/lit/ - Literature

>drop the nice guy act and start becoming bitter towards her
>let my phone die because i don't care anymore whether or not she calls me
to hell with women, anyway. to hell with you, brett ashley ;_;

>you will never be cooooltop

i don't get it /lit/

no matter how much i pray and pray nothing good seems to come from it. and then when i think something is bad, it just gets worse. i've done two truly bad things in my life and the rest i think that i have been as good as anyone else. and they're all happy. i'm not even old and i haven't been happy in years. there were moments sure but they were eventually shadowed under something much larger, and i'd always go back to being sad again. i used to get enjoyment out of posting on here, but now that the mods and janitors delete every thread i make there's nothing here to fill any voids. so i've been reading more, and trying to play more video games, but that occupies me for only a little bit. and then i start to thinking about things again, and i have to shut off my game or throw down my book because i break down and cry. and it's every night now too.

all these books i read are pointless. while everyone else is out having fun i'm sitting in my room reading about people that have never existed, and trying to connect my own misery with theirs. and if they did exist, they're not even relevant anymore.

i live in better conditions than starving african children, i admit. but when everything starts to fall apart here, nowhere else matters. i'm tired of God ignoring my prayers. i wish He'd listen, or at least show a sign that He is listening. and then i'd ask Him what is it that i have done to deserve being so miserable, for i have followed His teachings, but have nothing to show for it.

>banned from infinite jest forums
>banned from litclub
>quentin banned from 4chan
>too tired to read
>gta 4 online is too laggy
>no one wants to play anything besides wanted in AC Brotherhood
>wow is boring
>no one will reply to this thread

>>1697826
wouldn't you wanna know when you're gonna die
wouldn't you wanna know if you get married or not
wouldn't you wanna know if you get a girlfriend or not
wouldn't you wanna know if you lose your virginity or not
wouldn't you wanna know if you ever kiss a girl or not

>you will never visit Spain to see the fiesta with your unrequited love interest and your friends

>you will never attend lavish parties and become best friends with the mysterious host

oh jake, brett said, we could have had such a damned good time together

>see thread
>OMFG HE FUCKING FINISHED
>rush to GRRM's livejournal
>football, podcasts, football, Wild Cards, Needle, fucking calendars

>mfw

>mfw no more stagolee/quentin

>you will never as sexy as Joseph Gordon-Levitt

;_;