/jp/ - Otaku Culture

>tfw started with the gateway drug of anki and reading
>now I spend all my free time listening to grammar lessons to make sure I didn't miss anything and reading

I really would like to use all this spare time to learn japanese, lift weights and stop being such a weak fag or learn to be good at some particular type of videogames like fighting games. I keep dreaming about doing all kinds of things every day and I promise to myself I'll get my shit together tomorrow, but I just cant do it. 5 years I've been doing nothing but browsing 4chan. No one wants to keep contact to me and I think I've lost control of my life. I dont even mainly browse /jp/ but I heard this place has NEET threads for people like me. Are you all just in same position as me or does somebody here know how to keep motivation up untill I finish my goals? I just dont know what to do, but I've recently had this feeling I want to do something with my life.

I'm sorry my english is so bad.