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>>30467036

Gonna blogpost a bit:

Risu was sort of mean to me the other day, and I don't really think I did anything to deserve it. It felt fucking terrible even if I suppose it was sort of in character. I was a brief reminder that this is a parasocial relationship and that while you care for these people they don't care about you at all. I thought I understood it but since it had never happened to be before I did not realize how deep I was in. I was like waking up from a dream. "Oh, yeah, I forgot these were real girls and they do not actually like me individually - they have been flirting with a non identity called the chat all along, not ME ". Can't image how that guy who spend $500 bucks felt. She isn't even my oshi but fuck getting a bad response from any of the girls actually hurts.

Also Risu, I want you to know that I love you anyway so worry not. Think I am going to need a break. Gone too deep.