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>>3812026
Fair enough Anon.

Actually, to make my situation sound even more pathetic, I don't have a job and I am on disability due to illness, so besides dialysis 3 times a week, I literally have all the time in the world to get good.

Jacking it doesn't make me happy, it actually makes me extremely depressed afterwards and like a total degenerate which I absolutely loath. Its just easy to do and requires no skill or mindpower. I try to stay on nofap but usually relapse 2 weeks in. I'm rapidly losing interest in gaming as I'm getting old and I'm not good enough to make money from it (well, maybe, but there's no real scene where I live for that and I don't have a car). I've also been slowly breaking the habit of eating out of boredom/for pleasure.

I think my main issue is I didn't advance my education when it was supremely crucial (high school years/early 20s). Instead I pissed that time away hanging out with retards doing retard shit and frying my brain with excessive pot smoking while having no goals whatsoever.

I just sort of feel like my brain is past its prime and cant properly absorb and withhold new information. But I want it to.