Imagine being a depressed person who really likes games. You sit in front of your pc everyday, with a sticky note or even a poster which reads quotes like "The moment you stop caring is the moment when things get better. Don’t waste your time trying to please others."
You do your best trying to do your duty as a virtual streamer while living a normal life, doing whatever you want. Still, you get hate from comments, attacked by antis from all over the world, but you still egosa everyday. Unknowingly destroying your mental health bit by bit.
You try to be brave to step up your game a little bit and attack back. You say things that is somewhat controversial. Unfortunately, you are just making things worst.
Nothing you can do. You play more games, watch anime, and read manga to cope. Your friends can't help and your family don't care. But you still stream. Sometimes your depression goes away, but a single comment will make it come back.