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al/ck/ alcoholics Anonymous Sun Mar 4 23:26:35 2018 No.10239895 [DELETED]

do you even wd bro?

>>	Anonymous Sun Mar 4 23:28:05 2018 No.10239901 oh good cancer general again already

>>	Anonymous Sun Mar 4 23:29:35 2018 No.10239904 >>10239901 actually it's more of a cirrhosis general

>>	Anonymous Sun Mar 4 23:31:59 2018 No.10239916 >another 3 day bender ends in withdrawal and misery

>>	Anonymous Sun Mar 4 23:50:24 2018 No.10239994 >>10239916 Well don't be lazy about it go for another day.

>>	Anonymous Sun Mar 4 23:51:29 2018 No.10239998 I had 4.6 units yesterday, 2 pints of 4.5%, and I've woken up with the fear. Mild but unmistakable. Apparently cannot touch a fucking drop ever.

>>	Anonymous Sun Mar 4 23:52:58 2018 No.10240003 >>10239998 Well that aint no good

>>	Anonymous Sun Mar 4 23:55:36 2018 No.10240016 >>10240003 Yeah it's terrible, especially given that here in the united cuckdom booze is the only option.

>>	Anonymous Sun Mar 4 23:56:02 2018 No.10240017 get that 90 proof in ya son schmmeeeeeeeeeeeeee

>>	Anonymous Sun Mar 4 23:56:10 2018 No.10240018 >>10239998 and that's why you don't cold turkey

>>	Anonymous Sun Mar 4 23:59:38 2018 No.10240035 >>10240018 ...you want me to taper from 2 pints of 4.5%? Lol no. I'd had 16 days clean and just had some meme cider in a desperate attempt to sleep.

Anonymous Mon Mar 5 00:00:18 2018 No.10240037

>>10239895
>go a month without booze
>forget to refill prescriptions
>pharmacy closed
>get drunk instead
>feel The Fear for the first time in a month

It's pretty amazing how predictably unhappy liquor makes me the next day and how dependent I am on my medications to not feel like I want to die

>>	Anonymous Mon Mar 5 00:01:54 2018 No.10240047 >>10240035 kindling is a bitch

>>	Anonymous Mon Mar 5 00:12:10 2018 No.10240095 >>10239901 kind of more of a don't open the one thread in forty that you don't want to read general

>>	Anonymous Mon Mar 5 00:12:32 2018 No.10240098 Opinions on self medicating xanax to lessen withdrawal? I was thinking 1mg 3x times a day for 3 days and .5mg 3x times a day for the next 3 days I don't think this is enough to get me addicted to benzos, right?

>>	Anonymous Mon Mar 5 00:13:11 2018 No.10240105 >>10239998 i hate to be that guy but i meann that's not a lot my dude

>>	Anonymous Mon Mar 5 00:14:58 2018 No.10240112 >>10240105 that's my point.

Anonymous Mon Mar 5 00:19:21 2018 No.10240140

Almost a week clean

Barely slept the first 4 days, couldn't eat that much, diarrhea a couple of times a day, irritable as fuck. First two days I could barely get out of bed.

Weird how much more productive I am even after a week. Starting reading again, walked my dog, made some pretty good dinner. It was tough over the weekend though. It's sorta boring, but I'm enjoying getting back into reading.

>>10240047
Iktf man. I'm not to that level, but one good drunk and i'll wake up with the fear. Wish I just threw up and feel better, but nope am alcohol

Anonymous Mon Mar 5 00:20:18 2018 No.10240142

>>10239895
drunk as fuck and enjoying every mintue
who else?

reminds me when i was a kid and my parents would take me to the halloween store. That rush that would fill you when you'd smell the rubber masks, the vapor smoke, and all the badass costumes in the stores. Maybe there'd be a qt3.14 from middle school and you'd chat her up when both of your parents were away. On the way back with costume and paint in hand it would be Cheap Trick the whole way

>>	Anonymous Mon Mar 5 00:21:54 2018 No.10240149 >>10240142 >That rush Yeah nah, the novelty wears off.

>>	Anonymous Mon Mar 5 00:22:08 2018 No.10240152 >>10239895 is anybody else a good writer? Im at emory (fairly good college) and ive got a 3.8 from drinking and writing. why do the best writers have drinking problems?

>>	Anonymous Mon Mar 5 00:23:10 2018 No.10240159 File: 116 KB, 1920x1080, clap dem cheeks.jpg [View same] [iqdb] [saucenao] [google] >>10240149 drink on an empty stomach, play good music always

>>	Anonymous Mon Mar 5 00:23:16 2018 No.10240161 >>10240152 same reason good musicians have crippling drug problems.

>>	Anonymous Mon Mar 5 00:23:57 2018 No.10240163 >>10240152 they don't, you just are an alcoholic so you seek out what you know. i mean i am too, but not all good writers were drunks. I love hemingway and thompson etc, but their personal lives were shit

>>	Anonymous Mon Mar 5 00:25:09 2018 No.10240172 >>10239895 ive been north ive been east to the california beach and theres only one way i know how to nfind you ps:captcha discriminatyes against alcoholics

>>	Anonymous Mon Mar 5 00:26:16 2018 No.10240177 >>10240159 is that a haiku whats your favorite drinking song???????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????

>>	Anonymous Mon Mar 5 00:29:38 2018 No.10240192 >>10239895 people who say you cant get drunk off light beer have never really tried still wish i had some 80 proof though beer is like coke, liqour is like crack

>>	Anonymous Mon Mar 5 00:30:04 2018 No.10240197 >>10240177 https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=IBLruNfUqUs

Anonymous Mon Mar 5 00:33:33 2018 No.10240209

>>10240192
>have never really tried
wat
dude after 10 pints it's just too bloating and uncomfortable. A few shots of vodka that far in though and things are instantly ten times more comfy. it's literally impossible to put away enough to get properly smashed.

>>	Anonymous Mon Mar 5 00:35:57 2018 No.10240217 >>10240197 valerie amy whinehouse and its not even close

>>	Anonymous Mon Mar 5 00:36:59 2018 No.10240220 >>10240209 we'll see about that alot more peeing though that for damn sure

>>	Anonymous Mon Mar 5 00:38:49 2018 No.10240233 >>10240217 I was just stating my drinking song for the next couple weeks. I wasn't part of the postchain

>>	Anonymous Mon Mar 5 00:39:34 2018 No.10240238 >>10240220 yeah, it just leaves me feeling kinda, lethargic, bloated and tipsy. plus it's a nightmare drinking enough water because you're already overflowing with fluids.

>>	Anonymous Mon Mar 5 00:40:37 2018 No.10240249 I'm an alcoholic and I literally just visited this board on impulse for the first time in years. Didn't know this topic was permitted here. Anyway: >the fear What the fuck that's exactly what I call it I hate myself

>>	Anonymous Mon Mar 5 00:41:37 2018 No.10240256 >>10240035 no, I mean, you got gnomed because you quit cold turkey before and you are experiencing the kindling effects

>>	Anonymous Mon Mar 5 00:41:39 2018 No.10240258 We could use an extra thread in the catalogue, guys. Try a more appropriate board >>>/soc/

>>	Anonymous Mon Mar 5 00:43:29 2018 No.10240266 >>10240256 Oh gotya. Yeah, years of stopping/starting/withdrawing/CT/tapering and all the rest fucked me. I should have just never tried stopping at all until I was certain that I could.

>>	Anonymous Mon Mar 5 00:43:59 2018 No.10240268 >>10240258 things i hate: you

>>	Anonymous Mon Mar 5 00:44:12 2018 No.10240269 File: 54 KB, 500x303, nit-forget-youre-here-forever-18486396.png [View same] [iqdb] [saucenao] [google] >>10240249 welcome back

>>	A Deadbeat Dad Mon Mar 5 00:44:30 2018 No.10240271 File: 51 KB, 573x493, A14F9667-FE34-419B-9AD9-3FA69AD327A9.jpg [View same] [iqdb] [saucenao] [google] What’s “the fear”? Been drinking for over ten years so I assume I’ve had it but I’ve never heard of it

>>	Anonymous Mon Mar 5 00:44:37 2018 No.10240273 >>10240258 Yeah we'll definitely be doing that straight away.

>>	Anonymous Mon Mar 5 00:45:13 2018 No.10240275 >>10240258 oh good i was just going to make one about the grand big mac, hope it fits now i also had a question about the taco bell fries

>>	Anonymous Mon Mar 5 00:45:53 2018 No.10240279 >>10240271 You'd know. A totally irrational but absolutely unshakeable, horrifyingly intense fear of everything and nothing. All of your worst conceivable fears are suddenly real/imminent.

>>	Anonymous Mon Mar 5 00:46:20 2018 No.10240280 >>10240271 don't know? haven't had it everyone else will say the same you don't fucking know if you don't know

>>	Anonymous Mon Mar 5 00:46:34 2018 No.10240281 >>10240275 >taco bell fries theyre great when drunk especially with some nacho sauce and a couple of doritos locos

>>	Anonymous Mon Mar 5 00:46:46 2018 No.10240282 >>10240256 Did someone just use my word. That's flattering

>>	Anonymous Mon Mar 5 00:47:56 2018 No.10240288 >>10240279 >>10240280 so you mean the 'what the fuck did i do last night' hangover

Anonymous Mon Mar 5 00:52:47 2018 No.10240314

>>10240288
No, I'm talking about a constant fear, an all-encompassing terror. It's not just in your mind, you can feel it in every cell of your tense, sweating, heart-pounding body as well. Every terrifying thing you can imagine seems terrifyingly real - your family is about to die, you're about to go to prison, you're going to be fired and be homeless, everyone hates you, you have cancer, monsters are real and are about to make you rim them - every awful thing, your own, personal hell - whatever is most horrifying to you personally, suddenly feels like it's inescapably imminent and worse than you could ever have imagined. There's absolutely no escape other than fuckhuge doses of benzos or another sesh on the bottle. At which point you feel absolutely fine again. You can immediately escape and feel awesome, just by relapsing. It's a proper fucking nightmare trying to get through that exit barrier. The fear is absolutely inescapable even if you do manage to realise that it's irrational.

>>	Anonymous Mon Mar 5 00:53:07 2018 No.10240316 almost a day sober. want to drink, but not having drank yet is the only thing i presently feel good about, so i'm gonna continue to not drink.

Anonymous Mon Mar 5 00:54:38 2018 No.10240323
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>>10240288
It's more than that. It's not rational. It's hard to describe. It's like feeling electric.

I remember once I was looking at my hands and i had a panic attack because I didn't recognize every single crease in my hand. A fly could go by your head and you would jerk your entire body. You can't sit still, but you don't want to move either.

Just imagine being on the edge of a panic attack going "fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck", tipping over into panic attack, and then back to the precipice for hours on end and knowing that slamming back a few beers or shots could keep that feeling at bay.

That's the fear. Like they said. You'd know.

>>	Anonymous Mon Mar 5 00:56:26 2018 No.10240328 >>10240314 hahahaha holy shit i wrote >>10240323 man we have definitely had the fear. almost the same damn description. cheers m8

>>	Anonymous Mon Mar 5 00:57:27 2018 No.10240334 >>10240282 the whole gnomebro thing is kinda interesting tbdesu

>>	Anonymous Mon Mar 5 00:58:19 2018 No.10240338 >>10240314 >>10240323 just karma for all the relaxation you got from the alc listening to hold me now looking at old facebook posts bout my kms

>>	Anonymous Mon Mar 5 00:59:14 2018 No.10240342 >>10240256 >>10240282 i like it as a verb gnoming: when you fuck yourself from multiple bouts of WD, not tapering well enough or just straight up getting the DT's.

>>	Anonymous Mon Mar 5 01:00:58 2018 No.10240348 >>10240334 Hey come join me on the IRC then, plenty of good folk here to. Good bunch >>10240342 I cannot tell if it is flattering anymore but cool

>>	Anonymous Mon Mar 5 01:03:57 2018 No.10240367 >>10240348 not meant as an insult by any means, I just think it sums it up well

>>	Anonymous Mon Mar 5 01:04:52 2018 No.10240369 >>10240314 You just described it perfectly. Well said. >t. first time here in a while guy Just poured another glass of scotch frens. Have to be at work in 7 hours

>>	Anonymous Mon Mar 5 01:05:26 2018 No.10240371 >>10240348 I thought the irc was dead, last I heard was some hoe made it invite-only

>>	Anonymous Mon Mar 5 01:06:30 2018 No.10240377 >>10240369 same to >>10240323

>>	Anonymous Mon Mar 5 01:06:41 2018 No.10240379 >>10240369 cheers mate, I'm pouring vodka mixed with clean water and ice because now I'm more health conscious

Anonymous Mon Mar 5 01:07:36 2018 No.10240382

>>10240367
I guess it does man
I like it

>>10240371
What?
I have no idea how to find a link right now I am trippin shit and drunk but hey.
>mibbit.c om
>select rizon-chat on the top bar
>channel is #al/ck/

If it is restricted that sucks
But that is how you join that I know.

>>	Anonymous Mon Mar 5 01:08:58 2018 No.10240387 >>10240098 Just don't. Get real help. And before you go benzo smoke your brains out with weed.

>>	Anonymous Mon Mar 5 01:09:18 2018 No.10240390 >>10239895 I literally can't stop drinking because I work often and if I stop I'll start shaking and sweating. I'm fucking terrified.

>>	Anonymous Mon Mar 5 01:09:51 2018 No.10240393 >>10240377 thanks man, hope your night is going well.

Anonymous Mon Mar 5 01:11:34 2018 No.10240399

>>10240390
Have any vacation days to dry out? I've been in that situation and it's terrible.

If you don't and you're honest about quitting the best option is tapering. There was one anon on here that had a really good tapering calendar he made. If he's here maybe he'll post it.

If not
>http://hams.cc/taper/

>>	Anonymous Mon Mar 5 01:12:03 2018 No.10240401 Drinking after 5 months of sobriety. Feel good now, when should I expect the fun to STAHP

Anonymous Mon Mar 5 01:13:06 2018 No.10240406
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>>10240314
>>10240323
For me my internal thoughts are like 'oh no oh no oh no please god no, no no no, I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm sorry please god"
While I keep on thinking that people are following me and coming to kill me or abduct me
This is while my heart is pounding and I can't sit still. I get this strange sensation in my mouth and extremeties tingle

>>	Anonymous Mon Mar 5 01:15:11 2018 No.10240415 >>10240401 Tomorrow morning, when you wake up and realise what you've done. I normally wake, expect to feel ok, then my eyes pop open wide with fear and i say "OH NO, FUCK NO, PLEASE NO" as soon as I realise I'm back on the ride.

>>	Anonymous Mon Mar 5 01:15:53 2018 No.10240417 >>10240390 I know this feel This might be extreme mental gymnastics, but I feel like I would drink way less of I didn't work. Being worried about being in withdrawal at work is what often leads me to drink. It's an endless cycle

>>	Anonymous Mon Mar 5 01:16:03 2018 No.10240419 >>10240382 wow that was rude man

Anonymous Mon Mar 5 01:16:15 2018 No.10240420

>>10240401
probably tomorrow

>>10240406
yea i get some wacky shit. I remember when i would get it bad I would get this real light feeling; like i was weightless and just going to die right there because my heart was beating so hard/fast.

I'd get that tingling shit too, especially when I'd start to sweat.

I'm clean for almost a week now. Trying to keep this going. I have a gf, doggo and family. Can't keep doing this

>>	Anonymous Mon Mar 5 01:16:46 2018 No.10240425 >>10240390 Don't stop, taper till you can moderate. Sweating and shaking is not good for work.

Anonymous Mon Mar 5 01:16:54 2018 No.10240427
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>>10240314

It's called anxiety attack.

I personally like to describe it as pure and unfiltered reality setting in.

t. haver of anxiety attacks on weed lasting up to 30 minutes

>>	Anonymous Mon Mar 5 01:17:08 2018 No.10240429 >>10240112 I don't get it, your point is that you drank a few beers and now don't like alcohol?

>>	Anonymous Mon Mar 5 01:17:53 2018 No.10240431 >>10240420 Yeah I forgot to mention being drenched in sweat

>>	Anonymous Mon Mar 5 01:18:02 2018 No.10240433 >>10240427 >anxiety attack. It lasts up to 2 weeks, 24 hours a day. It's not an anxiety attack. I have anxiety attacks while experiencing the fear but they're not the same thing.

>>	Anonymous Mon Mar 5 01:18:54 2018 No.10240437 >>10240419 Sorry man I am trashed What was rude?

>>	Anonymous Mon Mar 5 01:19:10 2018 No.10240439 >>10240429 4.6 units was enough that I'd experience withdrawal the next day, such is the extent of the neurological kindling I've suffered.

Anonymous Mon Mar 5 01:19:54 2018 No.10240443

>>10240427
I remember once I was coming off of a 4 day bender and was WDing and someone told me weed would help. I was new to my alcoholism and didn't know exactly what was going on with me but I knew that if I hit it hard for a few days I could barely function when I decided to clean up.

Anyways, took that shitty advice, smoked the weed, got stupid high and had the worst WD/panic attacks of my entire life. Pretty similar to what you were talking about. Just full on panic for hours and hours.

>>	Anonymous Mon Mar 5 01:20:57 2018 No.10240452 >>10240427 also >>10240433 is correct. it's deeper and last longer. Panic attacks are part of it, but the fear. the finger lingers.

>>	Anonymous Mon Mar 5 01:21:32 2018 No.10240455 >>10240401 After about a month you'll be feeling the effects and will have substantially upped your consumptions, but you'll still find alcohol entertaining. Three months and you're back to where you were. That's approximately how it is for me.

>>	Anonymous Mon Mar 5 01:28:30 2018 No.10240482 >>10240437 the "get lost" part don't worry man I'm not a fag I'm just more comfy here in the thread, having IRC running too makes me have to put attention to two things simultaneously

>>	Anonymous Mon Mar 5 01:32:26 2018 No.10240499 >>10240482 Hey its cool man I understand thread is always comfy

>>	Anonymous Mon Mar 5 01:39:31 2018 No.10240521 Was doing really great, feeling good after a few days sober and just loving life/getting shit done/not living with constant shame. Bought liquor, feeling bad, drinking more to not feel so bad. I just feel so disappointed to be me sometimes.

>>	Anonymous Mon Mar 5 01:43:35 2018 No.10240538 >>10240427 Smoke high CBD strains. You won't get panic attacks anymore.

>>	Anonymous Mon Mar 5 01:44:46 2018 No.10240543 >>10240538 Illegal here. Can't choose what I buy ;_;

>>	Anonymous Mon Mar 5 01:47:45 2018 No.10240555 >>10240543 You can buy high CBD flowers and oils online. Legal in every state.

>>	Anonymous Mon Mar 5 01:49:59 2018 No.10240562 >>10240555 Different country - not state. t. Eurodesu

>>	Anonymous Mon Mar 5 01:50:59 2018 No.10240566 Who /nervedamage/ here? I'm losing feeling in my feet and hands

>>	Anonymous Mon Mar 5 01:58:09 2018 No.10240583 >>10240566 bases of my feet, hips re sciatic nerve area. thighs were aching tonight on the muscle down to the knee cap.

>>	Anonymous Mon Mar 5 01:59:20 2018 No.10240586 >>10240562 Not that guy but CBD probably is legal where you are. It was recently made legal even in the united kingderp, which has among the most demented babby laws on earth when it comes to drugs.

>>	Anonymous Mon Mar 5 01:59:42 2018 No.10240587 Two weeks sober and counting. Wish me luck, fellas!

Anonymous Mon Mar 5 02:06:05 2018 No.10240605

>>10240047

>google kindling

Holy fucking shit I did not know this was a thing. I'm not nearly as progressed in the disease as others - I've only ever had 2 serious benders, 1 was almost 2 weeks and the second (which just happened) was 10 days. Withdrawal for several days but then I'm fine and I can go back to drinking lightly without any reprecussions.

But holy shit dude that legitimately terrifies me. How many times do you have to go through withdrawal to start getting this effect? How frequently?

>>	Anonymous Mon Mar 5 02:07:10 2018 No.10240607 >>10239916 weird. this time it was suppposed to be fun

>>	Anonymous Mon Mar 5 02:08:15 2018 No.10240613 >>10240037 lol!

>>	Anonymous Mon Mar 5 02:09:10 2018 No.10240616 >now I can carry bags full of sand without crying or peeing myself a little >drinking only a half a pint thrice a week you better get /fit/ asap bros, we are going to make it

>>	Anonymous Mon Mar 5 02:09:11 2018 No.10240617 I miss her, lads

>>	Anonymous Mon Mar 5 02:12:04 2018 No.10240626 >>10240617 jesus, dont let a woman be the reason youre a sloppy drunk

>>	Anonymous Mon Mar 5 02:13:31 2018 No.10240633 >>10240586 Thanks. Will check it out.

>>	Anonymous Mon Mar 5 02:13:46 2018 No.10240634 >>10240626 he misses her for the same reason he is a sloppy drunk get your causality relationships checked

>>	Anonymous Mon Mar 5 02:14:53 2018 No.10240638 >>10240626 Too late mate >>10240634 I... think this is right?

>>	Anonymous Mon Mar 5 02:19:34 2018 No.10240668 >>10240566 >nervedamage alcoholic neuropathy, yeah. Brain damage too which is other-level fun.

>>	Anonymous Mon Mar 5 02:36:30 2018 No.10240723 Funny the “fear” you guys are describing is the same feeling I have on my withdrawals from a cocaine bender

>>	Anonymous Mon Mar 5 02:37:00 2018 No.10240726 >>10240369 My dude I have 11 more hours and 1/4 th of a liter to go maybe I'll get some sleep

>>	Anonymous Mon Mar 5 02:39:24 2018 No.10240733 >>10240521 we all struggle. death is the only true way out of this mess.

>>	Anonymous Mon Mar 5 02:45:43 2018 No.10240752 >>10240587 Good luck mate. I'm 6 yrs in and this is gotta end

>>	Anonymous Mon Mar 5 03:14:58 2018 No.10240823 How much do I have to drink before I experience the fear? Is it just when you’re sober?

Anonymous Mon Mar 5 03:18:06 2018 No.10240829

>>10240823

Yea I don't know, I've never experienced the fear and I drink quite a lot I think. I have been drinking heavily every weekend for about 2-3 years and too often during the week as well, though I've avoiding multiple days (3+) of heavy drinking pretty consistently. Only failed twice. The closest I've gotten to something like "the fear" is when I've had a lot 2 or 3 days in a row and I'm afraid that I won't be able to stop myself from drinking again the following day. It's a sort of irrational fear but I've always been able to overcome it without too much trouble.

>>	Anonymous Mon Mar 5 03:45:33 2018 No.10240880 >>10240605 Took years for me, but then, I very rarely sobered up even for a day. It's not gonna happen overnight though, it's gradual brain damage.

>>	Anonymous Mon Mar 5 03:48:57 2018 No.10240890 >>10240880 Ah thank god. Sobering up now for the night. Never getting to that point. Thank god for threads like this to keep me rationally afraid of drinking too much.

Anonymous Mon Mar 5 03:57:44 2018 No.10240918

>>10240890
Try getting liver failure twice and almost succumbing to death? Varices in the stomach that have burst and projectile vomiting blood. I've cold turkeyed twice and everytime I have done so my memory has turned to shit. Opiates are child's play in comparison.

>>	Anonymous Mon Mar 5 04:02:03 2018 No.10240926 >>10240823 three day bender should do it. that will cause your nervous system to fight back against the alcohol, and then you will get to enjoy 72 hours of hell.

Anonymous Mon Mar 5 04:08:48 2018 No.10240942

>>10240926

At least for me this is absolutely not true, otherwise what you guys are referring to as "the fear" is some pussy ass shit. I've gone 3 days MANY times now. I definitely get this sort of elevated anxiety where I'm afraid that I won't be able to stop drinking if I choose to, and in general I just get anxious and afraid of how life is going, but it's honestly pretty mild and pretty easily overcome by just distracting myself until it passes.

What you guys in these threads describe as "the fear" is a completely incapacitating thing that is like, an order of magnitude more severe than anything I've ever felt.

>>	Anonymous Mon Mar 5 04:11:55 2018 No.10240955 >>10240942 i was talking about withdrawals. takes 72 hours for your nervous system to stop flooding itself with adrenaline. no offense but you appear to be a fucking noob.

Anonymous Mon Mar 5 04:20:08 2018 No.10240979

>>10240955

I mean yea that's basically what I've been saying, I've thankfully not gone as far as some of you guys.

Yea, I've noticed that 3 days are the sweet spot for withdrawal. Two in a row gives me nothing, but three will definitely give me withdrawals. Then the severity of withdrawals increases, but relatively slowly. If I do 3 days in a row I'll have WD for ~2-3 days, but then the next step up is doing a week bender which will stretch the withdrawals to 4 days with maybe a weak 5th day.

Anyway the discussion was about "the fear", which I've heard a lot about but I really don't think I've ever experience or come close to experiencing, and I'm really curious when it actually happens.

>>	Anonymous Mon Mar 5 04:23:47 2018 No.10240983 >>10240979 ive never experienced the fear these dudes speak of, and belueve me I've spent many days in bed sweating and jerking off constantly. i think the fear happens after many days of being drunk.

>>	Anonymous Mon Mar 5 04:43:09 2018 No.10241033 File: 108 KB, 400x381, C351ABCF-A2E5-4590-90F0-0A30FB11AAD9.png [View same] [iqdb] [saucenao] [google] >>10240890 >Never getting to that point

>>	Anonymous Mon Mar 5 04:49:12 2018 No.10241051 >>10240823 for me its after 2-3 day bender like >>10240926 said

Anonymous Mon Mar 5 04:57:28 2018 No.10241081

>>10240979
>>10240983
idk what everyone else means by "the fear" but I use it to refer to the mental state I find myself in that I use alcohol to escape from. Things like how my life turned out, tfwngf, poor health, shitty job, poor outlook on life, dying friends, things like that that I can forget about for a while if I get loaded. Sure I still think about those things while on a bender but good old liquor makes it go away. When you sober up you have to deal with that sort of thing and when that happens it's nice to be in rehab or in therapy so you have people to talk to... or heavily medicated like I am now

>>	Anonymous Mon Mar 5 05:23:58 2018 No.10241134 Can't do it. After 17 days nodrunk and nosleep I just snapped and bought a bottle. I'm in too much pain from insomnia.

>>	Anonymous Mon Mar 5 05:25:52 2018 No.10241137 >>10241134 thats fucked up. i get back to normal sleep after four days

>>	Anonymous Mon Mar 5 05:36:14 2018 No.10241150 Last saturday drank so much i collapsed in the toilet shaking and later on woke up in bed with puke everywhere. Hold me guys

>>	Anonymous Mon Mar 5 05:50:41 2018 No.10241178 >>10241150 *hugs

Anonymous Mon Mar 5 06:06:49 2018 No.10241208

>>10240605
It is different for everyone

Typical early warning signs include
>be sober for a stretch of time
>have 2 cheeky pints
>wake up with much unnecessary psychological distress

Like what you described having.
But that is pretty much reversible with time.

In the latest stages of the phenomenon you end up damaging your brain irreparably.
There is no set amount of wds you have to get to reach that point as it all dependent on how well you took care of yourself during the benders and how clean the wds were.

It's not a set science man, it's gradual and slow and most of it can be reversed except in the late stages.

>>	Anonymous Mon Mar 5 06:43:14 2018 No.10241307 >>10241134 Well, this isn't working. Been drinking for an hour and feel awful. This is new. I wonder which organ is broken now.

>>	Anonymous Mon Mar 5 06:57:45 2018 No.10241342 >>10241134 Good thing is, if u don't drink you'll feel more refreshed with just 4 hours of sleep compared to 8-10 hours of sleep while drunk.

>>	Anonymous Mon Mar 5 07:00:43 2018 No.10241344 >>10240152 I work as a professional writer and I'm always buzzed when writing and meeting with clients.

>>	Anonymous Mon Mar 5 07:04:20 2018 No.10241350 >>10241342 I'm more exhausted after 17 days of this shit than I was when drinking. I'm getting 2 migraines a day because of the exhaustion, pissing orange from all the tramadol and sumatriptan. Can't stand any more of it

>>	Anonymous Mon Mar 5 07:45:21 2018 No.10241410 >>10241350 Maybe just try drink 3-4 times a week? Dunno, first week was fucked up for me but lately i fall asleep around 03:00. Feeling slightly better.

>>	Anonymous Mon Mar 5 07:55:05 2018 No.10241434 >>10241410 A few shots for just one day and I'm back into withdrawal the next. Just polished off 26 units. Tomorrow I'll wake and drink. Guess it's all or nothing for me.

Anonymous Mon Mar 5 08:10:15 2018 No.10241467

>>10240823
The key is staying drunk. If you let yourself get sober and mostly recover from any hangover you might have before getting drunk again you will probably never get chemically addicted, meaning no withdraw, so no fear. If you want to avoid it follow the simple rule: never drink to recover from drinking.

>>	Anonymous Mon Mar 5 08:35:35 2018 No.10241525 >>10241467 This is the answer. You don't want to experience the fear, but staying consistently very drunk from friday night to sunday night used to be enough for me to get a case of the fear on monday.

Anonymous Mon Mar 5 08:40:50 2018 No.10241541

>>10241525
Yeah, as nuts as it may seem, not stopping is often healthier. I once went into hospital after being in police custody for 22 hours and becoming seriously ill in a cell, and was told by a doctor upon releasing me and hearing how much i drink, to "just keep drinking".

>>	Anonymous Mon Mar 5 08:54:05 2018 No.10241574 >>10241541 I definitely buy that. I've stopped cold turkey a few times and it always felt dangerous desu

>>	Anonymous Mon Mar 5 08:59:54 2018 No.10241593 >>10241541 My doctor always tells me that. It's really turned into just one more enabling excuse.

>>	Anonymous Mon Mar 5 09:01:42 2018 No.10241595 >>10241593 it genuinely is a bad idea to stop/start all the time.

>>	Anonymous Mon Mar 5 09:28:46 2018 No.10241677 >>10241595 Lest you run the risk of kindling like they were talking about earlier in the thread. Either >Drink hard >Drink respectably and moderately >Be sober Don't fluctuate between all those lines , it really fucks you up.

>>	Anonymous Mon Mar 5 09:42:45 2018 No.10241715 >>10239901 It's as easy as using a filter to hide the thread or just not going in to the thread.

>>	Anonymous Mon Mar 5 11:04:41 2018 No.10242000 >walk around city waiting for the job office to open >fail job interview >want a snack before i go home >upon entering the supermarket, instinctively walk towards the beer section do i have a problem lads

>>	Anonymous Mon Mar 5 12:09:37 2018 No.10242282 >>10242000 yes

Anonymous Mon Mar 5 12:26:58 2018 No.10242337
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i drink a bottle of johnny walkers a week alone. my roommates think im a lost cause alcoholic, but i can honestly stop i think. i also dont think i have any symptoms of an alcoholic. how do i get rid of this image that ive created

>>	Anonymous Mon Mar 5 12:42:18 2018 No.10242382 >>10242337 Win lottery, buy the house, kick them on the street.

Anonymous Mon Mar 5 12:56:41 2018 No.10242421

>doing work to fathers house
>leave water bottle full of 70/30 vodka water on the deck while I'm working on the roof
>father picks it up and takes a huge swig
>outed as an alcoholic finally after 7 years of hiding it
>get concerned text messages from half my family he apparently told

God fucking damn it, Why can't people just mind their own business?

I don't bother anyone

Anonymous Mon Mar 5 13:02:26 2018 No.10242441

>>10242421
This. I aint botherin nobody. My family found out i was an alcoholic after 5 years and all they do now is give me shit. I just want to work and go home and not feel like I'm doibg nothing. Drinking reminds me why I even work, if I was sober I probably would end up homeless cause being a wagecuck is ridiculous

>>	Anonymous Mon Mar 5 13:05:02 2018 No.10242462 >>10242337 Stop engaging in behavior associated with alcoholism? 0w0 astounding?!?

Anonymous Mon Mar 5 13:09:28 2018 No.10242476

>>10242441
This man.....This...

I only work so I can afford to drink, I would have crippling depression and anxiety if I didn't drink...Then probably lose my job because I just sit around depressed, bored, and sad.

I go to work, support myself, don't drink or drive or break any other laws besides (occasionally public intoxication) but even then I don't cause scenes or bother people. I just walk around town drunk

I hate when people try to influence YOUR life over their own selfish moral standards.

Anonymous Mon Mar 5 13:21:21 2018 No.10242521

finally managed to get myself off booze about a year ago and ever since then I've been having these symptoms: head pressure, tight jaw, dizzy, extremely weak, brain fog. it fluctuates but the symptoms are always there to some degree. been to doctor loads of times and they can't find anything wrong with me. it doesn't feel completely unlike what wds felt like, but it's been about a year since my last drink. have I done permanent damage or something?

>>	Anonymous Mon Mar 5 13:30:32 2018 No.10242567 ran out of money and beer today. luckily i had only been drinking since thursday night, and wasnt really pounding them down. so far no bad withdrawals. crossing my fingers.

Anonymous Mon Mar 5 13:49:03 2018 No.10242664

I drunkenly boned a Craigslist slut this weekend.

She seemed like an alright single mom, but her 'this is my first time doing this' doesn't hold much water given everything was pierced.

She gave me a condom, now I'm praying she didn't poke it and give me aids or is filing some fucked up police charges or blackmail me. My peepee tingles too, but I think that's my mind.

Totally not worth the 3 minutes of fun. Talk me off the ledge, boys

>>	Anonymous Mon Mar 5 13:56:23 2018 No.10242701 Should people with autism/Aspergers drink?

>>	Anonymous Mon Mar 5 15:35:17 2018 No.10243224 What's it like living with a DUI conviction?

>>	Anonymous Mon Mar 5 16:08:45 2018 No.10243380 >>10242337 >a bottle a weak do you live with Mormons?

>>	Anonymous Mon Mar 5 16:11:13 2018 No.10243401 >>10242701 in public? no

>>	Anonymous Mon Mar 5 16:26:18 2018 No.10243499 >>10242664 >drunk >wearing a condom >lasted 3 minutes Wut? Last time I had sex it was pretty much on and off all night, and when I ran out of condoms she said "fuck it", yet I still wasn't able to cum.

Anonymous Mon Mar 5 16:31:43 2018 No.10243537

>>10243224
Not easy, I've never had one, but have known many who have. I once got pulled over totally shitfaced and didn't even have the sense to turn the car radio down when I rolled down the window to talk with the police. They asked if there was anyone sober enough to drive in the car. Thank fucking God this girl I was with only had one drink. We switched spots and they made her blow into a breathalyzer, but not me. I also had a passed out black guy in the back seat that we were supposed to give a ride home to.

I really dodged a bullet there, must've had some nice police officers. I've had friends get DUIs and it's super expensive and can fuck up your career.

>>	Anonymous Mon Mar 5 16:35:26 2018 No.10243564 >>10240338 Thompson Twins? Good choice.

>>	Anonymous Mon Mar 5 16:42:59 2018 No.10243613 >>10243224 My ex gf went to jail for 6 months. Although she also had 3 duis (WI has lenient laws)

>>	Anonymous Mon Mar 5 16:44:03 2018 No.10243621 >>10243499 Idk. It'd been a few months and it went from door to floor in about 3 minutes, then stared at the cat (actual cat) for 3 minutes. Then grabbed my shit and ran out. I'll totally laugh as long as I don't have aids or an arrest warrant.

>>	Anonymous Mon Mar 5 16:44:40 2018 No.10243624 >>10243499 Not him, but i guess it depends on the pussy, how tired you are, etc. I can go anywhere from 3 minutes to said situation you posted based on how i feel.

Anonymous Mon Mar 5 16:45:42 2018 No.10243634
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>fuck girl the other night that I've known forever
>cum in her
Girl: "Are you happy?"
>look at wall
>look at empty bottle of whiskey
"No"
>put pants and walk to store for more.

Dude I dunno what the fuck I'm supposed to give a shit about anymore.

>>	Anonymous Mon Mar 5 16:50:04 2018 No.10243663 >>10243634 That meme hits home I used to keep a loaded glock 21 next to my bed, Years ago I just gave it to my mom. I don't even care if someone comes into my house and kills me, It would be a relief.

>>	Anonymous Mon Mar 5 16:53:49 2018 No.10243686 >>10242664 3 minutes? I'm literally a 28 year old male virgin and can't believe this kind of shit actually happens. I'm literally incapable of thinking that's possible.

>>	Anonymous Mon Mar 5 16:54:35 2018 No.10243690 >>10243686 Literally tho?

>>	Anonymous Mon Mar 5 16:55:12 2018 No.10243693 >>10243380 I'm just taking a ballpark number here but isn't that around 2.5 beers a night? That isn't an alcoholic by any means.

>>	Anonymous Mon Mar 5 16:58:30 2018 No.10243711 >>10243690 Yeah, I'm a 28 virgin alco.

Anonymous Mon Mar 5 17:00:22 2018 No.10243720

What is one grill/guy who you miss al/ck/?

Years ago I was dating this woman named Rebecca, Literal 9/10 with daddy issues. She had the perfect personalty and was a real ride or die, If I told her to go rob a bank she would have asked which one. Her dad was an alcoholic as well so she put up with my drinking

Eventually I stupidly cheated on her after 4 years and got caught, She stayed with me after a big argument. A few months later I did it again and got caught

She left me and eventually started dating another guy, Became a RN, and got married.

Googled her about 3 months ago and the feels hit me like a ton of bricks, She's still so fucking sexy. That was literally the only woman I've ever truly been in love with

Miss her so much....Would give anything to rewind time and never cheat on her.

Anonymous Mon Mar 5 17:01:57 2018 No.10243731

>>10243634

Holy shit these feels.

> Girlfriend in bed texting or facebooking whatever bullshit.
> bang her while she lays there, she enjoys it but as usual does no work and it’s just me fucking this limp warm body.
> finish and go walk to the store for cigs
> as I approach the door to my apartment I hear her fire up some stupid fucking this is us show or some gay shit on tv
> light up a cig and just aimlessly walk around downtown looking for who knows what.

Life is purgatory

>>	Anonymous Mon Mar 5 17:01:59 2018 No.10243733 >>10243720 Yeah but her dad panhandles and her mom is not right in the head anymore.

>>	Anonymous Mon Mar 5 17:02:35 2018 No.10243739 >>10243733 What's her name man? What ever happened to her?

>>	Anonymous Mon Mar 5 17:03:06 2018 No.10243745 >>10243739 No-one that is all made up

>>	Anonymous Mon Mar 5 17:04:21 2018 No.10243755 >>10243720 Pics

>>	Anonymous Mon Mar 5 17:04:24 2018 No.10243756 >>10243720 I miss my wife dearly

>>	Anonymous Mon Mar 5 17:04:45 2018 No.10243758 >>10243720 >cheated once >cheated twice Normies are the worst and that's why I don't give them the time of day.

>>	Anonymous Mon Mar 5 17:06:11 2018 No.10243765 >>10243758 Some dude browsing al/ck/ >normie Fuck off

>>	Anonymous Mon Mar 5 17:07:33 2018 No.10243773 >>10243755 No way. I'll be backtraced and consequences will never be the same. I don't need some al/ck/ backtracing me through reverse google image search then ruining my ex's life/ and or my life

>>	Anonymous Mon Mar 5 17:07:55 2018 No.10243776 >>10243773 good idea man

Anonymous Mon Mar 5 17:10:30 2018 No.10243789

>>10243731
What would you say to me since I'm a 28 virgin. I'm not being confrontational at all, like just what do you think about that.
After all this time I'm really distancing myself from thoughts about even wanting a girlfriend. I feel like I want sex at times but what does it really come down to besides just an instinct. I get along alright being alone, but it sucks that I've lost a lot of my sense of romance from when I was younger I think.

Anonymous Mon Mar 5 17:20:39 2018 No.10243846

>>10243789

I would say you’re in the same camp as me. I’ve been with the previously mentioned gf for 4 years and it’s boring as fuck. When I look at my friends (I’m 29) they’re all losing the spark in their relationships and life in general, we all just take on this gray malaise. It gets more depressing looking at married men that have been beat into a corner their whole lives as I work with a few and ask them questions just like you asked me.

You can look for answers through mgtow, incel, red pill, or whatever circles but no one really has it all figured out. I see it as romance is nothing but youth and hormones, the rush of dating and fucking goes away and just becomes work and suffering. Your life experience and hormones dropping tell you that you’ve seen it all before, and this bitch next to you still refuses to wash dishes in a decent time even though you pay all the bills, and she wasn’t like that when you met.

Hope that helps

>>	Anonymous Mon Mar 5 17:21:36 2018 No.10243852 >>10243758 >cheating is somehow a normie thing I'd call it more of an autistic thing, at least in my own experience.

>>	Anonymous Mon Mar 5 17:21:55 2018 No.10243853 >week without booze >thinking about buying 3 bottles of wine for a cheap bender Advice?

>>	Anonymous Mon Mar 5 17:28:37 2018 No.10243879 >>10243853 Do you really want to deal with a wine hangover?

>>	Anonymous Mon Mar 5 17:29:38 2018 No.10243883 >>10243853 So that's 9 glasses? Don't go to cray cray, You still have to take care of your two kids while you keep your "job" as a stay at home mom who only sells pampered chef

>>	Anonymous Mon Mar 5 17:36:52 2018 No.10243910 >>10243846 Yeah, I never wanted someone to figure it out for me or give me some kind of easy answer, I don't think that's possible for anyone. I just am interested in trying to see people's points of view. Thanks for talking to me.

>>	Anonymous Mon Mar 5 17:42:49 2018 No.10243932 >>10243852 I don't know, I just see cheating is as normie as it possibly gets. Like talk about being animalistic and having no restraint, basically just going on autopilot regardless of your circumstances. That's normie to me.

Anonymous Mon Mar 5 17:50:29 2018 No.10243964

>>10243846

This just made me realize something. The Internet is literally going into adulthood. By that I mean there's a certain age range that has been on the Internet since childhood but is reaching the age now (30's) where we've seen enough to know that a lot of the ideals from youth don't last and aren't going to actually be a part of our lives. Yes there's older people on the Internet but we all know that words don't teach these things, you just get there with age. And there are younger people on the internet, but they haven't lived long enough to begin understanding fully. Angst isn't the same as what I'm talking about. The Internet is becoming jaded with life. It's what happens when you get older, and the biggest chunk of Internet users is reaching that currently. I dunno just a dumb thought. You'll see I'm right in five years when you fire up 4chin and every post is somehow more depressing than they've ever been! I love being right!

>>	Anonymous Mon Mar 5 17:50:32 2018 No.10243965 been getting drunk all day and now I have to sober up before family dinner, what do?

Anonymous Mon Mar 5 17:53:52 2018 No.10243976
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>>10243964

I agree with you. It's pattern recognition that used to be delayed until you were old but now you get it as a teenager. Most old people realize life is bullshit when it's too late, but young people are learning faster and faster as early 4chan culture is seeping into the mainstream.

Anonymous Mon Mar 5 17:54:03 2018 No.10243979

>>10243964
Yeah, you're pointing out something that makes sense. The only thing is I don't know how it will affect younger kids that see these kinds of places in the internet with older and more disaffected people talking about shit like this.
I honestly don't care about any younger generations, but it sucks that all I can see for them is a bad future nonetheless.

Anonymous Mon Mar 5 17:56:12 2018 No.10243986

>>10243932

>being animalistic and having no restraint, basically just going on autopilot regardless of your circumstances

Are you aware of which thread you're currently in? When you're a little drunk and socially awkward and the girl who rents the spare room in you and your gf's apartment gives you a hug and then starts kissing you when you hug her back, it's pretty hard not to go along with it. That's happened with three different girls for me, and I'm the furthest possible thing from normie. I'm in my 30's and have literally never once initiated anything with a girl; like not only sexual stuff, but I've never even asked a girl out before.

Anonymous Mon Mar 5 18:01:15 2018 No.10243994

The 'fear' youguys describe sounds similar to when I had a psychotic episode from smoking 4-6 grams of weed a day, plus casually drinking every day.

I was abroad and spent nearly 4 weeks doing this everyday at a bar/coffeeshop type thing, saw someone change into a famous person from a distance but didnt think anything of it in my state. The next evening I decided to get plastered instead of smoking weed and thats when it all went downhill.

I was convinced that people I were talking to were spooks, and the following day, ddint get much sleep, didnt eat properly, went back to the bar and had a beer, and some joints, and wasn't really functioning properly. People were telling me I was ruining my health and shit because I must have looked like ass. I bought some CBD to clear my head, but after a while on the CBD I started to panic, left the bar and got lost, got some food, got panicked and thought people were after me and rang some people i'd befriended and properly scared them with the crazy paranoid jabber.

After what seemed like an hour of running around in sheer panic I ended up going through a glass window, getting arrested, taken to hostpital bleeding like fuck with serious injuries, then spending the night in a cell, couldnt sleep, didnt know what the fuck was going on it was horrible.

The next day I was walking around aimlessly for a while, still convinced about the spook thing, I saw people's faces change into that of famous people and then change back. A friend came and got me and I stayed at his place and went cold turkey off the weed (first time in years) and booze.

Was going hot and cold, sweating, thinking all sorts of crazy shit. Went back home, and saw a MH team and a psychatrist, had racing thoughts, talking about what I thought id experienced etc and was medicated with anti-psychotics. Took a week or two for em to work, I was pretty elated for some reason during this time, then they kicked in and had a comedown when reality kicked in.

>>	Anonymous Mon Mar 5 18:03:31 2018 No.10244004 I never feel interesting unless I'm drunk or high

Anonymous Mon Mar 5 18:04:11 2018 No.10244007

>>10243964
>>10243979
keep in mind that every older generation in existence has believed the next generation is fucked. You're apart of a circle of life, and even if there is no meaning to it, at least appreciate that you're alive and can experience things

>>	Anonymous Mon Mar 5 18:07:53 2018 No.10244015 >>10243883 >>10244007 >apart No i think we're in the circle of life. How are we not life?

Anonymous Mon Mar 5 18:07:56 2018 No.10244016

>>10243986
I've never asked out a girl ever being 28. I had one girl who wanted to fuck me once, I was in bed with her two separate times and I didn't go all the way with her to full on sex because I just didn't feel right about it and my nerves were completely fucked. We never did anything together besides meet up for parties, I knew her well enough but I didn't know her seriously and never went on any dates with her. She would have let me fuck her, and believe me I was drunk all the time and I never ever get nervous when I'm drunk, but the nerves still bled through the alcohol when I had two chances to have sex with her. Also I won't lie at all, she was half black and that may have had something to do with it. I'm white and all I ever wanted was a white girl, didn't realize it was going to be this way during my life.

Anonymous Mon Mar 5 18:09:51 2018 No.10244021

>>10239916
how much does a 3 day "bender" consist of

I think last time i drank i said fuck it and bought a pint of liquor, another one in the evening, woke up, bought another

For me it's basically pint after pint, at least 2-4 a day until i run out of money or somebody in my immediately family begs me to stop. I've never had DT's or anything, but definitely get severe anxiety, insomnia, sweating, and shaky hands

Anyway, was sober for 5 days, now i'm sipping on a pint. if i drink this throughout the day this will be considered a "light" day

>>	Anonymous Mon Mar 5 18:12:07 2018 No.10244027 >>10244015 >in >apart of semantics

Anonymous Mon Mar 5 18:12:46 2018 No.10244031

>>10244007

Ubiquitous computers and smart phones with the internet in your back pocket is a sea change in human development. It's hard to say that right now because what you said is true, but kids these days absolutely interact with the world in a completely different way than we did growing up without the internet and cell phones.

>>	Anonymous Mon Mar 5 18:15:14 2018 No.10244046 >>10243883 ???????

>>	Anonymous Mon Mar 5 18:17:06 2018 No.10244058 >>10244007 Yeah, I mean it's not lost on me that I'm basically repeating an attitudinal pattern of the elders, but seriously no generation had the internet until now, and we were the beginning of that, seeing the dawn of it all.

>>	Anonymous Mon Mar 5 18:18:21 2018 No.10244068 >>10244046 My assumption was that he drinks wine out of a pint glass.

>>	Anonymous Mon Mar 5 18:20:18 2018 No.10244075 >>10244068 actually a wine glass, makes me feel a bit more smug and less like the daydrinking piece of shit I am

>>	Anonymous Mon Mar 5 18:22:18 2018 No.10244084 >>10244075 >if he uses a glass it's not just any kind of fucking glass and he still chooses a wine glass >furthermore he doesn't drink out of the bottle Whew...

Anonymous Mon Mar 5 18:34:59 2018 No.10244138

>>10243720
Yours sounds so similar to mine.
I know I'm never going to find a girl as colorful and full of thoughts and life as the one that got away.

She hurt me so fucking bad though. The amount of complex and often contradictory emotions I feel when I think about her fills me with a cocktail of pain and melancholy.

They say that it's better to have loved and lost than to have never loved at all. I'm sure some people think that. But not me. I'd rather have never found happiness because then I wouldn't be so focused in its absence.

>>	Anonymous Mon Mar 5 18:52:28 2018 No.10244266 >>10243965 Cold shower and monster.

>>	Anonymous Mon Mar 5 19:02:45 2018 No.10244340 >>10243686 i think you watch too much porn

>>	Anonymous Mon Mar 5 19:06:48 2018 No.10244361 >>10244138 I disagree. Knowing i've loved her, and got love back is something that helped me love myself. Though it hurts from time to time, i guess it's not worse or better than having never met someone to love.

Anonymous Mon Mar 5 19:21:55 2018 No.10244433

>>10244340

How much porn is too much for a 28 year old virgin? I mean, I've had pretty steady girlfriends since I was 17 (33 now), but I've still watched plenty of porn, and honestly have no clue what the fuck I would imagine sex was like if that's all I had to go on.

Anonymous Mon Mar 5 20:06:36 2018 No.10244643

>>10240566
nowadays, if i sit or lay down in certain ways my limbs go tingly within a matter of minutes. especially happens when i rest on my elbow. i'm not sure if it's alcohol-related, but i wouldn't be surprised at all. also, i'm pretty sure alcoholism lowered my seizure threshold and caused me to have seizures on/coming off of relatively moderate doses of drugs.

>>10244266
energy drinks just make the shakes kick in for me

>>	Anonymous Mon Mar 5 20:22:33 2018 No.10244690 >>10244361 Maybe you're right, anon. I guess I just never really learned to love myself. You'll be alright, anon. I promise.

>>	Anonymous Mon Mar 5 20:42:25 2018 No.10244755 >>10244643 It's alcohol related. I get the same thing.

Anonymous Mon Mar 5 20:54:44 2018 No.10244810

>>10243720
her name is ginny, but i won't bore you with the details.

i really struggle in relationships. i find that i am always the less giving/reciprocal of emotion. alcohol has a lot to do with it, to be honest. evidence would indicate that i value getting fucked up more than anything else. i can't even treat myself right, how could i manage to treat somebody else?

Anonymous Mon Mar 5 21:18:27 2018 No.10244901
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I'm a beer pleb only 21 been doing so for three years now I'm upwards to 10 5% a night. Which I know isn't shit compared to some of you, i have this dull throbbing pain on my back. Probably 4-5 inches above my ass crack and a bit to the left. It doesn't hurt at all just kind of annoying it's been there for days. Anyone else ever have this?

>>	Anonymous Mon Mar 5 21:27:32 2018 No.10244950 >>10244901 Probably a nerve or disc. Make a fist and press on the spot as much as you can bear the pain. Sleep on it and see if it's better tomorrow. If that works a bit try doing it with a screwdriver handle. Also stop drinking that much.

>>	Anonymous Mon Mar 5 22:24:42 2018 No.10245227 >>10242382 yeah seriously. sometimes i think people here don't realise that many of their problems would go away if they'd just stop being poor. i keep telling people but will anyone listen? for the last time everyone, BE RICH.

>>	Anonymous Mon Mar 5 22:28:04 2018 No.10245242 >>10244901 drink 2 gallons of water a day. Sciatic nerve pain is a misery. It can travel all the way down to your feet and through your kneecaps. Swelling fucks you.

>>	Anonymous Mon Mar 5 22:39:50 2018 No.10245303 >>10243224 worse than you imagine it to be.

Anonymous Mon Mar 5 22:47:24 2018 No.10245342

I beat the shit out of some guy last night.

First fight I've been in since college (I'm 32).

I was in Baltimore with my younger sister and some dude walked up and started asking for her number and then grabbed her tit and I flipped..I fucking lost it.... I literally blacked out for a minute despite only having "maintenance" amount of alcohol in me and being no were close to being drunk... I punched the guy and when he dropped to the ground I kept punching him until I came out of the blackout of anger. Not sure how many times I hit him but his face was covered in blood and my hand is cut to shit.

I beat that guy worst then any fight of my entire life. Was paranoid as fuck all night an dday today that the police somehow got her tag number or someone reported it (I know he didn't, he was a thug) as we drove off.

I never knew anger blackouts were real until last night, I thought that was just a made up thing.

I'm almost 99% sure I broke at least one bone in my hand, It's swollen and sore as fuck

>>	Anonymous Mon Mar 5 22:48:25 2018 No.10245351 >>10242462 a bottle a week is not alcoholic behavior.

>>	Anonymous Mon Mar 5 22:51:14 2018 No.10245369 >>10245342 Not a great story, but assholes need to be dealt with. He likely won't do that again. If he can speak or breath enough to attempt it. The older I get, the less I feel sorry for assholes.

>>	Anonymous Mon Mar 5 22:53:24 2018 No.10245380 >>10244340 As the 28 year old virgin you replied to, yes I do. I watch too much and have for some time. Don't know why the fuck this bozo chimed in>>10244433

Anonymous Mon Mar 5 22:54:27 2018 No.10245387

>>10245369
I'm not a angry or violent person but something in me just snapped, I honestly can't remember the last time I was that angry. I think it was the fact he touched my little sister that put me over the edge and made me snap like that

I felt bad for a little while then told my older brother what happened and he convinced me to feel otherwise.

I still kinda feel bad for reacting so violently, But at the same time I kind of feel it was justified. It's a mixed bowl.....

>>	Anonymous Mon Mar 5 22:54:57 2018 No.10245393 >>10245387 post sister bob

>>	Anonymous Mon Mar 5 22:57:15 2018 No.10245411 >>10245342 Fuck thugs regardless of what race they are. All gutter niggers in the end no matter where they come from. They don't deserve any help from anyone or the government, they should just die off.

>>	Anonymous Mon Mar 5 22:57:30 2018 No.10245413 >>10245387 Sexual assault should upset people. You were just hosed, and possibly over-reacted. It happens.

>>	Anonymous Mon Mar 5 23:02:02 2018 No.10245442 >>10245413 How shitty is it in Canada. I went there once when I was like 9 years old or some shit and went to some real comfy places around as well as the falls but what's it like now.

Anonymous Mon Mar 5 23:13:20 2018 No.10245500

>>10245411
I agree man, Any race can be a nigger. But I bet you could guess which race that piece of shit I beat last night was.....

>>10245413
I'm glad it doesn't happen often, It takes a lot to make me mad. But I just flipped last night....Idk what it was...The sexual assault part or the fact it was my sister, Idk.

But I agree that I overrated, I could've hit the dude once and GTFO of there but like I said...I just blacked out for a moment and the next thing I know is idk how many times I hit this dude but my hand and his face was covered in blood.

Like I said...Anger blackouts are a real thing apparently..

>>	Anonymous Mon Mar 5 23:14:33 2018 No.10245506 >>10245500 >overrated I meant overreacted

>>	Anonymous Mon Mar 5 23:49:49 2018 No.10245680 http://braindead-roommate-from-hell.blogspot.ca/search?updated-max=2006-09-29T19:43:00-04:00&max-results=20&start=20&by-date=false wew lads least you'll never be bob

>>	Anonymous Mon Mar 5 23:51:53 2018 No.10245693 I slept outside but now I'm drunk again. Do you ever feel like you're a broken person?

>>	Anonymous Tue Mar 6 00:15:40 2018 No.10245811 >>10245693 More often than I would like to

>>	Anonymous Tue Mar 6 00:19:02 2018 No.10245828 >>10245693 Yes. The hope of recovering from it lessens.

>>	Anonymous Tue Mar 6 00:42:17 2018 No.10245936 i'd rather be a heroin addict at least they can kill themselves relatively quickly

>>	Anonymous Tue Mar 6 01:30:26 2018 No.10246067 File: 227 KB, 856x2456, carotid-compression.png [View same] [iqdb] [saucenao] [google] >>10245936 >implying you can't easily end yourself with a rope don't try it tho anon

>>	Anonymous Tue Mar 6 01:33:11 2018 No.10246073 >>10245380 I chimed in because watching porn literally doesn't make any difference, but you're a virgin and have no clue what you're talking about, dum dum.

>>	Anonymous Tue Mar 6 03:00:17 2018 No.10246327 >>10242701 Don't even touch it. I have autism and alcohol is a huge crutch to me. I can't even fathom life without alcohol. I want to stop but I can't

Anonymous Tue Mar 6 03:04:28 2018 No.10246343

I spent the weekend binge drinking and now am sick as fuck. I'm not experiencing anxiety this time but my stomach is upset, I am hungry but haven't eaten in two days because I know I will just puke it back up. I also have one beer left in the fridge but I definitely cant drink that.

>>	Anonymous Tue Mar 6 03:10:56 2018 No.10246362 >>10245442 It's poverty now

>>	Anonymous Tue Mar 6 03:16:39 2018 No.10246388 >>10245442 Canada is a big country and there are huge differences between the regions and cities.

Anonymous Tue Mar 6 03:19:53 2018 No.10246401

>drank my 375 ml vodka bottle in my room
>went to a bar
>drank a few drinks of liquor
>some super mega drunk guy there gave me some of his beer
>I hate beer but that was an offer you could not refuse
>decided to ''end with a bang'' and took 4 shots of tequila
>now back to my apartment
>still am feeling like I want some more

This can never end. Must drink water, take a shower and hope I don't soak my blankets with fucking sweat.

Anonymous Tue Mar 6 03:56:21 2018 No.10246486
File: 106 KB, 266x258, 1514736123934.png [View same] [iqdb] [saucenao] [google]

I need to quit tomorrow and just eat the insane dreams and few days of weirdness that ensue. I'm not physically addicted but it's still no fun quitting with nothing to replace it.
>mfw

>>10245342
Nothing wrong with beating some fucker who grabbed your imoutos tiddies as long as you didn't pulp his skull.

>>	Anonymous Tue Mar 6 05:49:47 2018 No.10246702 >>10245342 Hope you got away woth it anon, a blackout is never fun, but you did the right thing.

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