/ic/ - Artwork/Critique

/ic/ has been overtaken by lolis

>>5092507
and thats a good thing

>>5092507
Based lolis

Could have applied to Goldsmiths but chose to go for a comfier, easier art school instead, regretting my choice now

One time I get a thousand likes on twitter and another time I get only 10
and I can't figure out what made the other one successful

I'm afraid of success and I keep sabotaging myself

>>5092554
Convince yourself you're failing when sabotage yourself and succeed

>>5092507
And that's why /ic/ will get great again. Cute and funny girls make crabs seethe and when there will be enough loli posting, they will go away to cry on Twitter.
We'll reach a point where there will be too much of that content and the good persons on /ic/ will start to draw more to forget about it. A new /l/ with some drawing resources isn't that bad at all.

These special techniques of drawing figures and heads like using wishy/washy gesture lines or "armatures" or some pseudo science way of hatching lines in, etc, all these methods have just hampered my progress when loomis all along was the way.

>>5092707
pywogtfo

>>5092738

kma & smd

>>5092740
wtfdyjfsamylbiwhykigtomcitnsaihbiinsroaqaihothckiatigwaiattsiteusafyantmbjatiwwytfowptlowhnbsbotemmfwytycgawststmotitafawsiacmsnosatusoaayipibtrnsybpftsmtstwotpltycylyfdkicbaaaickyioshwatjwmbhnoaietiucbihatteaotusmcaiwuitifetwymaotfotcylsioychkwurylccwatbduymywhhyftbycnydnanyaptpygiiwsfaoyaywdii.
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>>5092756
Hmph, is that all you got?

>>5092541
Timing and luck. When both are aligned properly, the twitter algorithm will favor your

Artfol is going to fail and I'm tired of it being shilled in Instagram posts and threads. A social media place for (mostly) western artists? They don't even support each other now unless you're an alphabet person
Also Genshin Impact is a pretty game but players are such assholes and incredible defensive for a free game. Not sure if it's because it's a Chinese game or because the GI playerbase is fucked in the head

>>5092835

Hopefully Genshin dies off next year.

Yesterday I finished watching Oregairu and I'm not much of an anime guy but this one really did something to me.
3 years ago I met this woman who made me feel stuff I couldn't even imagine before, ever since she's gone I spend all my time alone, whether it is at home or outside, drawing or studying, and I honestly can't see myself having a normal relation with anyone because it will never feel as genuine as what little I had with her.
I could really relate to the main character avoiding people, until he opened up about wanting authentic relations and that's when I knew I was in for a ride because contrarily to me this guy did not fuck up his opportunities and eventually did end up truly connecting with the girl he loved.
I was expecting more of a pessimistic ending but instead what I got was a vision of what i'll never have and I'm so miserable I couldn't fall asleep as I realised my misspent youth will be the death of my emotions. I'm empty

>>5092979
what is *actually* happening is that despite being a weirdo you still soaked up social expectations and you feel pain for not fitting in.
Reject that shit.
Want relationships? Do something about it, like, now. Forget whatever you think you believe that was implanted in your head by external voices, be free like a child or an animal.

>>5092979
I could not remember a damn thing in season 3 and I wasn't prepared to rewatch 2 seasons of tween drama. Something about some girl and her mommy but I couldn't remember what the big deal was and just dropped it.

I just want to fix the world :(

Does anyone know about a possibly coming cracked apk for Clip Studio? I am ok to pay for a software but subscription based services like that can go to hell.

>>5092541
More often than not, it was the one reblog from a popular account that put you over. Can't really game it, just make work and post often.

And really even with big account that routinely get 1k/5k/10k likes usually have a followership in the 50k+. No one gets full engagement on every tweet so it's not a big deal.

>>5092505
Illustrator users be like "let me adjust 500 variables and use 50 shape layers to make this logo of a cartoon hotdog" like nigga just fucking draw

>>5092835
>Not sure if it's because it's a Chinese game or because the GI playerbase is fucked in the head
It's both
Genshin players have to do so much mental gymnastics to justify downloading a spyware copycat game with characters swapped in with lolis, and sunk cost fallacy compells them to defend their decision of going through so much effort to sate their gambling addiction

>>5092505
"'The Things That I Want' by Anon. A canvas. A brush. For the sun to shine. I want to sleep, to forget. To change the past. My youth back. Unlimited earl gray tea and a license to kill. Right then, more than anything, I wanted pussy

I wouldn't have half assed it if I knew they were going to review this thing.

>>5093258
what site?

My eyes hurt from crying too much

>>5093262
Patreon.

>>5093276
be grateful that you still can. i cant even cry no more.

>>5092981
what? thats like telling people to like mayonnaise when.......... they really hate mayonnaise.

>>5093343
No, it's like realizing that the disgusting mayonnaise was put in your mouth by others. spit it out

>>5092981
>oregairu
hah! what a faggot

>>5093407
but it was in his mouth for too long that spitting it out makes little difference. the taste of mayo is already burned in his tongue.

>>5093343
no, it's like eating miracle whip your entire life then insisting you hate mayonnaise and everyone that likes mayonnaise are bluepilled cucks

>>5093258
It really doesn't take that long. They just want to make sure you don't have anything illegal or offensive in there

>>5093453
Anon, don't troll.
You're putting more mayo in his mouth with your comment, right now.
Stop giving him bad beliefs.

>>5093497
im not trolling. THAT MAYO IS IN THERE. FOREVER

>>5093598
feeling broken beyond repair is a sign of bad mental health, your advice is not coming from a reliable place

This guy still thinks it’s all about this other guy when I’m literally telling him it’s me. He won’t get off this guys case and thinks it’s one of his friends. Fucking retard, take a hint. You’ve been saying lies about me for months, things that aren’t true. You might not think it affected me in any way but it did. Go fuck yourself, justice delivered.

>>5093343
>>5093407
>>5093465
I'm the oregairu poster, I don't know what this mayonnaise thing is refering to exactly.

>>5093066
Clip studio isn't sub based tho. You pay a flat rate then you own it forever. If you are getting it wait for a sale that happens regularly and you can get it for $20

>>5093710
feelings of inadequacy and hopelessness

>>5093742
I am trying to figure out how to say this.
My friends, my classmates, my family, all my relations are shallow. It doesn't matter the time spent together, the activities we do, everything feels like platitudes. When I met this woman 3 years ago we got to take out of ourselves many things we had never been able to put into words, about our lives in general, it was the first time I had ever felt a genuine connection with another person. Unfortunately, circumstances happened and we drifted apart quickly because I was an idiot. I could never forget this.
A few months after this encounter I met a girl whom I found attractive and we started dating, I broke up with her about 3 months later, the relation felt completely empty. I am avoiding most people because despite knowing each others we will always stay acquaintances/strangers. My emotions are fading away as I dissociate from reality, one way to escape this misery of an empty life.

>>5093866
love is a chemical reaction, your brain is programmed to produce it. your idea that it can never happen again is false

>>5093612
my sweet and sheltered summerian child the mind is not some malleable playdough that affords you to forget and be free like a child. the memories of that kind gay kid whose nose i broke, of that best friend i could not save from drowning or the child soldier whose body i tore in half with a spray of AK will forever scar my soul. I can not will myself to forget their faces only get the courage to look them in the eye and live with the ghosts. forgetting is not how you heal because newsflash: TRAUMATIC EVENTS ARE IMPOSSIBLE TO FORGET! you carry your own cross, you wear the scars, you live the guilt and the taste of mayo.

>>5093710
i was referring to how people have very little power or if we have any at all to make contrary choices

>>5092756
I can read this no problem. Have I mastered the English language?

>>5093866
damn bro your just like too smart for regular normal people bro i bet your brain is as smooth as a teenagers upper lip dude

insert post 900 about how i'm tired of art and don't see how to improve.
something's missing. i can't tell what. and i'm afraid that anyone criticizing the few things i like about my art will just make me think it's not worth it at all.

>>5094126
You are not who you are, but who you will be.

>>5092583
Ah yes, the noble battle between the toddlercons of /lsg/, the normalfags of /dad/ and actual fags of /salt/.

>>5093718
You may have read me a little bit too fast. Or I should have mention the OS directly, sorry about that. I was asking for an .apk. It is used on Android to install apps. It is basically like an .exe on Windows. I know it's a one time purchase on Windows, I already own it there but they released it on Android and you have to pay monthly. You can't use your PC license on portable devices.

>>5092505
>Fell for the Caffeinated Jew
>Last cup of coffee was 36 hours ago
>Been experiencing withdrawal symptoms for at least 18 hours
>Pounding headache that will not go away
>Chills, nausea, a pissy mood, fatigue, and sometimes dizzy
>Can't even fap because headache gets 10 times worse
The fucking head ache and irritable mood is the worse part, fuck me sideways this shit is unbearable.

>>5094176
>/salt/
>fags
I’ve never really seen anything more “alternative” than basic booba or fag shit, almost no bbws, ntr, gore, feet, diaperfaggotry, fujo, raceplay or basically anything more than generic elf/goth girl pinup, though there is that up and coming shortstack guy making waves in the community

>>5094240
I know that feel. Depending on how dependent you are on caffeine, it should go away in a day. My worst withdrawals lasted 3 days because I was drinking on average 3 Monster drinks per day for a whole month.

>>5094240
>bunch of made up shit that doesn't have anything to do with caffeine
Caffeine isn't classified as addictive for a reason. Just take a nap idiot.

CAN YOU DO A REQUESTS FOR ME
CAN YOU DO A REQUEST FOR ME
ffs people are vultures.

>>5094259
Then read more about it. Coffee does not cause addiction but still cause dependence. And what the other anon is describing matches with the withdrawal symptoms for caffeine.

>>5094269
Hey.
Do you take requests?

>>5094285
What the other anon is describing matches the symptoms of being a melodramatic faggot.

>>5094291
LISTEN HERE YOU LIL SHIT

I have no idea what to do. I wish I could just take things at my own pace and work on what I like, no matter how many years it takes, but I feel pressured by money. I just don't feel like I can take it easy and just hope for the best to happen.
I frankly loathe you extroverted little shits and your little ass licking twatter community. Do I need to sell my soul and roleplay well enough to please you coombrains for money?

I have no idea how one even gets their art seen on Twitter. Some artists just dumb some crap as their first tweet and get 500+ likes even though the shit is NOT even tagged. How does that even work?

>>5092505
I've been getting better at art, I am aware of that, I am aware that I am not as much of a /beg/ as I used to be, yet every time I try to learn something or improve my art I feel like I am not improving or learning at all.
Why is art like this? I am usually highly self aware, when I read a book about biology I know what I learned and what I didn't, but when I work on art I feel aimless even when my objective is clear.

Tired of being invisible. Tired of not improving. Just tired.

>>5094306
>crap as their first tweet and get 500+ likes
algorithms are a bitch. Just being lucky to have already good art plus the keywords you typed. Also could be a banned artist that came back and had a following elsewhere.
Sometimes too it's because they are drawing something that is popular and all it takes is that one retweet and then you have millions seeing your piece.

>>5092541
Asukafag? It's because someone big retweeted you. Don't think that 1k is a norm now if that only happened once or twice.

>>5094298

hmm i have a deadline in 3 days i think i will play noita for another 20 hours straight

>>5094313
Drawing is basically magic. It's not easy to be a Sorcerer.

>>5093098
I know literally nothing about this game other than there being a qt trap with puffy pants (the green/blue in his hair is a bit over the top though) and that my girlfriend likes the game because she loves the art/graphical style.

>>5094313
>>5094338

Recently had this discussion with a friend and he summed it up in such a profound way as that I instantly understood

>'Drawing is indeed like a Dark Souls. To get better you have to suffer, lose your soul and try to not go hollow while drawing'

>>5094083
no you just understand basic compression

Is it weird to draw mostly cartoon girls? I don't want people to get the wrong idea..

I always try to complete those New Master Academy pose videos on youtube but never make it past 5 minutes in. Doing it makes me too conscious of how I draw body parts and throws me off. I feel like I went back in skill and now I can't draw basic rib cages.

I really wish I didn't get so fucking conscious over this.

>>5094240
still easier than sugar withdrawl.

>>5094445
It's not just about people getting the wrong idea, you should seek help.

Four months...
Can I ever hope to draw like my heroes? I CRAVE IT.

The netflix ceo guy was poisoned but aside from that it got me thinking how China can easily invest in the West outside of mainland on animation to take on the rest of Asia. I can't be the only one thinking this as it makes too much sense. It bypasses the laws in mainland what can and can't be censored and opens up a new industry.

>>5094945
rest of Asia and our own domestic animation

nope nevermind that is a dumb idea

>>5092507
As it should be

>>5094531
Schizo anon pls

>>5094103
It was never about cleverness, it's about being open and not being a hypocrite, you wouldn't get it

>>5092505
I want to make an actual peice of artwork before the year is over, but i can't get out of the habit of just doodling a sketch then throwing some flats on and moving on to something else. That and studies of redrawing other artist work is all i feel like doing atm since i never have any ideas of my own. It's a really toxic habit i've developed over this year. But my mind is lacking on so much creativity

hey guys there is a bunch of tutorials about vlippu where do i start?
>whatever
>just draw
>not important
>baaklrmhjavlòxaagx

fuck just answer

>finally get CSP
>what are line weights?
>how do I paint my drawings?
>what the fuck am I doing?

Digital art is art. And on top of that, my design is fairly boring. I watched a speed paint of someone coloring digitally and it showed her make the shadows by putting an overlay over an image and it blew my mind. What the fuck? Where do you learn this?

>draw a cool sketch in CSP
>it's getting late
>King Harkinian mode activated "I wonder what's for dinner?"
>put laptop to sleep mode
>go to eat
>take my time
>come back to draw
>laptop is awake
>"Hm. Okay, it happens."
>sit down, check some video games news
>nothing interesting
>go back to draw
>something seems off
>"Wait."
>"Where is my sketch? And why is CSP closed?"
>"Oh."
It's been weeks now that Windows is trying to install TWO GODDAMN USELESS PIECE OF SHIT UPDATES. BUT IT FAILS EVERY TIME.
I
DON'T
GIVE
A
DAMN
CRAP
ABOUT
THE
NEW
EDGE
I JUST WANNA DRAW IN A STABLE ENVIRONMENT DO YOU UNDERSTAND THAT? I SHOULDN'T TAKE HOURS OF MY LIFE FIGHTING AGAINST MY OPERATING SYSTEM BECAUSE IT DOES NOT DO WHAT IT IS SUPPOSED TO DO: LET ME WORK AND CHOOSE WHAT IS GOOD FOR ME.

Goddammit. If only it was to enhanced my experience. But every time Microsoft pulls out something they find a way to break what worked well. They found it funny to make Windows detect when you "do not use the computer so it can install updates without breaking your workflow. Teehee!".
I am tired of W10 and its bloatware. Clip Studio is the only thing keeping me there. If there was a way to run it on Linux I would be happy but it does not run well at all.
Okay, I didn't save my file because it was something relatively quick and I had to go to eat but that is still not an excuse for MS.

Feels good to catch a dipshit red handed. My hunch was right and all I needed was to bait the moron.

>>5095138
ascending alphabetic order, always

>>5095199
read their documentation to know their program features, retard

>>5094325
but I also get 100-150 on others

>>5095349
algorithm, sometimes you roll 0, others 20. getting retweeted by some other twitterfag helps your chances to roll a high number. if you want consistency you need consistent uploads and marketing

>>5095199
You learn by doing. Look at some tutorials, and test a lot for yourself. I began my journey with Photoshop and it took me some time to get a grasp of all of that. To say the truth, there are so many possibilities you will never stop discovering new ways to get interesting results. But like for everything else, learn the basics. Layer style is the icing on the cake. If you already knows how to draw and colors traditionally it should be easier for you. Otherwise, you have to learn everything from the start digitally or not. Fundamentals strike back.

I’m supposed to be studying up on training to keep my job but I can’t stop drawing this stupid picture. Aaaaaaaaah

>>5095330
Check your files and see if there was a backup file made

>>5092505
i've got about 8 months to live, and i still haven't made it...

>>5095355
Thanks, based anon. That's what I needed to hear, but was too frustrated to tell myself. Going from traditional to digital has me feeling like I'm starting back at square one coloring wise and I malded instead of patiently learning.

>>5092507
It should be.

>>5095664
explain

So many things to balance in ordet to git gud between

> your subjects to study so you can do anything
>your studies and your creative pieces
> your practice on various mediums,each one having to be learn from zero sometimes
>Your artistic growth and your social life

It's a bit discouraging sometimes,I wish I could go to an art school in order to have a more framed progression.
I'm not very good when it comes to being my own boss.

>>5095341
elaborate anon.

>>5095915
that shit makes me excited to be alive. It's like climbing the tower of God

Another year down the drain, another year I haven't drawn a single piece I'm happy with.
I'm at least finishing more pieces, instead of just abandoning them, but still.

>>5095885
lung cancer :P

>>5096171
godspeed, son. You better have made it by the time I join you as well. I hear the art-supply stores up in heaven are really good.

>>5092505
WHEN DO WE GET TO DRAW CARTOONS???

>>5092505
>this account doesnt exist

>>5096328
Know this experience.

>>5095330
i have literally never had this happen to me
schedule your fucking updates

>>5096330
i dont think you do

>>5095600
I looked up but CSP did not have the time to do a backup. I'll draw it again.

>>5096479
My computer should do what I want it to do, not decide what is good for me whether I want it or not. Even if I had scheduled, the process was broken. The updates were apparently "already installed" but kept trying to install again. I fixed it now and disable Windows update.

More of a /gd/ vent than /ic/ but

>Do consistent graphic design work for this one client
>Local home decor boutique on the luxury end, endless budget
>Even after I stopped taking freelance work I still kept them as a client because they paid ridiculously well and were pleasant to work with
>Owner sells to new person
>New owner is nice but recently hasn't paid
>~$500 outstanding which isn't too much for me but still ya know, $500
>Still has the balls to ask for additional work and ask when it'll be done even after I've said I need to be paid for what I have already done before starting on anything new

The old owner was a bro and I never had to worry about getting paid. I'm guessing business has been hard because covid and a lot of this fancy home stuff is for guests...which you're not having right now. That's not my problem, though. I just haven't replied to the last email I was sent because I'm tired of repeating myself. It's $500 and I didn't spend that much time on it because it's just simple graphic design shit, so I'd honestly rather just let this fizzle out than fight it out if I'm not getting paid here.

>>5092505
IMAAAAASGGGGHHHHHHH I NEED TO DRAW BETTERRR AAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHH

I want to draw, and know the characters I want to draw, but I just can't visualize what I want to draw.

Any time I try brainstorming or writing ideas, I'm just hit with a crippling anxiety and end up never drawing anything at all.

>>5095865
Hope you have fun.

>>5096066
Do you have any online presence? If not, posting your stuff on Newgrounds might give you some motivation. It can worsen your mood if you expect quick results or are afraid of people reactions (or the lack of it) but it could also help. I don't know what is your current level but somehow this website has every kind of artist and if you ask for feedback, people aren't usually the worst to speak with in forums and in the comments section. Don't be too harsh on yourself because you messed up anatomy or perspective. It probably does not look perfect but you are still on a journey and failing to move on is a natural process.

This might not apply to yourself but you should maybe try to cherish an idea you want to convey more than your technical skills. If you want to make people laugh, find a way to make them laugh, if you want them to cry, make them cry, if you want them to feel *** make them feel ***, etc.
If someone criticize your work and say it's bad, it may be true. Should you feel bad about it? Probably not. Yes your art is not the greatest yet but you keep doing it and bit by bit you are progressing. You are a creator. Allow yourself to give and take some credit.

I have no close friends to get honest, engaged feedback from except for a few professionals who are too busy for me to want to bother them.

All I've ever wanted is someone to get a second opinion from without it being the shit memes people post here.

I don't really like drawing traditionally but I've been doing studies only with pen and have gained confidence in my art. I still struggle with a lot of things but regardless I'm pretty happy right now.

>>5096750
pyw

WHY CAN'T I UNDERSTAND LIGHTING AHHHH

I know I want to just practice with as much time as I want but I really need a part time job. Does anyone here have any reccomendations for a social autist. Assume entry-level career work

>>5095664
>>5096171
8 months swings by like nothing.
I'd stop focusing on art and try to enjoy your last moments on more important things.

What would you do if you had 8 months to live?

>>5097246
meh
the same thing i'm doing right now. playing video games, watching youtube videos and sitting in my apartment.

I'd probably be a lot more brazen and speak my mind about things though. I'd call every black person i'd see a nigger and would steal from the store not caring about the long term consequences.

>Previous twitter post barely got any reception, didn't think much about it
>Last twitter post gets no reception whatsoever
How can I find out if I have been shadowbanned?

>>5097324
Search for your own posts in a private window, click on latest, and if what you recently posted doesn’t show up then you are banned.

>>5097330
Its over

>>5097348
I’m sorry...

Staying off of ic today.

i don't think i'm learning

>>5097324
There's a site you can use to check. Just type in "twitter shadowban checker" or something.
>My engagement has also been super low even though I have over 1k followers
>even tried to draw super popular shit like Demon Slayer and it didn't work
>Not shadowbanned
I might try to make another account. I don't know what happened here

>>5094445
the real and the world in your mind are separate, if you can keep the distinction do whatever you want. btw i am very jealous that is a beautiful corner you post your art anywhere?

>>5094445
It's not weird and people get exactly the right idea.

>>5095330
It is so astounding to realize that over the two decades that desktop linux has been unusable for professional work, all other operating systems have actually caught up to it.

>>5097902
I guess there are some deals between software companies and the OS ones. Microsoft, Apple and Google are big enough to do business with. On Linux, there are so many distributions not even working in the same way. It must be a big slow down.

>>5096570
Update: Ignoring was the solution. I just got paid this morning.

I like weirdos but not the degenerate or paranoid or memey or quirky kind. The non-coom antisocial kind that live in their own little worlds and unironically enjoy incomprehensible shit. They were easier to find before social media. My weirdo safaris have become barren and fallow. Internet development has driven them from their natural habitats. Heartbreaking.

>>5094530
ywnbaw

>>5097945
Grats

Why is it that every FUCKING time I find a well lit photo on pinterest, the full image is blurry as all hell, and reverse search gives nothing? Is there a better site for reference hoarding? I'm so utterly sick of this shit.

>see someone's studies and start feeling jealous and depressed about my own work
>then i see their "finished" work and its dogshit and suddenly feel okay
but really how could this happen

>>5098228
and are you gonna let them win on studies? anon u dissapint me

What is up with these companies and their services today? My email is delayed, my skype is acting up, my bank will not let me in to check my account. Fuck.

>>5098238
>and are you gonna let them win on studies? anon u dissapint me
well no

>>5098278

Are you talking about t me?

>>5097948
Just go on kiwifarms, my dude

I hate browsing on my phone now, the porn adds are legitimately nauseating.

>>5098386
install firefox my guy, it supports the same extensions as desktop, meaning adblockers

Ah, I just realized last day of the year is tomorrow. I really can't just end the year like this...gonna pull an all nighter tonight and sleep as little as I can before the new years.

>>5096884

I procrastinate and only start painting or drawing when it's late and I'm tired which leads to frustration and anger and so I start to view my art supplies and the activity itself as a negative, I no longer associate it with joy or creativity but with frustration and a pressure to perform and get good..
Any advice or anyone else with a similar problem? I'm /beg/ as can be, I want to enjoy it again and not have all my stuff just collect dust.

>>5098293
That place is a shithole. I'm not here to jeer and laugh at the weirdos, I sincerely like them and miss them. Thank god I still have a couple stragglers from 2011 tumblr who still spend every single day posting shit like light bulb packaging. God bless the weirdos.

so you basically can only become an artist if you're willing to ruin your life huh

>>5099068
thats what you signed up for. you could've gone stem.

>>5099169
i was gonna go into my masters next year, but i've decided i want to be an artist
at this point in my life, I thought I'd be at least one of 4 different things
moved out of my parents
teaching overseas in Asia
be in a committed relationship with a woman
or an artist

I've gotten none of those. I was gonna go into my master's degree next year so I can be a professor in my 30s, but I've decided I want to be an artist instead.
It seems that I need to put all those other wishes on hold for that to happen now.
It honestly feels like I should have always chosen art in the first place.

>>5099244
the top 2 (and maybe the 3rd) aren't even my fault, but still feels like being an artist would be something I would always have if I choose art
It, unfortunately, wasn't.
I always drew but never learned how to learn to study. Turns out its easy if the resources are easily presented to you, but there's just not enough time to get those years back

I plan to have my first drawing of the new year to be of my husbando and I'm kinda exited but nervous for it

>>5099244
I'm going to teach overseas in Japan and I'm an artist. i also graduated in stem this year, too. you can become an artist while accomplishing other things

>>5099344
are you good right now or are you just learning right now (or in the last year) too?

>>5099350
i'm not going to say i'm good or even decent. i've been learning art for a number of years while being in college/lazy. i ain't great but i can draw a figure and i draw what i really want to draw (anime crap).
you dont need to drop everything in your life to become an artist, do it because it gives you enjoyment, thats what i'm doing. learn because you want to get better and enjoy it, not because you have too. if you start now and practice efficiently youll be good in no time

Every time I'm confident, I fail.
Every time I don't give a shit, I succeed.
The work I like does poorly while the work I don't care about does great. What the fuck does it mean? I try not to care but it's hard when I like the way something is turning out. Is it a curse? Coincidence? Am I simply retarded with terrible taste?

>>5099384
its your expectations

>>5099391
Explain. Something I whipped up in half an hour gets a thousand likes while something I enjoyed that took longer gets 200. It's happened a couple times now so it doesn't feel like coincidence.

>>5099356
damn dude you're me
i hope to at least go overseas while learning to draw. i'm still very iffy on what the actual hours would be for someone doing TEFL
i hear it ranges from 20 teaching hours a week
to basically spending the entire day and night trapped in an office

>>5099450
if you're teaching at a public school (for me, I'm going to be teaching in junior high/elementary school in Japan) you're going to work pretty much school hours and a little bit. you get off all public holidays and weekends. You can still learn to draw and do shit in your life, it isn't one or nothing.

>>5099466
i was gonna do TALK in Korea for six months (which is only 15 hours a week, very doable)
then go to different countries and teach in them for a year
while overseas i was hoping to do online master classes so thats one thing i'm sacrificing

>can clearly envision what i want to create.
>have the style i want to draw in down and everything
>lots of ideas i really want to do
>go to draw
>it's total shit
i hate this and i swear to fuck i'm going to make an honest effort to improve in 2021 because i can't stand not being able to draw well (correction: not being able to draw at all)
pic related is a scribble

>>5099555
also how do i come up with a good online moniker?

>>5099555
stop fishing for complements

>>5099562
stop being so insecure

>>5099861
shut up and realize that as bad as you think you have it, someone wants to be where you are

>>5099555
>why cant i draw well
>pic related is a scribble
maybe put some fucking effort in your work

>>5099990
anon, they only posted their work along with a vent so you can tell them it looks good

I've bought so many physical art supplies with my holiday monies but I can't bring myself to use them.. I am oddly inspired and uninspired at the same time. Mostly inspired to refamiliarize myself with the medium, but just using my tools makes me feel that I'm wasting them because I'm not making works of art every time. I'm predominantly drawing on an art tablet and I know that skills from paper to tablet translate better. Hopefully I'll gain some line control and draw with meaning.

>>5099996
if you got good pencils, use them
they won't break as easily as your school pencils

>>5099991
but it doesnt. because it's a fucking doodle. if you're fishing for compliments at least post something that looks good.

>>5100001
based /beg/

>>5092505
>chatting to friend
>say some things
>he goes silent
>read over my last messages
>realise it seems like I'm coming on to him
>too awkward to try and clear the air about it

Fuck my life.

ITS 5 AM I HAVEN'T SLEPT I'M JUST GONNA MAKE A COFFEE WOOOOOOOOO I EVEN TOOK A MELATONIN AND EVERYTHING I GOT IN BED AT 10:30 WHY IS MY BRAIN SO FUCKEDDDDDD :D

I need to remember to take my walks everyday because it really helps clear my moody thoughts.

figuring out shit/being right sucks
feels like it means you were just the last to come to the conclusion but no one was willing to tell you anything before

Why the fuck did we get lumped in with the porn boards?

fuck the banks and fuck paypal

>>5098457
is this who i think it is

>>5099990
that's the goal for 2021
sometimes i get scared to do so though, because it feels like im just polishing a turd

>>5100558
good eye, you're probably right
you don't need to fully render something for it to have educational value, just make sure your focus will always be construction and form when learning

>>5100641
I’m scared 2021 will be a repeat of 2020.

>>5100671
Whoops didn’t mean to quote you >>5100641

Just thinking about how much I’ve regressed in the last half of this year and how much further I will continue to fall

Don’t know what I can do. Or if there’s anything that can be done. Honestly kind of just waiting for it all to end

>>5100704
fail at what

>>5100001
post your work

I cannnot even begin to describe to you the atrocity of this woman

>>5092505
>it's "autistic retards talking to me thinking that I am the character I just drew fanart of" episode

>>5100816
please elaborate.

I walk into a gas station and my card denies itself to work. I lose my spaghetti, turn around to the ATM to try and withdraw and my account is locked. Then I tell the clerk I'll put the stuff back onto the shelf but she denies it and calls out for someone else to do it. That feels embarrassing and I feel a bit betrayed because I go in there all the time for years and they pretty much know my face. Now I can never go to into that gas station again. I feel like an attempted thief.

On the side of positivity I guess I need to stop overspending on small items at gas stations. Maybe buy a small fridge for myself and only get food from super makerts.

>>5100275
/ic/ is a red board that allows nsfw, porn boards are red boards that allow nsfw, do the math.

>>5101297
/3/ is a blue board that allows nsfw (or doesn't have mods, who knows)
why is /ic/ not

>>5100838
How does this happen in the first place? It hasn't happened to me (yet)

>>5101326
>or doesn't have mods
More likely that. Plus, its a slow board, less traffic means smaller chance someone is gonna bother reporting rule breaking posts, ergo nsfw can stay up for longer.

>>5100838
Holy shit, I'm not alone. I have TWO weird fuckers. They're both very supportive. I really think life's just taken a toll on them, so I'm not going to say anything to their faces. But still. Weird.

>>5100305
What happened? funds confiscated?

>>5101569
Basically yeah. And I can’t get a hold of customer service.

>>5093866
Just find a girl who smokes weed, man... She'll, like, totally get you, dude...

>>5101590
You're not supposed to put "Multiple clones of a giant shark furry femboy with 7 magnetic cocks each fucking Kowloon Tower, passionately" in the invoice.

>>5101875
wtf anon i have to go to sleep, don't just turn me on like that

whys it so hard to just draw
like I want to, but in the back of my head I'm always thinking i should be going through books or one of the million instructional vids anon so kindly included in the mega thread and I just don't wanna. Hate being bad at this shit and fastest way is to get through those classes but god damn it just wanna draw fun stuff already. Just a loop of wanna do this but should do that but wanna do this but should do that
I wish I could have drawn more before I cared about being good at it

>>5101875
lol

is it possible to have been exposed by to much media to really know what you want to draw like?

>it's a "having a manic episode and passion for art overflows and makes me really want to make shit but nothing i make is even close to good enough and i'm still so fucking far away from ever being where i want to be" episode

>>5094200
Are you that lazy you can't search up cracked apks, ffs I've been doing that since I was 14
It the cracked apks don't work suck it up and pay the monthly subscription, though mediabang paint is better imo and free.

>>5101949
Yes, over-saturation is a bitch that kills any kind of decision making

>>5092583
Why are loli fags so obnoxious, I fap to loli from time to time and I still don't get it
Is it like megacope for being a weirdo or something.

I can't draw heads from different angles.
I've been trying for days and I still can't get it right.

>>5102096
Don’t draw just the head floating but connect it with a neck and shoulder indication. You can totally do both, but include that into your practice.

>>5102096
I can't draw heads from different angles.
I've been trying for months and I still can't get it right.

I do that sometimes, I understand the 3d form of the head but I just can't draw it in 2d.
My perspective skills might be lacking, but I don't know how to improve.
I'm basically hitting my head against a brick wall over and over hoping to break it, hurting myself by wasting time I could spend else where.

>>5101326
People can post literally porn here as art.

I love drawing. I really am starting to love drawing!

>>5099555
>scribble
ngmi

>>5102080
That's called shitposting, anon. Of course I don't want /ic/ to be a new /l/.

>>5101995
>ffs I've been doing that since I was 14
Damn. Zoomer-sama. 14? I KNEEL.

>>5092505
FedEx said that my Kamvas Pro 16 would arrive yesterday at 18:00 after 9 days in transit but it didn't and now there's no estimated date, and I have to wait until Jan 4 for new movements according to holiday and weekend schedules.
Fuck you FedEx.

>>5102485
COVID and holidays, please give them some rest. Customer is King and all but don't be an ass.
Fuck FedEx every other day though.

I wish i could become a hikkomori.
I don't need friends or family. I just want to live alone and save enough for my mothers retirement. Then i'll die

>>5102514
>COVID and holidays, please give them some rest
No way, my patience has been tested too many times. I ordered and paid $580 including prepaid customs tax for it on the 11th of December, then Huion took their sweet fucking time to actually ship it when they said they do it in 1-2 business days, for me it was almost an entire business week until the 18th when the shipping information was sent to FedEx, but then it took until the 21st for the package to actually start moving. International Priority says that it arrives at major cities in most countries by 2-3 business days so it should've been there before Christmas but was stuck in GUANGZHOU CN
for 6 days, but I still patiently awaited until the 31st scheduled delivery date when it didn't arrive.

I'm an atheist.
I don't know what I'm going to do when my Muslim family finds out.

It's not like I'm open about it, I still pretend
They're constantly suspicious of me now, always hawking me about if I prayed or fasted. Hypocrites.

>>5102595
My dad grew us up as Christian and he was Christian, but then he switched his faith to being Jewish. I might be ignorant as I know nothing about synagogues and what not but every single year he tries to force me to pray to “save me” and when I refuse it’s always a tiny argument that I’m going to hell.

It’s this weird thing where it’s almost like bait; if I don’t do this then I have demons this and that’s get right with Jesus, etc. But meanwhile my dad isn’t Christian anymore. Hypocrite.

>>5102595
Are you the fetish guy that draws giantess degeneracy?

>>5101233

I literally left my credit card at home once and had to run all the way back to pay for something (no car).
I shop at the same store though; everyone knows me and trusts me since I've been autistically shopping there for years.

Live action porn is akin to monkeys being coerced into doing sex acts for treats. If the ads on this board have to be porn they should at least be animated porn or artwork only.

>>5102664
?

>>5092505
Why are twitter artists so cringe?

>>5093908
ah that may be true but oreigaru-anon cant choose when or what to love. the extent of what he has over this so called chemical reaction is limited only to experience and self reflection so how much difference does being made aware of it really make? should he even be trying to make it happen again in the first place? i dunno man. that part sounds unhealthy to me

>>5101486
>hi beautiful how was your day, *characters name I posted 10 minutes ago*

>>5101233
> Then I tell the clerk I'll put the stuff back onto the shelf but she denies it and calls out for someone else to do it. That feels embarrassing and I feel a bit betrayed because I go in there all the time for years and they pretty much know my face.
Don't take this part personally. She probably didn't want to do it any more than you wanted it to happen, just a liability thing.

First day of the year is over and I didn't manage to draw anything

>>5103955
>>5102850

>buy chips for my son at food court
>he's autistic so he always gets food there for lunch
>we get chips from the same place twice a week
>been this way for years
>the asain girls often remind me that I tipped too much last time I was there
>they give me extra change
>Didn't realise I left my wallet at home until after I ordered
>they give us chips anyway
>have to twist their arms to let me pay for it next time I'm there
>they wave at us when we walk past, even if we've already ordered that day

Half a dozen other full time employees at the mall treat us the same way. My sons autistic tendencies have made us a fixture of the community

I wanna do digital art but I just can't get into it. I can't feel the form when I do it, and it annoys me how if I want to put little tiny details on a drawing I have to zoom into the specific spot to actually put it in the right spot, or else the line won't know exactly where it's supposed to go. I don't get how people do it, I'm not even old or anything I'm only 21

>>5104094
Now just repeat that 364 more times to have an enjoyable year.

>>5102595
Tell them you're an asukafag first so that their expectations are already at rock bottom.

Got myself a job and killed any of my motivation to improve. Only reason i was learning to draw was for potential money, and since i don't have a passion for this despite all the time i've put into, i can't be bothered to do anything more than a sketch of a waifu or redraw if someone else's artwork. I don't even remember the last time i tried to make actual artwork with line art and color. I don't really have the imagination to be an artist anyway.

I need to vent about irresponsible dog owners for a bit. Why the FUCK do these fucking retards not pick up after their dogs, man? Do they not realize that by leaving their dogs shit on in the grass that they're JUST GOING TO WALK IN THE SAME ROUTE IN THE NEXT FEW HOURS and have a high percentage of either A) stepping in the very shit their dog left or B) their dog steps in its own shit and brings the shit right back into their living space? These same fucking selfless pricks let their dogs SLEEP in their beds, walk on their carpets, and jump up on their owners clothing. Paws lathered in residue shit.

They think in their small brains that Pablo is going to come with his magic grass vaccum on Tuesday morning and suck up all the poop from the grass so that it's nice and clean to RUIN IT AGAIN by not taking the 12 seconds to remove it themselves. No, they walk by 2 to 3 times per day letting their dog shit in the same area over and over until it gets so bad that they themselves don't know what spot they can let their dog shit in without getting shit on themselves or their dog.

You know what? My state governor needs to pass a law that fines all dog owners $500 for every offense and make it be a program where anyone can report people for violation providing you have proof. You love your precious dog so much that you let it kiss you on the lips but you refuse to stoop down and grab its digested lunch. Fuck you.

>>5104558
There is a nice nature spot near my house. Before covid no one went there and it was my quite spot to calm down and relax and walk my dog. Now that everybody is staying home and have too much time on their hands suddenly there is like loads of people walking with their dogs there. Its invested with dog shit by people who think just because its nature its fine. I used to be able to walk anywhere but now i cant go off the path unless I want to walk in shit. And the worst thing is when people let their dog loose. My dog has been attacked like 3 times now in a few months time.

trash people

Man being a /beg/ at 26 year old sucks. It feels like its impossible to improve and too late to get actualyl decent. If only I had discipline and a strong mind to not get affected by my shitty attempts at basic lines

>>5104558
>>5104585
reminder that if you draw porn and anime you are the literal street shitting dogs of the internet
people go to look for art and have to stand the presence of you disgusting aggravating faggots and the shit you produce

>>5104586
It's tough man, it's where I'm at now but you can still make progress. Just gotta stick with it.

We can all make it bros.

>>5102153
>>5103008

>>5104643
I could only wish i was there man. I feel like a fucking toddler drawing.

>>5104641
Good metaphor
But that applies to furries. Lolis are sweet and the pinnacle of modern art.

It's frustrating when meme pages that steal content from other accounts can reach 26.9k in a week, while people who make original art content won't get that high
I think this year I'm going to focus more on less social media, because meme loving fucks have taken over

>>5104835

social memedia is a waste of time and so are consume zombies

I'm going to wagie but only because I want to upgrade my screen tablet to 16:9.

I was copying drawings wrong all my life. I feel dumb.

>>5105523
nevermind I'll just use it until death does us apart

I feel like my fear of failure has only worsen due to 4chan.

how come artists only ever offer emotional advice when you need help and never intellectual advice?

everytime i post artwork on reddit, some cunt always whines about it. never happens on /ic/, i swear to god reddit fucking reeks, but i like getting internet points >:(

why is the color palette thing in opentoonz so retarded holy fuck why couldn't they just make it normal

>>5106184
no one wants to be responsible for steering someone in the wrong direction by mistake

>>5106184
The majority of artists are feelers, not thinkers. I only give technical advice but I stopped handing it out when I realized nobody fucking listens to it anyway. Then they act shocked when things play out exactly like I told them, they'll say wow you were right, then continue never to take my advice. Artists and especially women are this way.

>>5105947
>>5104586

I can't even go past Draw a fucking Box because I'm so angry right now. I'm legit thinking about offing myself because of this. I could make a single step forward and it would be fucking wrong and reinforcing bad habits directly into a dead end. it happened with my music too. There's too much material and too many paths forward to decide how to proceed, which compounds the issue that I can't even draw fucking lines properly with my shoulder and I'm too exhausted to even draw.

I already failed my new year resolutions, fuck this

>>5106889
What was it

i love drawing- especially when my art friends are helping me. cant wait to draw tomorrow

>>5106893
it definitely must have been to draw everyday since I failed that too

>>5106889

I heard on the radio walking by the this host said 90 percent or whatever people fail their resolutions within the first month because it takes a great deal of lifestyle transformation to make them work. That scared me. One of my resolutions is to draw for 3 hours minimum each day and while I’m able to exceed that (so far) I think it’s only because I’m out of work st the moment.

I wish is was more consistently able to draw decently. One day I am stumbling on my canvas like a blind caterpillar, the next day I have been possessed by an ancient Egyptian art god and the shit just flows

Oh yeah I forgot....for the next couple of weeks I’ll start seeding my new 2021 ic memes. We need new memes.

>>5092505
IVE ONLY SLEPT 3 HOURS OVER THE PAST THREE DAYS MY INSOMNIA IS KILLINH ME

>>5092505
>Working on a drawing from reference
>90% done
>Accidentally lose the reference
>Suddenly the pose looks weird
>Can't use the reference to see what's wrong/fix it
FUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUCK

Where do these kids learn to color their anime? Their drawing skills aren’t good but somehow they can turn a bad turd into a cheesecake with their rendering. Every paid tutorial I find is bad or unrelated to my goal so just what are they doing that I’m not understanding?

>>5107068
Try replicating an anime drawing you like. Shape for shape, color for color

AAAAAAAAAAAAGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHH FUUUUUUUUUUUUUUCCCK WHY THE FUCK IS THIS SHIT SOOO FUCKING HARD GOOOOOOOOOOD FUUUUUCKING DAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAMNNNNN
Okay, now back to drawing.

ANOTHER 50 MINUTES AN NO SLEEP. SHOULD I JUST MAKR A COFFEE????

>>5107160
yeah I'm feeling sleepy too which is weird

I end up sleeping at around 2PM for no reason and wake up at 4 or 5pm.

>>5107177
For the past three days I'd just lay in bed until 6 am in the morning then get up and make a coffee. Then I'd nap for like an hour in the afternoon because I'm so tired I can't walk in a straight line and that 1-hr nap would propel me for another 24 hours.

I'm thinking I"m becoming like Tezuka-sensei, with a 30 minute snooze every 3 days, drawing 8 manga series at once.

>>5107196
I think I figured out the problem, well part of it. When I open my window I feel less light headed and can breathe a bit more. I still can’t smell anything after a cold I had a few weeks ago so if the room is stuffy (probably is) I feel the need to sleep more.

But open the window = magic energy, at least for now.

My dads family is coming over for his birthday for the first time in my life and they’re making it such a big fucking deal I need to escape this house before they get here and just draw at the library until they leave. Because I smell trouble.

>>5107410
update....I forgot to grab my headphones and my mom wondered where I ran off to. She could tell i didn’t want to be there and said to go to the library. Moms sure know everything.

>>5106923
Setting too high an expectation for yourself is setting yourself up for failure. Try starting with smaller more manageable goals, like drawing 5 days a week instead of every day.

>>5104586
Thats nothing, imagime being /beg/ at 33

>>5107958
>you died in 1999
so my suspicions were true.

>>5107492
you should meet your family anon

>>5107912
at least you dont draw anime right

Coomers fucking ruined this board. It wasn't nearly as bad like 5 years ago.

A fucking 25 years old boomer

>>5108010

My mom told me to tell my dads brother that I went to college and graduated in something, I just felt completely worthless by that statement. I dropped out years ago, still living with my parents, still not a professional or highly good at art. I have no savings, no credit/bad credit, no car, no girlfriend and never will be able to get one, nothing. And the thought of them opening my bedroom to see all the anime posters on the wall and toys makes me reflect how much of a child I still am.

I ran away from facing reality. I don’t want to be forced to be reminded and possibly humiliated by people who I may never have met but are close to me. And to tell them lies of things I never accomplished as I dress like a retard in front of them. The thought of standing there saying happy birthday dad blow out the candles :) but then it quickly turns to all about the children because “we already know about dad, what are the kids doing?”. Oh our son is a computer IT pro just look inside his room and see all the computers on his desk he works from home....no I was definitely going to break down today. Not what I needed in the first week of the new year. I need to really try to the brink of death to get good this year.

I want to work on elder scrolls as a concept artist, that is literally my dream. Michael Kirkbride and Adam Adamowicz defined my style for years before I discovered Peleng and Maxim Verehin, I've been in tes lore community for 11 years now and can write fucking useless dissertations about any aspect of the setting.
I am obsessed and I can't believe that I will probably never get to work on the series, especially because I'm from one of the fucking worst post soviet shitholes.
I just want to work on the series in my lifetime.

>>5108216
Shoot higher. Apply yourself to making your own series.

>>5104586
I'm a beg at 18 lol
It is a bit discouraging seeing 16 year olds draw better than you.
https://twitter.com/darkless__
https://m.webtoons.com/en/challenge/darkless/volume-1-chapter-1-vims/viewer?title_no=540131&episode_no=1

>>5108225
>https://twitter.com/darkless__
NVM the dude got suspended

>>5108217
I've thought about that, but what are the fucking chances of that? I had my projection mapping business for three years, was making above average income and became pretty successful all before 25, one of the projects I worked on even made news on euronews and reuters, now with corona virus my business is fucking bankrupt and in dept. I came out of it relatively clean but mostly with realization that
>There is no fucking way to have a stable creative startup in my country
>I love only art, specifically developing settings and concept art
Creating a successful franchise from here is even less likely and would most likely happen only after I would have worked on big projects.
I just don't know, I'm trying to get back into concept art and awakening my skills in hopes to start working freelance... It's just that freelance work is just that it's a one off, but every time I sit down and sketch I will do Vivec or some scene from Feyfolken or something and I know that I understand setting better than current artists at Bethesda especially since Kirkbride left and Adamowicz died of cancer.
I just want my dream job, I don't care that it's fucking hard, I just want to at least know a way to work for Bethesda from this shithole.

>>5108225
dont stop bro... you will regret it when you are my age. All my regrets come from having no discipline to commit to learn a skill

>>5108236
No dude I get what you're saying, and maybe it's not likely you can make a multi-million dollar franchise with your concept art, but you CAN still make your own setting, your own lore, your own characters, even if its a passion project. You can't not start it just because you don't know if it'll make money.

It might not be immediately or even eventually lucrative, but it will be more rewarding than pining for a creatively bankrupt Bethesda.

(you've got great taste btw)

>>5108251
Thanks, my second source of anxiety right now is that I want to test myself if I can make $1000 (which would be great in my country) a month from art if I do it full time, this would replace my income from previous business
I used to earn stuff from freelance before the job I had recently but never pushed it really really full time
One thing I learned is that marketing and constant engagement is often times now important than the end product, but I really hope that my stuff is up to par to at least to let me live off of it
Pic rel

>>5108216
>from one of the fucking worst post soviet shitholes
Dude, just seduce and marry one of the developers

It worked for Kirkbrides wiafu

Ain't found a way to discourage me yet
fingers burn with stinging sweat
seems mindless grinding leads me nowheeeeeere, mm
no gf but no regret
loomis was no safe bet
The crabs scream to me from somewheeeeeere, mm

Here they come to mislead the GMI, oh yeah
Yeah, here come the GMI, yeah
You know he ain't not gonna make it
No, no, no, you know he ain't not gonna make it

>>5097246
targeted assassinations in minecraft

I've been drawing for a few months now and I still get told stuff like "Good for a week 1 beg"
I still have almost no fucking control over my pencil/pens so I can't draw any lines
I went through the sticky materials and got pretty much nothing out of them

>>5104312

Based.

>they wave at us when we walk past, even if we've already ordered that day

Damn, I thought I was the only one doing that. I've always felt a little awkward about it, but I see the same people so often I'm even on a first name basis with a lot of the service people.
Theyre all pretty cool, too. Sounds like you have a good community, anon!

>>5108198

Do you actually have/build pcs? If so, you should unironically make a pc building business and sell pre-made pcs or assemble them for normies. People will pay you $100s of dollars for 30 minutes of work they are not willing to do themselves.
Either that, or unironically get into streaming. I got scouted just for participating in an online tech expo for pc games, and the company was offering 50$k for 4 months of work. The only caveat is that you have to shill to your viewers nonstop and tell them how much fun you were having playing the game. You dont actually need to be good at gaming, though. The company didnt care about that.

>>5092505
>social media

I've been having a god damn identity crisis, god fucking damn!!!!!!

Third day's over and I still haven't drawn a thing

Draw.

>>5108865
362 more days to dodge, stay strong.

ends with a sniff or a huff from injection
i can't handle rejection

>take 20 mins to fill out job application
>get to the end
>sorry there are no interview dates available pls try again later :^S

Recentlty i'm so fucking frustrated my self i can't make piece for shit and stuck at /3/ projects too it's been a 1month 1week guess?

Brain keep saying "work work mother fucker work! You have to make it before become boomer!" And keep fucking grind during . Making shit

Recently i got too much stressed about flunk all of project and i even got a gastritis, no matter how long i break. It just fucking stressful and can't enjoy anymore. Idk what the fuck happened. I suddenly got this shit in december. Fucking OCD or whatever fuck sake.. i didn't act like this in before winter but suddenly it does keep doubting my self, haunted and obsessed at work.. i must be productive i have to! I have to! But i don't

I don't wanna treat art like this i can't remember when i enjoyed it last time
Been suffering for OCD whole my life i can't even quit art because without it i'm nothing but NPC wagie robot

>>5109326
You have to be calm to draw well.put pen to paper, and keep drawing using your head. If the project falls through so be it, but if uou stress about it you will make everything take longer and inevitably screw up even more

Been searching for specific references to help me with a drawing for the past 2 hrs. Said drawing involves horse balls, horse cock, and horse ass.

Have so far jacked off twice and looked at hundreds of MLP images and still haven't found "the one".

>>5109301
There are no fucking jobs holy shit. I should just suck it up and try and survive this new job I have. Maybe I’m the lucky one after all.

>>5109636

>corona is gonna end soon with vaccines
>real world creeping in now and i need to get serious about having a career
>still haven't gotten good yet

I have to be busy this month T—T

There goes my resolutions for a bit.

>>5108786
I don't get it

>>5108701
I don’t build PCs for a living. I just work from home atm and have more stuff set up than normal.

And I was right in leaving yesterday. Apparently my aunt that I don’t like was there as well as some dude with his girlfriend. My mom was ready to go off on a comparing crusade with me and him.

Oh but I’m also glad I went to the library. It was so peaceful thanks to COVID barely anybody was there. Way more peaceful than my own room. It’s like the tables have turned and going outside is way better than being inside right now.

>>5110518
....in fact, I think I’ll take the opportunity while COVID is still a thing and go to the biggest library in my area every Friday and just relax in a quiet corner.