/ck/ - Food & Cooking

Feel free to also post about whatever the pit you're doing right now on the condition that you be incredibly drunk

t. doing sudokus right now and listening to shitty tunes

Does anyone have to hide the fact that they drink so heavily from a gf? It's making me question my allegiances but I'm pretty sure keeping up appearances is the only thing keeping me from full on bottoming out.

Made it 3 days sober, bought a bottle of vodka for no real reason, didn't even crave the booze or anything.
Drank the whole liter, wound up on the floor sobbing and slamming my head into the ground, woke up naked in my kitchen with my legs covered in cuts.

Guess I'll go back to trying to sober up.

>>8979146
I keep making it through my withdrawals and then convincing myself that I can "just have two beers" which initiates a three day bender. I want to stop too.

>>8979084
I drink 3-6 beers and 2-4 shots every day. Am I an alcoholic? But I also have days ever other week were I don't drink at all, and it doesn't give me any withdrawel.
Drinking just makes my evenings so much more enjoyable. Can't have fun and relax without it.
Am I just overly worried, or is this dangerous?

>>8979142
My wife knows I have an unhealthy relationship with booze and really understands it, because she has her own problems with addiction. I still try to hide it, because I just feel ashamed.
Do you really think she would dump you if you told her you got problems? If so, do you think she would do it because of selfish desires or she could really just couldn't handle it on a psychological level. If it's the latter, seek help somewhere else and tell her if you think you making serious progress. If not, she's a bitch and you should seek a better gf.

>>8979196
That's pretty much your standard alcoholism, yeah.

>>8979184
The first two days were the worst, the third day I actually felt breddy gud and was productive, doing a lot of shit, cooked for myself, cleaned up.
I fucking hate trying to sleep sober though, I get these bizarre dreams and never feel like I properly fall asleep

>>8979220
>never feel like I properly fall asleep
literally same here. i used to love taking afternoon naps during the weekend but now i can't do it without 5 beers minimum. sometimes i'll include wine and rakia too. and whenever i'm sober i always have this sensation of not being properly asleep. the "naps" while sober also never last more than 40 minutes-hour, whereas before they'd be 2-3 hours long.

so far this only applies to the afternoon naps, but i'm afraid it might start affecting night time sleep too.

>>8979220
Dude, on top of the sweating/freezing bouts and all the restlessness having absolutely batshit dreams when you finally sleep makes it so unrewarding. I want to know if it ends.

>>8979218
She's seen me kick an insane opioid habit before so that answers that she is a keeper, thanks. I think I'm probably just afraid of the confrontation/ like booze too much. I need to stop being such a fag, hah.

I feel sick but im gonna keep drinking because it feels better than being sober. Kill me. not even an alcoholic but this is the only place to blog about it

hope you're all doing reasonably well.

Been sober for awhile now but the only thing that keeps me sane lately is the knowledge that some day i can retire and make my own wine and drink myself to death in a fugging trailor park lmao :D

>>8979275
It numbs the pain but after I finish this bottle of bourbon I'm done for a while.

>>8979271
she sounds like a good gf. Just try to not let your addiction affect her life to much and work on getting your shit together, at leased for her sake (but also yours)

Stabbed my laptop with a screwdriver.
Don't know why.
Asked a woman to sick my dick.
She wasn't happy.

Guys I think I have to leave.

>>8979220
>I get these bizarre dreams
I hate them but prefer them to the nightmares of withdrawals.
It fades away after a while. They're less vivid and weird at least, once the brain balanced it's chemistry back to normal.
For sleep comes back to "normal", you need to respect regular sleep hygiene for a while, otherwise you'll be "normal insomniac" like many normies.
You're not used to normal, there's that too. Being sober just feels, idk, too sober.

I got some gin for a graduation gift. Would it be a waste to mix it with sprite? It's very smooth. I have no tonic water.

>>8979146
Making it over 5 days has always been so hard for me. The cravings come hard.

>>8979084
Just polished off two beers while reading Whitchfinder, bout to head into Adams Morgan to meet up with some college friends.

Gonna try to not drink too much.

Wish me luck boys

>>8979476
yeah probably a waste

Thoughts on Islay scotch?
I've heard it described as burning tires and gasoline
which is very true and I love it because its punishing
>>8979476
Probably
You can just use it as a cleanser though after eating something spicy. Gin just like vodka at neutralizing mouth aftertaste, but its usually drier which makes it even better after some greasy food.

I just drank 4 ounces of vodka. Ask me anything.

>>8979255
I actually like my nutso dreams when I'm sober. The problem is I can almost never fall asleep at all. I would take the crazy dreams if I could just sleep. Just sleep...

>>8979476
Keep that as the shit you bust out at parties and whatnot. Keep bottom shelf stuff to mix on your own.

>>8980325
Fuck you. I'm just about out of vodka and I'm going to have to go buy 4 locos because the liquor stores are close.

RE4 bro here.
Last night of drinking and I'm going sober.
I'll play some RE4, upload some pictures of my progress for the next couple hours.

Progress report.
Almost on chapter 5, that last chapter.
Inventory looks good.
I'm only like 10 shots in so I shouldn't have too much trouble.

>>8980461
Good luck anon

>>8980461
You should just record a play-through and then post it on Youtube. I'd watch it.

>>8980726
Too poor for it.

>>8980731
Stop being a nigger

>>8980740
And sell my games?
That's for niggers

>>8980757
Stop being poor nigger and record ur stupid playthrough so i can watch ur stupid playthrough

Im laffin
Laffin @ u right now

Should I save my money for a video game or should I spend it on booze?

>>8980885
you buy video games

you a bit thick in the head?

>>8980885
Get the game so you can play it while drinking booze in the future.

>>8980889
>>8980895
You're right. I'm going to relapse anyway. Why not make it fun, right?

>>8980970
haha who cares

>>8980973
edgy

>>8980975
he's being a passive aggressive shit. fuck off

>>8980983
It really doesn't matter at all. If you want me to fuck off, just ignore me.

>>8980989
suck my cock dude

>>8980991
after you

>>8979196
The label "alcoholic" is less important than how you feel about your lifestyle. And I don't think there are any tests for alcoholism that involve purely a measure of how much you drink.

Is it interfering with your life in any way? Do you sacrifice other things that are or once were important in order to keep drinking? Have your relationships with family and friends suffered because of your drinking? These are the sorts of questions you should be asking yourself. If the answer is no, no, no, . . . ., then I wouldn't worry about your drinking even though some might consider the amount or frequency of your drinking excessive.

And as far as that goes, 3-6 beers and 2-4 shots every day is a lot, and it will almost certainly cause you health problems later in life (and perhaps sooner), but it's not a downright crazy amount. Maybe try to cut back a little, or incorporate more off days into your drinking schedule.

>had a beer in the morning
>6 hours later still get the shake
pls dont kindle me

I've gradually increased my sober time since late 2015, when I got gout, became very isolated, and started to fear for my sanity. I realized I needed to make some changes fast.

2016 was the first year I had more sober days than drunk days in a decade. 2017 has been even better, with only a couple non-consecutive weeks of drinking, and otherwise I've been sober for months at a time. I've been using antabuse to keep sober, quitting for a week at a time when I want a vacation from sobriety.

My life has gotten a hell of a lot better (financially, socially, etc.), but I can only take antabuse for a few more months, then the doc is cutting me off. I'm going to Mexico in a few weeks, and I'm thinking of drinking while I'm there, but when I get back, I'm staying sober for good. But I said that about a trip I took last month when a friend came to visit me, so am I kidding myself? Should I drink on this upcoming trip?

who os ebtter
drunk batman or blilly jeol?

I only drink beer so I can't be an alcoholic

r-right guys?

>>8979084
Gave up hope around the time I realized it is easier to abandon trying to better your self and abuse drugs/alcohol and drop out of life until no-one is left to give you a second chance. Then just die

>>8981409
lol, I'm in the same boat and used the same rationalization for years

yes you can very much be an alcoholic even if you don't drink liquor

>>8981409
Only if you want to quit, want to stop putting drinking above everything else, but cannot.

Even drinking a lot of liquor doesn't make you an alcoholic as long as you can take it or leave it.

do any of you guys have experience with xanax?

i got a new dealer and he sent me a list of stuff he does and xanax is on there, was wondering if i should try it and see if i can use it to stop drinking so much. i mostly drink because i'm lonely so if it can alleviate that feeling..

sorry it's a bit off topic but i have no one else to ask

>>8981409
Either way you're definitely retarded.

>>8981731
If you are an alcoholic you definitely don't need to get addicted to nerve pills. They are HIGHLY addicting. You can however use them for a few days to help you go to sleep. Just don't mix the xanax with alcohol or you might not wake up.

Guys I'm going to be dead soon.
I mean, really dead. Not 'op is a faggot'-esquie dead.
These threads have helped me a lot.
Get yourselves away from this fucking stupid lifestyle.
Night everyone.

>>8981487
Eh, I don't really want to quit. It's not having any negative effect on my life and in fact it's the best social activity I have these days.

>>8982576
Probably normie then. But that's not a bad thing IRL.

>>8982581
I'm pretty far from a normie. It's only a social activity in that I go to bar trivia with my two remaining friends.

Lmao niggas how is alcoholism ba problem just stop fucking drinking lol

>tell gf you won't drink today
>drink
>mfw

>>8982785
>"I smell booze."
>"FUCK U THARS A TORNADAH"

I'm trying to stay sober this weekend but I'm also marathoning trailer park boys for the nth time and I just realized how bad an idea that is
This show makes me want to get super fucked up
Doesn't help that I'm bored out of my mind because my laptop screen broke and it's at the repair center. Something they said would take 3-5 days but it's been a fucking week and a half fuck those people
I could have ordered a new screen and replaced it in 10 minutes but they're doing it for free
Phone browsing sucks dick yo

I've started drinking really tiny amounts right before I leave for work in the morning. I don't drive or anything for a couple hours after that, so they won't catch me, right?

>>8982819
Hm, depends on how "really tiny" the amounts are. Driving aside, if someone at your work catches a whiff (it's possible to accidentally spill a bit on your shirt and not notice), you could get hemmed up and fired that way. Dunno about how your work is about drug/alcohol testing, but some places will can someone over a .02 BAC.

>>8980461
Have fun finishing off the island dude. I might boot up my copy of RE4 and slay some Ganados after this beer.

Drank 25 Beers yesterday i'm only 65kg so i'm lightweight.

>>8982815
I cant watch mad men because it constantly triggers my need to drink and smoke.

>>8979084
Okay I'm planning to go to my friend's on Sunday night (unless he keeps ignoring me). I have sold him on the idea of trying "bum wines" since we are both unfamiliar with them. We plan to drink them with some friends.

Here's the possible choices:
>Thunderbird (hear it tastes like bleach)
>Cisco (hear it's like liquid crack and has unusual cocaine-like effects)
>Wild Irish Rose (same as above, but easier to find and more like normal wine)
>Night Train Express (similar to Thunderbird)

Have any anons tried these? Are they a cheap way to get drunk or is malt liquor/box wine a better alternative? I'm having trouble finding them. I'll check a wine store tomorrow to see if they have them and I'll probably get laughed at and/or vomited on. If it's anything like the current incarnation of Four Loko I probably don't want to try them. I'm looking for the 17/18% abv varieties. Thoughts?

>>8983177
>I'm looking for the 17/18% abv varieties
what the fuck is wrong with you

>>8983177
They taste like gasoline and have a ton of sugar in them, which for me always ends up in a horrible hangover.

just downed like hslf a quart of smirnoff and accidentaly jacked off to overwatch porn before i realized it wasnt real porn got work in the am cant wait

>>8983220
Liar... that shit turned you on and you fucking liked it

>>8980325

How are the early stages of the warm-up session treating you?

>>8979142
I hide it from my bf. He knows I have a bad relationship with alcohol and have had serious problems with alcoholism in the past but doesn't know just how much I drink on a regular basis.
I can do one day sober, I can do two days sober if I want to, but any longer than that and I start to get itchy and feel restless.

>was listening to some erotic audio
>all of a sudden classical music started playing
well that was fucking kek, fucking spit out the last bit of beer i had left
at least stores open in 3 hours so i can restock

What is the most al/ck/ VN?

Need to go to training for a new job in 7 hours.
Terrible storm outside.
Already took a bit of a nap.
Blood pressures up because I thought I would need to.get into a fistfight with some guy over the internet.
Should I drink.my last 200ml of vodka to go to sleep or save it till after training. Also
>fuck

I live in a constant state of fear and misery

>>8979476
gin on the rocks (gin waters as I like to call them) with some olives.

>>8983843
I think your picture made me sadder than anything. I've been there man. I hope you enjoy eating a few cups of mayonnaise

>>8983798
Katawa Shoujo is a rollercoaster of feels. A bottle for each route.

>>8983798
Playing the Clannad Vn will make you an alcoholic if you aren't already. I spent like a week fucked up after it.

just drank a double of whisky and i'm about to crack open a cold one

>used to get drunk without drinking
Now
>don't get drunk regardless if intake

Fucking tolerence.

>>8983927
me too thanks

>>8983903
Clannad is good but Little Busters is my favourite Key work

I have to drop my car off for a service tomorrow morning. I think if I really work hard now I can pass out in a couple of hours and wake up still drunk, drop my car off and walk home before I'm bed-ridden

>>8984028
I often had plans like yours, that included sleeping at certain time to wake up on time for things.
I always woke up after things were over.

How am I supposed to get rid of withdrawal if I can't stop throwing up? Fucking help

>>8981731
I used to have it prescribed for anxiety. Completely ruined my life and any chance I had for a future and did untold damage to my psyche, my brain and my body. It also has a paradoxical effect in that if you're really angry at something before you take a few you'll actually just become even more furious. Stuff is fucking poison.

why can they smell booze on my breath hours later even after i scrub the shit out of my tongue and use mouthwash ? how else to combat odor?

>>8984334
start smoking

>>8984306
Keep vodka under the tongue. Roll in your mouth with your tongue.
Then see a doctor.

>>8984334
>How do I cheat breathalyser?
You can't, that why the police use that.
You can try to add a strong smell to hide it, but it won't work efficiently.

Please. Please make it stop.

>>8979146
Couldn't help but laugh.

>>8984390
keep deep fried dumplings in your car, the ones made with yeast flour, the make the alizer go off the charts

sober for three days, couldnt cut it anymore as every other time, ive only slept for 4 hours in total last 72. I just need this 12 pack of shit fucking beer and try get some sleep.

cheers

>don't eat for days
>vodka kicking the shit out of me on empty stomach
>find blueberries, forgot I had them
>eat a small handful, force self to swallow
>look back
>they're covered in mould
Welp, so much for that, vomit absolutely everywhere and not a molecule of food for days. Sweet.

>>8983924
with... the boys?

>>8984334
it's in your system, not just on the surface of your mouth. It's in your sweat and in the breath in your lungs.

It's pretty hard to cover up the smell, especialy if you've been drinking liquor. Hand sanitizer, strong gum, don't get too close to anybody face to face.

How do I get help guys
12 steps didnt work
spent 2 weeks camping to get away from alcohol then just came back and got drunk

Shakes overpower my willpower
i just dont know anymore

>>8984598
I've had one bowl of ramen in the last four days
wtf is wrong with us

>woke up cuddling an empty vodka bottle

fucking what

You cunts are fucked

bonjour

>>8984709

kek

>once cuddling with a bottle myself in my mother living room
>she wakes me up
>tells me to stop drink
>that was 5 years ago
>moved to another place
>still drinking as fug

>>8984718
yup. send help

>>8984754
English as a second language

>>8984761

im piss drunk

so its an excuse to ruin everything

>>8984726
bit late for that pair but you should really get some shoe trees

Man up faggots

>>8984909
Did you mean to enter that search criteria into a porn site? Think you got the wrong text box dude.

>>8984655
You had shakes after two weeks sober?
See a doctor, he'll give you benzos, that's what you need for withdrawals.

>>8984658
>wtf is wrong with us
The pancreas.

>>8984791
oh sure. May I please see your shoes, anonymous faggot whom I'm assuming wears Keds?

>>8985062
Gay.
>>8984791
Also fucking gay.

There are more important things to worry about. Pls stahp.

>>8985126
says anon with bad shoes.

>>8985155
Yeah actually mine are a bit shit, but so too would yours be if you wore a size 15uk, 16us.
Lets please stop arguing about footwear and go back to complaining to each other about poisoning ourselves.

>>8985165
you wear McChickens as footwear don't you?

>>8985169
Don't judge me ;_;

>>be me
>>yesterday
>>get into it with baby momma cause I was talking to someone she told me not to talk to
>>says shes gonna leave this coming week to stay with her family
>>fuck my son is gonna be 100 miles away
>>buy a steel reserve 8% buy small bottle of vodka
>>drink both in about 3 hours
>>eventually black out
>>wake up naked on the floor
>>go to bed
>>talk to bro and he tells me I was walking around my house naked and being stupid
Fuck my life. I give up hope today for myself

>>8983899
I added half an onion I fried up along with 3 chopped up strips of bacon,
When that was about 90% done I added a small can of peas/carrots to the pan.
Also I used 70% Mayo - 20 Vegetable Oil - 10 Bacon Grease.

It was actually palatable and rather tasty even when warm.

>>8985637
Yeah, you need to come to some form of decision or change.
Once you start getting buck-ass naked in front of your friends and attempt common household tasks then you have made a massive mistake.

And everyone saw your junk, every last weird spot. Don't do that

>>8984924
Underrated post.

augh yeah folks i was drunk in the wunk last nite and buzzin like a muslin conked out abot 5 am after abot a little over a litter of vodka and woke up abot 12:30 and now im suckin down some ravilolios, got tomorrow off from work so im suckin down the rest of this handel of vodka while i look at retardo old british comedy on youtube and charles bukowski interviews and other cool crapola. oh well cheers my feelow drunky dingleberrys

>>8985758
Drink more, cheers!

Could have swore it was memorial day all day today.
No wonder nobody showed up to my grillout.
I also burnt 25$ of ribs while busy banging on my neighbors door trying to invite them.
Realised that spending my last 40$ on Ribs, 40oz beers and a pair of pants from goodwill that doesnt even fit but they look cool IS NOT a good idea.
Now everyone has confirmed I am retarded, also I did not go to work today. Why did no one tell me Memorial day isn't the entire weekend?

>>8985782
I just started this job, and I hope they accept I thought Memorial Day lasted as long as you kept up a buzz this weekend.

>>8984960
"Sober" I brought beer with me. I wanted to get away from liquor

I just have an IV of Booze at this point.

>>8985844
Where can I get one?

I blacked out and made a fool of myself in front of my gf and haven't drank for 2 months since

I want to drink now but I just feel guilty like I am wasting money and it is pointless and I am throwing away 2 months of work

>>8981176
hmmm, you got some points there. Alcohol doesn't really have much impact on my live, so I would say no, no,no. I'm pretty depressed now, but I don't think the alc. had anything to do with it. I susbect I picked up drinking to cope with it.
But I worry that drinking is the only thing that gives me a chance to be happy for a couple of hours of happieness without anxiety and sadness and I don't think that is healthy.
Does anyone know if to much alc. makes depression/anxiety worse in the long run?

>>8985876
If you cant control it , then don't risk it.
Isn't she worth it?
Don't lose that much progress.

>>8982061
Why are you going to die? Health or beeing a hero?

>>8985905
It was never too problematic before but this was right before I had to move for work so I just went overboard

I just want to be able to trust myself to be responsible again

>>8985876
relax, you're clearly not an alcoholic

drinking socially and doing stupid shit while drunk is normal and accepted

>>8985898
Pretty much every drug makes depression/anxiety worse in the long run. It also differs from person to person but that's the general rule.
An ex of mine was bipolar and had to actually write down each day how much she exercised, drank (alcohol/coffee) or smoked (cigs/weed) or other stuff for her psychotherapist.

>gratitious cheers to smirnoff bro

I'm trying to not drink alone anymore. I like drinking and drinking socially is normal and not that harmful, if you ask me.

Anyway I went out to a dinner with some coworkers on Friday. Just a nice dinner, but it meant that I could drink as we all had a couple of beers. It was good, we said our goodbyes and then I came home and finished a bottle of wine and then drank a bunch of vodka until I fell asleep.

So much for that. I guess my next try will be to not buy any alcohol to just have at home. The problem with that is that I like cooking and white wine is one of my favourite ingredients. I guess a bit of wine should be ok, I hope.

>>8985898
as >>8985995 said in my experience there is a "conservation of happiness"

what you gain now you will make up later

whether that in is in hour or a year

>>8979196
For what is worth I'm very similar and I'm pretty sure I'm a functioning alcoholic.

>>8986007
why don't you just buy those small bottles of wine for cooking? Its enough for 1-2 meals but not enough to get hammered?

>>8986062
I wasn't aware those exist, I'll look for one next time, thanks.

I started drinking again when my s/o and I agreed to be in an open relationship and he brought home the woman who broke up my previous marriage.

What's it like being in a relationship where both you and your gf are both alcoholics?

>>8983585
how to find alcoholic girl that will be decent to live with?

>>8986083
I don't know if they are a thing everywhere. Here in Gemany they are in every supermarket, don't know if they are a thing anywhere else.

>>8986111

Fun for a while but eventually you will both choose alcohol over each other at some point

>>8986094
wtf? Is she set out to destroy your life? what's the story?

omfg. every day is just a battle to get drunk enough that I fall asleep again. I don't know if I should carry on like this.

Just got the word from my family, my cousin killed himself. Gun to the temple, his father walked in and found him a few hours after he did it. He drank a great deal, but heroin and opiates did him in. He was 40 years old, homeless and on welfare and his first priority for as long as he was a teen was that next drink, that next fix etc. He's in a better place now and his pain is over but the really selfish thing about suicide is that he left behind brothers, sisters and his parents who are all fucking crushed by it. I know this doesn't really belong on al/ck/ but fuck it, I need to tell someone.

>>8983177
Night train gives a hangover after about 10 minutes

>>8984655
Ask for naltrexone. Gets rid of cravings in many people.

hi al/ck/

>>8986094
We'll need a backstory here. This sound crazy.

>>8986378
I'll fugn buy yyou a drink if it wasnt sunday.

Where'd all my rum go
?

>wake up
>start drinking
>drink too much
>fall asleep
>wake up again
>attempt to start drinking again
>out of alc

FUCK WHAT DO I DO BROS

>visit mom
>stopped at binnys to buy some shit because its on the way
>casually have a drink at noon
>"so when did you start drinking during the day? is that a regular thing for you"

do you think she was being hostile or trying to """help"""? i cant tell. i dont see anything wrong with day drinking either Tbh

>>8986497
I am in the same boat, and it is SUNDAY and my car is missing.

I might be screwed.

4 shots in and i took a 2 mg bar. i'm sad lads

also i'm a lightweight so don't berate me for "only taking 4 shots"

>>8986548
4shot baby

>>8986548
lol 4 shot babby dont forget your warm milky before bed

>>8986562
>>8986567
:^) maybe i'm a masochist but i like my (you)s even if they're berating me

>>8986571
>>8986548
I'm actually going the opposite direction with this. You might feel alright now but that alprazolam is going to kick in hard and soon and you really should stick to beer if you're gunna keep drinking, otherwise you're in for a bad time

how much is a "shot"? is there an official meassurement? ive dranken mugs full of vodka for as long as i can remember. dont know how many shots it is

>>8979196
I usually drink a 40 oz of steel reserve a night along with a 24 oz of natty daddy or just another can of steel reserve, and sometimes a shot of fireball or vodka every night and have been for almost 5 years now. My mom says im an alki. dunno if i am.

>>8986583
im done drinking for the night. just wanted to knock myself out after getting a sad text. id rather have some H but ya gotta do what ya gotta do

>>8986480
you drank it, pirate!

>>8986528
Could be both.
Day drinking can be seen as against good morals, or as a sign of early or hidden alcoholism.

>>8986530
>and my car is missing.
Oh shit Anon. Did you take the wheel blacked out?

>>8986594
3 to 5ml I think.
How much is a mug?

>>8986597
Can you stop drinking for a week without physical or psychological withdrawals?

>>8986657
No I cant, hell I get nervous if its near closing time and i haven't got to the liquor store yet

>>8986614
You caught me
>>8986657
No I hid my keys and my car at my girlfriends abandoned house to prevent me from driving.
Walked here.

>>8984646
>implying i have friends

>>8986693
I'll be your friend anon, we are all your friends.

>>8986094
Yeah, a woman who agrees to an open marriage is really asking for trouble. You know yourself how manipulatve women are. It's just a matter of time where you'll lose. How do you think monogamy originated? It was after the agricultural revolution, a purely feminine occupation at the time.

I'm going to replace all of the alcohol I drink with caffeine.

I hope this doesn't kill me.

>>8986712
thanks friend
im on the cold ones again

>>8986733
I just bought a few Hurricane 8%'s
It's been a sad day. They may help.

>>8986737
How has your day been sad Anon?

What would happen if I mix this small amount of phenibut with a small amount of booze.

See you on the other side friends.

>>8986737
i have some local brewery's red ale which is top notch and some shit beer that was like two bucks

>>8986742
A combination of financial issues, loneliness, the stress of a new job, gnomes, and a grandmother with dementia.

>>8986745
Nice captcha

>>8983177
just dont m8

>>8979084
why would you give up hope? just detox for a few days. maybe three. youll be fine. the worst part of excessive drinking is when you are prone to spontaneous somatic anxiety attacks as your body flushes the shit out of its system. NOBODY ever old me about that shit. So - take some time and flush that shit out.
>>8979142

how the fuck do you hide it? do you live together?
>>8983585
restless, huh? BIG FUCKING DEAL. get over it.

I'm an al/ck/holic
I'm stereotypical and ignorant.
I want to find any excuse to belong,
I wish I could overcome.

This day is done, nothing left to drink.
I wish I would know my place.
I need reprimand and someone to help me through.

>>8986785
fuck off, son.
the fuck do you understand about any of it?

Please let this be a dream,
One more day , I've nearly made it.
Time has become faded.
Why try, I've nearly made it.

This drink is the plague within my dreams, and it's impossible to feel responsible with this much denial
>>8986788
Screw you too buddy.

Drink up, the day isnt getting any easier.

>>8986796
pardon, me - youre just a bad poet.

I misunderstood.

Sorry, anon.

but still...

What is an alcoholic beverage to help? It is the destruction of your relationship, or hurt her? This is not a waste of money? Do not cut the tongue or burning in your eyes? Is not very

>>8986822
Not poetry, but lonely ramblings.

>>8986834
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=eIpsDTSmRyM

drink the whole thing, m8

He rose from the dead, gave the trees
All the sound and vision that they asked me
Let it run quickly through the field, over the mountains
Let us swim in the Atlantic, never stop
Just close your eyes
Pretend that everything is good
Just close your eyes
When i tell you
Can you tell me where the current is?
I said that the water is clean
You want to go with me, two of us can drink
Fast action, we must use time
There is no time to think
Just close your eyes
Pretend that everything is good
Just close your eyes
When i tell you
Not so far to turn back
Not so far to escape
On the front, we hear the voice
This leads us to the sound of the new day
Just close your eyes
Pretend that everything is good
Just close your eyes
When i tell you

>>8986843
Downing the glass for yall m8y

>>8986849
its always better live

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=nTtfzm9OR5w

>>8986894
we're all forgiven

>woke up hungover today
>walk to liquor store
>puke in parking lot
>count change to buy 3 4ozs

hows ur day going?

Anyone here Sing/play Instruments/Rap?/make beats?

Who here is musical?

I'm the worlds best poorest multi-vocalist, totally untrained but can sing all country, big band and swing and lounge, and can rap like a motherfucker. Want to learn how to scream metal without blowing my throat out.

Wish I could play an instrument but it is impossible for me.
My brothers can play 6-8 instruments and I can sing, I wish they would quit being fugn lazy and make a band with me.

>At home visiting parents in the Chicago suburbs
>Went to Binny's looking for a 40 of Steel Reserve
>They have no malt liqour at all
wtf

Stupid

I just had the worst feel in the world.
I just had the last song a friend sang with me immediately before he left my house and then later died come up in a playlist. I can't handle hearing this, these feeling are to heavy.

Last text I received after he left my house to drive 2 states back to his place was along the lines of "man im kinda depressed imma go out in the woods or go hiking to get away from everything. I'm really thinking of just killing myself and being done with it."
He then told me if he doesnt answer he left his phone at home to get off the grid.
He passed away later that night by suicide out in the woods.

Why couldnt I do anything? I should have called. Why didnt I call. He barely knew me but 6 months and I was the last person he spoke to before he died. I feel like he trusted me and I let him down.

>>8987026
You can go off like this niggah from the 40's. Who knows, amirite?

>>8987122
Who is that?

It's amazing how quickly I lose weight when I don't drink for a couple of weeks.

>>8987275
You weren't drinking enough

going to rehab next week, so this is my goodbye to you fuckers. drinking vodka watermelon rn and its delicious

>>8984306
get into a detox center asap

>>8987299
Have fun while it lasts.

>Trying to sober up
>Handled the cravings fine
>Day 4
>Completely out of media to watch
>Finished up the projects I'd been working off and on
>Cleaned my whole apartment
>Got my oil changed
>Got groceries, cooked for the first time in eons
>Nothing left to do
Fucking fuck, what the hell do sober people DO all day?

Short on money, went downtown to grab one beer alone. Thought it'd seem less sad if I wore my ring my left ring finger so people would think I'm just a married guy grabbing a beer before going home.

I don't know what happened but I went to 3 different bars and saw someone I knew so I had to bail out. I finally went to a bar I've never been to before and surprisingly found no one I knew. I sat here trying to drink alone. Some redditor chick tried to hit on me. I could tell she was Reddit from her shitty tattoos. I told her I'm married and she left. Then a random guy bumped into me. I followed him outside and asked what was up. He apologized and said he didn't notice. His friend apologized afterwards, and told me he was going through some rough shit. I told him to tell his friend to be careful cus I'm a boxer and he doesn't know who he's messing with. I don't think his friend believes me which for some reason pissed me off because I've been boxing for 3 years. I didn't say anything but kinda wished I would've knocked his friend out so I don't seem like one of those 'fake martial arts' twats. I'm still drinking cus it's a 10 dollar minimum for a card and beers are 1.75.

>>8987343
>get sober
>let's go to youtube until the next beer money comes
>met with the most dumbed down, asinine media that has ever been created
>can't access a database
>youtube forcefully recommends me absolute shit
>spend an hour removing videos slowly and tediously
>"Got it, we'll tune your recommendations."
>recommendations aren't tuned
>same videos come back up
>decide to go to live streams
>browser has no chat function
>use the app
>the app breaks
>uninstall app
>go to app store, redownload the app
>"Your download will start soon."
>download never starts
>app store has been broken since April 2016
>send 40 messages saying the app store is broken
>decide to use alternative download source
>get youtube back
>chat doesn't work
>connects to bluetooth with denied permissions
>battery drains at 1% every 6 seconds for two days
>get sick of the fucking rich faggots
>leave, use browser from then on
>watch rate is now under .5% of recommended videos I see
>can't use live chat
>play store still broken
>mind has been lost

What the fuck is their problem?

>>8987482
Stop being a phoneposter and you won't have any of those issues.

>>8987428
Hot Norwegian chick hits on me. I don't know why but I keep up the my wife is pregnant story. Ain't getting no ass and the chad with her turns out to just be a 'friend.' Why did I kept going with this is beyond me. I just cockblocked myself and because the minimum I have to stick around drink one more beer.

biggest test of my life in a couple days, still not sure I will pass. My study time is fucked up because I can't help but drink if I am home alone after 6 or whatever.. if I fail this test my degree and a year of working a shit job that I hate go to waste.. what a fucking shit show.. at least I am drunk now watching old fighting game videos.... fuck

>>8987493
Fucking cry more. I have plenty of medical reasons to lay flat on my couch. Enjoy your late life back surgery and the following opiate addiction, you fucking baby.

>defending clickbait and aggro titles
Moron.

Been up for ~22 hours but it's still early in the afternoon.

Going to get drunk to fix my NEET sleep schedule, since drinking keeps me up for some reason.

beer and bourbon

>>8986715
I love how you can still see remnants of this in tribal cultures today. Especially in Africa. Very interesting to see the division of labor.

On topic, I've cut down on my drinking overall. I don't drink to get drunk. I drink my beer slowly, and I thoroughly enjoy it. I still drink too much beer, enough that I have to worry about getting fat, but I drink less now. I have less nights where I have to make myself vomit up a meal I had 5 hours ago, just so I can sleep through the spins. I don't go through a six pack in 2 hours any more. It can take me an hour to finish a single beer. I think I'm doing better. Especially when compared to the days when I'd go through a 1.75 in two nights. This is nice.

I work at a Binny's, so this is a good sign, I think.

>>8979142
Fuck I hide it from my wife. This last weekend I stored a pint of vodka in a water bottle in my backpack. It's not the first time. I am pathetic anon

>>8987515
>cry more
I'm not the one losing their mind over not being able to watch youtube on a 4 inch screen.

>When you drink as soon as you wake up but it's cool because you woke up after 5pm

>>8986744
Dude, it just gets you too fucked up too fast and you don't even realize it. You don't need booze to be a socialite when you have phenibut. It doesn't make you feel better, it just makes you feel the bad parts of drunk, while phenibut by itself makes you feel all the good parts of being drunk. I say this, while getting tipsy on phenibut. It's not a combo you want to keep doing, because you'll feel like an irritable asshole either tomorrow, or the day after, and even a couple days after that. It's a long term negative for a short term gain.

>>8987524
I can watch youtube.
You can't read and you need to go back to ebaumsworld because children aren't allowed to post here.

>>8979669
Do you get diarrhea day 4 anon?

>>8987538
Imagine getting this triggered over being called out as a phoneposter

>>8987539
not him but I always get diarrhea the first day and a half-ish, after that it goes back to normal.
I cant ever drink carbonated anything though or my stomach freaks out and I get the runs and horrible cramps

>>8986750
I'm so sorry. Bike riding or weight lifting would help out with that stress more. Our just long walks with a podcast. Physical activity really helps with that kind of stress. Distracts you and makes your body feel good without the negative sit that alcohol gives you. I hope you'll pull through ok. It isn't an easy situation, but it's one that you can adapt to and even learn to thrive in if you really want to.

>>8987541
>imagine calling people mad on the alcoholic thread on an obscure board of a counter culture website with a picture from a childrens cartoon to accentuate your point

and im not even the guy youre trying to stroke your ego to

>>8987553

>>8986785
>filename
Cuuuute

Why are so many alcos here so good at little things like filenames and banter? It's very comfy. The social benefits of alcohol?

>>8987554
faggot.

bunch of niggers in here today.

>>8987553
>>imagine calling people mad on the alcoholic thread on an obscure board of a counter culture website
Imagine being this wrong

>>8986822
This, this was nice. I do enjoy the cadence.

>>8987572
imagine killing yourself then do it

>>8987579
Imagine adhering to the rules and being over 18 before posting

>>8987572
You're still upset?
Why do you have ms paint images of hairy man asses spraying feces at each other on your computer?

I hope your mom finds this image.

Also, everyone can see you trying.to pretend to be three different people to garner support for your childish, obviously wrong assumptions and plain as day rule breaking on a blue board.
You were toast on response 1. Please tell me how you plan on defending your anonymous internet reputation now that you've been slapped around for half an hour.

>>8987109
Dude, we don't cater to that kind of crowd. We're a family establishment. We carry like, bombers of Corona. Just be like the other alcos and buy your Gilby's. Get a chimney can of all day ipa or some Oskar Blues. We just don't want hobos in the store.

>>8987585
>call someone a faggot for "umad" posting on my favourite thread
>get drawn into his whirlpool of self hated

Fugg, you got me loser.

>>8987514
Dumb dumb. Study in the library. Study in the union or whatever. Study AT SCHOOL. Mixing your study and recreation areas doesn't mix for some people. Just do it at school.

T. Person who has spent 4 years at a community college to transfer into a top 10 state uni. This shit works.

What's an interesting brand/product I can get in the 20-25 dollar range? I'm going to a party soon and I want to try something new and interesting. I'm willing to drink anything as long as it isn't whiskey or dark rum.

Wow. Phone posters even fuck up al/ck threads.

>>8987668
thanks for doing your part to improve the quality with your useless bitching

>>8984726
>that outfit
>that boh

fells point bro confirmed. maryland is a god tier state

>feel more ill than I think I've ever felt
>go to al/ck/, that'll help, they understand
>bunch of raging kids
God dammit.

>>8987428
You sound like a dick

Drinkking cause I'm a total fucking loser who made an awful mistake. I now realize how far gone 4chan has made me from society and it hurts

>>8987668
I really fucking hate phoneposters.

>>8986764
>just detox for a few days
This can kill. Have you any idea what alcoholism is?

>>8986788
You have to hide his posts, don't you understand how 4chan works?
Set a filter on the word "gnome" if it triggers you, Anonkun.

>>8987026
>Want to learn how to scream metal without blowing my throat out.
All tutorial I saw said to begin with traditional singing lessons, at least to understand how your vocal instrument works and how to master it.
Because it's not supposed to hurt you at all. You're hurting yourself and it can be unrepairable.

>>8987116
It's not your fault. I know it feels like it is, but you can't foresee the future, nobody can, you couldn't know he was about to kill himself.
He talked to you and not to a suicide helpline, who are trained professionals. It's not your fault.
I know it sounds terrible, suicide IS terrible, but not calling someone determined to kill himself anyway isn't.

I hope it helps, I suck at expressing myself. Actually, I think suicide helplines are also trained to help people in your situation, not only suicidal people (or at least they can redirect you to the appropriate helpline).

>>8987299
Are you gnomebro?
Either you are or not, we're here with you.

>>8987428
>I don't seem like one of those 'fake martial arts' twats
So you prefer to be one of there degenerate assholes who punch people for no reason?
What were they supposed to do to accept you as a boxer, bow before you?

>6am
>wake
>"I'm not gonna drink today. I can do this. I HAVE to do this"
>9am
>so drunk I fall over
This is going to fucking kill me. I FUCKING HATE alcohol.

>>8985062
>only having one pair of shoes
>sneakers are bad
Should have known, who the fuck puts on semibrogues to hang out on the back porch with a hangover on sunday morning. You're a teenager from /fa/ and probably bought those used off ebay

>>8988224
society is full of complete fuckwits and i'm tired of playing the fuckwit games they play

>>8985995
>gratuitous cheers
Cheers anon m8e. Things are a bit rough here, hope you're doing better than I am, and hope you're making some progress in fighting this filthy addiction. Or at least trying to.
>goes back to trying keep booze down long enough to feel any effects whatsoever
Peace all.

The past few weeks I have been drinking every day after work.

Never used to. I just hope it's because the weather is nice and it's too good to not get home and sit out back with a few beers.

>>8988441
I think I have a chance of making it. This year has been bumpy but still has the most sober days in 10 years.
Besides a small 4day bender for my 30th birthday have been sober this month, going to the gym regularly.
Let's hope allmighty Zyzz can fight my alcodemons.

>>8988454
from personal experience, drink light beer

>>8980325
>I just drank 4 ounces of vodka. Ask me anything.

This ended up with me drinking 375ml vodka friday night, 375ml vodka saturday morning/day, then 6 beers saturday night and 6 beers sunday morning.

I'm probably done with alcohol. :(

woke up with blood everywhere and a couple people from the ambulance service
bad times

Serious question for all you serious alcoholics: how does your stomach handle this everyday? I have some digestive issues that keep me from drinking too much but if I have more than two drinks I automatically feel fucking queasy and get a sour stomach and you motherfuckers down bottle after bottle I don't get it

>>8988888
Well done

>>8988888
Praise al/ck/

>>8988888
>>8988887
Lol. Now try it on /b/.

>>8988888
kek has shone a light on us on this day

all be praise to kek

>>8987527
Exactly!

Anyone else post under 3-4 different personas depending on what substance/drink they are on?

Maybe my light schizophrenia that I'm trying to hide from everyone in my life is trying to manifest itself through my posts.
It's fun.

>>8989096
Schizophrenia is not dissociative personality disorder. Only like a dozen people ever have had legitimate DPD. Schizophrenia is more hearing voices inside that distinctly aren't your own

>>8989106
Thank you, saying schizophrenia is just a blanket term. My paranoia is the real issue here, and I do not know if I have anything besides retardation and failed dreams.

Unless you are out to get me and you have an agenda?

>>8989144
You never know. Just because you're paranoid doesn't mean I'm not out to get you ;)

>>8989159
I'm on to you

>>8980319
It's great if you get the right stuff. Can stretch into pricier regions for the good stuff though.

>>8979084
On my 4th beer right now, it isnt even cold. Just want to get some buzz.

I can go days/weeks without it, but when I start, I usually drink all I got. Sometimes I buy less, so I drink less. Same problem in the club, always drinking, till there is no money left in my wallet.

Everything is great in my life, I just love to drink. Someone else feeling the same?

>>8988805
short answer is that our bodies are used to it.
alcoholism is usually a slow decline drinking more and more week by week, we get used to it and know how to remedy the stomach issues if we ever get them, which is rare.
also you would be surprised how easily a weak stomach after drinking can be fixed by simply drinking more. it sounds ass backwards but it works

tfw dollar beer night at local minor league baseball game.

tfw I have to drink at least 5 beers to make a proper bryramid

>>8986140
I'm gay

>>8990908
hello fellow cali bro

>>8990490
>Pisswater

Yuropoors

>>8990923
>Hasnt played GTA V
>Calls others poor

>>8990911
I don't understand the question

how are y'all enjoying your Memorial Day?
I made some burgers and hung out with my sis now I'm at home kind of drunk doing some races in GTAO
Probably gonna watch a movie in a bit, trying to think of something fun to watch

UK here. About to open the fourth bottle of wine. Been on something of a bender since Saturday, but managed to avoid buying spirits today.

How do you guys cope with alcohol and work? Are you drinking late at night on a weekday before work the next morning? Are you showing up to work with a hangover? Do you drink AT work?

I think I'm an alcoholic because I drink literally any evening when I don't have work the next day. But I haven't crossed the line of getting hammered on a night before work because showing up to work with a hangover terrifies me.

>>8991116
used to startdrinking every evening when i got home from work, then i got old and the hangovers got too bad

>>8987590
Stupid Families

>>8991116
I drink every night. I've never had a hangover. So it just kind of works out for me

>>8990936
>GTA V
That shit originated in IV, you plebian

>>8991116
I've actually never had a problem with drinking and work. I always show up on time, generally really hungover, but I get in early so
A) Nobody sees
B) I can work in peace
It's when I DON'T drink that I end up oversleeping

Playing video games and trying to finish my 40 before it gets warm.

>>8991116
I'd never get to sleep if I didn't drink. The trick is to drink just enough so you pass out easily but don't drink so much that you have a massive hangover.
If you wake up a bit cloudy some food and plenty of water seems to fix that.

Im gonna post the new Al/ck thread at 300 posts no one else post it ok? :∆)

>>8991179
You'd be better off on actual sleeping meds. Alcohol is fucking terrible for your sleep, even if it helps you nod off.

>>8991116
>he fell for the working meme

>exam in 4 hours
>im alerady really drunk

rfuck

>>8991217
Sleeping meds are literally just as shitty for you, sometimes even worse because they're always dosed to force you to sleep "at least" 8 hours

>>8991227
let the alcohol do the thinking

>>8991233
>let the alcohol do the thinking
I don't think continuing to drink and then pass out in a few hours is a good idea

>>8991227
the best is yet to come. Don't go in hung over, drink energy drinks with it

>>8991233

>>8984709
I wrap my bottles in towels and pretend and go to sleep hugging it pretending it's my ex.

What kind of niggers here drunk-posting. Help

>>8991317

>>8991320
What do you need help with anon?

just chugged about half a quart of vodka gonna be drunk real soon wew lads

>>8991325
where can I buy malt liqour at midnight. Closest gas station closed

>>8991329
unrelated but yall are lucky being able to buy that stuff in a gas station, leaf here and i gotta go to a specific store for fucks sake

>>8991332
Shit I just picked up a 40 of Mickey's at my local Thorntons. Canada sounds like bullshit

I'm out I thought I should drink less and now I'm out and I'm scared to go to a bar because I have work tomorrow and it's too late for stores I don't know what to do

>>8991341
Put on s chill film in bed and try and sleep bud

I know it sounds boring and nowhere near as good as drinking right now but you gotta do it

>>8991357
well, I don't know about the sleeping part, but sounds like a plan

>>8991332
Liquor store near me sells booze from 7am to 2am. Feels good.

Been off the booze for 5 weeks now after I started getting horrible chest pains and left arm pain the day after drinking.

Kind of scared thinking of both starting drinking again or to never drink again in my life.

>>8991332
I'm in Cali and have no gas stations that sell hard liquor, only beer and malt and shit
Luckily there's several liquor stores in town or it would be dry as fuck

>>8979084
Is there any cooelation between the fact that nearly everyone on this board doesnt know how to cook but these alcoholic threads get the most posts and attention? stop fucking drinking and learn how to cook or fucking kill youself you faggots. Drinking to excess is for fucking idiots. It took me 2 years of drinking a shitload to realize that.

Welp 2 hours to go, I listened to the alcohol and drowned a few more shots
I just hope they won't smell anything on me

>>8991463
So edgy

Throwing up is the highlight of my day.
I'm laying in urune and vomit. Dry heaving every 30 mins or so. I just had to run out of a queue in a shop so I could throw up outside.

Again.

This is not how I had intended my life to turn out.

>>8986597
my 211 brother.

I usually get about 4-5 211 40s or a half gallon of kesslers or eight star.

Occasionally drop money on jameson or something similar

Anyone ever felt so ill that it kind of... stops feeling bad? Like you're suffering so much that you completely give up? There's something deeply peaceful about that moment.

>exam done
>time to start drinking again

Soft egg yolks.
Might these be my saviour?
Just managed 2 and didn't throw up. An hour later and damn, I feel healed already.
Little bits of very ripe banana, peanut butter and honey also work quite well.
May not die yet.

>>8991976
Yep. fleeting moments of clarity. Drives me fucking insane because I will chase that peaceful feeling till I actually die.

>>8991806
It's a painfully long and excruciatingly painful death.
You're not even that close yet.

It's still time to stop. Get medical help.

>>8992127
>Eating without throwing up
>That life saving feeling
Continue eating.

>>8991116
I just drink, drink before after during ; All that matters is one question.

>Do I feel like making another drink or popping another top.
Short answer : Yes

Alright.
Ok.
The time has come.
'Gnome anon'
Do you realise that gnomes do not exist?
I mean I'm sure you've looked into the history of this fictional creature which was created for a fictional novel, but...
I mean...
Has alcohol literally driven completely insane, or are you just le trolleing maymay?
I'm frequently more than a bit fucking insane thanks to either drunkenness or DT's, but... your gnome stuff is peculiarly persistent.
So. Tldr;
What the fuck.

>>8992172
It's not important and half my posts do not include gnomes.

I'm just gnomed out of my dome.

Gin is a severely underrated spirit.

I only just developed an interest in gin about a month ago and it has become my drink of choice.

I made up my own little cocktail I have been enjoying a lot.

Ice
Two parts gin
One part tonic water
Two parts dry ginger ale
Slice of lemon

I'm interested to know if anyone can provide one impenetrable reason why suicide should not sometimes be considered to be the most sensible option.