/ic/ - Artwork/Critique

My art friends don't seem to respect me. I want to leave the group of art friends I have. I put a lot of energy and love into being kind to them but they are still mean to me in return. I respect them as people and friends that I care about but they will hurt me whenever I am vulnerable. I don't know what I did wrong but I am sick of being treated like shit. I think I will no longer hang around other artists anymore. It just hurts me time and time again. Fuck everyone.

I've ignored my s/o for 3 weeks at a time now. We have been dating for 3 years but he moved away during covid. I basically ignore him and go completely dark on him for weeks at a time and he sends me messages every few days and I never respond. I'm a fucking awful person. I'm so fucking terrible. I don't talk to anyone anymore I just shut myself in and draw and draw and draw for the whole day from the moment I wake up to when I sleep since covid started.
What the fuck is wrong with me.