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So I've gotten to the point I have considered buying a safe, cause my gf dumps 30 dollar whiskey down the drain. Doesn't matter where I hiDE it.

>>9598881
You just suck at hiding.

what's the longest stretch of sobriety you lads have had since you started drinking?

I've drank about a 750ml a day for the past week, my alcoholism has gotten a lot worse. Came home blitzed yesterday from work my mom noticed and asked if I've been drinking at work told her I went to happy hour.

I have done barely any work the past two weeks. I wonder if I will ever get fired. Usually stare at the computer until noon get a drink, work a bit, go to lunch and drink come back work for 1-2 more hours then get a drink and stare at my computer again till quitting time.

>>9598835
Anyone else fall back into alcohol after witnessing a suicide? I was alone looking for him and found him 3 days dead laying by himself. I feel like this is the wrong way to cope but it's so hard.

Weed, just try that it could help out. Alot

>>9598938
At my last job my bosses knew whenever I went out for a smoke break I was actually out going to my car for a drink.If you really want to lay off just stop drinking at work and taper down. I wish I did because work was the only place I could go to help myself not drink at one point. What got me drinking harder was when I realized I was too shaky and anxious to buy drinks after work so I'd bring drinks with me so I could be buzzed enough to have the courage to go to the store and buy more to get me to sleep.

got blackout drunk last night but somehow decided to go to the gym after some hair of the dog

ive been drinking 20+ shots a day for 2 weeks and the paranoia and insanity are really creeping in. i'm legitimately scared and everybody that still feels attached to this sinking ship wants to help. any time another person offers a hand i just slap it away . i did an an inpatient detox and it did NOTHING. i hate their buzzwords and euphemisms. i hate being lectured about addiction by somebody that doesn't have first hand experience

>>9598910
longest i've been sober in 6 years is 36 days

>>9598954
That's the only thing that kept me off the sauce for a while. Now that I'm trying to cut back I can't because I don't have a job and if I get hired I know a drug test will be involved, so then I drink more and forget about both sobering up or finding work.

>>9598910
A week, but I was just high th whole time. Literally waited until midnight outside of a liquor store on the eve of my 21st birthday, bought 2 Fosters and drank every night and eventually every morning too ever since.

>>9598910

started drinking when i was 15, started getting carried away when i was 19, am now 26 and the longest spell since then was about 6 days. even when i try to cut it out for a while i'll have a friend get in touch and ask to grab a beer or something and i can never just say no. i dont know whether to call it an addiction as i never wake up with an intense craving for alcohol or anything of that magnitude, it just seems to creep into my life time and time again somehow.

my biggest problem is my favourite time to drink is the morning after a heavy session, when i just wake up and feel rough as fuck and know the only thing that's gona sort me out is a nice vodka or something, that buzz you get after you get back off the wagon is just the best, music sounds so great, cigarettes are orgasmic etc. love of that feeling has led to plenty of 5-6 day sessions that have sometimes ended me up in hospital. oh well. i wont be drinking tonight but i think i'll indulge myself in a tall glass of cold water extraction codeine water. cheers

how do you guys feel about decanters?
for whatever reason, i became somewhat obsessed with the idea. so i bought a couple from Crate & Barrel
i think they're pretty nice for the cost, but to be honest i only used them for a few days
i don't have the budget to always drink what i want, but i didn't fill them with Jim Beam either
thoughts/comments?

do any of you have a bar or a bar cart or at least a section in your kitchen or somewhere in your living space that's a designated liquor area? pics?

>>9599033
decanters are really a thing from the past, when matured wines used to gather bad or undesirable fermentation smells and needed some air to disperse them. Now wine is full of sulfur compunds and they were matured in perfectly clean caskets, so they don't develop weird smells.
It's fancy, tho, decanting a matured wine for your friends or family

>>9598939
Didn't witness it directly, but yeah a suicide has to do with me drinking a lot more.

>>9598873
I keep a stash of beer in our extra bedroom downstairs and usually keep my empties there for a few days before I take them out to the recycling. My wife never goes in the extra bedroom but the other day she just walked by the door and commented on how it smells like old beer cans. Now I have to take the empties out every night. Wife doesn't usually take the recycling out, but I put them all in a paper bag just in case she does so she doesn't see dozens of can in there.

>>9598939
I didn’t witnessed it, but a friend hung himself because he couldn’t find a way out of his crippling alcoholism.

So he sort of ruined drinking about it for me.

>>9599049
>tfw the restaurant you worked at used to switch labels of cheap and expensive wine
Owner loved watching the wealthy people talk about how exotic and aged the $8 barefoot Merlot was

>>9599058
>>9599140
It's a bit freaky to find a friend just splattered on a rock. I want to be strong but it's just so hard. Especially looking back and thinking I was going to do the same at one point in my life.

Am 3L of wine down. Quite drunk right now. What the fuck do I do?

>>9598910
14 days
Been drinking 17 years.
Apart from that one time mostly 2-4 days, and that 2nd day recks me as I am mostly still pissed the 1st day.

>>9599201
Order a pizza then pass out before the delivery guy comes

>>9599224
I've done that with burritos, don't want to do it again.

>>9599201
text everyone in your contacts, especially if they have a vagina.
That's one of the reasons I have no social media or friends :)

>>9599049
>decanters are really a thing from the past
yes, i know........
but, for whatever reason i thought i'd like the idea of having a couple around with spirits in them.
generally, i just drink by myself, so it's not as if i was attempting to impress anybody
i was thinking about getting a bar cart of some sort too
the whole idea is on hold for now and i've just gone back to pouring straight out of the bottle.
i guess i was unimpressed with my own pretentiousness

>local indian corner store owner becoming less and less friendly each time I come in at noon to buy two cans of the cheapest strongest malt liquor

It's okay I'm only an alcoholic ironically

>>9599195
Did tou try professional help?

>>9598910
12 hours.

Now that baseball season is almost over, what am I going to use as an excuse to get out and drink on the week days

I am on probation, so I can’t drink in the “”Land of the Free””
How can I go about drinking during this year of my life, preferably without getting caught and going to jail? I will be on etg tests.

>>9599848
Don't go to jail in the first place.

>>9598910
5 months when I went to boot camp and then immediately to spec ops selection.
Failed out and have been drinking every day since for the last year and a half to forget the shame of it all.

>>9598939
Dude that's fucked, I can't even imagine. Please go talk to someone. If you can't afford a therapist go to a church or something. Just find someone to talk to. Please.

>>9599309
Nah man, don't let this faggot discourage you. I've got one filled with some woodford reserve. I love having it. Just looks nice and feels cool.

Fuck the losers.

>>9599603
This is why I go to different places. The social anxiety of cashiers realizing I'm an alcoholic.

>>9599880
The only people who call any unit in the military "special ops" are larping cod fags.

>>9599880
As a add on to this, I'm starting weekends only drinking next week and starting to train again to go the fuck back and pass this time. Long term gonna figure out if I need to go full on clean or not. Until then I'll keep having a couple drinks at night to fall asleep.

>>9599161
I've been working in the restaurant industry for 16+ years and I have never seen anybody do that.

>>9599880
Try getting v&nned in high school, the cops coming to your house at 6AM putting your family in zip ties and then having that fuck up any steps towards formulating a career.

>>9599938
Fuck off faggot, I was generalizing because I didn't feel like getting into specifics. Easier to say "spec ops selection" on a Eurasian knitting forum than "pararescue indoc" if I'm just having a conversation with strangers.

>>9598954
instant panic attack every time i try to smoke weed

literally after the first couple of hits i start breathing manually, my hands go clammy, start shaking

it just aint for me

>>9599952
Vanned in high school for what

>>9599309
>The autism is real

>>9599033
it's nice to have one with red wine in

like the few times i've gone to someone's house and they've had a decanter of red just sitting there i've been very impressed. does make it taste better too

>>9599880
I dropped out of boot too

The shame never goes away
>tfw thinking of all the people who were so impressed and all the girls that were mirin

>come home and be a drug abusing faggot with a basic bitch insurance job
welp here we are

How the fuck am I supposed to hang myself in my room if there's nothing to attach the rope to?

>>9599960
supposedly having cheese pizza on a HDD in 2007.

>>9599965
Oh no I'm still in. I'm just in a different job than I came in for. They've got me fixing c130 engines in Japan.
How the fuck did you wash out of basic?

>>9599002
I love to take a few beers the morning after when I'm horny and watch some porn and fap. But I've had the tendency to don't keep drinking after I've cummed. Yes I'm a degenerate.

>>9599968
We'll maybe you shouldn't have been a pedophile, you pedophile.

>>9599987
I'm not, but I guess thats what happens when you're fucking around with huge swathes of torrents that you dont know exactly which each file is.

>>9599993
Oh fuck that sucks

Every time I talk with someone about how fucked up the child porn laws are in this country they look at me like I'm some deranged faggot who watches CP.
Guess that's why those laws don't get reformed.

2 weeks without a single drop of alcohol to work on a deadline due today.

and today my deadline got postponed to next week. How do i fight the urge? I got all the papers done but im sure they expect more with this deadline extension.

>>9599983
severe depression/anxiety mainly. I really should never have joined.

>>9600004
Yeah. Court papers got mixed up somehow and they never called me in, but I don't want to bring it attention to it either.

Can't pass a background check because it comes back with an outstanding unresolved issue, and I have panic attacks when I think about the whole ordeal and about how to get it solved.

So instead I avoid the issue and drink alot.

>>9600008
I'm sorry, man. That's super rough
At least you put yourself out there and gave it a shot. That's a hell of a lot better than almost everyone else.
The "man in the arena" and all that.
What did you come in for?

>>9600021
I joined the army wanting to be a 12B, but at the very last second before I swore in my recruiter came up to me and said I failed the colorblind test so I had to be a 13D. I enlisted anyway because I was already there and went through all the bullshit. I know i’m just making excuses but that was part of the reason I was unmotivated because my dream was being a combat engineer for a long time.

>>9600046
No, man I totally get it. That's why I've been drinking so heavily. Just the sense of disillusionment that comes from being so close to your dream only to see it fall away in front of you.
It's hell.
That's why I'm swearing to myself to give it another go. The only sense of purpose I've felt in the last maybe 5 years of my life was when I was going after it. Might as well see it through.

How's life on the outside been treating you?

>>9598955
Thanks for the advice, Im sure they have some idea that I'm drinking or something. Somehow I got caught up in the routine of drinking at lunch and it's snowballed so to say. I'm sitting in my car right now on my afternoon break, feeling soberish so having another drink. I'm about half a 750ml deep today. I really want to curb drinking at work but this job makes me so misrible. I work at corporate in customer service for a retailer so I take the angry customer calls that can't get serviced overseas or by our call center supervisors. I'd find a new job but anything paying more requires a lot more skills/experience and anything much less I'll be back in poverty.

>>9598873

anyone else a big fan of wild turkey american honey? apparently one of the only brands that uses real honey (instead of honey flavor liqueur)
to me tastes a bit like spicy orange tic tacs, only liquor i can just sip straight for hours...

>>9599926
>Fuck the losers.
lol thanks bruh
i think i'm going to have to get a bar cart or *something* to truly appreciate the decanter thing
i do agree with this though:
>Just looks nice and feels cool. Just looks nice and feels cool.

maybe i just need to get a silk bathrobe

>>9598910
Over 300 days without a drop, almost 2 years not counting small relapses.
Was drinking over 75cl of 37.5% vodka for years. Now vaping pot.

>>9598959
You went to inpatient detox and were the only tox there?
Also you need rehab, not detox.

>>9598965
Try smoking, stop drinking, then stop smoking, then find a job.
It's not like they'll hire an alcohol either.

>>9599111
Just give a quick rinse to the empties, they won't smell as much.

>>9599967
Ask /diy/, tell 'em you want to install a sex swing. Or do it in another room or in a forest.

>>9600018
Have you asked a lawyer if there's a way to resolve this?

>>9600115
It’s been okay, but unfulfilling as you’d imagine. I’m just living paycheck to paycheck, lonely as any other motherfucker in these threads. Trying to find a goal to pursue but I’m too comfortable just going home and drinking.

I really hope you can get to where you want to be man. I think it’s considerably impressive being where you are right now.

>>9600184
>Ask /diy/

I have no mechanical tools

>>9598873
>Hiding your drinking from the people you live with edition.
I'm 98% sure they know, sorry to break it to you anons

>>9600173
Not him but I definitely agree
Sometimes it's nice to have a display in which you have spirits in a decanter without all the commercial labels.
Don't entirely understand why you'd want one if you're just drinking alone, but you do you

>>9600202
All you need is to locate a beam strong enough to hold your weight+kinetic force.

>>9600233
There is no beam, that's the problem, there's fucking nothing

>>9600198
>>9600198
Thanks man. You're right that I'm in a good place right now. Sometimes I forget the good things in my life and take them for granted. I'm sure you've got a lot of good that you just aren't thinking about right now too.
You already know this, but the first step is getting outside your comfort zone. If you've got to do it one inch at a time, do it one inch at a time. But make a promise to yourself to make progress every day. Start putting yourself in new situations and I guarantee you'll find something worth living for. There's more in this life than just drinking and depression.
We're all gonna make it brah.

>>9600222
>Don't entirely understand why you'd want one if you're just drinking alone
i don't live alone.. married w/ kids & stuff.
my wife usually drinks beers or wine, so technically not drinking alone, but i' am generally the only one drinking Whiskey/Whisky
yea, just something i thought was cool until i actually went ahead with is.
i think i just need to set up a dedicated liquor area.
not necessarily a full-sized bar or whatever, but a bar cart, small table or something

>>9600244
Seek help. Don't listen to these edgy faggots online. I've had too many people close to me commit suicide. Find someone to talk to.
Hell if you want to give me a call even, go for it. But don't do this.

>>9600244
go to home depo, buy a stud locator.

>>9600262
Fuck off, I'm drunk and I can't find a place to hang a noose from, I have a thin rope, I could double it so it would hold my weight but there's nothing to attach it to

>>9600184
>Have you asked a lawyer if there's a way to resolve this?

He said it was best to let sleeping dogs lie and wait for the statute of limitations to run out on any possible charges.

This could be 10-15 years, so I guess I'm closer to the finish.

>>9598959
This guy's walking down a street when he falls in a hole. The walls are so steep, he can't get out. A doctor passes by, and the guy shouts up, "Hey you, can you help me out?" The doctor writes a prescription, throws it down in the hole and moves on. Then a priest comes along, and the guy shouts up "Father, I'm down in this hole, can you help me out?" The priest writes out a prayer, throws it down in the hole and moves on. Then a friend walks by. "Hey Joe, it's me, can you help me out?" And the friend jumps in the hole. Our guy says, "Are you stupid? Now we're both down here." The friend says, "Yeah, but I've been down here before, and I know the way out."

>>9598881
try hiding your girlfriend underneath 6 feet of dirt

>buddy takes a swig out of my bottle
>little particles floating around in it now

I hate people but i’m so lonely

I live in a complex that doesn't allow drinking or drugs. I basically just drink indoors and try to hide my beer cans and boxes.

>>9600270
Just pull a D'Angelo or an Aaron Hernandez

>>9600244
There are beams under the plaster.
Unless it's solid concrete, then you can drill anywhere (but will need a power tool)
Also don't kill yourself. Plus this way sucks ass.
>>9600270
OK, sober up and plan it better. This is going to be a disaster otherwise.

>>9600291
People kiss your buddy on the mouth.

>>9600301
>complex that doesn’t allow drinking
Is this in utah or some shit

>>9600244
Don’t kys.

If you absolutely must, buy a 200 dollar shotgun and blast yourself right in the forehead with buckshot.

>>9600306
I'm planning on being really drunk when I finally do it, also I have no power tools of any kind, plus the noise would attract attention (I live in a dorm), the rope I could salvage isn't long enough to fit around some furniture I had in mind, and I don't think a single nail in the wall could support my weight, plus the height problem and that I wouldn't just stand up on my feet

>>9600301
>I live with my parents and they don't allow drinking or drugs. I basically just drink indoors and try to hide my beer cans and boxes.
ftfy

>>9600291
i don't share mouth stuff with anyone, water, utensils, nothing
i don't have the herpes and i'm not gonna get it neither

>>9600323
You sound like you plan to sprain an ankle.
You need a real rope, screw anchors/dowels and eyes or whatever metal loops are called, several feet of drop to break your neck (you don't want to strangulate for minutes. During executions, when the drop doesn't kill, the executioner has to shoot the prisoner, because the wriggling puppet is too pathetic.), etc. Hanging is hard.

>>9600317
>right in the forehead
That's how you remove your face and frontal cortex off your body but stay alive and are "saved". You're too damaged to attempt again and have to live until you die of old age.
Survival reflex kicks in as you press the trigger and you turn your head away or aim too high.

As a rule of thumb, suicide isn't easy, but hurting yourself is.
Heck, I literally drank a litre of 37.5% poison a day for years, and am still here to talk about it.

>>9600372
There are communities like that, but they're supposed to be for post-rehab patients. Or monks.

>>9600414
>several feet of drop to break your neck

I plan on being so drunk I won't give a shit what happens while I'm strangling, but yeah

>>9600277
This is awsome!

>haven't left house in a month
>finally muster up the courage today to drive to mcdonalds (sober)
>roastie whore working there is on the phone
>taking my order while she's on the phone
>can't tell if she's talking to me or on the phone
>"were you talking to me...or"
>huffs, "YES!" under her breath says "dumbass"
>takes my order
>another 13 mins later still waiting
>only ordered a fucking double cheeseburger
>no one else in line or in the drive though
>finally get fed up and ask for my money back
>gives me the wrong amount of money
>go to leave and 3 of the whores in back laugh at me


Why the fuck do I even leave my home anymore?

I have an alcohol still and frozen food to last months, There is no point to leave my home anymore.

>>9600277
That's really nice. I like that.

>>9600420
Failed hangings can take a while. I've worked on a few.
One of them lasted for close to two months after the attempt. It was drawn out and painful for the family but probably still worse for him. Not that he could tell us, being in a body rendered useless from anoxic brain damage but, judging by all the crying, still capable of cognition.
No business of mine what you do to yourself but I would not go with hanging if I were you.

>>9600414
>There are communities like that,
k anon

>>9600444
My brain should stop working after a few minutes of oxygen deprivation, and I'll be, hopefully, too drunk to care, or preferably, drunk enough to pass out at the last moment

how does this compare to myers rum?

they taste similar or totally different?

>>9600454
After a few minutes of total deprivation, yes.
The guy I mentioned was up there for something like half an hour and had just enough blood slipping past the rope to keep him alive.
Again; it's none of my business. Just giving you the facts so you can make an informed decision.

He was 42. Had a wife and two kids.

>going cold-turkey, hard-break on Friday
Fuck am I scared. I'm sure I can do it but fuck am I scared. I just can't anymore and it's better to quit before you hit the bottom of the well.

>>9600482
If I pass out while a noose is around my neck and I'm laying on the ground while the tension on the neck is strong enough to suffocate, it wouldn't take more than a few minutes would it, considering I would be passed out drunk I wouldn't even notice it right?

>>9600301
>takes your money
>doesn't allow drinking
Where do you live because it can't possibly be America.

>>9600544
Not him but I used to work for the county coroner (I drove the meat truck). I saw a lot of hangings that "didn't" go as planned" and they spent weeks/months brain dead before family finally pulled the plug.

If I was going to kill myself I would not use suspension hanging, At all.

Plus If you've ever seen a video online of someone hanging themselves it does not look peaceful or painless at all.

>>9600554
>it does not look peaceful or painless at all

That's why a big part of my plan is to be extremely drunk

Besides, I can't think of any other inconspicuous means of killing myself without alerting others and having them stop me

>>9600420
You know how when you're drunk but some shit happens and you suddenly feel like you sobered up?

>>9600501
Don't go cold turkey, you'll give yourself brain damage.
Taper or do benzo and taper them.

>>9600544
That's failed suicide 101.
There are many methods, hanging is one of the worst. It's only popular because pop culture can't joke about exit bags or how to aim a gun to have less than 1% failure rate (average suicide by gun has like 50% survival rate. Suicide IS hard.)

>>9599603
I make it a point to go to a different liquor store every two weeks friday or satuday and get a ton of shit so people will think I'm stocking for a party or something. I also walk around the store checking different aisles looking at my phone like I'm seeing what people want.

>>9598910
Since I started getting real bad, which only started in the spring, I haven't gone more than 3 days without a drink. The past couple of months I haven't gone more than 24 hours without a drink. I'll be quitting soon, before it gets bad.
>>9598938
Do you feel like you'll get more work done if you're drunk? That's usually the pit I fall into. Of course getting drunk never fucking makes me productive.
>>9598939
It's not easy. Unfortunately it takes a lot of time. Right now don't worry about trying to quit, give yourself time to mourn. But also don't get shitfaced every waking hour.

So ill. Have just slept for 3 solid days, aside from waking every few hours to down more vodka. Not feeling good here, gais.

>>9600599
I really don't suggest you kill yourself, But If I was going to kill myself.....I would either cut an artery with a new box cutter or drop hanging.

I've accidentally cut an artery in my leg with a box cutter when I was replacing my carpet and I didn't even feel the cut. I just felt the warmness of the blood before I realized I was leaking really bad.


Just try to find another way....Something that will make life worthwhile.

For me I would rather drink myself to literal death then kill myself...Because there is nothing after this life..No afterlife, no God, No memories. Nothing.

I would rather spend every day I have left hammered drunk and on drugs then to end my own life purposefully.


I know It sounds gay as fuck but drinking and using drugs until you O/D or die in your sleep from alcohol poisoning is WAY better then killing yourself.


Whatever you choose...I wish you luck man.

>>9600612
>before it gets bad.
It is bad Anon.

You work more sober than drunk, but you work more drunk than withdrawing.
The first few weeks will be hard.

Some good way to drink pic related beside straight?
All cocktails I find online seem retarded as fuck.

>>9600761
Energy drinks, tea or, don't knock it 'til you try it, mint vodka.

>>9600761
Chill it in the freezer and guzzle it four shots at a time spacing out next dosage with a glass of water

Does anyone here really go more than three days without a drink?

I usually start my drink thursdays, sometimes Wednesdays and through till late Sunday, two days rest and repeat

>>9600761
Coca Cola + ice
you can barely taste it unless you mix in a fuckton

>>9600791
yea. i usually drink daily, but i often skip a day or several days.
occasionally i do drink kinda heavily, but on most days i'd say an average of 3 drinks.
i tend to drink the most on the weekends when i have nothing to do

I’m so fucking in love with her.
She’s married, but she still contacts me. She knows she owns me. Fucking help.

>>9600774
This, and next time get something that isn't diabetes juice.

>>9600791
I go a month when I can. Getting better at it though, did three (separate) months this year already.

Hope to graduate to casual drinker tier and only buy regular lager by the sixer once or twice a week.

>>9600920
end contact, start exercising

buh leev me

>>9600946
Whats it even like being sober for a whole month. What do you even look forward to.

>>9600963
B-but she’s literally the most perfect creature ever to exist

>>9601006
I had something like this for over eight years.

It was the last time she invited me out drinking and her new boyfriend was there something finally let go and I just couldn't get the feeling anymore. Drinking hard before the bar closed helped with this too.

>>9601006
Her?
There are other girls who are into kinky sex Anon. Many other.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QOmTtG3skHs

>>9600474
Good god, the hover image of that... i saw "black rum, and the overhanging roof and building at just that right angle looked like a hard cock sticking out of some pants with jizz dripping down.

>inb4 u r homosex
more like can't unsee

>>9601032
>>9601045
Been in love with that girl for something like 11 years. We’ve had a very strange... relationship, but I’ll never want anyone more than I do her. As for kinky, psh, you’ve no idea. She’s perfect.
But married.
And she just mailed me, so I’m dying from stress and horniness.

>>9600405
>have a poorfag friend who is into trying different beers because I taught him
>'let's buy different sorts and take a sip from each others'
>having a beer in front of me
>he takes it and sips from it without asking
>is a Snus user who, I assume, never brushes his teeth but claim 'he has no viruses'

So close and yet so far.

Currently getting snoggered on some wild Turkey at a pizza joint. It's really relaxing, especially after class.

Drinking on weeknights is a new challenge

Not a fan but can';t stop

>>9598873
>going to nursing school
>trying my damnedest to cut back on drinking, but the stress makes it really hard
>passing all my classes at least
>taking an English Composition class
>have to write a creative story
>writing about a ten year alcoholic who hit rock bottom a long time ago
>usual ritual of waking up with violent shakes and chugging vodka
>eventually he's gonna decide to try heroin
>he fucking dies
>the end

Never written anything like this, it's actually pretty fun. I hope my professor doesn't start to worry about me after this.

I'm having a party this weekend and have a history of getting too drunk and blacking out. Do you guys have any methods of restraining yourself?

>>9601153
Take 4 tablespoons of Gaviscon beforehand

It makes you feel tender and slows you down

>>9601003
>no insomnia
>no dry heaves
>no diarrhea
>no shakes
>no fear of running out or closed stores
>no money problems
>no shame
>no regrets
>manageable levels of general anxiety

I just bask in the general joy of not poisoning myself desu. The problem is, that gets normal after a while and the novelty wears off. But what I generally look forward to while sober is just another day without extreme suffering.

1/2
Got to post them. Don’t know why, but omfg, I miss her so much, this is ludicrously brutal

>>9601162
2/2
Brb fucking aaaallll the alcohol

>>9601162
>tfw no slutty santa gf

I haven't had anything to drink for about a week and a half now. Started binge eating. 4000 calories today.

>>9601006
>>9601162
>>9601166
>>9601166
Stop being this pathetic, m8. Cut the whore loose.

>>9601174
i do that too and still manage to lose tons of weight

>>9600761
It's weak enough so any recipes besides straight tend to be retarded one way or another. Jäger is IMO best as a boosting kind of shot, and a change of pace and taste after a shitload of beer.

>>9601193
How do you keep from gaining weight? I am afraid of blowing up. I am about to just give up sobriety and go to the liquor outlet.

>>9601067
What did she tell you? She want some fuck?
No. So you have to forget her.
Find some freak at a goth party or something, they're good fucks too.

>>9601200
You're not very sexy on a bottle of vodka a day either, anon.

You're still in your first weeks though, eat like a pig guilt free, things will likely normalise as you go on.

>>9600761
cranberry and peach tree

who here /nightwalk/?

I love walking around town at night when nobody is around, Especially drinking rum and coke out of a taco bell cup.

>>9601294
I would, but I live in the middle of bumfuck forestville. So I'd either get assraped by skinwalkers or abducted from the side of the road.

>>9601153
Eat before you start drinking. I don't mean pick at the snacks you've laid out, I mean literally eat a big meal. I black out a lot as well and this is the only thing that has consistently worked for me. Drinking on an empty stomach is a guaranteed way to end up embarrassing yourself. Also, asking one of your friends to push you to drink a glass of water periodically throughout the night is extremely helpful.

>>9601294
Me. Especially on week days when there’s no one around to bother you.

>>9600602
>Don't go cold turkey, you'll give yourself brain damage.
>Taper or do benzo and taper them.
Why is it two doctors told me the opposite?

>>9601628
They told you tapering gives brain damage?

>>9601628
Because you’re a lightweight or they’re quacks.

>>9601635
>>9601636
No, they told me tapering doesn't work and to go dry overnight. Quacks is what I would guess.

>>9601645
It’s hard for a drunk to have the discipline to taper at home, but as far as I know every responsible assisted detox is switch to benzos and taper those.

>>9601655
I've got someone who's willing to watch me for a couple of days, but I think they're fuck nuts for encouraging cold-turkey. I'm better and stronger than some meek addiction; but I could've used more support.

One of the driving forces of getting on the wagon is being able to tell both of them to fuck themselves in a few months. I'll stay dry because it is cheaper but fuck your back-asswards failure of a medical opinion.

>>9601645
https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Alcohol_withdrawal_syndrome
https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Delirium_tremens
Alcohol withdrawal can kill. And that's not the worth thing it does, far from it.

This "if you're a manly man you have to quit cold turkey" meme is retarded, counter-productive and dangerous.
There's some drugs where withdrawals aren't too dangerous, and as soon as tipsy you have no moderation, where it makes sense. But with alcohol and benzo you must taper, even if it's fucking hard.
(Also don't get addicted to benzo and booze. It's ridiculously hard to quit.)

Unfortunately, many doctors don't have a formation in addiction studies.

>>9599201
Sip glasses of water and a beer to let yourself down easy.

>>9601685
>>9601655
Going cold turkey can result in seizures. Diazepam is usually prescribed by a physician to help soothe the anxiety and stress caused by cutting back, and may help with the typical seizures caused by going cold.

Only uneducated people would ever suggest you go cold. Supervised dosage would be best in terms of health and control. One light beer ever 4-6 hours, then every 10 or so, then one then none.

>sleeping with a married woman
>drinking 20-30 shots a day
>no job, living off whatever i have from quitting a month ago
>she pays for our dinners out every night
>gives me handjobs while she tells her husband she's stuck in traffic

I know it's temporary but it feels soooooo good

>>9601948

fucking degenerate

>>9601948

Disgusting.

Just 14 hours left to that sweet 120 proof vodka going down my throat so i can forget my fucking life

14 hours..

>>9599880
Been drinking about every week since I turned 21. It’s gotten bad in the past couple years. Longest I’ve gone is two weeks

I got discharged from boot camp for having “bipolar disorder. I’m just a pussy who can’t handle depressing situations. At least you had the balls to make it through boot camp.

>>9600612
No I get drunk so I have the ambition to 'push the paper' I deal mainly with customers at a corporate level but how they measure my productivity I've been teetering with a way to shirk and drink all day. It's been six months of hard drinking and slacking and no one's said anything...I know it's bad, I'll find a means to get better latter. It's hilarious though because life is so crushingly difficult sober but if I drink consistently everything seems to work out in the end

>>9599794
This was literally just 5 days ago and very fresh. "Help" isn't something I have time for yet.

>>9599908
I'm going to my old church the day after the funeral to have them pray or whatever. I have a lot of support though. My roommates we're closer to him than I was so I have that. I've told a few of my friends and they're all very supportive. I just wish it didn't have to be like this.

>>9598873
>General

>>9601969
>>9601974
>going into a thread about alcoholism on 4chan and complaining that people are behaving like animals

how the fuck do people sleep sober?


I took a shit ton of ativan and I'm still wide awake

>>9602253
They have lower blood pressure when they're sober.

>drinking N.A. beer
for what purpose?

>whats going on in this thre-

Holy Fuck. I thought I drank. I thought we would share drink recipes and shit.

On a sidenote does anyone have those pics of the anon dying in the hospital from cirrhosis of the liver and his skin is all yellow and shit?

Fuck AA. Quitters need to browse alck.

>>9598910
11 or 12 days. that ended yesterday.

>>9602260
I thought alcohol lowers blood pressure

>>9602312
only when consumed in moderation. when you're a drinker and you go sober for long enough, your blood pressure goes through the roof

>>9602319
Oh. That's why I've been wide awake for 20 hours

Thanks mayne

>>9602322
Same boat for me. Hoping I can get some sleep once the fatigue sets in. Right now the jitters and the sweats are keeping me awake.

>>9598959
i went to inpatient rehab and every counselor there had been an addict in the past; find a better rehab

>>9598910
Not even a month but I've only been drinking since I turned 21 which was about five years ago. I drink less than most normies do now, however. I spent weeks in a drunken blur. So many withdraws.

>>9598959
Go to bed Alex

>>9601294
More like walk around at night, find an ambulance unlocked, and commit grand larceny. Never been so ashamed.

>>9601704
>There's some drugs where withdrawals aren't too dangerous
alcohol is literally the only drug with a lethal withdrawal

>>9602576
Wrong.


benzo W/D can kill and opioid W/D can also kill.

>middle of night
>26F
>breathing in the cold winter air and taking a shot of 100 proof vodka
>burn of the vodka and feel it warm your entire chest


literally is there anything comfier?

>>9598881

The pussy had better be good, anon. Get rid of her. It's not like she's helping you. She thinks she is but she isn't. And you know this.

Even if she is, don't let a woman get control of you like that. Get rid of her you dumb dumb.

This is horrifying. I’m deeply addicted to alcohol and benzos, and I’ve got none of either. No sleep all night, can’t stop throwing up, hospital won’t take me. Scared to death.

>>9602692
What state?


>tfw I am too, But have both luckily.

This a good alcohol to get? Need something to replace the bottles of whiskey and rum I shattered when I had the shakes.

>>9602722

>>9601003
it was physically amazing.
lost weight
high energy at work and hobbies
read a book
no insomnia
no hot flashes/chills
no sore joints
no blackout injuries
clean house.

mentally it kind of sucked b/c life is boring

I really wish I could just go somewhere for a month where I was fed, and could be pushed in a wheelchair and didnt have to cook and do dishes, and go to work, so I could get sober

I dont know if places like this exist, and also the stigma would be too much for me to handle. Maybe I can say im going on a trip to everyone I know

>>9600501
I believe in you.
It's gonna be rough.
But at the end it'll be worth it.
Just remember "couple more minutes in this hour. Couple more hours in this day. Couple more days in this week. Couple more weeks in this month. Couple more months in this year."

Just eat the elephant.

>>9601067
she's not perfect, because she's doing this to you. cut her the fuck off. 100%. no interaction. no connections. she's trash. garbage. you're pathetic for letting her get you like this

>>9602718
Uk.
I’m alright now. Bribed the shopkeeper to sell me booze out of hours.
Fuck me, I’m in so much trouble. Haven’t eaten in 6 days, surrounded by empty vodka bottles, absolutely everything is covered in vomit and I feel dangerously unwell.
Aaand now I can’t keep this alcohol down. I just immediately projectile vomit every time I drink. Shaking like crazy. Fuck, am I dying?

>>9602766
You want someone to change your diaper too, anon?

>>9602780
Can't you get OTC benzos over there?

If anything OTC codeine would be better then nothing.


If you were in my state I was going to help, But I live in the U.S.

Hope you feel better man...

>>9602783
no I can use the washroom.

i think if you drank hard enough you might understand what i meant

>>9601006
Dude trust me. If you get your life together you can do so much better than this dumpster fire.

>>9602785
Benzos are prescription only, and codeine won’t help. Only just kicked heroin too, so scared to death of stuff like codeine.
God, benzos really are filthy little fuckers. Nothing on earth feels as bad as benzo WD.
Ugh , this time... I can keep this booze down. Fuck, please stay down.

>>9601166
She sounds like a piece of shit.

>>9602797
Get some motion sickness medication and take that with the vodka, I know those feels.

>>9601200
EVENTUALLY. When you're far far into your sobriety. Start swimming or running. And keep your diet low on carbohydrates. Down the line you'll figure things out.

>>9601948
All of what you wrote is gonna hit you HARD in a few months. This is no way to live and you need to reevaluate things.

>>9602029
Thanks, I suppose. Didn't really feel like it took anything crazy from me but I guess that's just in retrospect. Honestly, I had to go speak with a Chaplin halfway through because I hated it so much and was feeling sorta dissillusioned. He told me to just shut my brain down and get through it, that I'm over thinking things. So that's what I did. Learned to just let my brain shut down for what felt like days at a time and just do what I needed to. Didn't really take courage or strong will or anything.
My experience, at least.

>the poorer I get the more I want to drink
>the more I drink the poorer I get

>>9602293
Seriously, man. Can't agree more. After reading this I'm ready as fuck to stop. Gonna pour all of what I have left in the toilet.

>>9598910
about 14 days. that was back in 2013 but I only went that long because I was smoking meth.

Friday will be 14 and I plan on not drinking until halloween, by myself mostly but maybe I'll hit up a bar and drink red wine when I get home. And all I needed this time was junk food to get me through the two weeks.

>>9602672
Last time I did this, I ended up coughing and the vodka came out my nose. Burned my fucjing nostrils. Felt it for the next ~24 hours.

>>9602766
You can do it yourself. You know that, right man?

Stupid question but what are benzos

>>9602848
benzodiazepines.


They are a class of drugs that include Xanax, Valium, Ativan, ect.

>>9602832
I was sober for three weeks before today. Fuck this

>>9602856
F

>>9598873
I changed to weed, alcohol makes me cranky, depressed, lazy and just feel shitty. I still drink but try not to.

>>9602856
Make it stick, dude. I used to bin booze when I was young and had moments of clarity regarding alcoholism. Last time I poured booze away, ten minutes later I removed the sink’s u-bend and drank the contents.

>>9602868
We'll I just took a shit in this so I doubt I'll be consuming the contents anytime soon

>>9598881
you should work on why you drink

>>9599309
>generally, i just drink by myself, so it's not as if i was attempting to impress anybody
life is about impressing yourself with yourself and then others can look at your life and be like "cool, i wanna hang around and fuck him"

>>9599934
Yeah but as your face and skin goes with the alcohol eveyone else will know soon too

>>9602848
Anti-anxiety meds. I had them prescribed for social anxiety once but they didn't seem to help. Taking a bunch just made me fall asleep, so I'm not sure what people get out of getting "high" off them.

Huh, never knew buzz aldrin was an alchie.

>>9602848
benzodiazepines

they hit the same receptors in ur brain as alcohol

>>9599880
army is for fags, most people get huge injuries in there too, get a real job

>>9602848
Benzodiazepines affect the brain is pretty much the exact same way as alcohol. They're used to treat anxiety and cramps/seizures and cause the same sorts of euphoria, increase in courage and perceived ability to sing Journey, memoryloss... and crippling addiction the withdrawals of which can literally kill you. I'd rather have to quit heroin than benzos.
They're less damaging to the body than alcohol, though, so if those are the two options...

>>9602888
Holy shit, Shane MacGowan is still alive.

>>9602926

>>9599965
be glad you didn't loose limbs or get killed or get PTSD

at least you are able to work

>>9602888
What does alcohol do to the face and skin?

>>9600317
NOOOOOOOOO, never suicide with shotgun, it can leave a huge mess and you don't die

why won't people just do speed, go crazy and die by fire? the last ride babyyyyyy

>>9600414
that's because you have to drink 1l of 80% poison to really fuck you over and even that can just become habit untill you fall over or something and hit your head hard enough

>>9600433
go molotov them

>>9601645
WTF, going cold turkey even from 2 days of drinking can lead to heart attack

Oh god

What the fuck is it with alcoholism and fruit flies? Why are they literally always literally everywhere?

>>9600143

I don't mind it but it's 50 dollars a bottle.

>>9601948
how can she tolerate your smelly drunken ass?

>>9602262
why is chad beer more faggy?

>>9602672
>breathing in the cold winter air and taking a shot of 100 proof vodka
>vomit
>think why did i do that

>>9602973
you start to look bloated and red and slowly your skin goes down in value, you just don't realize it until it's too late

>>9601166
>>9601162
>>9601006

not an attractive lady. anon there are other women out there that don´t look like barwhores and still take it up the ass while dressed like a schoolgirl.

>>9603118
Does this get fixed when you stop drinking? Asking for a friend

>>9598910
two weeks today. But I cracked and bought a nice bottle of some of the last spring nihonshu my local brewery has.

Anyone try Ballast Habanero Sculpin? If I love the fruity heat of habanero's, will I enjoy this beer or is it just a meme.

>>9603031
I THOUGHT I WAS THE ONLY ONE, WHAT THE ACTUAL FUCK

>>9598910
22 years old, been drinking for 5 years. Probably a week.

>>9600920
ask her husband if he is into cuckoldry, if he needs a bull then you're set.

>>9603376
He’s 5 inches taller than me, I’m 6ft3. Plus he’s already threatened to kill me. Don’t think it’d be wise to ask tbqhanonfam.

>>9602973
Look at Steve Bannon.

when i was in college and going through Some Shit with my parents years back, i actually got legit alcohol shakes at work once because I was constantly out at night to avoid them, and the only place to be out at night is at bars, so I was drunk basically every night.

These days I can hold my shit better and recover fully after a hangover but then again I only drink a couple of 40s a night, and not every night. i drink more than i should, but not two pitchers a night like I used to.

I've steadily been drinking less and less in the short term though, getting drunk doesnt make me happy anymore and ive been finding that i stay drunk for less and less time and have to drink more constantly to sustain a buzz. that, or I really am drunk, but I'm just too depressed to notice the difference

>>9602856
>>9602832
nigga dont waste it at least give it to a friend or something. you can even make a big dramatic show of it and then your buddies will, after accepting the booze, help you not drink it

>>9603031
>>9603289
all the sugar in most alcohols, and especially beer. that sticky residue has a pretty similar smell and composition to old fruit. Like, think of how booze is made, you basically take mashed up fruit or grain and forcibly decompose it but with a specific type of bacteria that shits happy juice instead of literal poison.

>>9603031
They love the booze as much as we do.

The true drunkard’s pet.

Anybody here on painkillers? I had a surgery on Monday and I was in the hospital hooked up to IV painkillers, which was pretty awesome because I could just press a button every 6 minutes and get a quick 0.2 mg dose. Now I only get 2 mg of morphine every 4 hours but it's still not bad.

Woke up with an unfinished beer on my nightstand. Should I drink it?

>>9603669
Listened to roadhouse blues for your answer

Sobriety is so comfy lads, would recommend.

>>9603669
yes

>>9603714


I get bored when im sober.

>>9603723
The suffering of alcoholism is greater than the suffering of boredom though. And boredom can be dealt with in less destructive ways.

>>9603750
>>9603723
I worry too much when I'm sober. Being drunk is the only way I can enjoy being alive.

>>9603100
women put up with almost anything if you fuck them right

What kind of cream is recommended for White Russian?

>>9598873
>tfw having a job was the only thing keeping me from drinking every night

>>9604067
heavy whipping cream if you are talking US or Canadian grades. "Single cream" or higher for UK grades.

>>9604096
Also, see that it is not completely whipped. It's really tasty that way

>>9604137
It shouldn't be whipped at all.

whippING cream, not whippED cream.

I'm not on the level of anyone here and my problems are as nowhere near as severe, but realistically how bad is drinking a 6 pack every day? I've been downing a 6 pack every day for almost 3 years now but can drink 75% of a 750ml bottle of 80 proof whiskey. I try to avoid liquor, so I drink beer as I've heard it's harder to fuck up your body in the long term

>wake up
>bruises everywhere
>nasty bump on the forehead that hurts like a bitch

ehhhh

What's the fastest way to get hammered with the least amount of pain?

>>9604289
Literally just chasing shots of vodka with soda or juice.

>>9604199
Imo 6 pack a day isn't that bad. It would be a good idea to stay away from liquor though if you're going to be drinking everyday. I pounded liquor daily for years and I know for a fact I'm significantly more fucked up than I would be if I hadn't.
I will never tell anyone what to do, it's just your choice, but I can assure you that if you start on liquor on a serious daily thing there will be significant consequences one way or the other.
Its just pure luck that I'm not worse off. I don't really drink liquor anymore either.

>>9604311
Thanks for the info

>>9598910
been struggling with 5 days lately, was kinda a sad realization i haven't gone a weekend without in over 7 years. tried for a 7 day run monday, hit the store tuesday, fuck.

>>9602766
Prison.

>sleep for the entire day
>wake up
>start drinking
>want to pass out a few hours later again

eh

>>9598910
7 months for basic and ait..

>>9598910
2 days

OH GOD I FEEL SO SHIT

Gotta love putting empties inside plastic bags to hide them from your family so they aren't seen

how the fuck do i drink in moderation lads
>watching a movie, getting comfy
>oh, i think i will have a glass of wine
>one glass later ive abandonned the wine glass and switched to a pint glass instead
>probaly end up drinking like a 1L of wine before i realize wtf im dooing
>stumble into bed
almost every day too dammit

>>9604965
Live in a place with strict shop opening times and buy small units.

>>9602973
thread veins, flushing, drinker's nose, rosacea, dryness, splotches, bumps and pimples, irritation around the eyes etc.

is there a fucking discord or chat?

im so fucking blasted right now

Taking an arse long train ride tomorrow, thinking how best to drink during that time? I'm thinking just a water bottle filled with gin but I'd be happy to hear about anything more tactful. I'm not much of one for subtlety and the restrictions are pretty plain over here.

On a side note
>pissed myself drunk for the first time in the company of others yesterday
Not the nicest experience. First time I've felt shame in a long while

>>9605109
https://client00.chat.mibbit.com/?channel=%23al/ck/&server=irc.rizon.net
feel free to join us

>>9605203

thanks

>tfw you raid mom's liquor cabinet

She doesn't even care god bless that woman

am i still banned

>>9605227

she is blessed indeed

>>9605161
>pissed myself drunk for the first time in the company of others yesterday
Not the nicest experience. First time I've felt shame in a long while

Story, please

Kek. If a non drinker read this thread and all the misery in these posts they’d be so perplexed on why people pick up drinking. These threads make it sound like we’re being forced to drink alcohol

Any way to avoid bloating from beer?

Inb4 not drinking beer

>>9605297
Okay? I can't really add to the 'shame' part. Not sure any situation makes it okay for you to darken your trousers in the presence of others.
>invited round to a friends house. An old school social/ reunion type event
>start drinking with the group, acting responsibly
>major part of the group leaves; they're going off to the local clubs. I stick around with an old friend. A heavier drinker than the rest
>we get fucked
>I get a fair bit more fucked than him
>The rest of the group comes back from their night out and find me on their sofa soaked in piss and yet I thought I still had my sensibilities?
It wasn't a significant night. I didn't drink more than usual. That just makes it fucking worse though; I didn't even notice that I'd pissed myself. I thought that shit started happening when you were an old fart, not in your mid 20's. That really felt like the beginning of the end to me, maybe I'm over reacting though

>>9605375
Thanks for the story.

Was it raining outside that night?

>>9605393
Yeah, pissing it down

>>9605375
>I didn't even notice that I'd pissed myself. I thought that shit started happening when you were an old fart, not in your mid 20's

Might be time to cut back the drinking m8

>>9598910
perhaps one year.. perhaps a little more.. dont know.. sober for a few weeks now.. feels strange.. so strange..

>>9605407
That was probably the trigger. The combination of alcohol and rain. A lot of adults occasionally piss the bed when it’s raining

>>9605490
Thanks for the thought, not sure I trust it though. I'm really trying to make sure that never happens again, doubt paying attention to the weather is going to do me much good. Never the less, I'll drink less on rainy nights from now on! cheers anon

>>9605544
Word.
Cheers

>Drunk as shit
>Thought I was gonna cum
>Get tissues
>End up pissing all over the tissues
>Pissed all over the floor
>The table
>My bed
>Slip and hit my bed edge with my head
>Get a shitty bump that hurts like shit
>Pass out

That was quite an experience

>>9605568
I also fucked up my glasses, they don't stay right on anymore, it's a pain in the ass

>>9605575
u get ur nut tho?

>>9598873
Last time I drank was on Oct 22nd, this is my 4th day straight of sobriety. Honestly, I feel pretty accomplished, I MIGHT go sober tomorrow if I don't feel like drinking but even if I do I'll DEFINITELY drink on Saturday. I don't want to waste both of the best days of the week sober! My aim is to merely cut down, not to quit, and thus far I can proudly say my goal of cutting down is a success. Been getting more into religion, a nice religious woman I talk to every now and then says she's praying for me even though I didn't ask for such, so it's very possible that it's working. Wicked stuff.

We've been discussing a possible war with North Korea lately. She vehemently says that it's best if peace can be maintained, and I told her it'd be great if it could, but as long as Kim Jong Un continues to threaten other nations with nuclear strikes and continues to try and improve their inter-continental ballistic technology, I think war is the only possible answer. Either Kim Jong Un seriously fucks off and stops his bullshit, or it's time to kick his shit in. I'm willing to join my nation's Military to try and do my part, I support war against North Korea that much. I want a future for my future children and children's children that doesn't have a North Korea in it.

>>9605606
no I didn't cum, I was never going to cum

>>9605575
That’s why you get contacts. I can pass out carefree

>>9605715
sleeping with contacts in your eyes is really bad for them.

man is weed the best or what

>>9598910
Almost 3 years.

>>9598910
2.5 years. I picked up smoking crack after trying it while drunk, fucking loved it and went batshit crazy until I got arrested for stealing shit. I had to be on my best behavior for 2 years and the charges got expunged.

https://www.msn.com/en-ca/news/offbeat/alcohol-can-help-you-speak-a-foreign-language-more-fluently/ar-AAu0HE5

>>9605904
Sorry, think you're in the wrong neighbourhood

>>9603109
why would you vomit from a shot of vodka?

Is anyone here into mezcal? It's similar to tequila but much nicer and smoother.

since i really became an al/ck/ie I've not been sober more than about 2 weeks.

>>9605929
That's like saying 'is anyone into brandy? it's like cognac but nicer and smoother'.

Silly.

>>9605904
true

I sound like a Slav speaking English sober but speak in a deep Southern accent when sufficiently drunk

>>9605611
... sobriety is so bloody boring. Can't wait to get drunk tomorrow night, but I can't believe the last time I got drunk was Sunday night. I just realized I've gone Monday to Thursday without drinking... it's almost like... I'm not an alcoholic! It's purely coincidental though, but still, the sudden realization that I went without booze after Sunday night and likely will continue to go without until late Friday afternoon at the soonest is giving me a smack of pride. Awesome stuff, I'll probably get drunk 6 times by November 11th, and that's including on November 11th.

>>9598910

About 10 months after I freaked out that drinking 75cl+ of vodka daily for a couple of years had given me wet brain. Was a miserable time.

Then had some casual beer and slowly slipped back to casual wine, daily wine, then a vodka haze again until I wondered how the fuck I arrived back in this situation wrecking my brain again.

Day 7 sober today but the familiar feel of brain damage is once again prominent.

NEW THREAD: >>9606046

>stop smoking weed
>immediately develop drinking problem

sober october bro here
I'm back in it
halfway through a bottle of vodka
help

>>9598873
>fiance is out of town
>took 2mg of xanax
>ate some THC gummy bears
>snus
>castlevania symphony of the night
This is going to be one hell of an evening.

Where's the new at? For some reason the last time I made a new thread (despite 30 responses and a silhouette) I got b&. I'm scared to start a new one bros...

>>9600198
I know the feeling of needing to pursue something but resigning to drinking alone at night. But let me tell you, and I'm sure you know this already, it really really helps to just take small steps towards SOME kind of goal. Start very small - the cup that's been sitting in your car for the past week that you keep putting off bringing inside...go ahead and bring it in right now. And build from there. It helps to do small things in life that make you feel at least a little productive because from those steps you can start feeling more accomplished and it leads to better things.

TFW it's 3 am and I just started my 10th beer and I have work at 7 tomorrow.