/jp/ - Otaku Culture

And yeah, it doesn't matter. None of you will have to deal with me anymore.

Nothing I try works so why bother anymore.

>>20957176

Also drama is on topic for this thread because it relates to kig community.

>>20956341

Yes, please provide evidence I did anything banworthy before the ban or this is going on forever.

>>20956374

Okay. Do something about it.

>>20956412

No.

>>20954727

Hey at least there's some activity in the thread :)

>>20954567

That's what I did last time and I was banned preemptively. That was also what I did when people banned me before.
I shut my mouth, stuck my head in voice chat and got banned anyway.
Changed the strategy to shit all over the place.

That's a great strategy mate, but it's been tried by me and didn't work.

>>20954075
Okay, I'm going to bed soon too. I think I need to listen you more than anything.

>>20954055

Just DM me, I fucked up with you badly. I really wanna make amends.

Hi, Okuu, if you wanna talk, I kinda want to.

>>20953965

Alright, sorry.
Fumi didn't review guys.

>>20953935

Just to be mean and make me crap on them too? Aren't you tired of being fucking evil? Really?

I paid a heavy toll already and you want me more and more down the spiral of shit, don't you? Fuck you.

>>20953935

What's your plan with saying that?

>>20953924

I don't know why the fuck I'm doing this, you won't believe a word anyway.

>>20953917

Convoluted is one of who hurts the most. I really acted like shit with him few days ago because I couldn't help myself but feel angry he put myself out of his life. I was pretty much angry at myself and discounted on him and everyone else.

Doesn't help I felt like he was the one doing the gaslighting.

>>20953888

Okay then.

I'm not trying to force sympathy. I really can't help being a dick sometimes.
I'm really fucking sorry for comparing Azi with Miharu and Cici. I should have not done that in retrospect. It was a stretch at that time. The way they keep acting with me tho hurts a lot and feel like they are really being like them tho.

About Con, I wrote like shit but I meant like we didn't understand each other. I couldn't understand what he was feeling at the time and he couldn't understand me. We were not really open to each other and made shit fell out completely out of proportion.

Okuu is like me trying to explain why I acted the way I acted. I saw Azi at the time doing everything they could to defend a completely shit act and Okuu playing along so they could get the 1 month ban, when even the idea of a ban was wrong. It got the server angry for them to admit they did not have any evidence to support it but the way I acted later justified it. And to be fair, it justified it.

Fumi is just I care about. And I keep fucking over and over with her but I think she gets me. I don't know, I just care for her.

Fuck I'm done. I don't know even if that makes it better, you guys probably won't accept anyway, I don't know why I'm trying. I'm pretty sure I fucked something up again because I didn't review with anyone.

See you guys don't want an apology. I'm gonna have to apologize for the death of Princess Diana soon.

You don't tell me where I hurt you and I'm like supposed to figure it out. I'm supposed to fucking read your mind.

I can't do that. Just fucking tell me.

>>20953881

Yes, I think it would.

>>20953871

I sent this to Fumi and Nao to review. They seemed okay with it. I asked people to review. I put effort. And it's never enough.

It's always "half-ass apologies". What the fuck do you guys want? And don't say "for me to die" or "quit" cause it will never be an option.

>>20953863

And no I'm not blocked by half of people I want to voice chat with. It's just they wouldn't join any DM group because Shamezone has randoms they want to join their nightly VCs.

>>20953863

You want me to say sorry for what then? What the fuck did I do wrong that you guys want me to acknowledge?

Exist? It always seem nothing I say will ever be enough.

>>20953832

Guess what, none of you reached out. You decided to bash instead.

Then you get why I'm never gonna stop being angry.

>>20953826

Also Renko was the guy who purposefully got me banned of another server two days ago. I don't trust him at all anymore.

Put that in context.

Also yeah, I wrote this:

"
Yeah, okay, I'm sick of this and part of me is doing it out of spite as the screenshot shows.
I know you're not gonna believe this but yeah, it takes its toll on me too.
I know I did shit. I apologized before only for that not to be believed.
It will always feel like shit to me you guys aren't even capable in any discussion of even admit the hurt you did.
But someone has to try to start talking isn't it?

So here goes:
- Sorry everyone for being a dick, you know I can't help myself at this point.
- Sorry Azi for comparing you to Cici and Miharu. It's not in the same scale, I was trying to make a point and it hurt you. Hope one day you'll understand.
- Convoluted, I know it's tough love, but I'm actually okay with you. It's more like you hurt me by not listening and you felt like I wasn't listening to you. I can apologize to people, it's just hard to do when also others hurt you.
- Okuu, sorry for not being the better man and losing my cool and kinda fucking your credibility over. Hope one day you understand this is about the ban that was unwarranted and I felt like shit that you were defending a "one month ban" instead. Any ban would be unnaceptable at that point.
- Fumi, for being a good friend and me fucking over and over again.
- Others too that I didn't mention and general people who had to watch the shit show.

I know couple of you are going to say: well here's half apology and he doesn't get it but I don't care really.
Hope at least some of you guys reach out (I don't think you will), cause I'll probably get angry once more if you don't and fuck this over again.
I don't know, I just wanted to talk with people in voice chat back. That ain't happening I guess.
"

I was going to post it tomorrow with the screenshot of Azi doubting me in the mod chat where he says i needed to post with one of my alts.

Yeah, I meant it, every word above. You guys won't believe shit. I don't know why I try.

I was agreeing to cool off but Azi said for me to fuck off btw Koha. I can post screenshots of it but need to get permission first.