/lit/ - Literature

>be writer and poet
>be extremely creative
>have gotten into the habit of dreaming up erotic fantasies related to my fetishes
>these are vivid enough to fap to
>have also sometimes written erotic fiction directly related to my tastes

I never expected to have my own creative talents turned against me like this. I suppose I have myself to blame for not fighting more against it, but still. It doesn't matter if I completely cut porn and erotica out of my life. I have all I need to jerk off inside my own head.

My pen name is for sale as a .com domain name, and it's super cheap. Should I buy it?

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I kind of feel bad about that. Feels like we're just kind of making fun of him a little, and he doesn't seem like a total creep like Chris-Chan so it feels a bit mean-spirited.

I've never been one for lolcows, I don't like the idea of raking someone over the coals just because they happen to be a bit odd and have strange delusions. Maybe I'm just too much of a softie.

I LITERALLY have autism and I think it directly affects my learning ability. In particular, it makes it difficult for me to learn new languages. Languages are my worst subject, even worse than math and science. I'm actually pretty good at math when I apply myself, but languages just get me in trouble. It's a shame, because I really do want to learn more languages. I'd love to learn German, Spanish, and Latin.

>tfw Wolfe is one of my literary heroes and a major influence on my own writing
>tfw I wrote to him several times towards the end of his life but he did not respond
>tfw I always wanted to meet him but then he died

It's depressing, bros. He was the only living author I truly wanted to interact with. And now he's not living any more.

>got word back from a small press
>said they found "a lot to like" and "some things to change" about the first book of my big story
>biggest problem is that the book is too long

They're saying that they want me to get the book below 100,000 words. It's 140,000 words right now. This is bothering me a lot. They'd ideally like it closer to 90,000 words. They mentioned my tendency to repeat adjectives, verbs, and clauses as a problem, and suggested a streamlining. This is something I'm prepared to do and am willing to do. But even if I go on a crusade against repetition, I'm just not sure there's 40,000 words I can cut in the book. The book does a lot, especially with the development of its main characters and helping the reader to get to know them on a very intimate level. I can cut some, I know that, I just don't think I can cut THAT much. I could rewrite the whole thing, but there's so much that gets done in this book that even if I did a total rewrite I think it would clock in at over 100,000 words.

I've been told I'm relatively intelligent, and I think for me it's a mix. I actually love being out in a crowd, I love making new friends, and I consider myself relatively charismatic and outgoing.

That said, I'm not really a "joiner." That is to say, I have a ton of friends, but I don't have a clique to which I naturally belong. I have tons of friends from different cliques, groups, and gangs, and whenever one clique has a fight with another clique, they'll all pull together into their little groups, and I'm stuck all alone in the space between. This has been the case for me since high school at least.

>tfw have fetishes, some of them disgusting
>I am also a writer
>I have written erotica related to my fetishes in the past
>my imagination is so powerful that I can literally dream up scenarios and stories related to my fetish
>they're strong enough that I can jerk off to them

It makes nofap a real pain in the ass. I don't need pictures or stories to beat off, my own imagination is sufficient for the task. I've tried to get better at policing my own thoughts.

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I'll be 25 next sunday and I'm a kv. My mother is normal as a mother (overprotective perhaps?), but I consider her a simpleton. Sometimes I want to talk about life, about our struggle in the world, and she rushes to tell others that I have problems or she points me to a psychologist. It's pretty frustrating, desu.

I have a big story that I started work on last year. The first book is finished and I'm also almost done with the second book. This story fills me with joy and longing to write. It's my life's work and I plan to finish it even if it kills me.

I can't imagine starting a big story, supposedly your life's major work, and then just abandoning it. I can't imagine caring so little about a story you started, even if you're now extremely rich and famous and no longer need the income from published books. Making money is one thing, but don't you want to steer your story to completion? Don't you want to finish what you started? I don't understand the fat man on this. I can't imagine having so little passion for your big story that you fail to finish it.

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Well enough, just went to Confession today. Obsessing and stressing over this big story I'm writing. The first book is done and I'm working on the second book. I want to put the first book out into the world in a way that people can read it, but I've been querying literary agents for months now and none of them have even asked to see the first 50 pages. I'm strongly thinking about just serializing the story and posting it sections at a time on my Substack page. Serialization worked for Tolstoy and Dickens, after all. I've got a modest social media presence and some of my mutuals are themselves people with thousands of followers, so if the book is good I think I could get a serious audience. And I've been told it's good by the people who have already read it. But I'm intensely afraid. My worst fear is that I put it out into the world and no one reads it.

The Gospel of Luke

I queried almost 30 agents about my story and so far none of them have asked for sample pages of it. Not even a request for the first 50 pages, which I have gotten from agents for previous books.

And yet the people who have preread my story all seem to love it. I've had people whose judgment I trust rave about it, and about my talents as a writer in general.

Should I just try releasing the book myself? I have a modest social media presence and I'm not afraid to self-promote. If it really is as good as I've been told it is, it might be able to make its way in the world, right?

There's a girl I hit it off with really well. She was the one who messaged ME, even. We were talking constantly. She lives in another state but I was making plans to go visit her.

And now for the last three days she hasn't answered my text messages.

Why do so many women do this? It's not the first time I've been ghosted. Why do so many people just feel like they can't tell me they're not into me? I hate being left hanging. The one time a woman didn't just ghost me she flat-out cheated on me. And, you know, I almost kind of appreciate that girl, because even when she cheated on me she still TOLD me she was done with me. She was actually up-front and told me that we weren't going to be boyfriend and girlfriend any more. I'd really prefer an honest breakup over this ghosting bullshit.

My magnum opus has been read by multiple people and I've gotten almost entirely positive responses. I know it's not just me, I know people like it. I'm just trying to figure out how to get it out into the world right now, in a way that will ensure it gets the maximum number of eyeballs on it.

I'm not OP but I've been thinking about this, too. I have a big story in mind, a story told in both prose and verse, that I've been working on. I think people will like it, including Zoomers. But once it's written, how do you reach them? Where do you put fiction these days so that Zoomers will find it?

I've had multiple short stories and poems published and tons of people who read my writing actually like it. Yet despite all that, a single negative critique of what I've written is enough to send me into a funk. Am I just overly sensitive?

>tfw I was writing fanfiction at 17

I haven't been doing reading in a serious way since I started writing my novel. I've tried, but my motivation to read has gone out the window since I've been actively putting significant work into writing the thing. It's like I'm so occupied thinking about my own story that I don't have the mental space left to think about other people's stories.

I realize self-publishing is somewhat popular in these threads, but has anyone in them had any success at all doing this? Like, have any of you guys who have self-published sold any more than a few dozen copies of your books?

>that part where Tevye turns his back on his own daughter because she wants to marry a Christian and his religion doesn't allow it

I legitimately felt that. It was amazing to see someone so devoted to their faith that their own family became secondary.

Has anyone found themselves reading a lot less since they've begun their major writing projects?

I feel a lot less motivation to read since I started my big project last year. I took six months, even more, to slog through the Divine Comedy. I'm SUPPOSED to be reading A Brief History of Seven Killings right now, but I haven't touched it in months. Part of this is obviously how much time I waste online, especially on 4chan.

But I think my being so immersed in my own writing is playing a part, too. I find myself thinking about my project constantly: snippets of dialogue, facets and details of characters, new plot elements, new ways to apply the broader themes, etc.. I feel consumed by it, and I feel like it's taken over the part of my brain that's "literature" related. It's like I'm so focused on my own story that I don't have any more room in my head for anyone else's stories.

Seeing and hearing guys complaining about their wives putting on weight after marriage drives me insane. I'm a fatfag, I'd KILL to be married to a girl who loves me and who does nothing but get fatter and fatter.