/lit/ - Literature

I hate being a consumerist so badly
I only bought everyman's library but they make me so happy, I imagine the people buying those are similarly happy with them
Tbh I don't see the problem assuming the covers are cloth, the paper is good quality and the signatures are sown

Fuck
I'm really struggling with myself, I know it's stupid, I know it's something a proper man shouldn't care about, I know that I'm really just indulging in harmful consumerism when I do it, that I'm trying to create and project a personality where there is none, that it's a futile attempt at filling a void in my heart, that I should be buying paperbacks as a man, the cheapest editions that I can get, etc etc etc.

I love nice books, I love beautiful books, I love handsome books, I love pretty books.

I love buying hardbacks like those by everyman's library, I love the way they look on my bookshelf, I love the way they feel, I love the experience of reading them, I love the texture of the covers and the feel of the paper.
I'm pathetic I know but I'm running out of reasons why I shouldn't just do it, I have a bookshelf of about 80 used paperbacks in various stages of disintegration and they don't make me happy, meanwhile I see those hardbacks on my shelf and they do make me happy.

What's wrong with me /lit/?