a documentary on the history of salt, while laying in bed in too much pain to sit down. now i feel a bit better i've got a glass of apple juice, and I'm sitting down to watch a movie. "House Shark".
>When Frank finds his happy home under attack by a dangerous but largely unknown breed of shark, he's enlists the aid of the world's only "House Shark" Expert, and a grizzled former real estate agent, to embark on a desperate quest to destroy the beast and claim back his life. It's JAWS in a house!
After this I think I'll need a rest from all the sitting, so I'll lay back down, eat a bowl of healthy vegetable soup and then kill myself.

Managed to fuck up my car in a wreck today. Surprisingly, I was sober when I did it.

>>10564351
>tfw got drunk and red-pilled a Stacy on the Jewish question.
Told her to tell all her friends about Jews as well and stop believing in all the stupid Illuminati shit.

>>10569641
It's just some dry sticks dude

>>10569748
I'm ded laughing

>>10566451
it's sad to think I have pissed hundreds of thousands away, and am in debt of almost 30,000. D.u.i lawyers are expensive, and I was an idiot. still am, sipping a labatt blue at 3:27 in the afternoon, not working, waiting on a job i'm worried might not come, and a legal resolution which outcome I am worried about too. fuck my life.

Haven't drank in 19 weeks.
Starting to get cravings, fuck me. Weather's warming up, I want some cold beers.
Had an extremely realistic dream last night that I woke up hungover after getting trashed, with beer cans all around my bed. It felt so real, hangover and everything.
Subconscious guilt scaring me straight maybe.

>>10564498
unless she knows where you live who gives a fuck
move on with your life
and if she does know where you live catalog the incidents, ask her to fuck off (politely), catalog the other incidents... seriously if shes a problem speak to the police
there are options

>>10570005
I know that feel with the dreams, apparently it's quite common. Don't panic about the cravings, it's the relapses you don't see coming that'll get you. Just stay busy.

>>10570043
Not the guy you are replying to but how to keep busy?
People say 'get a hobby' but what the fuck is that when you are 34 years old and your knees are rekt from sports, vidya no longer holds your attention unless it's a 10/10 and You hate interacting with people.

>>10570119
What works for me is anything that requires being reliable for other people. Jobs, volunteering, visiting old ladies in the hospice, whatever. Anything where even if you cannot be fucked at all you still have some drive to go so as not to flake out on someone else you made an agreement with. I spent years planning to do all this noble self improvement stuff learning this and that but in the end it's just another thing to feel guilty about while you lie on your ass if there's no outside factor to get you moving.

>>10570119
Golf or shooting?

>>10570145
sorry, just reread and saw that you hate people. that will change over time if you force yourself

>>10564431
The ol' liquid courage.
I suffer from chronic anxiety and prescribed medications make me into a zombie.

A glass a day turns me into a happier and focused person which allows me to enjoy life after having had a long string of very deep depressive episodes.
It'll probably become a crutch at some point but I'd rather have a crutch than feeling like I'm not in my own skin.

Does Vodka prevent or reduce the dangers of being exposed to radiation? If so, how much? Are there any side effects?

>>10570176
the problem is that it's heavy, I always find I take too much with me and end up reduced to moving at a crawl

>>10570005
>that feel of cosy relief when you realise you're not hung over
>that feel of kil when two days later you wake from a blackout and it's all ogre

>>10570145
>>10570160
I'm not socially retarded, I'm just a selfish cunt.
I could visit old people I actually did it a bit before, even drove them around in my car with no coin repaid to me.
I think that would just make me want to drink more however, seeing where I'll end up.
I hate to think about getting old but I do it daily. We all get old (if unlucky) then we are a burden upon our family, then we die.
I really want to die young, because I don't want people who know me going through those memories.

>>10570176
Not really related but I always feel quite hungry after drinking a pint of Vodka.

>>10570176
Please stop slinging your shit here.
Doesn't your boss already have enough money? You are forced to sling it to total alcoholics? Your job is truly worse than the guy who climbs down to unclog the shit from a house.

>>10570254
plenty of time before you get to that point, you can make up your mind closer to the time. no kidding though even volunteering for free has made a huge difference in my life, and I don't mean in an 'aaaah I'm helping people I'm such a good guy' way. just the knock to my pride when I look like a flake in front of other people is enough to motivate me a lot. and you can find something you'll enjoy while you're at it

>>10570176
get out of here stalker

>>10570176
During the Chernobyl incident: It was widely believed by the plant workers and clean-up crew that alcoholic drinks, mainly vodka and red wine, can cure radiation poisoning from the body. It could be noted that it has been proven that ginseng, which is contained in vodka, increases the body's metabolism allowing the body to more quickly dispose of and replace irradiated cells and tissue; even so one who has been exposed to deadly radiation should seek professional medical help instead of drinking vodka as it is not a medically recommended cure to purge radiation from the body.

>>10570356
>ginseng, which is contained in vodka
what on earth are you talking about

>>10570356
ah, so that’s why eastern europeans are so well built

>>10570356
Please don't be just a copypasta
This is too good.

Is Lagunitas looked down upon? I went to a beer shop and asked if they had these, the guy smirked and kind of chuckled and said no.

I grew up in Lagunitas and it's my favorite beer though :(

24hrs no alcohol, spent Monday hungover and battling.
Now I am sick, will post when i get a solid shit.

I ain't trying to quit I just want to give my liver a break, maybe monitor if my stomach bloating goes away.

>>10570412
IPAs are fine but they all taste pretty much the same to me

>>10570412
it's fine, but I bet it's extremely rare that that's the best IPA or best value IPA in any store or bar.

>>10564431
27 here, had a wife and two wonderful daugthers. Traffic accident later I'm all alone, my dick stopped working and I gained 30 kg (~110kg at the moment) after everything.

Boozing helps me fall asleep without suicidal thoughts.

>>10570412
How much do they pay you to shill here? Honest question.

>>10570471
5 per post and 7 for every reply.

>>10570486
(You)

>>10570471
I can shill for my other favorite drinks too desu

>>10570468
I feel for you man.
You still have another 30 years to re-roll and start over.
Get a job, buy some weight and stationary bike, try find a hobby like archery or something.

>>10564498
Ovid?

>>10567018
>10567018
Hi potato I'm dad.

I finally have the balls to do it fellow al/cks, after the love of my life broke up with me I got a 2nd dui. I plan to tie a belt in my closet or squeeze it in the door while I lean against it, thanks for the laughs its been real

>>10570412
that is like top tier gas station beer in california. nothing special

>>10570907
suicides dont need notes

All right lads
I got off the booze in february because I realised I was an alcoholic
ever since then it's been on and off
about once a week I'll start drinking and lose 3 days to it, and then get off it for a few days before starting again
any advice?

>>10564431
I have a 7/10 gf
I don't know why I drink
I just hate my life and myself I suppose and keep tricking myself into thinking drink will help, even though it never does

My most obvious trigger is when I have to deal with a situation in which I have to be social/ a situation where I am overwhelmed
But because it's obvious I can deal with it
When things are going well, I just get cravings, and convince myself to drink
Fucking shit desu

Should I eat food?

>>10571251
Yeah, but eat dry carbs if you can stomach it.
Otherwise water, throw up rinse repeat until you can.
Usually it's 36-48 hours after a bender before I can eat. Not sure what it is for other al/ck/crew/anons

>>10571251
I personally can't eat for a day after a binge

>>10571194
Yeah, it's all mind power anon. I have none, so I find myself looking for an 'excuse'.
5-30 days later I am sick as a dog, can't even look at water and telling myself never again.
Currently drinking heavily in the kitchen, hiding it from my angry wife. She will catch me soon I suppose but as per my ex-wife.
Ex wife caught me a good 20-30 times before divorcing me.
Current wife used to let me drink in front of her but now it's just gotten too much for her, knowing how bad the withdrawals get and having to nurse me through it?
Every time is my last time. Yet as soon as I'm healthy enough to drink again I usually do. I wish there was an ID card for alcos, banning you from buying, but then the government wouldn't get their tax Gibbs me.

>>10571309
>>10571309
>>10571309

New thread

>>10571309
>>10571309
>>10571309

>>10571311
Nice dubs but it doesn't have the correct .jpg
Try again or another al/ck anon will and berate you for it.
Pic related.

>>10571305
This time isn't my last time, but tomorrow might be.
I know what you mean.
When I drink my way through a hangover, I know I shouldn't be doing it, but need to in order to deal with my decisions from the night before.

I have no will power either. I went to AA, and am sure I'm one of the guys they talk about at the start who can't be honest with themselves, never mind others, and stand no chance.

>>10571327
i'm new, I've dipped in and out, but I didn't know there was a requisite image.
I thought it was coincidence, damn.

>>10564351
Every time I get really drunk I start smashing plates. I hardly have any left. Luckily I haven't been getting to that point more then 1-2 times per week.

The new guy at the liquor store has caught on to my drinking, he asked "big night tonight" and I answered nope I'm just a drinker and he said "good on you!" in a really fake and awkward tone. I was wearing the same clothes from the last time I saw him which was two days before. Pretty embarrassing watching someone's respect for you dropping to zero.

Went to a family birthday about a week ago? And wound up fighting with everyone, even a lady was going to punch me, and I've sinced renounced my entire family. Came home covered in mud.

Hopefully I'll be able to stop soon, I actually had a few odd days not long ago where I didn't drink but after a big binge I feel like going a day is too risky, especially since I had pretty bad withdrawals at the end of last year with all the hallucinating and jazz.

>>10571399
>sorry, we don't serve alcohol until 8am

o-ok

>>10571399
Damn anon. Sounds bad.
I had hidden all of my drinking from my family for a good 10 years. Then I just had to tell them . The last time I saw them, I was a good 30-40 pounds heavier but I did a good 5 days not drinking prior to seeing them. Then a good 5 days not drinking around them and they act all surprised I don't want to drink with them. Maybe I was high functioning but I'm sure as shit not anymore. I can hardly wipe my ass correctly these days.

if I drink 740mL of hard liquor in 2 days like it's nothing am I an alchie?

>>10571453
you certainly have a sky high tolerance. probably wise to quit.

>>10571453
Yeah try and keep that up for a few years and ask again after you have gone a day without. Your body will give you the answer.

>>10564499
yeah, this.

fuck the new thread. when this one dies i go down with it.

>>10566434
If you don't want to be a teacher I'd recommend you drop out right now and go to a trade school.