/jp/ - Otaku Culture

>Oh, the same depressing routine where you brood about little-to-none productivity and how your brain refuses to funnel energy into tasks other than the internet?

Yea that's pretty much my state of being as of right now, the only time I truly have fun is when I <s>play videogames with friends</s> and we have a grand ol' time. I had a job a month and a bit ago, but I quit because I couldn't handle the depressive reality of grinding for cash IRL. I think I might pursue something else soon though because I have money saved up that I don't want to spend any more of. I was doing landscaping before so I want something more relaxed and easy and maybe I won't hate it so much. I just need spending money so I can buyfag merchandise and eat well (my mom and her boyfriend spend all their money on beer and weed so there's never good food in the house and I don't get money handouts).

To answer the bottom question I don't know what to blame my problems on, at some point I just developed really bad social anxiety and self-esteem issues which then turned into motivational issues. But i'm trying to change, it's just hard.

Inb4 i'm a faggot for actually wanting to get a job and not live at home for the rest of my life