/ck/ - Food & Cooking

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7gV3g9LCvPc

My whole life I have been pretty good about getting over women whom I'm I was in a relationship with and it didn't work out for one reason or another.


But there is one woman, Just one....That I just cannot stop thinking about. She's married and I have zero chance with her....

I have known her for 13 years and I am so deeply in love with her that for 10 years I've drank the feels and pain away. Literally to crippling stomach and side pains from the amount of vodka I drink daily.

Oh well, I've come to realize I will die of alcoholism and I really don't care any longer.


It's just kind of a slap in my parents face they raised such a loser. Especially considering their success and relative wealth....They raised an alcoholic nobody who in all likelihood has pancreatitis at 29 and will be dead by 40 tops.


Pour me a tall one lads, The feels are really getting to me tonight.

>>10596321

I'm not ruling it out, I'm sure it's not helping... But these symptoms feel different from WDs. I'm not sure if having a few drinks will make it better or worse.

>>10596354
>caring this much about someone who barely thinks about you at all

>>10596366
I know man...I wish I could just never think about her again.

But I can't, I've tried for close to a decade.

>>10596354
Sounds like you need to drop your life and move far away. Move cross country, out of country, whatever floats your boat because the idea of her is killing you. Have you tried talking to a professional?

So why did you people start drinking in the first place?

>>10596334
>2 25oz in
>already feeling nauseous
i wish the liqour stor was open today, this sugary bullshit is going to make me puke.
>just now reading OP
but i guess it doesnt matter if i vomit or not does it...

>>10596384
Feeling of hopelessness when failure and loneliness is all I have.

>>10596377
I've been to therapy but quit going because I have to censor everything I say and I am paranoid of people knowing too much about me and using that information maliciously against me in the future.

I actually just recently (5 months ago) moved further away from her, 2.5hrs. But sadly that didn't change anything....If anything it made my life worst because I miss occasionally seeing her and spending time with her. Moving further away and cutting contact didn't help at all...

>>10596380
Social anxiety and depression mostly

>>10596364
If you haven't drank for enough time that you're getting WDs, I can't advocate that you drink now.
You're almost through.

To be honest, I don't know much about heat shit, being Canadian and never living below the 49th parallel

>>10596380
It makes distracts me from the world.

>be me
>alcoholic since early college
>gets me into trouble a lot
>family doesnt even know who i am anymore after i lie to them so much
>$25k in debt
>can't go back to school for my senior year
it all has to end eventually, boys. talking to my

dad tomorrow about either offing myself or getting it all together

>>10596402
Have you thought of the military?

>>10596402
see you on the other side

>>10596416
The military would be a great out for me, but I don't really qualify due to some health conditions

>>10596424
Waivers exist.
Don't give up quite yet.

I don't want to give you false hope. But if you can be useful to them, you can be useful to others.

>Called my mom because mother's day
>Just filed for her second divorce, first (my dad) because drunk, second was much longer and they just ran out of it
>Never had anything against my stepdad, never missed a day of work and helped keep a roof over us, didn't really do any parenting otherwise
>Mom says she's relieved but terrified, but it's for the best, didn't have anything in common anymore
>Stepdad says the same
>Thinking about them, finally alone with the quiet, fucks me up, wtf are they gonna do now

I should have bought a second bottle yesterday.

>>10596449
what's preventing you from getting one today?

>>10596433
If things don't go well with my dad tomorrow, I'll look more seriously into the military. I know I don't really want to kill myself, because I have moments of hope. But the drugs/alcohol and depression make things difficult.

>>10596454

Laziness, funding (get paid Wed), had half a 750 of Seagrams that's gone now. I'll be aight, got a 12 of pbr.

>>10596471
god a 12 pack for oneself sounds nice, especially if you're watching a movie by yourself.

>>10596477

Yeah I'm thinking I'll turn one on. Any recs? I tend toward horror/sci-fi.

>>10596402
>>10596402
I'm sorry if this littles your pain but this almost seems normal. At least it does for me. I could say that college is bullshit and not finishing it isn't that big of a deal. You are probably better off. But I have no room to give anyone advice given my current life. College just hasn't proved it's worth to me yet. But the longer I go through life the less I believe it will.

>>10596486
mmmm...Aliens comes to mind; that or The Host (Korean kaiju movie). only movie that gave me the heebie jeebies was IT, but after watching it a second time on a twelve pack I was really disappointed.

>me
>huge lightweight with alcohol (like, pretty buzzed off 3 shots worth lightweight), usually would throw up if i got drunk
>as a result don't really like drinking alcohol in public, only feel comfortable in my own home or in a house with people i know

>coworkers invite me to go to restaurants or bars and i'm the only one who doesn't drink anything
>they think im a weirdo who doesnt drink and act amazed the one time i did, like its amazing that i drink at all

anyone know this level of autism?

>>10596494
I vastly prefer Alien desu. Loved The Host. Only saw IT once in theaters and liked it. Needs another view, maybe I'll get that. Main criticism is that it just wasn't long enough for the source material; the scares were good but too compacted. I read the book back in the day and it is fully wtf, more so than the movie imo.

>>10596507
People who ostracize others for not drinking are weird. If they truly are relentless, just nurse a beer over the course of your meal in addition to water or whatever soda.

>>10596514
nah they arent bad people or insult me for not doing it really. im a weird autist so they just want to me open up a bit i think, i just feel weird being the only one not drinking anything

a month ago we went to a bar because someone was leaving and i just sat there eating and drinking nothing and they eventually just bought me a drink and when i drank it they were all like WOW LOOK ANON DRANK SOMETHING

>>10596486
The Thing.

>>10596486
Event Horizon
Dark Skies

>>10596507
means you're a cheap date. you should keep it that way. saves you money and health in the long run.

>>10596522
Eh don't really know what to tell ya then. Sounds like they aren't too bad, you should be able to tough it out til they just give up and stop asking. Or until you open up more -- whichever comes first.

>>10596510
mmm...can't really think of any other suggestions. some other anon's got some decent choices. fucking loved Shin Gojira. all time favorite movie.

>>10596524
>>10596526

My all-time favorite movie is The Thing. I like Event Horizon a lot, but I just know it could have been so much better if it hadn't been neutered in order to keep an R rating. I also liked Dark Skies quite a bit, more than most critics.

Psst... hey anon who I told about how it's bad to drink after exercising...

Guess what I'm doing :3

>>10596556
>Guess what I'm doing :3
Gee, I dunno...being a faggot?

>>10596537
Haven't seen that, looks good. Got to be better than the abortion that the recent US Godzilla movie was.

>>10596558
For it was going back to roots, and Hideki Anno did a proper job at directing it. only complaint was using some Eva music and the thot that spoke engrish...that was awkward. everything else for me was orgasmic

>>10596372
Nigga you're not fucking special, you're obsessed. Get the fuck over it.

Pourin a tall one for the feels anyways. I was obsessed over a girl for 5 years one time. Her name still catches me off gaurd a little, but I don't fucking care about her anymore and it's great.

>>10596380
I ruined my life at a very young age by getting caught with drugs thus being a felon. I know I can never pass a backround check and be anything meaningful. So I drink.

>>10596562
I'll check it out, thanks anon.

>>10596486
I'm torrenting limitless.
I used to have the blue ray and watch this on a huge dose of codiene, so while I can't recall the plot I know it's a good film.

Shit remember when they were going to start making good films, and you were going to be able to watch they at home in blue ray.
And it was all orange and teal, with sharpness turned up and all the movies were repeats of the same old shit or super hero movies.
Then if you bought a blue ray dvd, it didn't have any extras, you had to buy another edition to get the dvd extras.
Damn, I don't even bother with the cinema anymore.

Not going to drink today, I think it's going to be 32C today and it's my day off.

>>10596380
Anxiety and feeling depressed and pathetic to begin with

>>10596557
^_^ nyyoooo

>>10596573
Have you considered going back in time and not doing that?

>>10596597
I go back in time in my mind a couple times a day and wonder how I could have been so stupid to get caught up with shitbags.

>>10596570
Same. Lauren. Idk what I was thinking now. She wasn't all that special, just more special than the shitty women that lived in my shitty hometown. So many wasted opportunities with other women throughout college. Fuck. We hooked up eventually. My hopes were so high. Then she fucked off across the country with what most people on 4chan would describe as a 'soyboy'. She's chubby now and they're getting married.

I'm already married, to someone way hotter than her. Feels good. You can do it bros.

>>10596602
Yeah, but I meant in a more literal sense.

>>10596609
No because despite my shortcomings I'm not retarded.

>>10596581
I'm a scientist so I can't get past the premise of that movie. We're pretty much in the golden age of the internet. Download movies, games, porn, anything with no repercussions. It's gonna get way worse, and soon.

>>10596611
>getting caught with drugs thus being a felon
>not retarded

>>10596624
Yeah I was waiting for this. Some people are lucky, some are not. Lawyers are notorious coke heads. Tons of people that are successful have done lsd and other drugs. I was unlucky.

Going insane but I still have some hope. Even small things get me motivated, like watching a clip of Vegeta going SSJ for the first time on YouTube.

But fuck me man, still gonna take effort to even get outta bed tomorrow. There's a job fair I'm signed up for, and my resume is still outta date. I'm pathetic and don't wanna get better outside of these small packets of motivation.

>>10596618
It's fictional, but I am sure it sold a lot of nootropics on the back of that movie.

>>10596334
Well I tried to quit, but I couldn't. I still go to work on time. I still maintain good relationships between my family and friends. I'm still able to hide my underlying problems from everyone else. I guess at this point I just have to accept my life as a high-functioning alcoholic.

>tfw haven't had a solid meal since Wednesday

>>10596653
You and me both, man.

>>10596531
i think the one thing being a huge lightweight with alcohol means is that i will never become an alcoholic. i mean being drunk feels kinda nice but the vomiting and debilitating hangover i get the next day means i pretty much try to avoid getting actually drunk as much as i can. like i'll never have hard liquor drink unless i know exactly what is in it and how much

My chicken turned out like shit tonight, but drinking and playing guitar are liberating when you don't have to work Monday. I don't know if I should feel bad about still thinking about her, but I really couldn't be happier in my sadness. If I can't have her here, at least I have my dreams (Even if she hates me in half of those too).

133 days sober lads. Bought some CBD weed online with a pax vaporizer. I think I'm finally off this booze cruise for good but I do miss slamming some beers. Coffee, water, and sometimes soda is keeping me busy and away from the shit

>>10596700
congrats man, and don't fuck up.

>>10596700
Quitting weed so I can look for a better job definitely made the drinking worse for me. Drug testing for weed should be illegal.

i don't know why i even pretend i'm not going to drink again tonight.

>>10596700
i bought a pax era and some cartridges for it, with a large portion of my justification being "it's a healthier coping mechanism for me than alcohol" and i ended up just being a stoner idiot who is high 24/7 in addition to being an alcoholic. godspeed

>>10596708
I won't. Lost my dad to alcohol among other elements he was doing. I still did it after the fact but December 31st came and I decided I had enough.

>>10596716
As far as I know states that allow medical marijuana and test you can't reject your application. A woman tried getting a job in this state and won a case for discrimination

>>10596717
Sorry to hear that anon. I'm in that mindset right now about muh health but I've been working out for 7 years so at least I don't feel like shit every Monday at the gym. Good luck on kicking the booze friendo

>>10596611
>No because despite my shortcomings I'm not retarded.
>hasn't gotten his record expunged
Nah, you're just retarded.

>>10596646
Always good to hang onto those motivators. Helps to endure the mountains to climb in life when you can look forward to getting home, getting comfy and watching a show or playing vidya that has some connection to who we really are. The 8 yr old inside.

>>10596745
You can't get your record expunged in my state if youve ever pled guilty to any other crime. Including speeding tickets or anything whatsoever. It's ignorant motherfuckers like you that want so badly to feel superior to someone that fucked up in their distant past that has made my life shitty. Your fucking mom is retarded.

Ended up in a drunken argument with my own brother and took a champagne glass to the head. Stitched up to all High heaven and still can't stop the sauce. In fact I'm using the pain as an excuse to drink for pain relief. Failure as a human lads.

>>10596771
You're a faggot
Put that on fucking paper
I'd never ever strike my brother

>>10596777
My brother struck me, anon, not the other way round.

>>10596796
The fact that you're using an extremely presumption trip means i'm rooting for your bro
I'd slap you right now
And I don't even know yiu

>>10596771

tell me your brother at least took a ratchet handle to the head beforehand. that fucker had it coming.

>>10596771
Sounds like failure runs in the family. Kill yourselves, "lads".

>>10596817
Rooting for me and slapping me are 2 different things.
>>10596827
And no, just took a glass to the head as I walked back in. Found out later what made him do it was the fact that i went to the toilet to talk to a friend on the phone, he'd said "no phones later" so me going on the phone wound him up.

>>10596841
Why would another man tell you no phones later? That sounds all wrong.

>>10596841
What the fuck is in the water over there? Why are euros so trashy and mental?

>>10596860
Fucking weirdos trying to control eachother like it's a prison yard or something. Exterminate all euros, they'll attack eachother but don't do shit to the "pakis" raping their kids. Fucking subhumans.

Got my roommates gf drunk as shit tonight and got to play with her titties. It was a good night ladds

>>10596771

I once bit a mans face, hit another with a chair and elbowed a third in the head during a drunken barfight instigated by my friend while I was in the restroom.

>>10596867
>degeneracy
>lads
There it is again. I swear to God you "people" need wiped out.

>>10596771
Aren't you a special snowflake.

>>10596860
Was something to do with it been disrespectful to sit on the phone all night.
>>10596861
God knows lad, I usually pay 80 a gram for this kind of night out.
>>10596882
Did you get caught? If so what was the outcome of the court case?

>>10596334
Back in the hospital again. Staying here until stabile and thereafter, I am being shipped to a clinic.

>>10596901
We have winrar!

>>10596898
>Did you get caught? If so what was the outcome of the court case?

Nope, we got the fuck out of there immediately and I went home. Nothing ever came of it, thankfully.

I had to get blood tests and shit though because I was worried that I might have picked something up off the fucker I bit. I accidentally swallowed some of his blood, I think.

>>10596841
Whose the good looking one now?

>>10596905
Holy shit. Sounds like a good night out, apart from the free shot of blood of course. Have to be careful with that stuff lad, as you already know he could have had aids or anything.
>>10596913
Isn't is, whose a pretty boy then? But yeah it definitely wasn't me before this so I couldn't care less what I look like after.

Coming home from work and having a nice sip of a cool PBR. Nothing comes close to that.

>>10596920
>Sounds like a good night out,

LOL yeah we had a pretty good time all in all.

>apart from the free shot of blood of course. Have to be careful with that stuff lad, as you already know he could have had aids or anything.

Nah yeah it turned out fine.

>>10596923
Coming home from work and having a cool PBR with your best friend

new to these threads. I have started drinking when I am sad about pathetic shit,
>be at work
>new qt grill shows up
>talk to her a few times
>think we are becoming friends when chad thundercock shows up and from what I can only assume, nabs her within 10 min.
Luckily I am also a goddamn lightweight I think so I dont need much for the buzz I want.
Am I on the right path of destruction guys?

>it's a Truman ends up both drinking and smoking after trying to use weed to get off the bottle and spends the whole night masturbating to Facebook thots episode
Part of me thinks this is a rerun.

>>10596865
fuck off weirdo. Why brings up politics on a cooking board?

>>10596972
I know that one all too well. It's like a scene in a movie where a character is like "no, that's it, I will not do tha-" *cut to next scene* *character doing exactly what he said he wouldn't*

feeling proud of myself for only drinking 9 beers tonight

Day 1 not drinking.

It's 8 am and I need to fill the next 18 hours up so I don't get tempted into drinking. Please help me find some distracting activities, so far I have...

Walk to the park and back (exercise)
Watch a movie from the Oscar winners
Read a chapter of a book
Cook a good meal
...

>>10597016
What's a beer to you? A pint? A can? and how strong?

>>10597021

what about raping a young girl and strangling a cat? Isn't that top of the sociopath's list of good days?

2 am. Just waking up for round 2.

>>10597021
Cook a good meal

do this. then walk to the park and back

or
>>10597025
this

>>10597025
Usually I do that drunk, so I can't be having that kind stuff on the menu... need to distance myself from alcohol-related activities.

>>10597021
honestly, this
>>10597029
would be more exercise that a walk to the park

>>10597029

Dutch strangled a cat on The Shield. I never got over that. Makes me sick to this day.

>>10597036
walk to the park it is then...

>>10597040

Park walking is good, but then there's a rapable girl just walking around.. can't leave her unraped.

>>10597044
well then, don't forget your formal wear

>>10597021
Clean shit.
Go to your parent's house if able and do something for them.
Get on code academy and learn a programming language.
Start a garden.
...
I started growing jalapenos and cayenne peppers. Can't wait to eat those fuckers and blow them out of my asshole.

>>10597053

my dink plinth? It chaffs.

Called a nearby counseling service... they were unable to accept new patients, and the receptionist was unable to point me in other directions for help. What kind of shit is this?

>>10597060
Someone actually understood my post... I need more activities. I can't walk to the park for the entire day.

Good suggestions, but I already code for a living so I'm trying to get off the computer. And I don't have a garden.

>>10597065
It would help if you told us which country you're in.

How many of you guys watch Downton Abbey and know that its the ancestral home of Lord Canarvan, the discoverer of King Tuts tomb?

>>10597071
Utterly immaterial.

>>10597060
>code academy
I'm going to look into this. Thanks , anon
Also, storefront captcha is best captcha

>>10597074
I can't think of anything useful to tell you regarding your phone call then... if you're in the UK, I can tell you that your GP will be able to refer to you a counsellor, if you're not, then I'm not sure how your system works.

>>10597080
It doesn't go in depth but you can learn the syntax for several languages. If you pay you can go in deep in depth though.

>>10596380
Boredom, trauma, depression, habit.

Today my SO told me that when I drink at night he has to wait until morning until the real me comes back. I've drank probably 75% of nights for over 5 years. Doesn't feel good.

>>10597084
just learn the basics and start working on a project of your choice. solving problems is how you learn to code, not following guides/tutorials.

here's some ideas.

https://github.com/keplr/programming-projects-for-n00bz

>>10597084
seems like a good place to start and get a feel for it.Thanks for the link. Used to build pi related but i can't anymore because reasons.

>>10596380

I had my pelvis crushed when I was 8. It never grew properly from there. Now I enjoy sciatic pain every day. It's something you kinda can't get over. That and my degloved leg, lost testicle, fucked up kidney broken tib fib.

Kinda makes you want to drink.

>>10597088
Oh I'm a coder. I was telling the other anon you can learn basics of several languages there. It's great for begginers who don't know about control flow and shit like that.

>>10597087
>Boredom, trauma, depression, habit.
this

>>10597091
here's a cool pic from the end of a workday

>>10597101
nice, what state?

>>10597094
sorry to hear, anon. Makes my troubles pale in comparison

>>10597121
Missouri. Columbia to be specific

Sober tonight, plan on being sober the rest of the week, alcohol is really wearing out it's welcome in my life. Getting too old for this shit.

>>10597148
i wish you well, anon. I wish I was at that point. Soon hopefully. Boredom is what gets me. I can go a few days but then I succumb

liked fresh bright blood last night, Pretty sure it was because I tried to hold in the vomit until the toilet and swallowing it forcefully damaged the esophagus a bit

>>10597156
jesus

>I'm an alcoholic am I cool too, guize? XDDDDD

What a pathetic circle jerk.

>>10597158
is that supposed to be bad? I googled a bit and it seems that only full esophagal tears are dangerous

>>10597162
I'm not a doctor but it seems like puking blood would be bad

>>10596380
I'm gay and I can't deal with it so I drink and suppress it

>>10597170
Why not be gay. Unless you're an effeminate fag what's the big deal? Go get yourself some sick and be happy.

>>10597190
*dick

>>10597170
>>10597190
this. Who cares if you're a faggot.

>>10597170

I'm the guy who overreacted in the barfight above. I'm gay too.

I remember when I was a teenager struggling hard with it, but unless you're in a situation where you face legal or extralegal punishment for being gay, why try to suppress it?

Mate, you don't have to be a stereotype. You don't have to associate gayness with the 'lifestyle' that some gays do. You don't have to be one of those guys in order to accept who you are.

Relax. Besides, I'm sure you have REAL problems to drink over.

>>10597212
Ever tried to blow your friends?

>>10597159
pretty cringey projection there kid

tonight, this morning, for (pétit?) déjeuner it is an Archambault Blonde, half drunk, that I found in the trash, and possibly also a small cup of mysterious warm white sauce I found on a doorstep.

>inb4 some dipshit says something like "why dont you just start a farm and buy some chickens and rabbits if youre hungry??"

anyone still awake?

>>10597268
are you eating and drinking trash anon?

if evens I buy some beer to deal with the shame of drinking yesterday

>>10597273
rolling

>>10597216

Fuck no, man. I respect boundaries absolutely.

I'm basically one of those stealth gays who you wouldn't know was a fag unless I told you. I'm shit with fashion and hair, I like guns and outdoorsy stuff and all of my friends save for a handful are all straight men.

I appreciate hanging out, drinking and just being one of the guys. I like hanging out with straight men because I know there's not going to be any weird sexual tension ever and I can just be a dude having a good time. They all know I'm gay of course, but they know I'm not a flamer and they know I'm not going to try to hit on them.

>>10597272
yes
i have no money
and trash is free

>>10597273
okay, then I will buy something else to cheer myself up, any suggestions? I thought maybe some lube

>>10597275
not that anon but good for you. I've been around flamers and they are the worst. Even the gays I know hate them

>>10597278
are you french?

>>10597283
>>10597279
there is nothing wrong with being gay and flamboyant unless you are autistic or annoying

but if youre on 4chan youre probably autistic and annoying so dont be flamboyant

>>10597285
or worse....Canadian...

>>10597285
no but i live in french canada and consider it to be the TRUE canada

why does hangovers make the world feel so bleak, empty and full of dispair? I envy people who only get a headaches or something, the emotional destruction is the worst part, wish I had some weed or something

>>10597286
>flamboyant
>not annoying
pick one

>>10597275
>I like guns and outdoorsy stuff and all of my friends save for a handful are all straight men.
t. 66.6% of gay dudes
lotta gays are or like bears and otters who are into typically masculine stuff. as the australian comedian wrote,
>straight guys "I want something soft... Something feminine... That smells nice, treats me nice, y'know, gentle and stuff... Maybe spread some rose petals about for it too, over the nice clean sheets."
>gay guys go "I WANNA FUCK A BLOKE. I WANNA FUCK HIM IN THE ASS, THEN HE'LL FUCK ME IN THE ASS. THEN WE GET SOME BEERS. MAYBE BARBEQUE SOMETHING TOO. IT'LL BE A GRAND FUCKIN' TIME"


>>10597290
>why does hangovers make the world feel so bleak, empty and full of dispair?
because your tummy hurts and you regret the waste of a day to recover

>>10597290
alcohol is a depressant

>>10597290

Because you went to bed after drinking without hydrating.

When you are shitty drunk and decide to go to bed, make sure you drink at least a liter and a half of water and wait long enough to have a good piss from it. THEN go to sleep.

90% of a hangover is being dehydrated. If you want to do extra, you can opt to take some milk-thistle extract, which you should be able to find at any chain pharmacy like CVS or Walgreens. It is an herbal extract which is so effective that it is actually used in hospitals as an antidote for certain types of mushroom poisoning due to the protective effects it has on the liver.

>>10597294
A drug being a depressant doesn't not mean it causes depression, anon.
Although alcohol does that too.

>>10597296
are you the same guy that spammed this shit on 420chan? Water helps with hydration, that’s it, I can drink all the water I want and hangovers still leave me devastated

>>10597298
huh, didn't know that

>>10597299
>are you the same guy that spammed this shit on 420chan?
that you're reacting this way to someone saying "drink water before bed if you drank booze" tells me that youre a schizoid and should therefore kill yourself for the good of all communities you are currently trying to be a part of

>>10597300
yeah depressant means it's a sedative of sorts, it's a physical relaxant, not that it causes you to become sad.

so, it's 04:30 here. Should I take some Trazadone or skip it?

>>10597306
more specifically it means that it depresses breathing and heart rate

>>10597303
blow me, cockboi

>>10597306
seems to be the norm with me. thought the cause was liquor. I will rethink it

>>10597307
fuck it, trazadone it is

>>10597311
if you are an absolute madman sober, you will only be more mad and more absolute when drunk. alcohol is a notable mood enhancer, in the sense that your normal personality will come out more, as inhibitions are either removed, weakened, or refocused

>>10597318
not a madman. As some anon up thread said, I drink out of boredom. I have other issues going on

For the sixth week running, today will be my last drink. I mean it this time.

>>10597335
godspeed anon

>>10597331
>not a madman.
it was just an example

>>10597347
noted

>>10597170
I'm a straight guy, but I'm pretty sure we live in an age where it's easier to be gay than ever. You don't have to be ashamed. I understand that your family's perception could possibly give you trouble though depending on what they are like.

>wake
>no money
>new crypto has been released, owners giving free coins to holders of their last coin
>suddenly have £400
that's like three times this year i've been hit with random bundles of cash. the money involved is insane, and it's being thrown around to attract new investors. not kidding, get into crypto before altcoins hit bitcoin prices. buy a few different coins from poloniex.com, then just leave them on poloniex for years, forget about them, bet a hundred quid now will buy you a car in 10 years.

anyway brb buying alllll the inxoticants.

>>10597159
>"LOOOOL what a pathetic circle jerk"
>likely participates in other circle jerks daily

>>10597362
it's not just about the culture of the time but also guilt (as opposed to shame) for being gay -- the sense that you have somehow failed, in that you are different, in that your relationships have necessarily different aims and ends, in that you have to seek love and sex in different places, etc

t homofaggot

personally, i deal with it by not banging. but then again, i have bigger (or at least more distressing and more immediate) problems than smashing that result in my dire need to get smashed all the time

>>10597290
These are the type of hangovers that happen if you've been drinking heavily for years. Normies only get headaches or get sick because they don't drink very often. That's just the way it works.

>go to bed early last night, 9:30 PM
>wake up at 4:00 AM
>crack a bud first thing, without considering the fact that today is monday and I could have had a fresh clean productive start to the week

Ah well fuck it

>>10597310

I'm the gay dude, I'm not the one who was replying to you there.

>>10597310
your death can't come swiftly enough.

>>10597374
The thing is, as a hetero speaking, I don't think you have failed at all for being gay. That's nothing to feel bad about, you have every right to like who you want to like. I believe you that there are more complicated matters for you and things about you that I couldn't understand probably, but on the face of it there is nothing wrong with being gay and that's not a flaw within you.

>>10597384
Stop it with this blasphemous picture, Trump doesn't drink.

>>10597384
iktf

>>10597395
except for the entire human race being put at risk of disease, infertility, death, maybe extinction, and even having to wear sex-ruining condoms for hetero sex, thanks to gay people rolling around in eachothers shit.
https://www.cdc.gov/hiv/group/msm/index.html
gay is not ok, people won't fucking have it when they realise it's putting the health of themselves and their kids at serious risk.

>>10597374

Gay barfight guy again.

Personally I feel a sense of failure and shame for being gay, but for weird reasons. I feel bad that I will not give my parents grandchildren and that I will probably never have kids who are biologically mine.

It's one of those things which is in the back of my mind until I try to go to sleep, and then I will lie awake anxious about it.

>>10597395
yeah whatever but my point is basically that it's not useful to say "it's ok to be gay because it is the current year" because there are a lot of other insecurities attached to any sort of alternative sexuality that are not soothed by a simple application of "well, the shitlibs are in charge and they don't really care"

it's sorta like telling someone who studied a stupid subject like liberal arts or architecture or civil engineering or visual arts "well it's not like anyone's gonna arrest you for having that degree" -- it doesn't address that your lifestyle choice has fundamentally been a mistake, or at least is sub-optimal or has been sub-optimally handled

>>10597406
americans arent real people and health concerns drawn from american phenomena should be disregarded because americans have worse social and hygiene practices than nigeria

>>10597406
While not everything you said here is untrue, you can still have a life to yourself with another man if that's what you truly want. Your personal gayness isn't affecting the entire human race and I'm pretty sure there is a guy out there who will love you and that you can love in return and have your own lives together.

>>10597416
lol realized I probably replied to the wrong anon here

>>10597392
I hope, man

>>10597416
>>10597419
post still makes sense in response to >>10597406 2bh

>>10597414
> americans have worse social and hygiene practices than nigeria
India would be a more apt comparison.

>>10597414
The thing is the shitlibs aren't in charge right now no matter how much they desperately want to be. I'm not liberal at all myself and I still think it's fine if a person is gay.
Although I understand that me saying something like "dude just grinder it up on your phone, it's easy" could be like telling me "dude just use tinder even though you are a 28 year old virgin, it's easy".

>>10597414
>stupid subject
>architecture
are you retarded? How would house get made without architects?

>>10597425
your bantz are basic, but powerful. have you considered taking a class to hone your talent into true skill?

>>10597428
>How would house get made without architects?
ask numale "urbanists" who are obsessed with "3d printed" housing and hate cars because they are literal maoist and tankies who hate everything that isn't related to collecting welfare in San Francisco

>>10597429
>https://www.statnews.com/2017/10/06/hepatitis-a-outbreak-san-diego/
I was referring to the street shitting/hepatitis thing.

>>10597433
maybe it’s an American thing? I work with architects often and they’re usually just depressed dudes who work 12 hours a day and have a decent amount of money, but no time to use it

>>10597436
>working 12 hours a day
I'm an American, but how can people do this and not want to immediately kill themselves?

>>10597436
I have never met an architect and the closest I've ever seen are tankie weirdos obsessed with "3d printed" shanties.

I'd have studied it myself, but even by 2009 I saw that the trade is dead, to be replaced with flatpack mcmansions and commie-encouraged corrugated metal favela shacks. Just look at the fad of "tiny homes"

>>10597440
look at where you are and think about it for a sec

>>10597443
Are you suggesting that work is an escape from a shitty life? I mean I still can't fucking imagine anything more than 8 hours in a stretch and thinking it's worth it. You don't get to do hardly anything as it is.

>>10597449
no i'm saying people are killed by their jobs and given access to affordable alcohol by the government to cope with it because it keeps them productive

>>10597440
>and not want to immediately kill themselves?


they do, one guy I know just bought a plane, but doesn’t even have the time to pass his license, and he talks about how he wish he was a pilot instead

>>10597440
Probably by doing something they like. It's probably hard for an american to imagine actually enjoying anything, but it is possible.

>>10597449
>Are you suggesting that work is an escape from a shitty life?
The only thing I'm looking forward to right now is getting to go to work this weekend, because it means being on a ship, doing ship stuff, away from the internet, away from the retarded commies and numales of my city, away from it all. Just me and radios, ropes, and a coffeemaker.

The only thing better is that in a couple months I have a three year contract of it.

Enjoyable work is necessary to proper mental health, imo. I only drink so much and get so depressed because my normal work at my home unit is so soulless and useless.

.
>>10597460
Why are you so obsessed with Americans?

>>10597454
I've been an alcohol for 10 years now and don't honestly believe alcohol would keep people productive, even though I see what you are saying in the sense that it would keep them pacified. I'm probably the wrong person to talk to anyway I guess and shouldn't really put my two cents in because I'm currently NEET and an only son with no friends around anymore though. So I get that my character could be a matter of contention with a fair amount of people.

>>10597464
>Why are you so obsessed with Americans?
they are ruinous, decadent, virulent filth

>>10597468
"true" alcoholics are outliers, but getting drunk regularly to cope is surprisingly common. you can see the same "alcoholics making hard workers and vice versa" system kicked up a few levels in japan

>>10597468
I am also an alcohol, anon

>>10597476
it's a meme from before your time, lad, don't front

>>10597473
this

>>10597460
I think enjoyable work is necessary to proper mental health too, but I'll be fucking damned if I ever found an ounce of work I ever did in school or college or outside of it to be gratifying in any way. I wish that wasn't the case, but it certainly is for me.

>>10597476
Well yes I would assume so since you are here.

The reddit CripplingAlcoholism sub vanished overnight

>>10597492
Yeah I used to laugh at people who complained about reddit "censorship" but it seems reality has now caught up with the memes

But 5-6 years ago reddit was more freewheeling than 4chan, where a single mod can make it virtually impossible to post as they cyberstalk you across IP changes

In the good old days the worst that could happen on reddit was people downvoting you, now if you say the wrong thing you get banned from subs you've never even thought about

>>10597479
>intransigent non-cooperation
thats the most concise explanation of the absolute STATE of americans ive ever heard

>>10597492
good

>>10597500
The one thread I read about it speculated that it was the mods of the sub, they privatized or deleted it. There was a new mod and a lot of rule changes recently, people were pissed

>>10597479
Where do I get this book? Google image search gives me nothing

>>10596388
>scared of shrinks knowing things about you while not caring enough about your life to not drink yourself to death

You need to get your priorities in line m8.

>>10597514
Why are Americans so inept at research?

https://issuu.com/xenophobes/docs/americans/6

Found by googling the first sentence.

Americans need to be gassed and bombed.

la creatura...

SOBER AGAIN TODAY LADS

>>10597481
>95% of our species existence we hunted, scavaged and picked berries for a few hours a day at most and spend the rest of the time lounging about. Medieval peasants had more than half of the year off.

Work, especially full time work, is a modern industrial invention.

>>10597526
>Medieval peasants had more than half of the year off.

who told you that?

>>10597526
did not mean to greentext fugg

I guess you can call berry picking work but in a way but nobody actually needs employment to be happy.

oh. hi pol.

>>10597526
youve never attempted to actually pick berries and hunt animals if you think it only takes a couple hours a day and the rest is spent lounging about. even medieval peasants with fairly hands-off crops still had other duties like cooking, cleaning, caring for livestock, maintaining the cottage, etc, and even then, peasantry is a notably sad existence compared to other professions and other areas' peasant equivalents.

>>10597523
I just got back from buying a bottle of vodka after 3 months off the stuff. I got a look of sympathy while buying it. Joke's on them, no drinking here, I'm just using the ethanol to clean my crack pipe.

>>10597533
amerimutt is an /int/ meme

>>10597534
not to mention that they were serfs and had to pay a tax/work the lords land for free for a set time. Peasent worked all the time, I’ve no idea what that guy is on

Death To America

>>10597539
same angry fat virgin kids screaming at everything. impossibly infuriating little thundercunts have no place in al/ck/.

>>10597549
why can’t Americans into banter? Lighten up, buddy

>>10597555
americans are incapable of mirth or joy or even basic contentment

>>10597539
Is it true that beer produces estrogen?

>>10597574
no.

>>10597529
Here's one:

http://blogs.reuters.com/great-debate/2013/08/29/why-a-medieval-peasant-got-more-vacation-time-than-you/

>>10597574
yes.

>>10597534
>youve never attempted to actually pick berries and hunt animals if you think it only takes a couple hours a day
The world is stripped bare by now, you have to imagine a completely pristine earth with only a million or so people on it. We can barely fatom how much fish and wildlife and woods and vegetation there were a few centuries ago, let alone 50k years ago.

But studies done on contemporary hunter-gatherer peoples (who have a way harder life than the ones of the past because they only have hostile and harsh pieces of territory left because the agriculturalists took all the good land) still work less than modern people.

>>10597544
They didn't work all the time. I'm not saying peasants had nice lives, just that they didn't put in as much hours modern people. Working like we do wasn't even possible before the industrial revolution.

I like antibiotics and electricity as much as the next guy, don't get me wrong, but we've been fucking ourselves in the hours worked department. Most of us, at least.

>>10597593
>The world is stripped bare by now, you have to imagine a completely pristine earth with only a million or so people on it.
Have you ever been outside the city? be honest

>>10597537
Couldn't you get isopropyl alcohol? That's cheap and undrinkable and all the dude weed lmaos use it to clean their pipes.

>>10597603
Not within 2 minutes from a corner shop I couldn't.
Glenn's vodka did a perfectly good job. it yielded about 300mg of... bong...matter, which contains months worth of multiple drugs. Gun git rekt

>>10597595
Of course there is still a lot of nature, but hunting and gathering in a world where 7.5 billion people are practising industrial agriculture and fishing and have divvied up all the land is a lot harder than in a world that's almost completely not interfered with by humans.

>>10597619
I don't think that's what he was getting at

When you're working with blunt sticks your idea of "inhabitable land" is going to be different than when you're working with iron tools and oxen. When you're working with iron tools and oxen your idea of "inhabitable land" is going to be different than if you have cars and amazon.com

The point was no doubt that you have a city person's notion of "pristine land" because you've never thought this all the way through. How you'd survive without modernity in that "pristine land", including winters, surprise changes in weather, and so on.

At least that's how I'm reading it, also I'm a city person and find it amusing how country folk think that there's something unknowable and magic about rural life.

>>10597581
This is silly. Do you know what happens to crops and livestock if you just take weeks off at a time?

>>10597619
Answer the fucking question. Have you ever been outside the city?

>>10597626
Having a lot of days off doesn't necessarily mean having a lot of days off in a row. Also, medieval agriculture had a difference pace than today with having hundreds of permanently lactating mutant cows bursting at the seems at all times and such.

>>10597628
Yes.

The original point I was trying to make is merely that people don't need a job to be happy though.

>>10596388
I feared sharing things with my shrink too but I liked my shrink, he's a good guy. They by law, unless you intend a crime, can't tell anyone about anything you say. Find a shrink that doesn't know who you are, and actually talk about things. What does it matter if you tell him the story of an ailing alcoholic? Big whoop, get yourself situated.

>>10596603
I'm proud of you, anon. You got your head together.

I've got days i drink, and says I don't and today and tomorrow are days I don't drink.

God i wish we're worked for me, something to make life less DULL.
Still, it's the best way to avoid becoming physically addicted.

who's at the pub lads

>>10597717
>he can afford the pub

wew lad

I had a really bad case of alcohol poisoning. Put me out for days puking so hard and often I just wanted to neck myself to make it stop. I have been drinking about 750-1l a night for like 4 years. One of those "lucky" few that never got hang overs. Been off the sauce 5 days now and honestly can say I don't miss it as much as I thought I would.I have a new problem though.

I have apparently forgotten how to actually fall asleep without a shitload of depressants in my system. I am up all night just tossing and turning. Whenever I do fall asleep I wake up 15-20 minutes later feeling pin pricks on my back and legs and scalp. I'm seriously waking up 20-30 times a night utterly unable to stay under. This shit normal for coming off long term use and will go away or do I have to relearn how to fall asleep?

>>10597716
>and says I don't
> i wish we're worked for me

Are you sure that today is a non-drinking day?

>>10597727
That's normal, you're only 5 days in after years of drinking like a suicidal retard. It will get better over the weeks and then months.

Do you practise proper sleep habits? Try to get some exercise in, no screens an hour before bed, reset your circadian rhythm et cetera.

doing pretty well tapering off, it's fucking scary to realize how dependent I am now I'm not perma-smashed though. Just about made it till noon today before I had something to drink, waiting for it to get into my system so I can actually get some shit done instead of staring into the middle distance feeling my heart go apeshit. Really hope this is the last time now

>>10597440
>tfw have no other option if i want to be self supporting than to wake up at 4 am and do repetitive tasks for 50 hours a week
what the fuck kind of life is this

anybody has any fetishes? Personally I’m into female domination

>>10597761
yeah the whole 'american dream' thing is over when you only get enough money to survive no matter how much you work.
i hope the revolution is AI-led, and that it somehow results in another 60's-esque free-for-all gineyfest. just need a homocaust first so we can have sex without dying from 1,000 grotesque, lethal infections.

>>10596972
>>10597009
Wait shit weed isn't a substitute for liquor? I was hoping to have some other vice to take the edge off without the huge calorie intake of beer.

>>10597767
Since I fucked an anorexic girl last month I've been into stick thin bitches. Like visible ribs and shit.

>>10597773
Whatever works for you man. I personally use opiates to cope because I can get off 'em pretty easily, so first 3 days I will pop a few of them. Other people use benzos but I find them even more addictive than alcohol because I get insomnia in withdrawals...

>>10597773
depends who you ask. i for one adore weed. near enough the only times in my entire adult life that i've dropped booze for even an afternoon, its been because i've been high instead. i've been stoned since feb 1st. 102 days nobooze

>>10597774
Interesting, what about their asses? Don’t you like for the ass to be phat?

>>10597779
Yes but luckily asses are the last part of the body to lose fat. Even a slender girl with protruding hip bones can have a nice squishy ass.

Obviously not all of them are this lucky genetically but the one I banged was really skinny and still had a bubble butt.

>>10597782
The glutes are also one of the largest muscles in the human body so needless to say concerns about bony asses are overstated

Thin girls are indeed the best

>>10597783
isn't that racist or something?

>>10597785
Stop trying to lump fat acceptance into the same camp as opposing racism

People don't get to choose their race. Fat people can choose to eat less

>>10596334
Just wanted to give a shoutout to the kind nurses and doctors at the QEII Hospital ER in Brisbane.
Went on a stupid bender for a few weeks. Knew I was going to be in big trouble, possibly even pancreatitis again, so booked it over there while still a bit drunk this morning.
They didn't make me feel guilty at all, and got me heaps of Valium and Oxy. Even offered some morphine but I was already on a cloud.
Now I have plenty of Valium to get me through the rest of the withdrawals. They were almost all cute, too. Even the food tasted good.
I could have stayed a few days, but I said I wanted to go home and not take up a bed needlessly, and they were fine with it.

>>10597767
face sitting and death by snu-snu

>>10597798
Just want to play and listen to music and go out a couple nights a week, why the fuck do i have to work

>>10597798
damn, so you can just drink in order to score some drugs?

>>10597798
nurses are either semen demons or nice old hags. id inseminate about half the girls on the floor at Shitsville hospital TN

oh shit. miniature vodka bottles made into lava lamps, with shatter/wax used as the 'lava'. why didn't i think of this before? i could stick a pepe on it too and call it "bitcoinmeme sexdrug vodka". brb trillionaire

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=PXPh7EbB1Tw

It's quarter of 10. I'm drinking Bud Light and thinking of my old best friend who I dropped 7 months ago. She still misses me but has a bf, I'm not going back.

>try to quit drinking in the winter
>b-b-but it's cold and it's boring i HAVE to drink

>trying to quit drinking the summer
>b-b-but it's really nice weather and everyone is out having fun, i wanna drink too!

I just realised all weather is drinking weather

>>10597785
What is this abomination you've posted?

>>10597916
Just don't drink alone. If you only drink sociably don't absolutely get trash unless everyone else is. Non-alcoholics will only do that a few times a month if that and casual drinking isn't going to ruin your life. Use regular people as a down shift instead of just yanking the e-brake at every light until you break.

>>10597914
you might be her plan B or C man if her dominant man fucks up, which he most likely will at some point. all relationships end

>>10597926
That's sound advice, but the problem with many of us alkies here is that one drink just ignites a week long bender, so it's better to stay 100% sober for as long as possible.

>>10597937
>100% sober for as long as possible.
That seems kind of impossible and you're just setting yourself up to go on life ruining benders when you do crack.

>>10597767
Idk why but creampies.


Cumming in a woman bareback is the ultimate for me. (I've had a vasectomy)

>>10597941
That's how pretty much every "recovering" alcoholic lives. There are very very few who can have a social drink and return to normal life. That's why even the ones who have been sober for decades still don't go near the stuff.

I personally manage 1-2 weeks without alcohol, then go back to daily piss ups for a week.

>>10597950
Do you still cum with a vasectomy? I don't mean semen, but any liquid at all?

>>10597983
Yes, Looks and (from my ex's experience) tasted the same as well. Same amount, Just no semen in the ejaculate.

Literally cost 300 dollars at planned parenthood with no insurance, Best money I ever spent.

I couldn't fathom accidentally having a child, I hate kids.

>>10597987
>from my ex's experience
suuuuure

In all seriousness, the only reason I didn't do it was because of potential complications and long-term risks. I got my wife sterilised instead, easier for girls to get the snip than men.

>>10597987
>retard-proofing the future
i thank you for your action.

>>10596334
test

>>10597990
from what the doctor told me the risks were very low. Something like 3% of men their tubes will re-heal together and be able to have children again.

That wasn't the case with me, I had my ejaculate tested by planned parenthood 4 times in a year. Zero live sperm...

It's actually a very safe procedure. I was back at work the following day. The first day I just layed on my bed and drank with frozen peas on my balls.

You also have to wear an athletic supporter for about a week and not lift anything over 10lbs.

In 3 weeks I was back having sex, No pain.

But you have to wait until your first negative semen tests to go bareback, As semen is still in your balls until after 5-10 ejacks.

I disagree it's easier for women, I was wide awake when I got snipped. An only local on my balls, I even drove home.

Women go fully under 99% of the time and there are major risks for them, including cancer.

>>10597999
>not having your women barren herself so she has lost that one precious gift women can uniquely offer men so she has less options about leaving you
You have given up all the power.

>>10598001
kek, I didn't really love her. We were just dating...

I like your style though...Smart man lol

>>10597999
>You also have to wear an athletic supporter for about a week and not lift anything over 10lbs.
Why? Hernia?

>>10597822
the fuck you talking about? show a pic

>>10598011
No, Just do your balls don't dangle too hard. When they snip the "wire" to your balls you want them supported and next to your body or otherwise it hurts to have them hang that low when they are healing.

Time to drink a whole bottle of mead and regret everything I've ever done!

>>10597767
yeah about a million. i'm a sadistic asshole in bed.

What physique is achievable for a alkie?

Providing you eat well and exercise as normal, what's the limit if you drink heavy every day?

>>10598022
Usually drinking makes me forget about regrets.

>>10598052
No, there's that part where you're on your first drink and know that you're making horrible life choices before it all kicks in.
You're right after that though, else the mead would be worthless asides from the delicious taste.

>>10598048
It'll probably be hard to keep an "attractive physique" up as a heavy drinker desu. Unless you barely eat anything with most of your calories coming from alcohol. But if that were the case you'd just be skinny.

>>10598083
Impressive* as opposed to attractive. I guess that fits better.

UKgameGirl, post here in al/ck/ future threads when you find this after googling yourself.

How can i incorporate a shitload of alcohol into food, so i can force myself to eat? I'd eat all the time if I had to do so to get drunk.

>>10598576
substitute your milk with vodka when eating oatmeal

>>10598576
Overdo the wine on any sauce involving wine.

>>10596555
The void

>>10598607
lol at most you could maybe get a glass of wine in cooking sauce and that still wouldn't get you drunk

alcohol in food is done in tiny portions. liquor desserts use barely any, even the strong ones.

>>10598048

>>10598048
It's near impossible to gain and muscle mass when drinking heavily. You will end up skinnyfat or bear mode, but never toned.

>>10598083
>>10598796
From what I understand alcohol hinders protein synthesis as well as slow down the use of stored fat as energy. So it basically makes it harder to build muscle and lose fat - most people can't get a muscular lean look normally now imagine trying to do that with a substance which makes it 25%-30% harder.

NEW THREAD

>>10598829


NEW THREAD

>>10598829

>>10598083
nearly if not completely impossible and even if you manage to get the muscle mass and body fat right you will still have a steve bannon/charles bukowski face and stink and stumble and have fucked up skin et cetera.

that polish weight lifter guru guy that was on tim ferris' podcast was an alcoholic for a while when he was young but i think he got over being a drunk by lifting.

>>10596380
Anxiety and boredom

>>10597293
>>straight guys "I want something soft... Something feminine... That smells nice, treats me nice, y'know, gentle and stuff... Maybe spread some rose petals about for it too, over the nice clean sheets."
>>gay guys go "I WANNA FUCK A BLOKE. I WANNA FUCK HIM IN THE ASS, THEN HE'LL FUCK ME IN THE ASS. THEN WE GET SOME BEERS. MAYBE BARBEQUE SOMETHING TOO. IT'LL BE A GRAND FUCKIN' TIME"
kinda makes me wish i was a fag, seems fun